Sometimes I really think that we all take ourselves a bit too seriously. We arent having the sort of fun we deserve, and we're so bogged down with doubts and worries, that we cant just take the free-fall swan-dive we're all used to taking. I know some of us are ill, some of us are aching, and we're all dealing with our own problems, but I dont remember that ever stopping us before. We're all so, so young and sometimes it's really discouraging to see that no one really wants to take the risks that make life worth living.

I think we all are too hard on ourselves sometimes, too. I know it's our tendencies to worry about things, or question when good things happen, or wonder what we deserve. Maybe we could all enjoy things more if we could sit back and realize that we deserve something good, and when it comes, dont question it. Sure, we can all chat about it and do some minor pondering, but where's the fun in worrying about every little event? Some of us are talking to new people and trying new things. That excites me! But what doesnt excite me is the constant, incessant fear that it will be short-lived, or that for some reason, we just dont deserve it. I dont think life is cruel enough to put us into situations that will always fail us.

I'm used to being unabashed and care-free and never really questioning what I say or do. This year has tucked me back into a shell I never wanted to inhabit again. I've been walking on eggshells, whispering, or keeping my thoughts to myself. The worst things I've done this year were not getting bad grades, or drinking too much. No, the worst things I have done have been never sharing what thoughts I held private, or not taking that risk.

It is just hard for me to understand how we're all in our early twenties and everyone is scared stiff and so hardened. I know there are different circumstances for everyone, but I know in a way, we're all kind of the same. We're young, and we're alive. Some of my friends are sick, my grandpa is sick; everyone is suffering. But doesnt that just mean we should live a little more? So what if you say the wrong thing online to someone? At least you said it.

Even if you embarrass yourself, people have to appreciate the earnest ambition and geniune effort put into placing yourself out on a limb. I think it's a fantastic thing, and could count as a victory. I dont think there's anything worse than having regrets, and one thing I hate most is thinking about things I could have done but I was too scared to do. Saying or doing the wrong thing wont kill you; it'll teach you a lesson, and chances are, it'll give you a story to laugh about and share with the next friend who's too scared to try something new.

Life is too short and too exhilirating to spend it wondering about looking like a fool. If you play it safe, you're not having fun and you're not taking advantage of the wonderful potential you were born with. I know I sound like a motivational speaker, but it's just frustrating and disheartening to know that the people I love are the most timid and scared people I have ever met. I'm not saying profess your love to someone or sky-dive tomorrow, but if you're going to take the leap, get ready to fly or enjoy the free-fall.

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