but i can't save you, save yourself.

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii lj you are a ghost town! idk my life rn is so boring. how has everyone been!

i could bore you all with details no one wants to know, or i could do a meme. so.

pick a no. 0-101 and you will get a snippet of writing assigned to that number. sorry if it sucks i am a terrible writer.

alternatively pick up to eight prompts and a 'verse I write. [assuming you know ANY of them]

can I just. idk I don't want to name token so CAN I JUST MOVE OVER TO A NEW ACCOUNT what are the pros and cons of these kinds of things.

I would do a poll you see, but I have no polls to give.

hahahah I will probably be super restless and change my lj name (the one you can without paying LMAO), layout, and icons in the next few days but DOES IT REALLY MATTER no this is not like what I did to my twitter followers ;aslkdfj;aslkdfj /laughs and laughs and laughs

I want this year to be good! I want to make it matter, I want. I think I want a lot of things, and that I'm probably greedy for wanting so much, but it's not like there's this switch inside of me that I can flick up and down.

And maybe, just maybe, I'll get there.

new contact post will be coming soon because lol so many defunct accounts. also out of curiosity,

WOULD ANYONE MIND IT IF I WIPED ALL OF MY POSTS FROM 2011 BACK. because I would like to start on a new slate! ...or I could just move to a new lj BUT LMAO THAT SOUNDS LIKE MORE WORK THAT IS REALLY NEEDED...

I HAVE HAD A DREAMWIDTH SINCE THE MOMENT IT CAME OUT.

IF ANY OF YOU WOULD LIKE TO STALK ME THERE TOO (PIT OF STALKERS I SAY PIT OF STALKERS)

IT'S

HEE HEE HOO HOO HAA HAA

I mean.

GODDAMNIT FELI I NEED TO STOP CHANNELING YOU.

It's catalyst@dw.

/screams in hands

LJ WHAT DID YOU JUST DO TO YOURSELF I CANNOT I

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

aaaaaaaaaa christmas you are so close and yet so far.

THE DREADED FIRST ROUND OF UNIVERSITY FINALS HAVE FALLEN UPON ME.

I started this by not knowing where to go for calculus exams until seven minutes before it started.

yeah, I don't know either.

I followed that up by spending 100 usd on coffee/tea/hot chocolate at three different starbucks. don't look at me like that.

and I ended up finally picking up the care package my mom sent me-it is full of so much junk food that I can't possibly hope to finish it before 2012 rolls around. siiiiiiiiiiiigh idk mother you couldn't pick the package that had idk, oranges in them?

i. pick a song for me to sing, some text for me to read, whatever you want me to draw, a thing you want me to write on, or a picture of your choosing, and I might just choose to do it. (hint: you are best off not asking me for pics of...me.)
ii. pick a fandom, any fandom, and I will probably have been in it. I will then tell you my ships and my headcanon of them. same goes for my original verses, but the only people who even know what those are are my school of beta fish.
iii. I would draw up a list of things I want for christmas, but I suspect all it will be is this: I want to be happy, in the small gestures and moments that it counts the most.
iv. if you would like a christmas card from me this year, please tell me in this post! I am forgetful and I've lost most of them over the years.
v.【THE TIME CAPSULE MEME】

So apparently I've sold my soul to pokemon?  I play at vdex and having every sprite available for catching across all five gens is a little...sob my packrat in me rejoices.

For Pottermore I got into slytherin, oh yeaaaaaah.  SERPENTS REPRESENT.  I'm sunvine113 if any of you want to add! 

Hi guys hahah I am back.  :')  Was going to ditch this journal but ended up semi-hiatus forever because of really useful comms pertinent to my interests.  I miss you all!  How have you been.

Senior year of high school was hell tbh.  But freshman in uni has been really nice so far!  I like it a lot. ♥

But maybe I need something more.  A new start perhaps?

Because it's been so long since I've last talked to any of you, if you don't feel completely comfortable with me still being on your flist, feel free to take me off!  I understand~

It's time for me to move on, away from what this journal has meant to me.  I have drifted away from the great majority of you because of inactivity that was sometimes valid but oftentimes not.  So instead of trying to figure out where all of the relationships fell apart, I thank you for: taking a chance on a stranger with little faith, a paper thin confidence, and a bitter smile; supporting me when everyone in real life either couldn't or refused to; dealing with me constantly dropping off the face of the internet and having a mental/emotional breakdown in every other post; and putting up with awkwardness when I tried too hard to be someone or something worth association.  Thank you.  but I am fine now and if you are not yet, you will be soon.    So I'm leaving this journal and am starting over again.

It's been real fun guys. ♥

 because I was getting a little tired of my 2+ year old defaults.

1. new icons
2. new layout
3. new profile w/ credits.
4. cleanup in feeds
5. cleanup in comms

:3  /is pleased by the clean and simple style.

and I'd say something a little more meaningful but I'm just so. so tired.

/drags self to bed and takes a long nap.

eta: meme might be coming sometime this week, if I get sick of rl.  but right now rl is EATING ME ALIVE SO UH.
hiatus you guys.  /waves.
I'll see you in a week.  or two.  ...or maybe in three to four.  >>;;