If you’re reading this, it means I have died. But do not cry for me. I have lived my life on my own terms, the way I have wanted to. I joined X because I needed an outlet, what I got was so much more. You made me feel validated in my feelings and much less alone. Thank you ❤️
Teacher with Cancer
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Mum, wife, teacher. Living with incurable secondary breast cancer. Co-founder & Trustee of Fighting to be Heard Foundation.
- Thank you so much for your lovely messages. Quick update…
- Today did not go as planned… I had an allergic reaction to Paclitaxel. Without wanting to sound melodramatic, I thought I was dying! So now I can’t use a cold cap, and will lose my hair. I’m gutted. I HATED being bald and looking ill last time. Thank you for the Twitter love ❤️
- I didn’t get the results phone call until almost 6pm… The wait this afternoon has been tough. Unfortunately it’s further bad news. Looks like it’s in my liver too. There are options, but they both sound grim. So more tests and more waiting. Thank you for all the Twitter love ❤️
- The time has come to embrace the wig. 😭 My hair, although it has stopped falling out, just looks sh!t! I’ve ordered a real hair one, but it’s not ready yet. So I’ll be rocking this synthetic one for a week or so! This time around feels so much harder and way more unfair! 😭
- Today, I met with a lovely nurse at the hospice to start writing cards to the girls to go with the flowers I’ve bought them for future birthdays. I can honestly say it is hands down the hardest thing I have ever done in my entire life. I just don’t want to leave them. 💔 💔💔
- Decided to take some control back today and went to get my hair chopped. I get test/biopsy results the day before I’m booked in for chemo next week… Still hoping I won’t actually need it, but better to be prepared! 🤞🏻🙏🏻💪🏻
- What are your thoughts on the chemo bell? I’m sitting here alone on the ward while staff go out to whoop, clap and cheer a bell ringer right outside the door. I’ll never finish treatment, unless it’s to die. Am I just being miserable?!? 🔔
- I made a little video for the children in my class this week explaining about chemo and why I’m not in school. Today, these beautiful flowers have been delivered along with a pamper voucher. 🥰 I have the best school with the kindest parents. ❤️❤️❤️
- Chemo number 5 of 15 today. A third of the way through! 💪🏻👊🏻 Scans are due at the end of this month to see if the #nabpaclitaxel is working! 🤞🏻😬
- Today has included a lovely stream of visitors, a few random delivery purchases, my mum’s cooking, a nap (despite the steroids!) and a little 2 mile walk with my girls. As far as being ill goes, today was pretty good! ❤️
- What a difference 24 hours can make… 😭 Turns out I have a continued allergic reaction to Paclitaxel. Should find out the new plan on Wednesday. Thanks for all the Twitter love ❤️
- Yesterday’s scan results weren’t good news… I’m moving on to my last line of treatment, Epirubicin. And even if it works, I can only be on it for 18 weeks maximum. There was talk of a trial, but there are a lot of “ifs” that come with it, so I’m not too hopeful. 💔
- Thank you for all of your thoughts and well wishes yesterday, I can’t begin to explain how grateful I am for them all. I had an agonising 4 hour wait at The Christie, but my Oncologist was just brilliant. Here’s a quick update. ❤️









