THIS! You’ve said this before years ago and I can relate 100% but I still can’t train myself to be just in that moment and enjoying it. Always thinking of what’s next or what to expect but not being present.
Not me reading this in some older Chinese lady voice in broken English, lmfaoooooo! Who is this lady in my head and why can I read this in her voice?!??? 😭😭😭
I feel bad for both parties affected. Having to lie for that long and keep a charade hurts the other person immensely but majority of the time it’s due to fear of rejection and how one will be perceived. Religion plays a huge role too. Better to pretend straight than be gay.