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A few days ago I scheduled a coffee date with someone on a different kinky site. I'd accidentally sent him a "wink" when my finger slipped on his profile, which was unfortunate as he also identifies as a dominant. However, he DMed me about having submissive tendencies that he didn't mention on his profile (nothing on there about being a switch). We chatted off and on for a few days and then decided to schedule a coffee date.
He's in another city, but close enough that I wasn't too worried about his commute. He was way younger than what I was looking for, but he assured me that he wasn't worried about the age discrepancy. He wasn't commercially attractive, so I wasn't completely suspicious of his motives, but he was quite vague in direct messaging about what he was hoping for.
Having bussed over, I got there early enough to get a to-go tea and grab a table. We'd talked about getting warm beverages and going for a walk while we chatted, weather permitting. I played Pokémon Go as I waited, having multiple tasks and projects to address in the game as apparently beating Team Rocket Go Boss Giovanni wasn't enough for one day.
I experimented with ways to look up when someone came in without looking expectant. He and I had traded photos, so we pretty much knew what each other looked like. I committed to staying at least 15 minutes after our official meeting time as getting parking in that neighborhood could be tricky. We hadn't swapped phone numbers, so I checked the site periodically to see if he'd contacted me: nothing.
A PoGo raid started at 3:15pm on the dot, so I left closer to 3:25pm ... just after he sent several messages to me over the kink site about his truck giving up the ghost to the tune of $4,000 and him being so worried about it all.
Uh-huh.
It's possible that he was telling the truth and that this wasn't some really, really bad attempt at a scam. But then I remembered his reported age, the vagueness about what he was hoping for, the secret reveal that he was interested in finding a domme; and I think that maybe I dodged a bullet.
Mollena Williams-Haas once talked about gameifying putting oneself out there by awarding oneself points to being brave enough to try, pulling together the energy to be bothered, presenting oneself attractively, and - in this case - even bothering to show up. So, hey - I have more points!
And that tea was quite lovely. Now that the journals are active once again and I can bypass the normal profile edit failures I can express what I am looking for without it being rejected arbitrarily with no reasons stated.
What I seek is an online connection with a sincere submissive (female) with the same desires. I enjoy conversation both related to the lifestyle and vanilla.
I am into the mental aspects of CONTROL & submission and I have missed the intensity of getting into a submissive's mind.
Married is fine (in fact preferred) as I am married as well and I am not here to find a replacement but to meet one I can connect with who shares the same situation.
I enjoy contact via IRC, IM, email chat and other means to be negotiated.
I will consider couples but the female must be submissive and onboard actively. Surprise MFM
Tonight would be their first night together and he wanted it to be special for her. From the moment he saw her profile he knew that she was unique and he knew he had to have her as his submissive. She was beautiful with a hint of naughty in her smile. Her eyes were stunning and looking into them melted his heart. Her body was seductively curvy with gorgeous mounds of breasts that he longed to fondle and suckle on. Her pussy was perfectly smooth and juicy, tempting him to devour and consume it with his mouth. He could not rest until she was his and tonight he would finally get to meet her in person. He wondered if after all these weeks of trading messages, was she as nervous as he was?
He made arrangements to meet her at a hotel in the downtown area. The hotel had a rooftop restaurant with stunning views of the city and surrounding area. It was a perfect location for a romantic first evening together. They met in the lobby and after a brief exchange of pleasantries, headed to the elevator so as to be on time for the dinner reservation. As the doors were closing a guy in workout clothes jumped on and pushed his floor number. I had already pushed the rooftop restaurant button when I noticed that I knew the gentleman in the workout clothes. We exchanged some small talk and it turned out we were both set to attend the same conference the next day. Just as the elevator stopped on his floor he asked if I wouldnt mind stopping by his room just for a second so he could give me something concerning a business deal. Reluctantly I agreed and we followed him a few doors down the hall to his room. He unlocked the door, entered and motioned for us to follow him in while he found what he was looking for. It will only take a second, he assured us.
Almost simultaneously as we entered the room everything changed to fast forward mode!! I closed the door behind us and pushed you further into the room where both men guided you to the bed as we undressed you. Holy hell your mind was racing. Is this the surprise MFM you were always fantasizing about? Wow, and yes my dear, two men will soon be taking their pleasure in your sweet submission. Before you even have time to think about it we have your clothes off and you are on your back in the middle of the bed!! There were lengths of rope nearby and we had you restrained with legs spread nice and wide in no time. Now we can all slow down and enjoy your pleasures.
I began between your legs touching and tasting your dripping wet pussy. I slipped two fingers inside you as I licked and sucked on your clit. My friend stood at your head and played with your nipples while we all settled in for some delightful treats. While we were playing with you we both undressed and exposed our throbbing hard cocks. My friend was first as I instructed you to lick and suck on his cock while I watched. You did as you were told, reluctantly at first, but then more enthusiastically as his cock stiffened and swelled even harder in your mouth. By this time you could not see that I had lubed up my cock and you barely flinched as I applied lube to your cute tight ass. Next I pushed my stiff shaft slowly but firmly inside your ass and watched for your reaction. You flinched ever so slightly at first and then melted into an eager participation soon after. You were slurping and sucking my friends cock and you were moving your hips in sync with my slow thrusts inside your ass. I was watching you and encouraging you to cum for me as I rubbed inside your pussy with my fingers and played with your clit with my thumb. When the moment felt right I took my Hitachi wand and vibrated your clit firmly as I fucked your ass harder. mmmmm yes that made you burst!! I could feel your pussy and ass twitching for me and hear you nearly choking on my friends cock as you squirmed in orgasmic delight!!
I reminded you what a good girl you were for doing as daddy instructed. As you slowly recovered I traded places with my friend. I lay on my back and told you to suck on my cock while my friend fucked you doggy style. I kept telling you how beautiful you are and how I love watching you sucking dick and getting fucked with me. For now I want to watch you cum while my friend fucks you from behind. I want to watch the pleasure build in your eyes while you tell me how good it feels getting fucked. I encourage you to cum hard like a dirty girl for daddy!! I remind you how beautiful you are and how I love to make you cum until finally you shudder with another delightful orgasm!!
Before you can recover we trade places so I can fuck you from behind and watch your tight wet pussy sliding on my cock. You resume sucking my friends cock while I fuck you doggy style. I have a wonderful view in the nearby mirror of you taking cock like a good little girl!! I tell you how good your pussy grip looks on my cock as I pull out and how velvet soft your wet slit is each time I ram my dick home deep. At first the pace is slow and steady but gradually it increases until my balls are knocking on your clit at the end of each thrust and we are making a wet slapping sound as I drive home deep inside you. I can tell we are both getting close and just then I feel your pussy begin to twitch and it sets me off!! My cock explodes in delight inside your hot tight cunt and we both moan with pleasure as we twitch with delightful bliss!! Aw fuuuuckkkkk that was goooood!!
I collapse next to you and tell you how much I cherish your precious submission. You are absolutely beautiful and now you are mine!! Not wanting to leave my friend unsatisfied I encourage you both to finish him while I watch. I suggest he fucks you in the ass and that way we have both used all three of your delightful fuck holes but no matter to me I am totally satisfied. I just want to watch my beautiful baby girl until he finally leaves and we are alone together once more. Later tonight we will drift off in slumber and tomorrow I will think of even more ways to use my sweet submissive. Perhaps I will wake her in the morning by licking her pussy softly or perhaps she will wake me by sucking my cock.....each one a very delightful thought!! The power and vibration of a Harley reminds me of my time driving a train. When I would start a "big jack" as we called it, the power of that engine engulfed me. To know I controled all that power was a feeling that took some adjusting to. I cannot know what the power feels like driving a Harley or anykind of bike for that matter. But I do know the feeling on the back of a bike. The freedom, the wind blowing in my hair. My legs pressed against his legs, my arms around his waist, and my tits pressed against his back. Quite a intimate experience no doubt.
