I never know what to write in these things! That's the main reason I hardly ever post here.

Anyway, junior year of high school...boo. Not very fun for me right now. Just very overwhelming and so much work. I quit my job b/c they wouldn't cooperate with what I was requesting. I asked for less hours, so I could possibly work and be lessed stressed about school, but they gave me more. I might have something lined up that I'm very excited about, thanks to a very generous person. I've only told one person out of sheer excitement, but I don't want to get my hopes up, so until it becomes official, I'm not going to say what.

When I do have time when I'm free, I either listen to music (lately it's been constant music from Jill Sobule. I have phases where I'm really obsessed with an album, and right now it's been her "Happy Town" album) or read (right now I'm reading Running With Scissors by Augusten Burroughs). I've been watching "The Megan Mullally Show" every day as well (for the obvious reasons).

That's really all. Not much else going on in my life.

xoxo

I have neglected this thing for long enough.

Summer's going well. I have a job at a grocery store as a cashier. Other than that, I've been relaxing, and reading a lot. 3/4 of my paycheck basically goes to Borders now. I've gotten into the work of Truman Capote (although I've only read Breakfast At Tiffany's and a couple of short stories). I had to read Harper Lee's To Kill A Mockingbird for school and loved it. I'm currently reading Mary Gaitskill's Veronica.

The rest of my paycheck usually goes to getting CDs. I can't get enough of Gnarls Barkley's song "Crazy," and I don't know why, lol. I've also bought Corrine Bailey Rae's CD. Hopefully, I'll be able to get David Ford's album (one of his songs was on the CD sampler of Paste magazine, and I loved it). And I'm impatiently waiting for the release of the new Indigo Girls CD "Despite Our Differences."

No vacation over the summer, but I will be going to Orlando for a week in late September, which I heard is nice because there aren't that many people vacationing during that time of year. A little nervous about the plane ride, but I'll suck it up.

xoxo

Not counting the weekends, I only have six days of school left. We got yearbooks this week, so everyone's getting everyone to sign their's. This year was a lot better than freshman year, but I'm still glad to be out for the summer. I'm definitely not a morning person, so a couple months of sleeping in sounds pretty good to me.

A while ago, they found out who wrote the bomb threat on the bathroom wall. Turns out it was Sarah's sister's ex-boyfriend. He was a jerk to begin with, but I didn't think he'd do that.

The 18th was the Will & Grace series finale. Yes, there were tears, and lots of them, coming from me. And this Thursday, they aired it once again. There were tears that time too, but not as much, since I already knew what happened. But I think that it's going to be one of those things that will always make me tear up (I can't get through the "Friends" series finale without crying just a little).

Tomorrow, Ryan and I are going over to Sarah's to watch some movies. It was really fun the last time we did it, although we were going to watch a few and ended up only watching "The Breakfast Club" then having a Fooseball (sp?) tournament. Sarah wants me to bring my "Saturday Night Live: Best Of..." collection, so I'll bring that along with a couple of other movies I know they like.

xoxo

...We have a special announcement. All students are dismissed. The building is being evacuated, we have just recieved a bomb threat. There is no need to worry."

I heard this five minutes before school ended yesterday. I was in American Cultures and Reece and I were working on a worksheet for Watergate. Some guy wrote that there was a bomb that was going to go off today on a bathroom wall. But seriously, if there's a possibility that a bomb is going to go off in a building that I'm in, don't tell me that I shouldn't worry!! lol. There was no bomb, though, and now they're trying to find the one who wrote that on the wall.

Anyway, yesterday was my 16th birthday. My big gifts were a new cell phone (it's a camera phone), and tickets to see Eric McCormack's play "Some Girls" in New York in June (if I wasn't sitting on a chair, my legs would have gave, lol). My german class and science class sang to me yesterday, and the chorus sang to me today (thanks to Sarah).

Now for a meme from Matty:

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xoxo

No one ever comments me anymore, lol. I won't be updating as often, since I guess no one reads this anymore. This is copied from my xanga:

So, Reece and I are planning to go to Scary Movie 4 this coming weekend. Hopefully it will work out, lol.

I so don't wanna go back to school tomorrow, lol. It's been so relaxing having this break. My Easter was okay. I got candy (of course), and I also got Melissa Etheridge's CD "Lucky" and Fastball's "All The Pain Money Can Buy." My dad's girlfriend gave me $20, and I went out today and bought Melissa Etheridge's "Breakdown" (found it used), and Sonya Kitchell's "Words Came Back To Me."

I applied at Coconuts, thinking that it would be cool working at a music store. We'll see what happens.

This weekend did come with some not so good news. Saturday night, my dad's work place got burned down by a fire that started in the building next to it. We went there Sunday, and it was horrible. There was people fishing through the debris looking for things they could salvage and use (these were random people, mind you, not people who worked there). Along with that, it apparently killed a couple of animals. There was fur on the ground in a few places, and it made me sick. I don't know what my dad's gonna do for a job now.

xoxo

Here's something that's on my xanga at the moment, and I thought I'd bring it here. It's something for you to fill out.

