believe the angry bear~

вот такая красотища сегодня пришла ♥
сначала запаниковала, что без ID, а потом вспомнила про раздачу в сообществе ru_postcrossing ^^




Спасибо!

Originally posted by tova at Весенний розыгрыш моих книг!

The fact that _no one_ hates Zhou Mi in Russian fandom, and that so many people really love him makes me so sunshine-and-rainbows- happy ♥

And when someone says that she's becoming one of their favorite members, I feel happy too :D
I just cannot bring myself to be 'jealous' about this. 'cause I was kinda the first one to "promote" him, post pictures and videos, point out some trivia and so on - so that many people noticed and loved Mimi ^_^ and he is 'my boy', like Hyukjae is Jelly's, Geng is Shinrou's, Kangin is Maresca's and so on. Dividing biases is lovely xD
But I'm so glad when I read beams of love about Mimi from other people ♥


I'm pathetic. Yes, that's official xD

I've decided! :D
I will really try to post here more often, with my fail English, 'cause my diary.ru is not enough sometimes xD

and.. YEAH.(c)

*going to find some nice userpics~*


......and holy cow, how I can manage to breathe after this QMi picture? Anybody? Tell me? D:

я не люблю, когда мне говорят "ты понимаешь, как...? хотя все равно нет".
да, может и не понимаю.
но каждый раз - это удар в самое сердце.
и если бы это кто-то чужой, охо-хо.

So.. yeah, I'm going to St. Petersburg.
I can't really feel that it's real. It was too sudden and... man. But I'm really happy.
30 Seconds To Mars, 14/03/2010.

30 Seconds To Mars are coming. To Russia. To St.Petersburg. On March, 14, 2010.

It always feels so weird. You talk, laugh, take long walks, do a lot of silly things, even live in the same room with a person for days - one, three, five, seven, doesn't really matter - and then you leave, or he/she leaves. And this person turns back to what he/she was - 120x120 pixels of an avatar and tiny letters at the QIP window.

I can't really remember the first time I met a friend from Internet in real life. Was it Fionel? I guess, it was her, she came to my city. We took a walk in the park, as far as I recall, and it was so great. And then - she left home, and I haven't seen her for a year. Just pixels and letters. But the most interesting thing - when you meet again, you feel like you've parted just yesterday.

But the most weird thing is when you meet celebrities, who you never thought you'd met. Of course, I mean 30stm. And you look into their eyes, act really calm - and suddenly you notice your hands are shaking. Or scream your heart out together with hundred of people (I still remember how all the screams of "the 06/06/08 night" echoed in my ears on my way back to Planernaya, where I lived in Moscow). Or you walk next to a man who's been an inspiration, a creator of a wonderful universe, a man who you've respected and admired for years - and you walk on the streets of Moscow, totally forgetting all English words and saying "it's permanent fire, for dead people" (okay, techinically it was not me who said it, but you know... *g*), almost bumping into his back when he suddenly stops before traffic lights. Or you tell him about the stone, about the project and that it took three years to complete, and your friend chips in and says "It was her idea!", and this man says "Oh, good job!", and you feel so shy and proud at the same time.

But then he - and everyone - eventually leave, and you can't really believe that it's happened. And the photos of you and them are hanging on the wall next to posters of them.

Oh, and there's another story - about Cinema Bizarre, coming with a show to my CITY, not just my country. xD
Who knows, maybe someday I'll see my Asian "idols"? xD Who knows, who knows. But right now I just wish I can see my dear online friends in person, more often than once in year or two.

I wish they won't screw up new Bleach fillers. I mean, the thing looks rather interesting.
Sogyou no Kotowari - squeeeee! Ukitake having little twin boys as a part of his soul... it just fits! I wish I could see Nejibana materialization.

"Harry Potter and Half-Blood Prince" was great.
I think it's because I don't remember the book at all xDDDDD
But, dammit, there wasn't my beloved scene between Lupin and Tonks T_____T
I'm so upset.
But anyways, let's think they're already confessed to each other xD

Constant unreasonable fear.
I'm so fucking tired, oh man, just quit it already! You know, this funny feeling in your stomach, and erratic heartbeat. Everything's fine already, so why the fear? I just don't get it.

...