It always amazed me that the bikers would always wave at the trains. This was a universal thing from Az, NM, Colorado,the Black Hills of South Dakota,Wyoming, the midwest of Iowa and even to Minnesota, most of the places I worked in my carreer. Most times they wanted to hear the horn blow to. Just like those of us who want semis to blow their horns going down the road.
I went full out of my comfort zone a few weeks ago and asked a vanilla guy at the gym for a ride on his Harley. It was a Friday. He acted like he was excited by my actions.We exchanged numbers and later that day he asked me where I would want to take a ride to. We agreeded on Tombstone, for the upcoming Wednesday. On Saturday morning I sent a text to him hoping his day was going good. He responded, and so did I. And that was it. I never heard from him again. Naturally he has also avoided being at the gym. And in general just made me disappointed in another vanilla male.
It doesen't stop my craving though. To be on the back of a bike again going down the road! Maybe one day it will happen again...
Maintenance Beating
There has been an on going discussion about maintenance beating. Generally, I adhere to the idea of that in order to keep the slave's mind right.
Of course, regular maintenance beatings are seperate and apart from punishements that may have been earned by the slave.
Certainly, when intially entering My service daily maintenance beatings are necessary to promote acculturation. Service to Me requires a greatly reduced ego in the slave. That energy that was once selfe centered in the slave must be redirected to My benefit.
Thing is, the slave that I desire wants exactly the same thing. However, not infrequently its social adjustments have included messages about itself that contradict its inborn nature and it lives in conflict. To the degree that conflict is resolved to that degree it finds peace and fullfilment.
There is the issue of pain sluts. These masochists crave punishment. With this type I do have alternate means of ego right sizing.
On an ongoing basis maintenance beatings will most likely be the rule in My house. The frequency and intensity of the beating will be tailored to My desires, not the slaves. Here is the deal . Just because you send Me a picture of yourself does not mean I have to send you Mine. If I wanted My picture out there I would have it on My profile now wouldn't I ?
If I get to really know you and think that we might be a possibility I have no problem sending , picture, email and phone.
However and until then don't ask for any of that.
Understand I get several messages a day. Some are ones from another country, some are just looking to " play" some are only in a fantasy space in their heads, some are married , some have their own place and will never move. There are many variations and reasons why I don't go farther with somone. But, those are the main ones.
Honesty seems to be quite rare on here.... First be honest with yourself. We aren't looking for someone perfect, loyalty, honesty and long term that is what I am looking for. That is what I'm used to and like.
And men seriously ... use that little brain of yours. This site is getting more and more scammers of men posing as woman.
They say all the "right things" and some of you believe it, then they ask for money. Wake up, it don't work that way.
A 29 year old model with a stolen only fans picture is NOT after you. he/she/it want's your money
thats it. Don't be stupid and encourage the scammers .
What I have learned from messaging with Slave Masters who actually know the proper techniques for taking a person and transitioning them into a submissive, gay, loyal slave who is happy in it's new life of slavedom and has no thoughts or regrets for leaving it's previous life of freedom to domestically and sexually serve and service a Master as owned property. The Slave Master who knows how to dehumanize the slave-to-be uses sensory deprivation, hoods, and calculated pain with restraints and whippings and ass spankings to break the potential slave with feelings of hopelessness until the slave yearns for Master to teach it to be happy with calculated release from the pain ect and slave learns Master's Routine and Protocol. Once Master has made slave aware of it's postion to it's Master, then Master can begin Training slave to be a slave. slave now willingly accepts it owes it's care and existence to it's Master. slave is kept restrained but is not like a prisoner in jail or like when the Roman Empire took captured soldiers as slaves and treated them brutally. . The slave slowly learns it's function is to work to please and pleasure it's Master. slave will even learn to thank it's Master for the periodic whippings and ass spankings by sucking and servicing Master's Dominant Cock after each Whipping and Ass Spanking as a sign Master is pleased to have a loyal slave. "She knew he was about to finish. She could tell.
His grip on her hips got stronger, his breathing picked up, he started going even faster. It wasn't exactly subtle, but it wasn't anything he needed to hide anyway. She kept doing what she'd been doing from the moment he slid in: moaning, pushing back, being for him.
He came. She did not.
They stayed locked together panting a few moments. His cock twitching, emptying into her. Her head hung low. He gave her a squeeze and a kiss on the back of the neck.It wasn't as though she used to cum from being fucked, at least not all the time. It was just that she used to care that she didn't. There's be disappointment, there'd be frustration.Now, she didn't even notice. It didn't cross her fluffy, mostly-empty mind. The constant need was normal. The itch to be scratched had stopped being an itch, just become part of how she was. That she even could have cum from being fucked had long been forgotten.Good girls don't cum, so... what?
Nothing was missing.
When he pulled out she turned around straightaway, like she'd been trained, and took his cock into her mouth. To clean herself off of him, to clean whatever drops of him he hadn't left inside her already, and to thank him for letting her be useful.It had felt good, obviously. So good. So, so good. But it wasn't for her.
It was for him. Just like all of her was. She had purpose now, not like before. He'd saved her from that, given something better to her. Given her what she'd really been meant for.
So being thankful was important.
Certainly, much, much more important than cumming could ever be."
Pain or Punishment
Masochists ask for pain for pains sake & need
...but punishment is something different.
Punishment is not meant to please it is a means to correct, to re-aline, to educate, to change a behaviour.
Punishment means you are going to suffer physically or mentally or even both.
There will be no fun or excitement in punishment but it likely to be very memorable. I am a feminist, not a misandrist. I don't hate men, they just prove to be misogynistic or just plain emotionally dumb most of the time. I didn't say ALL MEN before someone messages me with some violent diatribe about how I need to be put in my place for thinking all men are like that. I am a human being first before anything else. If you cannot treat me as such then I will not treat you as such. It's very simple. You get the energy you give with me. That's why compatibility is so absolutely 💯 vital and should never be overlooked or diminished. Anyone who tries to convince you otherwise is a predator plain and simple. Do better, be better, or block me. Read the next passage for more about who and what I am in this lifestyle. I dont' mind telling you, fetish world, kink people, that I am frustrated. I am frustrated by the surge of Omicron after we finally seemed to be turning a corner on the original COVID, then Delta, etc. I am frustrated that this is slowing down my ability to pursue my interests, as I don't consdider it wise to go hang out in a bar right now or get coffee with an interesting individual. It is making me take my time even more than usual in my seeking of the right person, and I think in some discussions I've had, it is slowing down others' will or desire to take those risks as well. And that's ok because I'd rather spend my time with someone who shares my risk appetite than someone throwing caution to the wind.
I've also seen a really disturbing trend of interesting people just deleting their profiles here mid conversation. I strongly suspect that the ambient stress of pandemic life and the demands of what should be Normal Life are creating unsustainable levels of internal conflict for folks, who eventually just hit the panic button and run from places like this.
