hmmm where do i go wit this its been a while since i wrote i havnt had a lot to say but cameorn is 2 and half now he a good little boy hes just crazy at time hes a good boy :) me and Dave r still together we have our ups and downs but we still r together 3 years still living at home goin to classes at the adult ed and taking classes Monday Wednesdays and Fridays. i took the placement test for cmcc and that didnt work well... The pats r goin to the super bowl its crazyyy!!!! this sunday in foxbrough they r have a FREE meet the pats and meet and great i am still tryin to find a ride there dave hates football soo who knos.. iam sick today flu bug ot soemthign 24 hour is sucks.. but i guess this is all i have to say today...

i havnt wtoe in a long time but mybaby boy is goin to be 1 in 4 days wow time has gone by fast! this mouth is goin b fast cosue evey weekend wehave somethign i just turne 20 on the 5th next year partytime :) soo last week i took a test to try to do coallge calsses and it jsut sucked all around i hate math math suck and i guess i read at a 7th grade leavl idk i feel like down about it andidk what to do i jsut wish i did goo din school and apply for collage and not got preg and i waouldnt be in this mess i dont regret cameorn at all i jsut wish i woul have gone to coallge ect.. i feel mad and angry cosue i feel i lost mybest friend and she gone to amy i mean idc i jsut wish we were friends idk what heppend and dont blam me and dave cosue we r togrether andu hate me i love dave meanddave r doin good :) he wantes to get married inthe next year iam not sure yet i been thinkin about it idk yet..i jsut wish my friends were around more i am just with dave and cam all the time i want my friends aorund and not highall the time and shit i wish they coem aorund andnotcosue i have cameron and cant do anything iam kinda sick of all that i want my friends back an di wish eveyone would jsut get along really people iam jsut sad cosue iam cam nto eating good is stressing me out idk i jsut want to go to school studie and eveything i want to be an untasoudn tech andstart from the bootomand work up i cna do that its all good :) <3 <3 <3 ilove dave :) andcameron:)

i havnt wrote in this in a long time cosue iam not good with writing but now iam jsut doin it. Cameron is 10 mos old and hes getting bigg and tryin to walk hes a lil cutie i love him :) i cant wait till his birthday we r goin to have a big party :)



Iam soo sick of my "friends" i feel like i cant do anything anymore iam always stuck here and i cant do anything and when camerons gone to his dads i need to catch up on sleep and iam with dave hes my new boyfriend yess hes 44 WHO CARES REALLY we r great together and hes soo good with cameron :) we love each other.. but when i want to hang out with people there busy i get that i thought me and some(sonya) were friends and she come over now that we r better but she is up amis butt i miss somya i wish i had some more freetime withfriends i miss all the old times....and i love that me and dave have our time together we really need it :) i love uu <3 <3 <3

i love myfamily and my mom is great with cameron :) i love cameron and i love dave... Yes larry is out of the picture and cam see his dad evey other weekend and hehasfun with his dad... yes maybe i didnt cheat and fall in love with someone elch but our whatever we had was failin idk ...i love dave and i love cameron... i jsut wish people coudl be around more really.......

ALL theses people r dieing aorund me or diein in my town i think its time to make a BUCKET LIST soo i kno what i want to do in life soo i can acaive it :)


MY BUCKET LIST

1.go to collage
2.take a cruise
3.white water rafting.
4.visit switzerland.
5.Visit France
6.Visit greace
7.visit germany.
8.Get a tattoo
9.get married.
10.viste most of the states
11.meet tom brady
12.go to malls throw out the states
13.visit the buhamas
14.visit the cribbribin
15.go on a road trip
16.see a meteor shower.
17.ride in a limo
18.visit italy
19.visit spain
20.visit the UK
21.visit mexico
22.ok visite all of Europe
23.meet a nascar driver
24.watch a movie marththon
25. Owen GOATS
26.visit all the smithsonians
27.go to the places on the monopoly board.
28 Really improve my handwriting.
29.learn to play and instrment
30.go jet skeling and tubeing
there its prob more but can think right now i had to do this for myself soo i coudl get thinkgs done more to coem

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HERES TO MY FRIEND :)

iii dont kno about this anymore iam worryed about my friend all she dose is go on okcupid.com and find boys and gose off with them.. i feel like she is too much into being with thses boys she never met and i get worryed about her... she dose it way to much and iam worry that hey she goin to be with a boy when iam in labor and she wont come becosue she too busy with them.... i hope she reads this cosue this is how i feel and she never wants to hang out any more.....
soo iam feeling anxious and ansty i am sacrd i am having like braxton hicks it werid and iam feeling tired i might have the baby in july who knos :P and my ankls r swelling wow its commign fast...

there 6ish weeks untill iam due i just had my baby shower and took soo mnay pics it would be a lot to put in here there on my myspace. I got all the baby stuff and i have to clean out my room and have to put baby stuff in there omg idk what to do anymore i am soo over whlledmed i jsut need help and i cant do this by myself.. iam soo scard i jsut sit here and ponder what the heck am i goin to do ..what ifs.... i want to do this i jsut its slow.. my cousins bridle shower is this weekend and i think iam goin to stay here with larry soo he cna help me ponder and whatnot idont even kno what iam talkin about right now iam sooo scard there soo much goin thorw my mind i need help............

WHY cant people stay sober when u ask them... Y i sy this is cosue me and adurie r back to being friends now and she was in florida and it was horribal for her she was on coke bad and pills ok well i thoguth she changed. Well the other night we were havign a fire liek we do all the tiem and she decied to take pills and i got really mad at her y iam so mad at her is cosue we used to have soemthign together and i dotn want her hurt or anything and shes my girl :D soo i got mad and she said she thorw them in the fire well she wasnt happy about it but she did and she asked of she coudl still smoke idc about that its the pills thing and the coke thing i care about and she went to her boyfriend last night and siad she was drinkin beer i texted her and i was liek dotn go overbored cosue u have to march tommrow blah blah well i guess she dont want to here from me soo i think she shut her phone off but if she is not at grad today iam goin to yell at her yes iam preggers and i feel mothey but i mean i want to help her stop and if she just goin to go off and go do shit then i dont kno what to do with her maybe sayin here for a week and not let her do anythign or go with anyone and see hwo she is for a week whatever idk anymore.....
soo i had my drs appt and eveythign is good for baby but iam having an outasound monday cosue he was masureing at 27 weeks and iam 30 weeks soo it was prob the way he was laying like normal but things r good and the baby shower is comming up i canttttt waitttttt :D soo that all i had to talk about shes my fgril adn i dont want anythign to heppend to her :D

wow i really havnt wrote in this in over a mouth wow.. soo i had my drs appt today it went good iam 25 weeks and from now on i have them evey other week untill 36 weeks and then weekly and all they did was check out the babys heart beat witch was good and my blood prusure was really good i have gained 12 pounds since i got preg witch is good :D. So we kinda deiced a name for the baby it is CAMERON........... Burgesss we still havntt deiced on a middle name yet i like brady but not sure if anyone ahs ideas tell me :D my baby shower is june 20th and yes i kno about it but it will be a suprise of who is commign eveyone gonna rsvp to my mom and my friend amy and iam reguasted at wal mart,jcpannys,and khols soo iam tell u people soo u all kno :P my next drs appt is May 20th at 1040... soo thats all for now..

this is my baby at 21 weeks 85% boy soo if anyone has names jsut give me some for a baby boy :D