Hormonal birth control is a big factor in this. Been working in pharmacy claims processing for many years. It is my job to connect dots and see the patterns.
B/C - usually will also result in a mental disorder medication in 90% of cases.
It is not your fault. We wake up when we are meant to. This process for me was one of the most anguishing experiences I have had. Trust yourself, question everything. If something is true, you can see it from multiple vantage points.
If you have never done a deep dive into recorded history of new stars appearing and how it aligns to cyclical dates, it is quite eye opening to say the least.
Our guns are in hopes we never have to use them, but if we do, we have them. Who is going to protect you from the bad guys with guns? Bad guys will always have guns, why shouldn't the good guys?