I don't have a cure, that's for sure. The scientists keep working on it though. There's a new pill based treatment getting Emergency Use Authorization as of late December 2021. The vaccines work, boosters are available, and the whole testing thing, while it needs work, is somewhat available.
So do me a favor folks. Especially those of you possibly interested in a Domme like me, because I want my social life back. Get your damned shot. Get your booster. Get your friends and family vaxxed. There's really no reason to help the virus find victims, it's good enough at that on its own. Well come to a crossing point in my life, as I approach the mid 70's I've come to the conclusion that I can no longer FUCK, nope the pecker has been used up. But, alway a butt, that doesn't mean I'm any less Dom, I just change with the situation, from now on its toys and tongue. And not patting myself on the back I can eat pussy like a lesbian. Now that is girl and gurl pussy. As for toys I have things you haven't dream of using ready to make you cream like a swollen river A Central Florida-based Mistress seeks a local, submissive individual or slave. Please note that this is not a temporary arrangement, but rather a long-term commitment. I value honesty and transparency, and in return, I offer the same. Whether you are new to this lifestyle or experienced, I am happy to work with you. My goal is to help you reach your full potential and become the best version of yourself. If you are ready to surrender and allow me to guide you, let's discuss the details. I tend towards being an opportunistic slut. I would also love to find an ongoing partner but that is like seeking a needle in a haystack.
I really like to fuck. Feeling cocks inside of me feels good. Stranger dicks even better.
I say opportunistic because I don't fit into the classic mold too well. I am not a tease. A game men seem to like. I am not an attention whore or classically an exhibitionist. I do not do the hair, makeup, etc...what a waste of time. I am also a tad dense and oblivious. I like assertive men and really you have to be because it will go over my head.
I have different interests. Some blend into each other but others can operate independently.
When I am a slut I am not your sub unless I am your sub and you choose to use me as your slut. Does that make sense? Men tend to forget that. They also mistakenly believe that sluts will fuck anyone and exist solely to please them. That's what whores are for. Which I am not. I am in it for MY pleasure. If I do not reply or opt out it is because I either do not foresee my needs being met OR that I don't share the interests that you desire.
Ultimately I'd like to find that needle in a haystack. One whose drive matches my own and has enough compatible freedom and time for something ongoing.
A dominant needs to recognize I am a slut. I'm not a little or a bimbo or brainless. In fact I'm quite capable of being a fully functional adult. Lol I don't need "help". What I do want is a dominant who likes control and enjoys fulfilling his primal and sometimes twisted desires with a sub who will defer to his whims and needs.
So what are my interests? I would say I have a core set and additional ones that arise with someone I may meet.
I like nipple/breast play/torture. I like being restrained. I like a swollen pussy and marks. I like anal. I have a decent pain tolerance and I do enjoy some types. I am not what one would call a pain slut. Pain for me is correlated to pleasure. I would love to be shared. Use me wherever and whenever. I love wearing cum. Throat fuck me, gag me...you can be pretty brutal. I am not into cock worship or endless oral. Youve heard of lactose intolerance? I have a semen intolarance so I cannot drink it down. <----100% true. I cannot change that and the side affects are identical.
I am open to so much more but I am not bi. No women or couples. No scat. Don't even mention eating pussy because no you won't make me like it.
Clearly this is a sexual type relationship. I am married as ive stated so looking for those who need someone more for their own perverted/kinky fun.
Other questions? Ask. It's strange to write a journal entry that everyone can see.
I've talked to a number of people here in the past week or so, and I enjoy learning about what people are looking for while trying to figure out my own desires.
Some people have commented on my seemingly contradictory feelings about exhibitionism. I never want to be exposed in public where people can see my face and my body. Yet, the idea of anonymous exhibitionism is intriguing, and something I definitely fantasize about.
I think writing in this journal is a good way for me to push myself toward the kind of vulnerability I'm afraid of, but also crave.
It's a very real kind of exposure. So the forums are back up, we'll see how long that lasts. I deleted my old profile after they disappeared, but when I rejoined today I was able to get my old username. So I am back, just to see how things are. Maybe even start writing again. I wrote in my journal regularly before, even had a few followers. I was known for my bitchy honesty. We'll see if I am still that way or if I have settled down some in my older age. If you think I would spit on you
And call you a cunt
I'm sorry but that's not what I do.
I'm way more subtle , and with far more respect
To be such a prick to you.
I will set you rules that you will have to obey
No doubt you will break at least one every day
Rules on your dress, you grooming , your place
On how you must act, in our private space
I will cane you for punishment,long and hard
Strap you to keep you line
You will beg my forgiveness , plead with remorse
Bits that's all part of this design.
For a man is man , head of the house
The role of the woman is to serve
And when each knows their role ,then both both understand
Each gets all that they deserve
She will get love, certainly and discipline ,
Each in appropriate measure
He will have a woman , submissive and pleasing
His to always treasure.
I this is a follow up to the 4/3/2018 post
People have said I am negative, yet I come here and I see all the negative profiles and wonder to myself, how on earth will these people find happiness, with this kind of attitude? I have gotten the oh I will be your slave if you pay my way to you... after a 5 minute conversation. I have heard about so many Dom's passing away, I feel like the term Dominant is cursed! I want to find someone who has a sense of humour, who doesn't mind taking their time getting to know each other and seeing what can happen. What would you rather have a store bought frozen and thaw cake, although good, it would never match a cake that was made just for you, because the one made for you has one special ingredient has that the other doesn't, and I do not mean mono sodium glutamate. I mean love Cheers And always remember to watch out for motorcycles when you are on the road I am just an honest women.
I will tell another women they are beautiful - I am comfortable in my own skin. Told 20 women of all ages they are stunning.
I will tell a trans women she is a diva if she looks so convincing I would want to learn beauty secrets from them (he/she/undecided) - still comfortable in my own skin to tell a trans women they are Gorgeous with a capital G.
I will tell a women who sticks on a corset and thinks automatically they are dominant they are not. Also this odd women stuck on a sailors hat? LOL - I am still laughing.
But dear women, I will also call some of you out for your BS.
Tips on Courting a Domme
Over the years I've had my fair share of good luck when it comes to successfully courting Dommes and I've given out quite a bit of advice to subs looking to court Dommes. I consider myself to be average to below average when it comes to my looks and physical attractiveness, job quality, etc. so I must have done something right in making a good impression.
Now that I have a blog I figured I would post my advice in full. I covered several of these a little over a week ago but I figure they could easily have their own post.
1. Be courteous, respectful, and have good manners.
This should probably go without saying but one of the biggest turn-offs many Dommes have are subs who fail to meet these basic requirements. This is the most important thing in making a good first impression. If you are contacting them through an adult dating site, make sure you read her entire profile first and adhere to any requirements she might have. Write out a well-thought message (complete with spell check) that indicates what you find interesting about her (aside from her looks and your fantasy) and what you have to offer. Do not send a picture of your penis unless she specifically requests it. It doesn't take a lot of effort to be a perfect gentleman.
Most Dommes on adult dating sites receive 20-300 messages per day from potential subs, 90% of which are disrespectful, thoughtless, or downright crude. If you are approaching a Domme in public (at a munch, play party etc.) you have to be twice as well-behaved since there is only a limited chance that she is actually looking for a sub. If she says no, be courteous and get out of her face. If you don't, you can basically assume you will be blacklisted within that community.
