cw death
forgive me for not mincing words but i'm pretty sure some of you knew her and no one has access to her twitters — @garblefart / @oannablue died early this morning. medical thing, exact cause unclear
kind of in shock, not sure what to say atm
tired: permanent tf
wired: you've been helplessly tfed so many times into so many different forms that you can't remember what you originally looked like
i feel like humor and grief are opposite ends of a shared axis — the way we respond to something being wrong with the universe. humor is rolling with it, grief is being crushed by it. at least that would explain why i seem to be experiencing both simultaneously
i want to tweet like:
thankfully anna had turned several dozens of you into her clones, so we have a lot of spares
...which feels insensitive on its face but is really a messy combination of grief and humor and frustration and anna's personality and relationships
look i've got adhd. i don't have stages of grief, i have a fucking chaos whirlwind of grief. i think my brain is scrambling to solve a problem rn but there's nothing to solve so it's just banging neurons together at random