GOING TO TENNESSEE FOR 10 DAYS

I cant wait to post more when I get back.. I have a back log of crap to upload <3

So..... I found out that after much pleading and working- MY FINANCIAL AID HAS BEEN REINSTATED!!!  guess who gets to go back to school!?

SHI SHA!!

Ive had a lack of posting lately…. Sorry. I fail.  Things have been really bust since the financial aide at school fell through. Now im jumping through hoops to try and get it back. Sigh. I haven’t had much time to write lately (in LJ that is). But I’ve begun brainstorming on a lot of things. I also made a few GIFs for Glee. I have more for Skins coming soon. ;) don’t panic.  Also I haven’t had my medication so anything requiring thought has just gone out of the window. I have been so scatterbrained that i forgot to eat today. I woke up at 9, dealt with college stuff, took a nap, then went to the doctors and never ate or drank anything until 6:30pm…. I don’t think that’s healthy. THANK GOD I GOT MY MEDS! LOL I had some coffee, took my medicine and thought ‘whew’ finally- clarity!  On the downside I found out I have a mild form of OCD called Dermatillomania….. SOB really?  My arms look crazy right now.  I think the issue got worse when I ran out for meds for a few days.  Apparently it is something I do to release tension and I’m not so tense when I have meds. I know all of this makes me seem like a nut job but I promise I’m a normal person- that wears long sleeves in Florida summer.  Okay… Let’s stop talking about my crazy.

I have mixed feelings about being southern sometimes- or about being a girl. LOL. For those of you who do not know me well , I’ll fill you in. I was raised in the woods with my daddy. My father and mother are not only my best friends; they are two of the most amazing human beings I’ve ever known. They both love and support my sister and I in everything we do. My mother is a spiritual pioneer and my father is a free thinker. I adore them. I was taught that I could do anything I wanted and because my sister and I were so tomboyish dad never felt cheated by not having sons.  We went hunting with daddy (still do!), and helped him clean the kill (still do that too). We love mud bogging, animals, the woods, and sitting around having a beer now and then. It’s a simple life and we love it. When we aren’t out in the woods with dad, we’re out on the battlefield participating in Civil War Reenactments- southern girls through and through.  But here is the clincher- The hunting club my father is in (and basically all hunting clubs) does not allow women the join. Men pay their annual due to remain a member, but a woman’s money isn’t good enough. I would never trade the way I was raised for anything, but I cannot wrap my head around this. I am not even allowed to go to the hunting club alone because I am a girl.  Yesterday I went with daddy and there were two teenage boys there. They were out riding their four wheelers and doing a bit of target practice. After we left I asked my dad “Who are they related to?” Dad shrugged and said they were the grandsons of one of the members, to which I replied “Are they members too?” Dad said yes they were. “Do they pay dues like you do?” Dad said no. they didn’t have to pay dues because they were in school still.  I was getting fairly upset then “So, they can come up to the camp alone, without supervision, without their daddy or grandpa and ride four-wheelers and go hunting alone….but I cant.”  Dad sighed and looked at me “I’m sorry…I can’t tell you the difference” I looked at him and bit my lip “I can tell you the damn difference”.  I don’t have a penis.  

My father has always been very good at skirting issues when he doesn’t have an answer to them. He changed the subject to a tractor he wanted… and I let him because I hate confrontation and really, they aren’t my dads rules- they are 200 year old rules that have not been changed.  When I got home mom asked me how my day went and I wound up crying telling her how hurt I was by the issue, then I went to go get a shower.  Mom of course told dad how upset I was and that started a conversation with dad I hated having.  Dad brought me into the living room and asked how I was feeling. I looked at him and said “When I go to the woods with you, I am making memories. Any time I see woods I think of you. I don’t want to go to the woods without you because it’s something that we share- but being told I CANT really hurts. When you are dead, where can I go that reminds me of you? I can’t go to the hunting club where I was RAISED to be with you because I can’t go without you…. If I want to go I have to go with Logan (my 11 year old nephew) and I changed his diapers! I’m twenty-five years old and I would have to rely on him!? When Logan is 16 and has his driver’s license, HE can go without you. HE can go hunt and do whatever else he wants but his grown-ass AUNT cannot…. HE can go and remember you when you are gone, and HE can be a member, and HE can take HIS children… but I can’t.”  My father sat speechless. All he could say was “I know it’s wrong honey…But I cannot change 200 years of history over night.”  I looked at him and nodded. I know he isn’t super-man… But why in 2010 should I still feel like its 1810? When my father dies, the way I was raised will be gone. My children will not go hunting, they will not learn how to live off of the land, and I will have no place to go that I can call home.  And yet, I cannot will myself to leave.