2. Be a real person.
No one is "just a sub" all the time. No Domme is "just a Domme" all the time. Even if both of you are seeking a 24-7 lifestyle relationship, you have to come off as more than just a live in servant(unless that is specifically what she is looking for). Have interests. Have feelings. Have dreams. Have goals. Have a personality. Have a sense of humor. Just like in vanilla relationships, all of these things will be important if you want to be an appealing life partner.
If you are as interesting as a box of hair, expect to be discarded as easily as a box of hair. She won't want to be burdened by having to keep you occupied and entertained all day every day. That is higher maintenance than being needy.
What are your favorite movies? Books? Music? Hobbies? Sports?
If you can pique her interest as a person, you are much more likely to succeed in winning her over. If you are smart, funny, and caring it will go a long ways.
3. Have a philosophy and a good gr of yourself.
It's easy to think about the sub you want to be. Hell, most subs have probably fantasized about Femdom situations for years before they act upon them. If you haven't thought about it, think about it. If you have thought about it, refine it a little more.
Step One: Define your idealized form of submission.
If she is the right match for you, your ideal and her ideal will likely coincide. This is not about what kind of play you enjoy or what kind of kinky fantasies you wish to have. Dommes an advantage since they can have rather meticulous expectations for a sub. Think about what types of characteristics and responsibilities those entail. Should a sub perform all of the household chores and domestic duties? Should a sub have any expectations of rewards or pleasures? Should a sub expect to be treated as a lover?
There is no right or wrong (although some of them should be obvious), but more a matter of preference. If your view of being a sub involves few responsibilities, you will probably be looking for a less strict Domme or a switch. If your view of being a sub involves extensive micro-management, that will be targeted towards a particular type of Domme. Some Dommes want a sub that is their lover, others may want a strict code of Mistress/servant formality. D/s relationships that work out generally will have idealized ideas of subm FAQ
Q: Are you lactating now?
A: No, and that is by design. My fantasy involves the transformation. That is the biggest part of my fantasy. It will not change until I find my owner.
Q: Is that you in the picture?
A: Yes, that is me. Last year for my birthday, I gifted myself the harness. It took me awhile to get around to trying it on. Life is often busy.
Q: Can we play? How about a play date?
A: I don’t do play dates. This is about transforming my body. I need a committed partner for this journey. This is if the first meet goes well.
Q: Why is the distance different than the city?
A: I moved. The website doesn’t update miles properly. I didn’t code it. No, I’m not a scammer and freaking sick and tired of the attitude about proving it. Don’t like the website design then F off and stop harassing me about it.
Q: Will you relocate?
A: I literally just moved here. So no.
Q: Are you open to a couple?
A: No. Totally into monogamy. Open relationships don’t work for me. Good luck on your search.
Q: Are you open to a married man?
A: No, and if I find out who you are married to, I will send trans and pictures to them along with the contact info for a great divorce attorney.
Q: I love ANR, would you be interested in me suckling you?
A: ANR is an adjacent kink, but not one I’m into. I prefer the degradation of the hucow kink.
Q: I have a cow, I want another. Are you interested?
A: I’m into monogamy, so herd play isn’t my thing.
Q: Mail here sucks. Let’s chat elsewhere.
A: Yes it does suck.
Been pondering lots recently, wants, needs, likes, and how different each can be. How they can even be contradictions.
There are rarely simple answers to such pondering, I need to get some work done on the car, but I don't want to, its too bloody cold. Likewise clearing the yard, fixing the stable roof etc. Worst is when my needs/wants/likes means relying on others who can't help by doing their part.
So tomorrow, I'm going to just tidy my desk, await the delivery of new printer, and move so.e of the crap of other people clutteringthe conservatory so I can refill it with my junk Master's WritingsSadomasochistic Play and the Importance of ConnectionIt is too easy when participating in Sadomasochistic play of any kind, be it impact, pain play or any other of the associated fetishes, for the experience to become emotionally and even physically disconnected between partners - the Sadist becoming consumed by their connection to their tool (whip, cane, etc), the precision of their strikes, the technique used, and the masochist becoming lost in the enormity of the sensation, the loss of physical control as the pain increases and the anticipation of the next strike. As both become lost in their own world within the scene, it is easy to experience a loss of connection between them as the scene progresses.I find that maintaining or even working to build greater connection during such play is one of the most important things I can do as a Sadist and a Dominant. For me as a Sadist, who is also a Dominant and a Daddy, I find that there exists a uniquely rich opportunity to be a caring and connected Sadist, through physical contact, the use of voice and deliberate and careful observation that goes beyond the safety aspaspects during a scene are very important in changing a sadomasochistic scene from something done to the masochist to a shared experience that binds rather than separates.In all my play, regardless of the fetish, I seek to create experiences that enrich, nourish and build relationship. While not every scene or situation can accomplish these every time, they remain a goal I strive for whenever possible. OK OK OK OK OK OOOOOKAYY Attn: MASTERS /OWNERS
i offically have the funds to get me anywhere in the united states i think. if you dont know me by now i have been seeking and owner /master to spend the rest of our times together. with that been said allow me to tell you ALLL about me incase your intrested in onwing a sissy pet. (Ps. excuse any grammer erros and or misspelling)
MY NAME IS MATEO OCAMPO AKA: MAKAYLA ERMOSA..
i am currently 24 going on 25 on april 9. i am average to fit build. hmmm lemmie see well im an aries but a very unique on... since my characteristics lean towards leading and what not and knowing i am not one to assume a leadership rolll anything that over powers me. enslaves me or take the ability away to do what i want TURNS ME THE HECK ON!!! i crave it dramatically lol
knowing that ive develoed a sumissive personality and beacame a really really obidient little sissy property piece not to mention my youth and sexy boddy heeehee .....--- hmm this isnt coming out to well so ill stop right here and will rewrite on this topic when i get a spontaioius streak of the proper thought and bettter explained
nevertheless for now here you go please feel free to ask away just if you can possable make it a multiplle choice questions lol it would help me answer better lol
umm but yea long story short:
i have money to buy a ticket and go anywhere in the US i am a very willing kind obident sexxy little play thing looking to be owned. i am very adaptable and could be molded into literally LITERALLY anything you desire and pretty dam good at it too lol ( i could just tell ) :)
so imagnin haveing a sexii little thing in the palm of your hands.. within a few weeks of training you have a very willing enthousiastic sissy toy doing exactly what you crave exactlly the way you crave it. sound yummy huh lol
so freaken florida is making it hard to obtain HRT and since i stopped before the bill went into place theres even more hurtles to get them :( it sucks so bad i havent been on inlike 3-4 month i think... i forgot... so one of the very first things i want to do is get back on HRT as soon as possible. but dont worry im still cute petite and feminim :) juss saying lol I wrote this as part of an introductory message to someone and think it was good enough to share here.
"This is an alternative lifestyle to me
There are several reasons, one is something that kind of bothered me at a young age I shoved thebad thoughts I had, I had even as a very young youth, thoughts that both horrified and fascinated meI used to justify my thoughts as not being cruel if what I did, I did to those who deserved it, like criminals etc What worried me was the sexuality I feltIt was much later in life, around 40 years ago I started putting it all together from a primal blueprint and social and religious pressure through to conditioning I was relieved to find a world I fitted, and its this world and learning to interact between the lifestyle and the vanilla world that I have been studying, learning, teaching and livingIts a strange world with so many dark and mysterious places."
