undernoillusion

i dont know if its just me.

i can .like any normal man engage with a woman normally up to a certain point. i can be in the throes of a sexual encounter and something takes over.

for me, i hear a dominant mistress voice in the back of my mind.ordering me,...slave.

i find it surreal.

in the midst of a sexual encounter imy mind has to revert to being ordered, told what to do and i cannot complete until demanded.

its very unfair on my sexual partners as at that moment when we should be most joined and intimate i am lost and away menatlly and cant explain.

i am not explaining this well either

i often ponder in this world of ours about the inevitability of capture. whilst we all like to think us males will never be actually captured, and though it may be our dream to be so...is there a moment in time when it occurs and all resistance ,mental,spiritual and physical is finished for ever? what is that moment like for the dominant? 

some tell me that its inevitable once we begin to engage and that resistance becomes more and more recognisable as petty challenges easily swatted aside.

my tuppence worth,i shall call it MIIP,its nothing serious just something browsing through my head. 

M :

meeting,this can be online or real life but its a general thing,finding if there is something in common interest,something mutual that offers some promise in the future.this can last a while and there is no urgency from either party 

I:

interview, again can be online or over a cup of coffee and is a more thorough investigation by both parties to find something more interesting about each other. again there is no pressure exerted and its just a commonality thing, this is what i think etc or i feel or i have expereinced this and that. 

I:

interrogation, this is when the dominant begins to get serious and exert some pressure,finding fault,questioning theories, and gauging reactions from the submissive, even triggering some responses.the sub/slave can at this stage opt out or become afraid. the weaknesses found can be used in the next process. 

P:

Penetration, this is when the dominant enters the sub/slave,it can be mental, physical, spiritual whatever. from here control is certain,weaknesses exposed and used and the will of the subject is eroded. at this point the only thing stopping the dominant is there own red lights and imagination. the sub/slave has aceded to everything at this stage and is open.