RP SIDE NOTE:

I created a new character in my ongoing RP with Shan. He is Osiris, Egyptian god of death. I know that the Egyptian thing has been over used but still, I love him. I did a very long post for him this week I wanted to share just for funzies. You don’t have to read it which is why it’s under this cut. LOL! I think for my RPing is a way to exorcize my inner demons.

I hope that wasn’t too boring for you all- if you actually read it. LOL If you did though, please post and let me know. I think I may write a book based loosely off of the way I’ve RPed him. I would LOVE to turn the RPs ive done with Shan into a book but that’s complicated and could potentially hurt a friendship. It’s never good to take something you’ve both worked so hard at and slap your name on it. You know?

Anyway. I promised GIFS…. I suck. LOL Here they are Glee fans. (this post will be EDITED later for Skins fans too! XD )

Made these for Shan ^_^ Just  a few quickies <3

the same rules as normal apply

1- if you take them, comment, it makes me happy
2- use these any way you please on LIVEJOURNAL
3- MOOSE
4- NOT HOTLINKING
5- if you make these into icons, no credit is needed.

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So apparently i am the only on on the planet who hasnt seen Glee.... Even my ruclusive (BUT LOVEABLE.......VERY LOVABLE...i love you.........dont hit me) gamer friends who spend weekends becoming epic master wizards love Glee!! WHY havent i watched it until this week!? 

Okay...so........I am now pretty much in love with this show since to me its like a clean version of skins made for the shiny sparkly family hour on american TV. LOL

So far I can honestly say that I hate all the characters- all of them but Sue and Brittnay. LOL come on... how can you not love someone that uses "Mentally ill ginger pygmy with eyes like a bushbaby " to describe someone!? Also, You have to love Brittnay's "Sharks are just gay dolphins" quote?

I think since I've been doing so much Skins lately in my graphics, I may move to a little bit of glee. Since now im addicted to it like everyone else... Fail. LOL

By the way, I am running out of skins GIF ideas so if there is anything people have really wanted GIFed let me know...

"So what kind of party would YOU like to throw?" - The Lord of The Manner

Earlier I posted a series of GIFS from the sparkler scene in 3x08 And it inspired me to make a GIFSPAM of only party scenes from the first generation. MOST of these are from The Secret Party, but there are a few ones thrown in at random just for silliness. I hope you all enjoy these because OH MY GOSH these took longer than normal! LOL 

ALSO, WARNING, some of these will load slower than normal due to the amount of frames. Please enjoy! 

SAMPLE:


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Okay....So....I have a second GIFSPAM inspired by ericaftw She asked if i would make a GIF of Emily with he rsparkler from 3x08 and I couldn't help but make the ENTIRE sparkler scene GIFS!! So for everyone needed a little more festivity in their lives- here, have a GIF party!! 

I hope you guys like them!!! 

SAMPLE:

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So... in celebration of having more time on my hands than I know what to do with-

Enjoy.

Normal rules apply- Dont hotlink. ^_^ 

Use these ANYWAY YOU WANT- butcher them, mame them, color them with rainbow zebra stripes for all i care!! Enjoy! ^_^ 

BUT if you use them please comment XD It makes me feel like the time was worth it in some sick narcissistic way.

Thanks guys.

SAMPLE:

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"mentally ill ginger pygmy with eyes like a bush baby"