Democracy, as we know it, is about to change for us and generations to come if this orange prick does what he says he's going to do. And I believe everything he says even tho he's the biggest liar that ever lived. It infuriates me to think how many people worship him and believe he's going to make their lives so much better. They're about to find out just how bad their lives are going to get because they blindly supported him. Maybe we can save our country in 2 years but I'm not counting on it. Hopefully there will be enough suffering til then so that there can be a shift in power. I'm horrified about what's to come. Everyone with half a brain should be. OK last one for now, going back to bed, still horny.
I work in software, and I was thinking about the term Alpha male, we have a thing called alpha software....
Got it, here's a comparison joke that makes the alpha male look bad:
- Alpha Male: Constantly needs validation.
- Alpha Software: Constantly gets validated by QA.
- Alpha Male: Shows off muscles.
- Alpha Software: Shows off robust features.
- Alpha Male: Only appears confident.
- Alpha Software: Only appears in production after rigorous testing.
- Alpha Male: Tries to control everyone around him.
- Alpha Software: Allows users to control everything.
- Alpha Male: Thinks he's flawless.
- Alpha Software: Admits to bugs and gets better with updates. Noone Owes You A living
In the last few weeks, I've learned a lot of painful lessons. Top of the list is learning that no matter how solid you may think something is, no matter how well built and diligently assembled you may feel it is, no matter how recently it's solidity was tested and found good and true, that something can fail with breathtaking speed. Literally here today, gone tomorrow.
As a consequence, I find myself amazed that I STILL have to learn not to put too much reliance on one thing. We all need supports, we all need things and people in our lives that matter to us and who we matter to, but the lesson is that such things and people must, by virtue of necessity, be a plural. If we become too reliant on a single support then we run the risk that, should that support fail us then we fail with it. The collapse can be dangerous mentally, emotionally and physically because not only is so much of our structure built on that support, but there's not a huge amount left to work with when it's gone.
So spread the load, don't put too many eggs in one basket and, whatever you do, don't put all the eggs in one basket.
Secondly, and equally surprising that I STILL haven't learned it, is that as much as we want to be good for others and to show them love and support and kindness, we have to also do that for ourselves. We must remember to be an advocate for and believer in ourselves before we attempt to do those things for another. I feel this is for two reasons.
Firstly, if we cannot be for ourselves what we seek to be for others, how much value does what we offer actually have in our own eyes? How can we offer ourselves to another if we don't think we have much value and, in truth, don't actually want or like our self? Isn't that basically re-gifting the shitty present you got for Christmas or a birthday, and if it is what kind of a way is that to treat or see either ourselves or the person we offer ourselves to? Aren't we essentially saying that we hold them in such high regard we want them to have something we don't value or like or have a use for?
Secondly, assuming we do value our own love and support and kindness, we must always keep a personal stash of it just for our use. We must do this otherwise we risk the damaging, diminishing effaspects of someone taking those valued parts of ourselves and, instead of giving us the best of them in return, suddenly deciding they've had their fill and they're moving on. We are left not just lacking in the resources we need to function in their absence, but also knowing that we only have ourselves to blame for assuming that just because we wanted the best for them doesn't mean they're obliged to want the best for us. And if they did once, we have no right to assume they will continue to do so just because we want them to.
The third lesson is simple; people change, and nothing changes people like other people. We are all dynamic, constantly evolving and constantly discovering new places we want to go and new people want to be with and new people we want to become. And if that holds true for others then by definition it can and should hold true for us. We are not who we were, we are not really who we because really we're just constantly becoming who we will be. In the face of that, stability is an illusion and the only person we can and should truly depend on is ourselves. Everything and everyone else is temporary in our lives. We are permanent.
And the last lesson is a cliche. If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it doesn’t, then it was never meant to be. 1-Do not call Me Mistress. Call Me Queen or QueenDr. And when you are owned,Owner.
2-do not use you-yours-yourself.ALWAYS capitalize the 1st letter "You-Yours-Yourself" 7/10/2023
It's been a long time since I updated my profile or made a journal entry so thought I would catch up a bit.
I found my mate or rather she found me one evening when we were both online and onsite here. She made a snarky comment about my then profile picture which had one of my pack llamas in it. We started yacking back and forth and 3 days later met on a local walking trail with our dogs and have been together ever since.
We live together in a monogamus M/s 1950s lifestyle. She takes care of me full time and I provide the income, roof over our heads and security. I retired 3 years ago so no more alarm clocks and 12 hour commute/work days!
We go camping with our tent trailer either across the mountains or to the ocean several times a year. We have been going on long road trip vacations to National Parks every year or two. Last Year was a 4 week trip to 6 National Monuments and 5 National Parks in Oregon, Idaho and Utah. Lots of Lava, caves, arches, spires, hoodoos and canyons!
We've been together coming up on 9 years now since we met on that walking trail. We will be together for the rest of our lives! Not bad HUH!!! People are vastly different. So to find a single needle in 100 haystacks is seemingly an impossible feat.
Be yourself and be completely open and honest. Don't ever lie in order to find what your looking for because the lie will eventually come to the surface. .
In my opinion to be dominate is not to act or be mean to someone. It's not to hate or belittle in order to get someone to do what you want them to do.
Being self assured and dominate means to take care of and pass on knowledge. To take someone and fulfill their lives and make them useful.
We all have a role to play in this universe. When your happy and content that means your exactly where you should be and doing what you should be doing at that moment. So many people are on here searching ... searching but never finding or not really knowing what they are looking for. ( I'm a dom, no wait I'm a sub, no wait I'm a switch...wait wait maybe I'm a dom slave lesbian male )
When I talk about giving yourself up completely you should only ONLY do that to someone you trust and know that they have your best intention at heart. I'm not talking about a romantic relationship , that is silly to think that would happen that way over the internet. It's unrealistic and delusional .
I'm only talking to those that are looking to be owned and cared for. In turn you need to think about what you would give up to get that. This happened to me some years ago now but still remains in my memory as one of the my most embarrassing but exciting experiences.
I was staying with my BF at his house for a couple of weeks. He only lived a short drive from the sea and we occasionally went for a walk on the beach.
One day he announced that he thought that because of my behavior I was in need of a spanking which is something, I might add, that he did to me almost on a daily basis, and he decided we were going for a beach walk and he was going to give me a public spanking.
Well, he had never done that before, I always got spanked in private usually in the bedroom or the lounge room and I was a bit dubious and rather nervous about it and what the public reaction might be and I said so.
He just said well that’s tough girl that’s what’s going to happen to you and I knew there was no arguing with him, his word was law in his house (and out of it).
I pouted at him a little and tried to argue further but of course it made no difference, in fact it probably made it worse for me.
I was dressed in a summery, flowery mini dress, it was summertime, that flared from under my bust and only just covered my bum. Underneath I only had on my bra and panties, with my beach walking sandals on my feet. He was wearing cargo shorts and a tee shirt and to my alarm was carrying a cane in his hand as we went out the door. I said you’re not taking that with you are you! He just told me to shut up and get in the car. I did so, still pouting, which was about the only sort of defiance I could hope to get away with without risking getting a slap.
I put on my seat belt and sat in nervous silence staring at my bare legs as he drove us to the beach. My mind was in a bit of a turmoil as I thought about what he said he was going to do to me but I did begin to find it curiously exciting and arousing even thinking about which panties I was wearing if they were going to be seen.
Ok, out you get he said to me as we parked in the beachside carpark. He emerged from the car carrying the cane quite openly. I was quietly amused and aroused at his confidence and audacity as he walked down the sandy track to the beach proper, cane in one hand and towing me along behind him with the other.