Eh, I hope my little vacation in Rostov will fix me.
Tanibata ^______^ Friends, no sleep, crazy fangirling and little plushy handmade Kaien-dono as a company xD
Ittekimasu~~~~~

Sometimes I really wish I'd have born in another time and another place.
Not that jealous of others' way of life, it's just... a bit sad. Maybe reincarnation is possible? Meh.

Maybe I should post here once in a while o___O The last post was like... two years ago? xDD

Many things happened.
I watch jdramas and jmusicals. Who could've thought that.. -___-'''
Totally in love with ЗАЕЧЬКА Suzuki Hiroki, Kato Kazuki and - still - Shiba Kaien xD

New fanfiction.

"One Night In Tokio", Jared Leto/Bill Kaulitz.

here

Shoot me, please...

Wish you guys all the best in the new 2007 year )))

С Новым годом, с новым счастьем! :D

My God. I am the happiest creature on this planet. ^^
I heard Tokio Hotel live yesterday. I couldn't even dream about it if it wasn't for my dearest mamo ^^ <3

I've received 13 phone calls from the show in Moscow and listened to almost 1/3 of the concert ))) It was so surreal - to hear Bill sing in this very moment, thousands kilometres away from myself through this godblessed cellphone.

Man, I'm sooooo high!

БЛЯТЬ! ПОЧЕМУ ВЫРУБИЛИ ДАЙРЫ ИМЕННО СЕЙЧАС, БЛЯЯЯЯЯЯЯЯЯЯЯЯЯЯЯАААААААТЬ!!!

*методично бьетцо головой апстену*

Through The Monsoon.
БЛЯ.

I’m staring at a broken door,
There’s nothing left here anymore.
My room is cold,
It’s making me insane.

I’ve been waiting here so long,
But the moment seems to‘ve come,
I see the dark clouds coming up again.

CHORUS
Running through the monsoon,
Beyond the world,
To the end of time,
Where the rain won’t hurt

Fighting the storm,
Into the blue,
And when I lose myself I think of you,
Together we’ll be running somewhere new…

Through the monsoon.
Just me and you.

A half moon's fading from my sight,
I see your vision in its light.
But now it’s gone and left me so alone

I know I have to find you now,
Can hear your name, I don't know how.
Why can’t we make this darkness feel like home?

CHORUS
Running through the monsoon,
Beyond the world,
To the end of time,
Where the rain won’t hurt

Fighting the storm,
Into the blue,
And when I lose myself I think of you,
Together we’ll be running somewhere new…
And nothing can hold me back from you.

Through the monsoon. Hey! Hey!

BRIDGE
I’m fighting all this power,
Coming in my way
Let it sail me straight to you,
I’ll be running night and day.

I’ll be with you soon…
Just me and you.

We’ll be there soon…
So soon.

CHORUS
Running through the monsoon,
Beyond the world,
To the end of time,
Where the rain won’t hurt

Fighting the storm,
Into the blue,
And when I lose myself I think of you,
Together we’ll be running somewhere new…
And nothing can hold me back from you.

Through the monsoon.
Through the monsoon.
Just me and you.
Through the monsoon.
Just me and you.


БЛЯЯЯЯТЬ...............

МАМО. КРЕСТНОЕ. Могу представить, ЧТО с вами вчера было. Со мной это СЕЙЧАС.



НЕТ, не почему они ТАК перевели dann wirst alles gut тот же? БЛЯ.

Вы просто ПРЕДСТАВИТЬ не можете, КАК в тему эта песня к ПОСЛЕДНЕЙ ГЛАВЕ.
"And nothing can hold me back from you.", "I’ll be with you soon…", "Let it sail me straight to you"... SAIL, блять, SAIL! Через гребаный atlantic ocean!

"I know I have to find you now,
Can hear your name, I don't know how."

Fuck.

Меня заипал этот астрал.

I always write one-shots, but now I'm writing 5-chapters fic.
It's a challenging experience, really. I haven't done a more-that-one-chapter fics in a year or something.

But the pairing is the most unexpected.

Jared Leto/Billy Kaulitz.



*fangirrrrrrrrrrls*

I think every person in the fandom wants to kill me now. Very slowly and painfully. :D
Thank you, thank you, my dear krestnoe! *hugs*

Maybe I should post here once in a while? *acts thoughtful*

Life goes on and on and on.

