Pumpkin Face

I take back what I said last night about not wanting to watch cutesy performances for a while.

Pajama Party is the cutest fucking thing ever. Ugh. UGH. Dying. And I actually giggled out loud watching the MV AND the live performance. XD

GIGGLED.




cramps have not gone away. it's a curse.

Ugh, jesus christ.

I've been aching all over all week, and when I woke up today my legs were extremely weak and my feet were sore. Then came the cramps... and they haven't gone away all day. I was in so much pain earlier, the cramps were so strong that I actually felt like I was gonna throw up. Cried. Cramps aren't as painful now but I'm still in pain and just...blah.

- watched Siwon's speech at the MTV Asia awards, lol his English voice is so cute. So fobby.
- Suju H pajama party, I haven't watched it yet because I just feel crappy and not really in the mood for more cutesy performances. Don't get me wrong, I love my boys to death but Eeteuk does not look right in that pajama costume imo.
- Sungmin's hair is saiyan style lately lol. xD Minnie-oppa, do it down instead of up D: They put so much makeup on him that he looks pale and his lips lack color. I honestly believe he looks healthier without the makeup, even if he has a few zits here and there lol.
- We Got Married episodes 20 + 21, ugh, ugh, ugh, Joongbo madness, I love it, I love it, I love it, I love it, I love it. Alshin was cute too, and usually I hate watching Alshin because they bore me, but when they were with Hwangbo and Hyunjoong they came alive, especially Shinae. She was so cute. I kinda wish she were still dating Minwoo now D; WGM also helps me balance out my yaoi fangirliness with het. fangirliness. Really, it really does. Healthy dose of het never hurts.
- I haven't checked up on Soshi these past few days, no energy for them, but I do know the Mabinogi single finally came out, I just haven't listened to it yet.

I love A&E Channel. And History Channel. Last night I watched something about the books that were banned from the bible (omitted) and it was just so totally awesome. Those kinds of things have always interested me, ancient texts, I'm wondering if I should major in the study of ancient texts? I'm considering it as a fall back, if my current major doesn't work out.

Speaking of majors, 17 more days before I move into my dorm. I'm starting to feel a little bit excited, but I'm still incredibly nervous. Far more nervous than excited. I just keep thinking, will I really be able to do this? Am I disciplined enough to keep myself from failing all of my classes? No one is going to push me to do my work, to pay attention, to study. It won't be high school. But then again when I was in high school, I did what I had to do.

I want to be in love and have that love returned.

Oh, and I want to be a boy. :)

Long rambling post, /end.

Chunji has officially ended. :( :( :( :(

Minnie didn't cry except for at the end of one of his and Sunny's duets. He got emotional after the last word and dropped his head and covered his face. It made my heart hurt.






and for those of you who'd like to watch the actual duet, along with Just the Two of Us:


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ooikc4elkwE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W_KyFIyh9fE

Really, :( Minnie, you didn't have to be so strong. He sang beautifully. I was so proud of him.

edit:

message to his parents: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XLDU3L4GN5w&feature=user

from his mom: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e27ZtDdR858&feature=user

cuteness: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mdEjFQlrgCY&feature=user

For those of you who haven't seen Jokermin on Chunji yet...







Hey Sunny, why so serious?

Also, #1 thing I hate when reading comments on fics -

If the pairing is, oh, I dunno, Sungmin x Sunny, and the person who comments writes (this fic was sooo cute!!! but minyoung is so much cuter xD)

You know, google image search isn't all that great.

I typed in "boys wearing lipstick" and got one of Siwon's evisu photos.

0.o

Well I'm here to say, oh yes they did. 8}





My Sunny! So fucking cute~! And also, all of them looked gorgeous.

Yuri, rawr gurl, good rappin' thar with Hyoyeon.

I'm so proud of you guys!!!

And I realized as I was watching it, how much of a fan I've become. 8)

I watched the Wondergirl performance of Kissing U, it was cute. XD

Also, Sunny is really really really really, ridiculously gangsta.

 



(Oh, for those of you in the U.S., happy 4th of July~)

Five at a time. Whole collection is dedicated to eeveil, who I love more than she knows. I write for you because it makes you happy, and because you're my friend, your happiness brings me happiness. (You've already read these five, by the way)

 

 

My grandpa's been in the hospital all day today. I think he'll be okay, though.

Feel like shit, so am practicing piano for a while. Lilium. Beautiful Thing. The keys are dusty. I need a full sized keyboard because there aren't enough keys for the music i play. even when I do everything an octave up, I still don't have enough keys.

I honestly don't want to try to fight anything anymore...so I'm just taking whatever comes at me.

Shinhwa's Soulmate concert has been postponed because:

While preparing for the concert, THE STAR COMPANY has received a lot of requests from the Chinese fans who are affected by the Sizhuan earthquake, and those who are preparing for exams to postpone the concert. Hence, we decided to postpone the concert which was scheduled to be on 21 and 22 June.

This coming from the shinhwa.biz. As I was scrolling through the comments I was shocked to see people bashing Chinese fans and saying how much they hate Chinese fans now. So I said..


Everyone in here who is saying things like "I hate china fans" and things of that nature need to snap out of it and realize that people's lives have been affected by a disaster, villages have been lost, homes destroyed, families and their loved ones harmed.

Do you even realize what you're saying? Shinhwa's concerts aren't just for overseas fans; for Shinhwa to have that concert while fans are still recovering would have been an insult. Why should China fans have to miss out on something they've been looking forward to just as much as everybody else because of something that happened completely out of control and destroyed so many lives?

You people who speak badly of Shinhwa fans should be embarrassed to call yourselves fans at all. Shinhwa fans act with much more maturity and understanding than this, regardless of whether they associate themselves with Shinhwa Changjo or not.

Suck it up, grow up, stop being selfish, and be patient until the postponement is over.


Because I can't stand ignorant, selfish fuckers.

Anh, <3

I just took some pics of my messy room.

My desk
Upper desk
Music corner
Dresser
My homemade Shinhwa poster.
The poster that came with the album.

Quick update:

Self portrait
unfinished portrait of Sam

The first one I did for my art class. Second one was for fun. Can you tell I'm not very good at...shading? lol.