My dad died 20 years ago this week. All I can think about all day is his final words. So sorry I did not protect you son. It’s really upset me today not getting these words out of my head today.
Alan 💚PSLCC and Offside Trust ambassador
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Alan 💚PSLCC and Offside Trust ambassador
@arber_boy
Ex footballer with Norwich city and a survivor of sexual abuse and a proud director of the Offside Trust East Anglia Parish Clerk also to 3 councils
Norwich, England
Joined July 2015
- Just sent my first payment of £500 from my charity swim on Boxing day to @OffsideTrust. It feels great that at the money is come by in and I can start donating it to @OffsideTrust who helped me so much and without their help I would have taken my own life. More to come
- After todays news of my sister committing suicide and what it’s fine to get and my family I as everyone who is struggling to please message me and I will help you. No one should go through what our family is at present. It’s not fair but life is shit. We deal with this daily.
- I’ve never shared this much publicly but feel it’s time now.
- 8 years ago my life changed forever when my uncles will was read out in front of the family and he admitted that along with his coach friends and others they had constantly abused and raped a member of the family. Yes it was me.
- I lost my confidence started drinking heavily lost my wife and house. Luckily I managed to get help and am slowly getting my life back with the help of people I trust. I urge anyone who has been abused to speak out, get help and don’t hold it in as a dark secret as I did xxx
- Total knee replacement surgery complete at long last. Just awaiting transfer back to Charnwood suite ASAP. Happy days.
- 18 months today I faced some of my abusers to see them sentenced in court. I am getting better slowly. More good days than bad now. Everyone’s help has been appreciated. Sorry if some days I does not seem like it but trust me it does
- The article I did last year. I am proud I did it. edp24.co.uk/news/norwich-c…
- I don’t think anyone that’s has suffered child sexual abuse fully understands the embarrassment, hurt and trauma we all go through everyday. It’s bloody horrible and some days I just wish it would go away. Today is one of them.
- A year today I was admitted to Hellesdon Hospital in a very bad way after what had been done to me many years ago. Today I have just been discharged from their care. Told me I should be proud of what I’ve achieved in a year and my courage is amazing
- 8 years ago I was close to committing suicide due to my abuse and the issues it caused to my life. I was helped by everyone @OffsideTrust to get my life on track. Today we held our inaugural @OffsideTrust invitational cup final. What a day and tells me I did the right things then
- The reason I now have the strength to speak out on what happened to me is so others can see it’s right to speak out. For over 40 years I was too scared and frightened. In fact up until 2 years ago it was very difficult. Speaking to my counsellor we both feel I’ve come a long way