The sky was a clear bright blue with a few fluffy little clouds scudding across it. I now felt very nervously alive and excited at the thought of what was to come. The surf was crashing noisily onto the beach and the cool breeze blew through my hair and lifted up my dress forcing me to do a Marylyn Munroe seven year itch sort of pose to keep it down. To my relief the beach was not all that crowded, just a few people scattered around but there was a roadwork gang working on the road that ran alongside the beach and I could feel those guys already taking an interest in me with my attempts to keep my dress in place.
We walked up the beach past the road work crew and the beach sunbathers to a rocky area at one end which was some distance from anybody else but definitely not completely out of sight. He sat on a conveniently placed large rock and I petitely sat down in the sand next to him and shading my eyes with my hand looked out to sea where a fishing boat was underway bobbing up and down in the swell.
We sat like that in silence for a little while then he turned to me and in a rather soft sexy voice started to admonish me for what he called my lack of respect and disobedience over the last couple of days and how I needed to be taught a lesson, spare the rod and spoil the girl sort of stuff. I squirmed around a little as I listened to him knowing that he was right I had not been obeying him as instantly as I should have been doing, even occasionally arguing with him and that I did deserve what I was about to get. I looked across the beach towards the fairly distant beachgoers we had passed and then to the work gang on the road, also fairly distant from us now, but nobody seemed to be taking any notice of us.
He took hold of my shoulder length blonde hair at the back of my neck then slowly but deliberately forced my head back until I was staring at that vivid blue sky. Automatically I twisted my head to try to get away from him but this just made him firm up his grip on my hair until it hurt and I stopped resisting him.
Still using my hair to control me he pulled me across his knees and held me there. My flared dress was so short that it was already up round my waist. I felt his hand caress my bum through my satin panties and his fingers went down between my legs. I was already a teeny bit aroused by all this and by his power and confidence in what he was doing and it was now all I could do to prevent myself from squealing out loud. I just sighed instead.
Then he started to spank me. He had large powerful hands and it always hurt. Each smack across my bum sent pain shooting through me making me g. I kept my hands in front of me, palms on the sand sort of balancing myself over his knees, I knew better than to try and protect my bottom with my hands.
Then he hooked his thumb into the waistband of my panties and pulled them down until they were stretched tight across my mid thighs and continued spanking my now naked bum. He had pulled me across his knees facing away from the distant beachgoers and work gang but still in sight of them and I remember hoping that someone didn’t think that I was being assaulted and call the police, the last thing I wanted to face as we got back to the car would be a couple of grinning cops waiting for us and having to explain I've had to narrow down my profile considerably so ive popped it in the below. But I have been here before for many years. Boredom brought me back;
"A Lion still has claws,
and mine are long and sharp My Lord,as long and sharp as yours."-GoT-RoC
"That which yields is not always weak."
** Gideon Falls.**
SAPIOSEXUAL
♌ About the Delicacy ♌
"Always more"
I know what I want & I know what I need. These kind of sessions are one per every other month. I am seeking intensity above all, not only physical, but mental ( Please ask about that). The below still more or less describes me well, with little to update there!
Suits attract me, a good cologne stops me ,intelligence will ensnare me.- I am a sapiosexual, know this. Understand this.
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I will always play fire with fire. There is no turning back when you reach me. We will touch, and we will ignite and then the dance of two flames will begin. For you are me, and I am you. I will collect your sin, and you will harbour my shame.We will bury each other alive. I will hate you and love you for it.
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There is something beautiful in yearning. In wanting the impossible. To reach out and almost have it; to feel it upon your skin like the petal of a rose, only to be pricked by the thorn of disappointment, or hopelessness.
To desire, what you can never have. A dance of wills, a tango of conflicts. To be humbled, and brought low by the simple word "no". To endure nothing, but everything in A simple moment.
Passion-Patior(patï)-To Suffer
This is what I breathe.
Alpha-Predatory;
It takes a special kind of man to make me kneel.
I am alpha by nature; what do I mean by alpha? I mean controlled. Independent, strong willed motivated (most of the time).I hunt predators for fun,with a depraved and unrelenting hunger. They are my speciality. I answer to no-one, but my conscience. And do only what my conscience dictates.
I am in full control of my life, and everything around me has a purpose. Without the purpose or organisation things would crumble. I like organised chaos. It may not make sense to you, but it makes sense to me-and that is all that matters. Hey, I'm a Leo. What can I say.
In every day life, I am alpha. Neither sub nor dom. Just a mode of personality which evolves with the surroundings I am in. I am the type who always needs to be in control of a situation, if not, things become complex. This is more then likely what you will see and notice when you first meet me.
If you happen to find me kneeling infront of someone, it's down to two reasons: a mockery or said special man (my dominant), is around and has requested it of me. I will only ever truly Kneel for one person. That is my rule. Wondering.
Does anyone know how to have an actual conversation any more?
All people do is ask a bunch of questions.... you really don't learn about people that way.
Yes ask questions within the subject you are talking about, but how lazy just to sit there and fire random questions? So basically, the person sends a one sentence question, then you answer with a one word or one sentence response. And they don't even care about the answer, the next email is another question that has nothing to do with what they previously asked.
And please... I just got off work, don't ask for a list of likes and favorites my brain is totally shut down at this point LOL
Feels like I'm in a freakin' interview LOL slave knows no gender, has no expectations, lives to please its betters, keeps its Owner always in mind, knows and expresses gratitude among other things.
The slave reading this probably feels inadequate with out the ability to ever 'measure up.' And, well it should. However, I have never found a slave that adequately fills the above list of particulars. So, I expect to devote much energy and time to training; maybe a life time.
Do not worry about coming to Me as a finished, accomplished slave. Rather, come to Me with an abiding need to be subsumed in devotion and service. Everything else can follow.
Master James A good mantra for a submissive to live by...
A submissive’s life is to be in service as required and of service however desired and solely for their Dominant and Owners pleasure amusement and comfort.
A submissive’s function should be to strive to be a completely willing and capable of serving for the constant enhancement of the Dominant and Owner's daily life and pleasure in every way possible and on a continuous basis with absolute obedience, commitment and dedication.
A submissive understands that the decisions and rules of the Dominant are to be accepted and followed without hesitation or conflict at all times regardless of personal feelings or conflict.
A submissive understands and willingly accepts that it needs its Dominant’s control, use, discipline and punishment as deemed fit at anytime.
A submissive needs to accept that it's Dominants and Owner's pleasure, amusement and comfort must be its priority and be all that really matters to the submissive foremost.A submissive understands and accepts that its own pleasure must come from how well it pleases, serves and accepts being used and controlled by it's Dominant and that it may be rewarded if deemed appropriate or pleasurable to its Owner. Just being human is to be a bewildering mass of inconsistencies. It's to seek peace but to savour arguments. To stay calm and controlled even when feeling as if we want to explode. To be open-minded yet biased, compassionate yet selfish, confident yet insecure. It's finding a smile even when we're sad, and being courageous when we're feeling afraid. I find we all are fully entitled to be as contradictory as we want to be. It occurred to me in one of my edits, I forgot to reattach my HIV transparency notice. Important to keep on here not only for general education but for potential partner notification as well.
I have been HIV positive undetectable since 2000. I've been on medication for it since 2001, and I've had an undetectable viral load ever since then. I am NOT contagious. As long as I take my one pill a day, I can't possibly share HIV with anyone. This is no longer the scary thing that it was in the 1980's, as long as you are on medication. Here's the science behind it: http://aumag.org/2018/08/07/partner2-study-confirms-undetectable-equals-untransmittable/ I thought stepping away for a bit would give some of you time to think about what you actually want.