Hi I'm _____.
I _____ Sarah.
Sarah is _____.
Sarah thinks a lot about _____.
When I think of Sarah I think of _____.
I want Sarah to _____.
If I were alone in a room with Sarah I would _____.
I think Sarah should _____.
Sarah needs _____.
I want to _____ Sarah.
If I could describe Sarah in a word, it would be _____.
Sarah will never _____.
Sarah can _____ my _____.
I hope Sarah never _____.
Sarah hopes I _____.
Sarah is my _____.
I _____ Sarah because _____.

Nothing else to report on, except for I've been on a huge Melissa Etheridge kick. I'm currently reading her autobiography The Truth Is... and it's amazing so far, and I had no idea that some of the things she writes about actually happened.

xoxo

Besides the fact that I'm completely absorbed in Jodi Picoult's new novel The Tenth Circle, I have nothing to report on, so I stole a meme from Matty, lol:

10 favorite people: (In no order)
1. Nic
2. Matty
3. Elkie
4. Sarah
5. Reece
6. Holly
7. Colleen
8. Jess
9. Ryan
10. Suzanne

9 truths and a lie:
1. I named my new Vagabond guitar Sobule, after Jill Sobule because she has a Vagabond
2. I play Grace in a "Will & Grace" RPG
3. I think people should stop singing Melissa Ethridge songs on "American Idol" because IMO, Melissa is one of those artists who shouldn't be touched.
4. I haven't had inspiration for a song in over a month.
5. I'm a full-fledged feminist
6. I love watching reruns of "The Golden Girls"
7. I suck at German
8. I suck at Math
9. I want to go to college in New York
10. I'm addicted to Hazelnut Mochas from Borders

10 things you cannot live without (not counting necessities like food and water):
1. My friends
2. TV
3. Internet
4. Music
5. Indie films
6. Books (Fiction mostly)
7. Guitars
8. Laughter
9. Coffee
10. Chocolate

10 places you would like to visit:
1. New York (that will always be number one on my list, I've never been there and would love to go there)
2. L.A.
3. England
4. Germany
5. France
6. Italy
7. Key West
8. Australia
9. Bahamas
10. Pittsburgh again

10 favorite TV shows:
1. Will & Grace
2. Roseanne
3. Ned and Stacey
4. The Office (US Version)
5. Friends
6. Everybody Loves Raymond
7. Just Shoot Me!
8. Scrubs
9. Saturday Night Live
10. Cheers

10 favorite foods:
1. Chocolate
2. Caesar salad
3. Grilled chicken sandwiches
4. Cherries
5. Strawberries
6. Cheese
7. French Onion Sun Chips
8. Golden Delicious apples
9. Cheese puffs
10. Tastykake's "Kreme Filled Chocolate Krimpets"

10 favorite places to be:
1. My room
2. Borders (especially with my mom and her friends Scott and Amy)
3. CD Warehouse
4. The mall
5. Hackman Auditorium at school
6. Anywhere out to eat with Sarah ("Wow, that's the biggest bowl of ketchup I've ever seen!!")
7. Parma with Alex and Sarah
8. School cafeteria (where we all had to teach Ryan what PMS and Pong were)
9. Anywhere reading a good book
10. The Mattress Factory in Pittsburgh

10 biggest fears
1. Death
2. Dying
3. Heights, a little
4. Interactions with my grandmother (sometimes)
5. Going back to being someone I'm not
6. Can't think of anything else.
7. ...
8. ...
9. ...
10. ...

10 nicknames you've ever been given:
1. Sar
2. ShuShu
3. Panaynay
4. The Will & Grace Girl
5. Karen
6. Sar-bear
7. You There Girl
8. Little K
9. The Next Jill Sobule
10. Karin

10 people you're tagging:
Do it if you want, if you don't want to, ok.

xoxo

Something I stole from Matty:

1. Where were you when the ball dropped for 2006?
In my living room at my dad's watching it with Janae.

2. How did you get the idea for your profile name?
You all know by now I'm a huge Will & Grace fan. I was looking on this one W&G site and they had this thing that said "I can go from zero to Karen in 2.3 seconds." It became an inside joke, and that's how I got zero2karen

3. What time were you born?
6:36 AM

4. What song are you playing now, or wish you were playing?
Jill Sobule's "Clever"

5. Has the death of a celebrity ever made you cry?
John Ritter, Gregory Hines

6. What color underwear are you wearing?
Do you need to know that?

7. Do you want a baby?
No. Check back when I'm like 15 years older.

8. What did you do this morning?
Watched "Rent" on DVD (just got it last night)

9. What does your dad do for a living?
Works at a pallet company (supervisor, I think)

10. What ended your last relationship(s)?
He wanted to be "Friends." Yeah, some friendship. Hasn't talked to me since.

11. Do you have a date for Valentines?
No.

12. What are the last 2 digits of your phone number?
Do you really need to know that?

13. What was the last concert you attended?
Um...I think it was the All About The Music Festival, and I saw Jim Boggia, Townhall, Erin McKeown and the Indigo Girls there.

