Kutsu (@Kutsuuu) / X

Kutsu

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Kutsu

@Kutsuuu

Penelope forever ❤️🕊️

I have no fucking clue

Joined June 2020

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Kutsu
@Kutsuuu
Jun 6, 2025
One year. One year ago, on this day, I would get a discord message that would utterly change my life. The greatest thing that ever has happened to me turned into the worst tragedy I have ever and will ever experience. She showed me what it was like to truly love somebody.
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Kutsu
@Kutsuuu
Dec 24, 2023
Post up blood u ain’t getting an ounce of my who hash
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Kutsu
@Kutsuuu
Jun 6, 2025
Replying to @Kutsuuu
I do not know how she passed. I do not want to know. It is a case where I truly believe ignorance is bliss. But I know it wasn’t self inflicted. She was happy. This is the last picture ever taken of her, from that night. She was happy.
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Kutsu
@Kutsuuu
Jun 6, 2025
Replying to @Kutsuuu
I would give up anything to see her once more. But I know I have to go on, as an angel can only spend so long before they must go back up to heaven. As a final act of love, I will become everything I told you I’m going to be. Thank you, Penny. For everything. I’ll always love you
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Kutsu
@Kutsuuu
Jun 7, 2025
Replying to @Kutsuuu
Y’all don’t respond to the mean comments ur just giving them the attention they seek 💔 just block and move on
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Kutsu
@Kutsuuu
Jun 6, 2025
Replying to @Kutsuuu
In the Sopranos, in relation to love and partners, Sonny has a quote: “You're only allowed 3 great ones in your lifetime, they come along like the great fighters, once every 10 years” I think she counted as all three. She was the best part of me in every way imaginable.
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Kutsu
@Kutsuuu
Jun 6, 2025
Replying to @Kutsuuu
I don't know if I want to talk about the night I found her. I’m already emotionally broken from going through our old messages to get some of these images. Reliving how much I loved her, how good she was to me, I think she was my only chance to be happy in this lifetime.
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Kutsu
@Kutsuuu
Jun 6, 2025
Replying to @Kutsuuu
On multiple occasions I have found myself asking if those three months were even worth it with the years of pain they will end up causing. But I know they were. I would give up the rest of my life to be able to experience just those three months again.
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Kutsu
@Kutsuuu
Jun 6, 2025
Replying to @Kutsuuu
The spark was there immediately. Neither of us knew what it was like to have someone in such a similar world live so close. We immediately planned our first date, Saturday the 8th. I was dying of excitement, so much so I would talk to her every available moment I had until then.
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Kutsu
@Kutsuuu
Jun 6, 2025
Replying to @Kutsuuu
I got home from my first year away at college that night. I had lived in Seattle for a year, and while trying my best that was the hardest year of my life, one where I had gotten close to taking my own life on multiple occasions. I was at rock bottom, but hopeful for the future.
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Kutsu
@Kutsuuu
Jun 7, 2025
Replying to @rikeloldaboss
Bestie I found her body
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Kutsu
@Kutsuuu
Jun 6, 2025
Replying to @Kutsuuu
When we finally met, it was perfect. We got lunch, went to PetCo (hehe), then I took her back home and... I'll never forget that night. Far and away the best night of my life. The only ones that come close are other ones spent with her. I had found my missing piece.
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Kutsu
@Kutsuuu
Jun 7, 2025
Replying to @R_0gu3
They ran tox screens and labs after her passing, but I chose to not look at the results. No answer I can get will help more than it will hurt.
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Kutsu
@Kutsuuu
Jun 6, 2025
Replying to @Kutsuuu
From then on, my life was complete and utter bliss. There were struggles at times, she had held things in her past from me because she was scared, she had struggled all her life and pushed people away and had resentments held against her for it. I knew I could help her.
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