Many plans - no time.
Writing original, new fics, maybe translating some into English, books, movies... the University and exams of course.

I constantly think I'm doing something WRONG when reading\dreaming\imagining Letocest. Seeing things I WANT to see. Believing in what I WANT to believe.
Does it really EXIST?
I don't wanna know, honestly.
'cause if it DOES...
Oh man.

Awww, that's so fucking AWESOME!! 8(
Fuckfuckfuck!
The diaries are DOWN AGAIN. Grrr.
And JUST when I NEED to get there, to tell everyone about echelon collage and such. Arrgh.

Today's the Echelon day, right? And I can't even see my precious friends. Fuck.

Couldn't help it, I had to post ^^

This sad, but true :P thingy is made by our lovely Jordan
*squeeze*

I felt like posting. *confused* I dunno why.
Anyhoo... um... I've just watched MTV Overdrive video.
OHMYGAWD. ^_______^ *fangirls and dies*

Томоясу! *inlove*

I am sure that the guys have been reading a LOT of slash lately.
I mean, how can one explain their actions over past few weeks???
Every single day I feel like I'm going to EXPLODE.

Uh-oh. My "Dear Frankie" DVD has no subtitles.
Oh God, Scottish accent.
I've kinda weaned from it. *guilty*

Из видюхи РедРум о Джареде:

talented
artistic
versatile
analytical
intelligent
powerful
every action = pure art

Заметьте: про versatile сказал ШЕННОН. *сприв* *аллес*

Я боюсь теперь выезжать в город *прячеццо*

Конечно, есть и хорошие новости. Я чуть не обскончалась, когда нашла в Доме книги ДВД "Дорогой Фрэнки" (БОЖЕМОЙ!!!!!!!), а потом плюнула на все обещания папика и купила ПО.
День Батлера у меня прямо. 8)
Плюс ещё я откопала ДВД "Сегун"!!! Если б не гнусавый перевод, купила бы сразу, ибо Сегун - голубая мечта папика.

НО!
Во-первых, наткнулась на лицензию "Комнаты страха". Читаю аннотацию: "...в фильме также заняты голливудские звезды первой величины: Форрест Уитэйкер и Джаред Лето".
Wow. Jared is a MAJOR Hollywood movie star now. Thanks for noticing.

Во-вторых, в том же Доме Книги открылось мааасенькое кафе-мороженое с названием "ЛЕТО".
Ипать, ДВА кафе "Лето" в одном городе... *сприв*
И в-третьих! Еду я себе в маршрутке, примус починяю, никого не трогаю... в окошко смотрю. И мимо меня проплывает рекламный щит то ли Техносилы, то ли Цени - неважно.
Почти половина щита залита красным цветом. И на фоне этого красного цвета ОГРОМНАЯ БЕЛАЯ СТРЕЛКА ВВЕРХ!!!
*хоррор*
*dies*

Мама моя родная!!!
*TOTAL, COMPLETE ALLES SPRIV ROOF CRAZY ALLES INLOVE HEART ALLES*

Shannon's birthday - ЫЫЫЫ!!! *смолл*
Йопт... йооооопт... *vse*

*dies happily*

It was worth spending 2 fucking hours downloading this goddammit QuickTime.

I am SO TOUCHED, AND CRAZY, AND I'M SMILING LIKE A COMPLETE IMBECILE! 8))

Это какой-то гребаный Код да Винчи, чесслово.
Шастаю сейчас по ghanisquest... o______O
Чем дальше в лес, тем толще партизаны.
Голова кругом идет от всего.
It makes TOO MUCH sense.

Полжизни - к чертям хуячим.
Несколько минут - и уничтожена частичка моей души. Полностью.
Все фики, в т.ч. два новых перевода и подарочный фик, все документы, все учебные материалы, все ссылки, куки, но главное - ДВАДЦАТЬ С ЛИШНИМ страниц ориджинала и набросков.
Псу под хвост.
Из-за какого-то хуевого глюка.

Нет слов.
Чувствую, что скоро расплачусь. И расплАчусь, и расплачУсь.
Слава Богу, хватило ума каким-то макаром перенести буквально неделю назад практически всю папку "Мои рисунки" на другой диск. И слава Богу, я не храню на диске С музыку и видео. Иначе сейчас я бы это не писала, а билась в истерике головой об стенку.