when i lost someone crucial to me
the grief and trauma from that inspired me to begin living life freely with less self imposed restriction or care what others think
i have a lot of repressed anger from all the times i kept my mouth shut in the name of “keeping the peace” or being a nurturer
all that did was eat me from the inside. disrupt me from the internal.
exploring this is major key.
me and my bestie were talking about this phenomenon with men where they purposefully get you excited for something that they have no intention of giving you —- they make promises and never deliver.
it’s so disrespectful because they are quite literally playing in your face.