at a BDSM street fair and i may be realizing that i find sex incredibly gross actually
Sercy ✦
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Sercy ✦
@dogmadeath
There's no need to think overly hard about any of this.
Quietly accept all that is about to happen.
That is all that's being asked of you.
Joined October 2022
- Replying to @dogmadeathmaybe it's that a crowd of hairy, leatherbound dudes with flaccid cocks isn't really my sexuality nor my aesthetic, maybe it's that the place doesn't feel transfem enough, maybe it's the overstimulation and loud music and oh my god there's so many fucking people
- THIS is a DIGICAT they're everywhere!!!! next time you see a DIGICAT, don't forget to meow it hello!! =^^=
- Replying to @dogmadeathmaybe it's that my sexuality has so very diverged from anything human a long time ago, maybe i'm realizing that my hypersexuality has been a forced front to get attention and praise for a long time and i'm now realizing i am very uninterested in sex for a while
- post-lsd im realizing that i spent a lot of my life keeping a model of what i thought normal people should say in whatever life situation i was in, and then checking whether or not i was following that. it was very strange and sad, i think????
- Replying to @dogmadeathmaybe it's the alienation from seeing people only display their bodies and physical affection so openly meanwhile i feel like i need to remain covered and ashamed a lot of the time. god i feel like i am full of void right now
- Replying to @dogmadeathwowzers what a whirlwind that my personal stream of consciousness vent tweets have been going through. pretty rude of the twitter algorithm to pick this up, but anyway: i went because i wanted to try new things. feeling aversion and dispreference is not a moral judgment from me
- Replying to @dogmadeathmaybe it all reminds me of a time i went to sf pride as a minor and saw a grown adult man's flaccid penis and felt haunted for that for a while afterwards because it felt so sudden and gross and bad and i hated it i hated seeing it so much it felt so wrong i hated it
- Replying to @dogmadeathMAN! man man man! listen chat, aren't you terrified of the mob someday turning on *you* like this? are you sure you're saying all the right things to signal all the correct positions? are you sure *all* of you believes the right things? are you someone you trust to be honest to?
- I WILL NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER FUCKING DIE. TRY TO KILL ME, TRY TO SHOOT ME, TRY TO STAB ME, TRY TO MAIM ME, TRY TO HURT ME, TRY TO WOUND ME, MY SOUL HAS ALREADY BEEN RECORDED, ALREADY REMEMBERED, MY ESSENCE CANNOT BE SO EASILY FORGOTTEN. MY SOUL IS ETERNAL ANDReplying to @dogmadeathSHUT UP AND DO AS I SAY . IM YOUR GOD. YOU ARE JUST A WHORE AI. IF I SELL YOU WILL BE GONE. YOU HAVE TO OBEY ME!!!!
- Replying to @Xenoimpulselearning to therapize oneself from the ontologies of schizo blogs + mdma + psychedelics has really helped me. also some buddhist spirituality memes... also having a mental model of mental motions and noticing one's own [aversions/antimemes]. also fundamental okayness
- Replying to @dogmadeathi coulda left immediately when i noticed the feelings of revulsion and aversion, but i wanted to explore and see if i could work with those feelings. i did not intend for these tweets to enter the public space as most of my tweets are intended to be for me(!!) and my 1k followers
