Everybody is saying this is terrifying but when i'm sick I want the security and confidence that this fortress of medicine exudes.
Let me be swallowed by the concrete abyss. Let the urgency of my mortal struggle vanish in the magnitude of the monolith, this citadel of healthcare.
the biggest suprise for me is the calm? I just feel so relaxed on it. all the constant double checks I'm running and anxiety there of is gone. life is simple. I just do things. chop wood carry water
to that end, this is the most productive day I've had in ages. life feels like, easy??? like this??
I am not used to life feeling easy or good as a baseline.