mina ཐི♡ཋྀ
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mina ཐི♡ཋྀ
@noctiir
edtwt ♡ 19 ♡ vegan ༺♱༻ priv @nattsvargr
- no one tells you about the grocery store obsession you get from being disordered.. like my idea of fun is literally just walking around all day reading all the nutrition labels and ingredients in all the foods lmao
- eating makes me suicidal but not eating also makes me suicidal
- i love eating the exact same yogurt bowl over and over until i die
- when someone is trying to talk to you but you can feel the last thing you ate turning into fat under your skin
GIF - i love when you look in the mirror and get a fleeting moment of "huh wait i'm actually kind of pretty?" before the dysmorphia sets in and rapidly warps you back into an ogre
- i really hate when people say "suicide is selfish 🥺 it just passes on the pain to the living 🥺🥺" while just totally ignoring the immense amount of pain someone has to be going through to commit suicide in the first place
- being mentally ill is cool because other people your age are actually achieving things and you're just like umm, well, i didn't kill myself today:)
- you don't realize how ridiculous your disordered thoughts sound until you try to explain them to someone else. like yeah so i ate an apple and now my brain won't stop going KlLL YOURSELF
- it's actually so much more fun to rawdog your ed.. no counting calories no weighing myself just going by the dizziness and the gnawing in my stomach
- i wish i could either fully commit to recovery or fully commit to my ed, i'm miserably stuck in the middle where i'm not as "bad" as i once was but i also have absolutely no interest in getting better. ed limbo
