I am a Leaf on the Wind

So the funny thing is that after I've lost this weight the reasons that inspired (beyond good health & all that rot) aren't even happening & I'm not sure if they will. I've gone swimming once since summer has started & I'm not sure if I can afford Dragon*Con anymore & don't have the $$ or time for any of the semi-slinky costumes I wanted to wear.

Life can be funny sometimes...in that kick you in the crotch & run away laughing manically way.

(1:24:59 PM) chasum backlash: Oh the things I found on my computer...
(1:25:56 PM) chasum backlash: I found a picture of john sent from I think damien or catherine. John tea bagging wong... The angle is kind as you don't see john fiddly bits
(1:26:19 PM) onyxpyre: lol
(1:26:40 PM) chasum backlash: or my self filtering brain seems to censor Johns junk out
(1:27:09 PM) onyxpyre: LOL possibly
(1:28:03 PM) chasum backlash: So do I post it up somewhere?
(1:28:13 PM) onyxpyre: uh no?
(1:28:15 PM) chasum backlash: do I print it and hand it to john or wong
(1:28:26 PM) onyxpyre: lol, both
(1:29:30 PM) chasum backlash: Melissa might get jealous
(1:29:37 PM) chasum backlash: it was a intimate moment
(1:29:42 PM) onyxpyre: LOL!
(1:29:45 PM) onyxpyre: LAWL!
(1:29:50 PM) chasum backlash: between john and wong and a bunch of cameras
(1:30:00 PM) onyxpyre: I'm still laughing out loud
(1:30:01 PM) chasum backlash: and the people looking on

30 lbs down since the beginning. Weight wise After that last time I posted here, I dunno what the fuck happened & I went up on the scale & spent the rest of the month struggling to get it off. I'm not sure if its me, the diet or my digital scale that never measures me the same multiple times. I mean it! I'll get on and it will say one thing, I get back off & on immediately & it will say another & another & another!.

I think standing around screaming at the NIN/Jane's Addiction concert this weekend was apparently fatburning :). I had a good time, didn't spent that much money & have a couple of great new concert memories burnt in my mind. I'm so glad I went! I'm also thinking of splurging on Tool tickets b/c of this inspiration.

Yeah, I'm broke but most of the bands I like are getting old, getting married, breaking up. I think these times are the dividing line. What do you think/

Not sure how it was possible to lose 5-6 lbs in one day, but hey that seemed to happen between yesterday morning & today. I've definitely gained that much in one day. This diet is frakking WEIRD!




Dance class is going well. I'm really having fun. It helps distract from how crappy everything else seems to be going lately. I'm having a hard time doing the creative thing. I have ideas all the time( because I got so much time on my hands) but the execution isn't working out. Also I'm trying really hard to save money. Like I ordered some stuff to make a belt and a headband, but I don't know if I'll have the energy or drive to physically make this stuff when they arrive in the mail.

I've forgotten my ghetto cosplay ways. I guess I got used to have money. At least, I haven't bought a full BSG duty blue uniform....yet.

Chiller was awesomeness this time. Mostly because they actually invited guests that I gave a fuck about. I'm not into horror/gore/wrestling or much of that sort. I could care less about George Romero. I do on the other hand care very much about Star Trek the original series, Star Trek Deep Space Nine and Battlestar Galactica. I'm now also down a couple hundred bucks. lol. I've got autographs from Adama, Worf, Odo, Chekov and Kat(Yeah, I felt bad so I got hers too).

I had fun with minimal drama except for a friend of mine getting WAY too drunk, WAY too early but he got home ok on his own with a little assistance from me & John.

I didn't realize that low carb dieting makes you a fucking lightweight. I am that proverbial 2 beer/2 drink queer. Its fucking weird and I've gotten shitfaced WAY before I've realized that its happened. So I woke up on an air mattress on Amy's floor with a horrible hangover that I've no way of fixing w/o ruining my diet. She also handed me a bowl of pretzels. She is the fucking devil. I gained like 8 lbs in that day b/c I just went carb berserk: rice, pasta, sugar. It was fun that day, but not the next. Never knew a carb hangover could be that bad. It took 3 days to stop feeling like I was drunk and lazy and high and I didn't get that weight off until today. Moral of this story? No cheating! I might be able to get away with eating one sushi roll or a couple of fries but nothing like that again. It felt awful and set me back like 2-3 wks. I figure if I'm good ( I made rice for dinner for other people & didn't eat any. Maybe I can learn to control my hispanic urges afterall) I can be down 40 lbs in time for DragonCon & get me a sexy stormtrooper or BSG pilot outfit and not look like a shiny, rubber whale..,.