Not the fantasy. Not the oversexualized idea you’ve built in your head. But what you truly desire—and whether you’re capable of participating in it in a real, grounded way.
Instead, I come back to the same pattern.
Too many messages. Too little awareness.
So let me make this very clear.
My hard no’s:
1. Entitled, attention-seeking behavior.If you think you deserve my time simply because you showed up..you don’t.If your version of “submission” is performative, reactive, or rooted in insecurity, I will dismiss you just as quickly as you arrived.
2. Dominants (beyond friendship).I already have aligned energy in my life. I am not looking to add to that.If you don’t fit within the world I’ve built, you won’t be invited into it.
3. Unrealistic arrangements.Let’s be adults.I’m an established woman with multiple businesses and a full life. I’m not looking for a roommate, a project, or someone trying to fast-track access to my space.Real connection is built over time—with intention, not convenience.
4. Fantasy vs. Reality.What I am is not a costume.
I am a naturally dominant woman. I’ve led, directed, and held authority long before this had a label attached to it. This is not something I turn on and off, and it’s not something I perform for entertainment.
So approach me with that understanding or don’t approach me at all.
I’m not hidden. I’m not confused. And I’m certainly not here to play.
I’m a real woman with a real life. If you want to exist anywhere near it, you’ll need to come correct.
Submissives only. Now get it the fuck together.
— Mistress Nikki Vixen switzerland is limited. by what?
yes we have a healty system, good finances, gorgeous places, multicultural food and here its very clean.
but our bdsm comunity is....small, only 2 principal places lausanne on the center switzerland and zurich on the north.
most of the kinkster are spreaded around the country not knowing other ways than classified website. rare knows fetlife..
no one know website like this one.
if youre lucky and do shibari or even soft bdsm you can find youre partner or even more.
but if youre like me with a lot of kinks, more passionate, curious and creative, your unfortunate...
you will need to be very pacient or...search outside...
then the only way is to find person who can relocate themself, and this type of person are rare.
because a lot want your money/scam, others prefer only online, or even you can find fantaisist person searching only to excite themself and when things turn real they stop.
thats tiring and difficult to filter all this mess, ive been thinking for a long time but for me switzerland is not a good place for bdsm, theres a lot of countries better like USA, germany, france but only in paris, ive been thinking if asian country have better community too, like china, korea or even japan.
i hope someday i will find someone diversified like me to like a total lifestyle. Hey Mistress
I am not your Mistress
Sorry hello Ma'am how are you,Will you do to me the things you do?Whips and Canes and all that stuff,I have "sub" frenzy and can't get enough,
Yes I will say all the right things but never do them true,I am a shadow wanker and cum while messaging you.
*No I won't, you ignored my needs, night air, a primal rhythm that echoed through the park. Lily's cries mingled with his grunts, their bodies moving as one, driven by the raw, animalistic need. He reached around, his fingers finding her swollen clit, rubbing and pinching it in time with his thrusts.
"Cum for me, you little slut," he demanded, his voice harsh and commanding. "Cum on my cock."
Lily's body tightened, every nerve alight with sensation. She was on the edge, teetering between pain and pleasure, as his fingers worked her clit and his cock filled her to the brim. With a final, powerful thrust, she shattered, her orgasm ripping through her, causing her to scream into the night.
As her body convulsed around him, he groaned, his own release building. He gripped her hips tightly, holding her still as he emptied himself deep within her, filling her with his hot seed.
They stood there, panting, their bodies still joined, as the echoes of their passion faded into the night. Lily's mind reeled, struggling to process what had just happened. She had been taken, used, and yet, she couldn't deny the pleasure she had experienced.
The man released her, stepping back, his breathing heavy. "You were a good fuck, Lily. But now, I must go."
Lily's legs trembled as she leaned against the tree, her body still throbbing with the aftershocks of her orgasm. She watched as he zipped up his pants, the moonlight glinting off his hooded figure.
"Wait..." she whispered, her voice hoarse. "Who are you?"
I have had a few people get annoyed or mad at my personality so I am posting this
Here are some thing I am just going to address (These are paraphrased)
"Wow you say your a sub but you dont act submissive at all #notarealsub"
Yes I am submissive, my personality is cold/distant and I get most people are not ok with that. I am not going to just go "UwU master pwease let me submit 2 ur budlgie wulgie" cause that is not my personality at all. If I vibe well with someone then ya I am ok with concenting to have them dominant me by forcing me to submit.
"You dont seem interested in talking to me"
Ya I am not interested in talking to anyone and on top of that I try and respond in as little words as possible. I am will chat but I am not a social person so I will come off as such.
"your personality is trash and you should act more cute"
No if someone isnt cool with how I am then I wont be changing. (Of course I do change things but only unhealthy things not my standard personality)
"You should change how you dress and look more feminine"
Nope, I will dress how ever I please and wont be changing that ever.
"Why wont you meet me"
I dont really like being around people so it is rare when I do meet anyone.
"You sholdnt say you dont like kissing or being close to someone"
I really really hate the feeling of being close or intamte with someone so sorry not happening
"You should meet me I am a good person"
If you have to say you are a good person then I say that is a red flag I'm learning and changing all the time. I grow. I degrade(sometimes)I have years of journals here. I have yet to go back and read some older ones. I may never do that. Just be aware that I may not be the same person today, that I was then.However I do not plan to remove any journals, ever. For better or worse it's a history of my journey. At one point or another they were once valid and true. And may still be to this day. But just be aware as you read them, By answers and view today may or may not be the same today as they were when I wrote it many months or years ago.
GENERAL INFORMATION
(I CLAIM COPYRIGHTS TO THE TEXT BELOW.)
ONLY CANDIDATES WITH A VALID PERMANENT RESIDENCE PERMIT IN EU, WILL BE CONSIDERED.
I am not interested to receive messages from talkers (small chit-chat), jokers that just like to chat, meet over for a coffee, cyber domination, make friends, meet or waste My time on convincing Me to allow them to ''try'' or just train them for the life as slave.With this issue cleared beware:
My time is precious and if you cannot respect this fact, there is nothing more to discuss.
I AM ONLY INTERESTED IN YOU:
WHO HAVE GIVEN IT ENOUGH THOUGHT,
WHO HAS ALREADY DECIDED WHAT SHE/HE WANTS,
WHO IS READY TO COMMIT FOR A PERMANENT RELATIONSHIP NOW, NOT IN A
DISTANT UNKNOWN FUTURE
I do not search for an adventure. BDSM is My lifestyle. I do not seek sex, I want a slave but sex may occur.
I dominate both physical & psychological. If that is nothing for you, if you cannot obey, do not write to Me.
I demand complete obedience of My slave, regardless what it is I say. Neither ''no'' or ''but'' are accepted. If you cannot obey, you do not need to apply for the position. I do not necessary search an experienced subject, but genuine submissiveness is something one cannot be trained to.
I demand everything in domestic work (as laundry, cooking, cleaning, etc) car (change tires, car wash, etc.) gardening, or personal services (massage, manicure, etc) or others as travel, dine or dance with Me, etc…
It is Me and My needs that are in the focus, not yours. If you are an egocentric or one, who believes slavery is about Your dreams, topping from the bottom, receiving attention or ''reward'', go on with your search.
