I have a new lj it is c1rca_char

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That is all!

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Okay so there is this guy most of you can probably guess who. He's like my best friend right now. I am getting feelings for him besides friendship and I want to act on those feelings but I don't want to fuck up the friendship if I do decide to do so. He is like the sweetest guy you'll ever meet he was there for me when Jesse was an asshole and fucked around with HER! Then after his girlfriend broke up with him I was there to be support (not in a sexual way). He has been so understanding through all the screwed up stuff I've had to deal with. I have been there for him. I mean we can cuddle and then go back to being friends the next minute its great. I don't want to lose that if I did I don't know what I would do.

I still can't get over the fact that Jesse would fuck such an ugly cow. But thats besides the point of what I am trying to figure out. I want to kiss him (not Jesse!) so bad but I don't have guts to do it. He was standing under mistletoe the other night and just kind of looking at me. I asked him did he actually want me to kiss him and he said I was kidding. I asked him what would be have done if I did kiss him and he told me that he would've kissed me back. I am kicking myself for not taking that chance that night and done something gutsy. It'll happen I hope, but like I said I don't want to mess up the awesome friendship I have with him. I like what we have and I wouldn't trade it for anything.

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Right now I am sitting on my couch with Justin and Taylor watching Jackass number two. So far its alright kinda sick worse then the first one by far. Yesterday a was fun day I played DDR in the evening with Telle and Justin. At first I was bad at it but then I got better it was fun. I have videos that are going on youtube.com so as soon as they are uploaded I will give the link, so everyone can see the stupidity of that night.

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Merry Christmas!

I am now offically hooked up with a new Hp laptop! Its sexy

Other then that i guess today has been alright, I was up at like 8 but thats fine. As long as it wasn't 7 or even 6. I got the cutest pj pants they are tweety with tinkerbell wings they are so cute! I will post pics later of some stuff I got to until then.

Peace!

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He fucking cheated on me with Izzy. How the fuck could he say he cared so fucking much about me the turn around and do that to me. I had a feeling that, that is what had been going on. I am just pissed that I was right.

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I have finally given in to being sick, I am now heading to Emerg. Damn. I think I am really sick I coughed up yellow stuff from my lungs.

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So I got my g2!!!!
And now I am in TO well actually mississauga.
I am awaiting shopping but I have to wait til tomorrow.

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I leave to go take my g2 in 20 minutes, wish me luck.

Most Amazing night of my life in a long time that is. I went over to Izzy's for a party with Jesse(the guy I like). So just drinking awasy I used the biggest fucking cup I could find in her kitchen, it was huge! I had too much to drink and was trying to fall asleep no matter what in otherwords I was getting ready to pass out which isn't a good thing. Jesse wouldn't let me pass out he was trying to keep my concious. He picked me up off the chair I was sitting on even though I knew if I stood up I would become more drunk. He was just holding me tightly so I couldn't fall. He started to rock back and forth that was a little scary. But he stopped when I asked him to. Jesse just kept looking at me and I kept telling him sorry because he didn't have to take care of me. He wanted to though.

After a bit Izzy's landlord kicked us out, and called the cops. I just walked into the shadows cause he told he just to go. For some reason he went back in to get Randy who later got charged. I couldn't find him and I was starting to freak out but we found each other after he ran out of the buliding. Him and I got out of there right away and went to his house which was really close. We talked for like half and hour mostly him but whatever. He ended up asking me out because I never actually got a striaght anwser. He made a comment about him not kissing me and stuff. I also found out that like myself he's also a virgin although he doesn't act like it. I had to leave so he walked him home. We were standing on his street I went to grab his hand and he did something weird and he ended up close so I kissed him and he kissed me back, FINALLY!! (gwad) It was one of those romantic kisses with the dip. It was so amazing.

So yeah that was my amazing night enjoy!

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