Now we're contemplating DragonCon. Guy can get a room (really expensive one though) for Thurs, Fri, and Sat night, but not Sunday. John's not sure he can get off Thursday and we didn't want to leave until Monday so we're not sure what to do now because we can't get another driver in the car or they will want to get another room which will be another grand (Yeah, you heard me!) Suggestions? We're thinking maybe we'll crash at a cheap motel in No. or So. Carolina and just arrive Friday afternoon ready to geek the fuck out. Then Sunday we'll chill in the con til night and then hit the road til we find another cheap motel and head north on Monday. So far, its looking really stressful & I know that will make John decide to not go......

When I woke up I had plans to bitch about how starting the intermediate ATS bellydance class in the middle of the session had been a bad idea. I was gonna bitch about how she kicked my ass and I was SO lost and how impossibly sore I'm feeling right now.


Then I weighed myself again & was down 2 lbs so no bitching from me anymore and I'll be back in class next week as well as starting Scottish Highland class tonight. Yes, I'm aware that may be a mistake for multiple reasons the worse being I have bad ankle & huge...tracts of land. I'll probably be the darkest girl there getting a lot of weird looks, but its an introductory class so we'll see if I like it or not.

C'mon though, I'm taking two different forms of dance that somehow I'll end up dancing with a sword anyway! SWORDS! BATTLEFIELD METAPHORS!

(9:45:56 AM) DJKatastroph3: you should get fallout 3 when you're done
(9:46:00 AM) DJKatastroph3: I'm almost certain you'll love it
(9:46:04 AM) DJKatastroph3: how far are you along in oblivion?
(9:46:16 AM) onyxpyre: with what money? Pfft
(9:46:20 AM) DJKatastroph3: trade in games
(9:46:23 AM) DJKatastroph3: or sell jon's sperm
(9:46:40 AM) DJKatastroph3: jon looks like healthy specimen
(9:46:43 AM) DJKatastroph3: and 50 bucks per pop
(9:46:44 AM) DJKatastroph3: can't go wrong
(9:46:54 AM) onyxpyre: ew
(9:46:59 AM) DJKatastroph3: his seed
(9:47:01 AM) DJKatastroph3: can provide
(9:47:02 AM) DJKatastroph3: for your gaming
(9:47:06 AM) DJKatastroph3: ultimate goal
(9:47:09 AM) onyxpyre: lol

(12:20:18 PM) notnartfag: Remind me to bring u chocolate tonight
(12:21:02 PM) onyxpyre: why?
(12:22:11 PM) notnartfag: Been sitting in my drawer for weeks
(12:23:37 PM) onyxpyre: oh so this isn't special,"Olivia is a depressed bastard I should get her some special chocolate". This is just "Meh, I gots some chocolate collecting dust in my drawer, I should get rid of it before it spoils" chocolate.
(12:24:11 PM) notnartfag: Hey!
(12:24:30 PM) onyxpyre: lol, I'm right though
(12:24:46 PM) notnartfag: This is dark chocolate I fought for throuout December so I could bring it to u
(12:25:13 PM) onyxpyre: fought for?
(12:25:14 PM) notnartfag: I wouldn't have picked it up for myself
(12:25:19 PM) onyxpyre: why?
(12:25:41 PM) notnartfag: Coworkers when Xmas baskets came in
(12:26:27 PM) onyxpyre: was there Star Trek battle music
(12:27:44 PM) notnartfag: Not quite
(12:28:46 PM) onyxpyre: uh hu
(12:28:54 PM) onyxpyre: there should have been
(12:29:18 PM) notnartfag: I think therewas some scratching and hairpulling
(12:30:24 PM) onyxpyre: ok, then I feel better. Did you bring back your shield? Well I guess you won since you got the chocolate. This sound much better than dusty, forgotten chocolate. Now its prize and a show of manliness chocolate
(12:33:31 PM) notnartfag: That's right. I fought horde of chocolate crazed women for u
(12:34:17 PM) onyxpyre: This is sounding better and better. How did you win? You were outnumbered.
(12:35:07 PM) notnartfag: I had to use my wits to distract them
(12:35:31 PM) onyxpyre: lol, like a Bugs Bunny cartoon. Were you in drag
(12:36:25 PM) notnartfag: "didn't u say u were on a diet?". "I heard that chocolate can cause cancer"
(12:37:07 PM) onyxpyre: LOL! That's great! I knew I kept you around for a reason.