a man i used to go to church with (pretransition) walked into the coffee shop i was at, saw me, and walked out. i was in a menβs bible study with him for years, sat in his home, drank bourbon, and smoked cigars. you canβt even engage in surface level pleasantries with me now?
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- thinking about how iβve gotten to experience sleeping w girls as a boy, sleeping w girls as a girl, sleeping w boys as a boy, and sleeping w boys as a girlβ¦β¦kinda insane resumΓ© if u think about it
- i still havenβt stopped thinking about when i updated my profile pic on facebook and my mother took it upon herself to comment a side-by-side she made of us. she really said βoh my daughterβs a bad bitch???? lemme remind everyone where she got it fromβ iconic tbh
- i know βtransition is a lifelong process :)β or whatever, but i personally really fw the old school transsexual ideology of transition being an event that you can get to the other side of. like iβm not transitionING, i transitionED. now iβm just some white lady. old news, move on
- some jax lore: when i was in an evangelical cult i was forced to go to sex addicts anonymous (bc i was queer and they thought those 2 things were synonymous) so every thursday for 3 years i sat in a room with 50 men and listened to them talk about their various sexual deviances
- my husbandβs coworkers (servers and bartenders) all found out iβm trans and now every time i come in, it is very much giving βyaaaasssssss divaaaa serveeeππβ and itβs so fucking annoying
- someone replied asking grok to βmake this person bald and fatβ and i still look CUNT, you really thought you ate LMAOOOO sorry loserReplying to @goshfreakindarn and @jaxxdiesel
- Replying to @jaxxdieselitβs a reminder that transphobia is more than just hatred; itβs literal FEAR and a sort of social punishment. the implication being that i am somehow deserving of being treated as if iβm invisible bc i dare to exist in a different form than when they first met me.
- update: seriously considering uninviting both our families and having a friends-only rager bc why did my dad tell me last night heβs βunsure if he wants to attendββ¦ none of these people know how to act, like girl stay tf home then and let me vogue in my wedding dress in peacei know itβs supposed to be a universal trans experience to have family members who donβt fw us, but maaan can i just say it really really sucks that i have three older siblings and none of them will be at my wedding celebration. like 0 out of 3??? not even 1? like what a shame
- Replying to @jaxxdieseli have always been very socialβ people used to love seeing me around and asking how things are going, but now people literally go out of their way to avoid me. they would rather leave the coffee shop they planned to come to, than have to say hi and be nice to me for 60 seconds
- Replying to @jaxxdieselsame thing happened with a mother of the bride at a friendβs wedding. was always very close with the family. she came over to hug every single person at my table, and when i stood up to greet her, she literally turned around and walked away. couldnβt stomach being pleasant to me.
- celebrated my bachelorette party in a cabin with 8 of my closest/longest girlfriends, and at one point i said βraise your hand if youβve ever had a crush on meβ and every single girl raised their hand except one π
- this is what i looked like two hours after my sex change operation btw i feel so proud of my body and so hopeful for my future π€
- Replying to @jaxxdieselevery now and again, i find myself involuntarily saying the fucking serenity prayer in my head bc itβs so ingrained into my psyche lmaoooo