14. Who was with you?
My mom

15. What was the last movie you watched?
"Rent"

16. Who do you dislike at the moment?
Uhh...I don't know.

17. What food do you crave right now?
Chocolate

18. Did you dream last night?
Yeah

19. What was the last TV show you watched?
"Web Junk 20" on Vh1

20. What is your favorite piece of jewelry?
Necklaces

21. What was the last thing you ate?
Grilled Chicken Panini sandwich

22. Who is your best friend of the opposite sex?
IRL, Reece, online, Matty

23. Write a song lyric that's in your head?
"I can't wait to be in your arms again, 'cause I always think that this will be the last time when you dig deep, and you see more, and you get bored."

24. Are you on any meds?
Nope

25. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
The right side (closest to my nightstand, so my cup of water is easily accessible)

26. What shirt are you wearing now?
An oversized white t-shirt that I wore to bed

27. What is your favorite frozen treat?
Chocolate Eclair bars

28. How many tattoos/piercings do you have?
Two in each ear

29. What's your favorite store?
Borders, Coconuts, CD Warehouse, Barnes & Noble

30. Are you thirsty right now?
Kinda

31. Can you imagine yourself ever getting married?
Yeah

32. Who's someone you haven't seen in a while and miss?
Janae

33. What did you do last night?
I was online, then went to Coconuts and Borders, then watched "Best Week Ever" and "Web Junk 20" on Vh1, then went to bed.

34. Do you care what people think about you?
Not at all.

35. Have you ever done something to instigate trouble?
Not that I'm aware of.

36. What song(s) do you think ex's listen to and think of you?
I have no idea. I don't know what he thinks of me anymore.

37. What song(s) do you listen to and think of ex's?
Hehehe...Where do I begin? This is when we first broke up: "Love is Never Equal" by Jill Sobule, "Life Goes On Without You" by Jill Sobule, "Now That I Don't Have You," by Jill Sobule, "World Without You" by Beth Hart, "Please Stay" by Warren Zevon, "Weather" by Jim Boggia, "Send His Love To Me" by PJ Harvey, and a lot of others I can't think of.

38. What is one thing you wish you were better at?
Songwriting.

39. What hurts you?
My family "drama" (too complicated to explain here), hearing homophobic or racist remarks, lies.

40. Do you like the person who posted this last?
Of course I do!

xoxo

I may be overreacting, and you can be the judge of that. It's just that I'm so angry right now, and I need to write about it.

Two weeks ago, we had to bring in a poem or song lyrics that spoke to you for English class. I had originally chosen to bring in the song "Vrbana Bridge" by Jill Sobule. It's a beautiful love story. The lyrics are behind the cut.

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I wasn't sure about the lines "As she pulled him down and smiled/They lay on the bed/There were shouts all around/They could shut the whole war out/With the squeak of the springs/And tomorrow's dreams..." so I asked my teacher what she thought. She said that that line was fine, however she found it offensive. I said okay, and used another Jill song, "Manchild."

I was talking about it with my mom and her friends, Scott and Amy, at Borders after school the same week, and they couldn't find anything offensive in it. So today before class started, I went to my teacher with the lyrics on a piece of paper, and I said that I repected her opinion, but I was wondering what it was that she found offensive.
She says, "Well, what weren't you sure about for that song?"
I pointed to the lines I mentioned above and said, "This part."
Without looking at the paper, she says, "Yeah, that's the part I found offensive." I didn't want to mention that she said that that part was fine, because I didn't want to argue. Then, like some snobby girl like the ones who think of me as inferior because I'm not as popular, she says to me, "I don't get why you're asking, I mean YOU'RE the one who came up to me and ask me."
All I could manage to say was an "Okay" and went back to my seat.

I'm pretty sure it had to do with the fact that Allah is mentioned in the song. But, it's not saying anything against Allah; the lines are just "She asked for Allah's blessings/To keep them both alive." That was the feedback I got before I asked her today. Again, I may be overreacting, but what do you all think?

At least I can post the lyrics up here.

xoxo

Walking we are caught by tiny hooks that hold our hope
Our skin may be scratched, but nothing holds us back
I will be brave, I will be brave
My body may change, but my spirit will stay

About an hour ago, I got tickets to see Erin McKeown and Melissa Ferrick at the Theater of Living Arts in Philly! I haven't heard Melissa Ferrick's music, so I'm planning to sample some of her work the next time I go to FYE or Barnes & Noble or something like that. The concert's April 1st, and I can't wait!

Now, something I stole from Matty. It's something for you to fill out:

1. Who are you?
2. Who am I?
3. Do you love me? (As a friend)
4. Would you hug me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Would you like to meet me IRL?
7. If so, what would you want to do with me?
8. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me upset?
11. What would you do if I disappeared from the Internet for a month?
12. What would you do if I lost all access to the Internet?
13. How long do you think we will be friends?
14. Who is my best friend?
15. Where and/or when and/or how did we meet?
16. What was your first impression of me?
17. Do you still feel that way about me now?
18. Was this a waste of time?
19. Will you put this in your e-mail/LJ/other net blog/etc?

xoxo