For all of your beautiful, terrible days (and all the ones in-between).
HAVE A BEAUTIFUL, TERRIBLE DAY! is available everywhere books are sold: katebowler.com/books/have-a-bā¦
Every night, in the sweetest voice, my six year old asks me a question in order to try and stall me from leaving. I commit to documenting these questions every night for the next 30 days because THAT KID HAS GAME.
Him: before you go, tell me one constellation of stars.
Me: Orion. Goodnight lovie.
Him: mom, wait! I have to tell you. [dramaric pause] I picked you.
Me: what?
Him: as a baby. I picked you. For my mom.
Me: [melting]
Him: I picked your tummy. You are MY mom.
Me: you win.
Historically, as suffering mounts, the self-serving always say, look, do the math. Some people are more valuable than others.
Godās math is clear. God is on the side of the losing team.
God, give us the courage to be found there, among the weak, where we belong.
Him: goodnight mom. Love you.
Me: love you (leaves)
Him: (next room) Mom? Is cheese funny? I think it is. I only like STRING cheese. ...Mom? Mom. MOM. IS GOOGLE A PERSON?
AND WAS GOD EVER BORN?!???
Tonight: Mom.....mom...mom? Mom. Ok, mom. Have you ever eaten a pumpkin? COME BACK. Mom. Have you ever eaten pumpkin seeds? MOM WHAT DO THEY TASTE LIKE!!!!!!!!!
Me: Goodnight sweetie.
Him: Mom?
Me: no. I love you but no.
Him: Are raccoons awake right now? Mom. They canāt kill you. MOM. They donāt have sharp enough teeth. MOM COME BACK HAVE YOU SEEN THEM IT IS SAFE I AM NOT AFRAID
Me: love you sweetie. Night.
Him: goodnight. To all the crystals.
Me: okay
Him: who was the first person to ever find a crystal?
Me: goodnight love.
Him: in a caaaaaaaaaaaave with maaaaaaaany secrets.
Me: I donāt know how to explain you to other people.
Me: Goodnight my love.
Him: Goodnight mom. This is a good.
Me: Yeah?
Him: Yes. I'm going to sleep now.
Me: Perfect. (leaves)
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Him: DO YOU BELIEVE IN THE LAST MEGALODON?
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Him: (quietly) I think he lives in the ocean.
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Him: THE BACIFIC OCEAN! MOMM. IN A COLD SPOT!
I moved from North Carolina home to Manitoba, Canada šØš¦
186,000 COVID cases + 3000 deaths in North Carolina
1,500 COVID cases + 16 deaths in Manitoba
Testing is quick, masks everywhere + government trust is high.
May ALL OF US who are immuno-fragile get the shelter we deserve.
Him: (yelling) MOM, DO YOU KNOW WHAT HELL IS?
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Him: (yelling) IS MAGIC REAL? IS A MAGIC TRICK A TRICK?
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Him: (grumbling) Well now I am thinking about if the sun is just lava.
Merciful God,
Please surround those closest to @rachelheldevans, bring the unexpected comfort of your Holy Spirit, and draw near to all those who grieve or scream or sit in complete disbelief at this unthinkable absence.
Make this bearable somehow. #BecauseofRHE
If youāre new to constant fear, Iām so sorry. Welcome.
If you were already here, Iām so so sorry. Thank you for your service.
An evening ritual that helps: call it.
No more news + decisions. When the day feels too full, slow it down. Watch. Read.
Go to bed. You are loved.