Replying to @cigsnbruises
she literally looks amazing after ?! so much life and glow and happiness literally radiates from her now ! it is beyond cruel to try and take that away from her π
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21 ~ she/her ~ bpd, depression, 10yr+ ed ~ EDTWT
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Joined June 2023
- Replying to @bluestberriesmight stop it physically but doesn't stop the horrendous psychological effects of the event. it also happens in so so many forms.
- my ed consultant today said "you are genuinely, whole heartedly, the saddest and most emotionally, socially and psychologically deprived person ive ever worked with" it really shocked me. ive known this consultant since i was 17, hes very familiar with me and knows a lot abt me-
- 5 months of intentional weight gain. roughly 3 bmi points higher, 15-20 lbs gained. currently trying to maintain. as much as i like to complain about how difficult this has been for me, i can say for definite my life is so much better now than it was in the first photo. (1/11)
- it isn't talked about enough just how awful being underweight is. you are never comfortable, everything aches, you can't lie or sit without your bones digging into a surface or your skin. standing and walking feels like you've got 10lb weights on your limbs, you don't feel light-
- Replying to @bluelikeaberryur sister is lucky to hv u. i say things like this to my little sister too when she makes comments abt herself bc its 1 of my biggest fears for her to end up w this illness,i wouldnt wish it on my worst enemy yet alone my sister. im sending sm love to ur sister,i hope shes ok π«
- 9pm walks.. and omfg i got my camera out and was shocked about how i looked in this lighting??? never realised my face was this sunken π³
- my therapist today asked me how many calories i think i should be having in a day and i said "hmm idk maybe 1,800?" and she laughed at me and said "really?! for the whole day? that's about what i have for lunch" ...kms π
- shit and these two. not quite the same pose but.. right is 15th may 2023 left is 3rd may 2024
- this is actually heartbreaking. she's already conditioned to suck in her stomach when it's being seen?? a child that young should not even have thoughts about their body. how can that poor baby be self conscious :(
- Replying to @sylphlikespiritoh come on, there's a lot worse things than sleeping on a bare mattress, grow up. depression can debilitate people so much. they struggle to just exist yet alone do basic chores and self hygiene. id be more concerned about them killing themselves than what they're sleeping on.