If you become Mine, you become part of the VoN' s House and you will have a regular job. Work, party, fun, boring, vacation, all. The good and the bad, you will be part of. I am strict but correct, loving, affectionate and I live a healthy life.
I do NOT consider Myself a sadist and I do NOT enjoy to destroy someones health. By Sadism I understand following: needles, drawing blood, cigarette burning, pupil dilating drops, removing/breaking body parts, etc…
I am not interested in pony/dog training, toilet slavery, breath control, golden/brown showers, latex, mummification, gang banging, or any extreme fetish/activities. This things are NOT included in My interests.
My limits are children, animals, blood, scat, extreme activities
If you are going to contact me read my profile very thoroughly. If you can not utilise proper grammar when messaging me I will happily mock you. If you do not comprehend the differences in your, you're, and yore I will mock you. If you make any other preschool level gramatical faux pas I will mock you. IF YOU CAN NOT READ DO NOT WASTE MY TIME! Yes, age is just a number. My husband was 12 years older than me, so it is a number that had never really bothered me. That being said... Age is a real thing. We all have baggage and being a widow is (just some) of mine. You will have to accept I am not a divorcee, I will always speak lovingly of my past husband as he is not an "ex" and I have experienced a decade of being a caretaker for an older man. That season of life is done. This is my season to be cared for. Call me selfish, call my bias, call me whatever... but this is the baggage I carry, these are my scars. I am truly grateful for all the mail I have gotten from the 60+ something crowd... but I can be nothng but honest and say, it isn't going anywhere, no matter how great we get along... Age IS more than just a number... It is deteroration of your kidney's, and heart, and liver. It is break down of your joints, it is restless legs, and trouble with the lungs... I am glad you eat great and hit the gym every day... that right there makes us total opposites for the vanilla side of life...
The power of submission cannot be denied. In the end it’s really all about the depth of mental connection.
The Gateway
For a long time I have thought that D/s, or in general kinky people, naturally relate to the superheroes of comics. This is not really an original idea - many gay guys have a superheroe fetish, and it is not just because of the tight uniforms. The typical superheroe lives a double life to preserve his secret identity from his enemies. By day a conventional, perhaps conformist character, he transforms by night to live dangerous adventures in an exciting underground world.
Fortunately, the need for gay people to hide their orientation has greatly diminished, but the dicotomy is still there - and it has its own appeal. Kinky people are in a very similar situation (complete with tight outfits). Many of us are selective about who can know our interests, and to what degree. And this, I believe, will continue much longer than for gays, because some areas of kink are just harder for the mainstream to assimilate. So we have a double identity - a gateway that leads to an exciting, sometimes dark world. A world where sexuality and power are both more naked and more sophisticated than in "the surface". A world that is also inside us - the gateway leading not just to others, but to a part of ourselves that is often a surprise. The Great Unknown, right in our core.
It is not a trifle. And it is all a present we receive when we face our inner cravings - and fears.
Sed timeo dominas et dona ferentes.
Who’s time is it anyway?
I would not take to property any slave that was not totally My property.
On more than one occasion, I have had prospective slaves misunderstand time. The slaves in question have offered non specific time instead of a definite time I directed.
Some slaves are journalling at My request. I direct them to make daily submissions to Me at a specific time each day; a time of slave’s choice. Many respond by offering a non-compliant time. They might offer to obey direction for journal submission the morning or evening of each day.
That broad a time frame may be convenient for the slave. A non-specific time may work well in their life.
The basic problem is the idea that the slave has the option to arrange its life for its convenience. The slave seems to hold the belief that time belongs to it to manage. A total slave owns nothing, especially time. Time is one of the many things that are in the province of its Owner. Having it operate as a supplicant on My time frame teaches it the lesson about, “Who’s time is it anyway.”
Shopping for harnesses makes me want to design a more woman friendly design
The picture for the following scene deion next week shows the soles of My shoes and a call bell in My hand.
I have just returned from walking on a very popular board walk along puget sound. The only problem with this wonderful stroll is the filth left by dogs on the boards.
People love to walk their dogs where they can also enjoy the vista of sound and mountains. However, people do not love to clean up after their animals.
Now I am home. As anyone can see I have rang the hand bell to call my slave.
Does the reader consider itself a slave? If so, the above view is what it gets when it answers the bell on its knees as it should. Looking up it sees the soles of my shoes.
Tell Me, slave, how does it feel looking up?
Is it hesitant? So a lot has changed really, a profile update will be written soon.
The biggest change really, in myself, is the stretching (quite literally i guess, pun not intended)
Previously the only hole penetrated by a Dominant was my mouth (mostly with fingers but the odd strap on/vibe/dildo/phallus), but i am currently being trained anally and urethrally (is that even a word). i have never enjoyed the experience of even the smallest digit oenetrating me anally and would scream the place down through a gag if anything bigger than a pinkie finger up there.
As i write this i have had a 4" butt plug in now for around 18 of the past 24 hours. Do i enjoy it? Not really. I have got to the stage where i can, for decent lengths of time, forget about it as it feels normal but only really when not moving about. i can also insert it myself when ordered to do so, not a feat i would previously have thought possible.
The story of how this, once hard limit, along with urethral sounds, were accidentally, on the same day no less, is one for another day but i thought, after many years on CM and now CS, i would make use of my journal to record my anal training journey so others may learn what they might expect. Mhhh dang' had one of the most hillarious and fun session with my new slave🤣🤣Extreme cum denial and edging..Till he started begging for mercy, he is an obedient one though...Well his pathetic cock is locked using the Cellmate 2 ... I have complete control over him, he has no means of escape, and unless i unlock it he can never get outLol am really enjoying this, he's litterally my prisoner Let me clarify what I am seeking here instead of changing my profile.While all the crossdressers having the fantasy of being "kept" and on hormones and living as a woman 24/7 with nothing to do except be a sex toy seem to have plenty of masturbatory fodder, and some constantly write to me seeking this exact thing, let me make a few points as to what I am seeking personally. I am seeking a sincere PART TIME cd, closeted or not, that is willing to work hard as a male in the day and switch into femme mode at nights and on weekends. If you believe some sort of a collapse is NOT coming and think everything is going to be just hunky-dory in the future, then please move on from my profile and back to your fantasy world. I am looking for people that share my vision; to be living on a ranch and create a sustainable life. If we need to go off grid that is certainly an option that I am getting prepared for. But it is HARD work. I know, I know, nobody wants to do that anymore. If you are willing to put in the time, and the effort, the rewards will be great. As far as our mutual crossdressing fetish goes, we will indulge that every chance we get. I am the strict Domme Mommy type and very into tight and shiny fetish wear and bondage games. I seek someone that can find her place at my feet. I am hopeful there is one c/d out there that all this resonates with and wishes to relocate. If so, write. When someone on CollarSpace invites you to write and tell them about yourself, and you feel too shy to respond frankly, candidly or adequately, you ought be asking yourself whether you're big enough to have a profile on this site.
If you've had a profile here for years and years but are still so unsure of who you are that you can't answer simple questions about your dreams and desires without then having to run and hide, this is not the right place to hang out.
Lots of people come on this site to lie and pretend, and it's perfectly understandable; after all, it's free and it's a great place to adopt the magnificent persona you've always dreamt of owning.
But lots of you are earnest and honest, and you make the effort to be honest, so, it's beyond frustrating when you turn all coy, bashful and elusive when someone actually shows and interest in your truth...
*shakes head*
"Sheeeeesh!" Slut Handler
Most online kink exchanges are really anonymous. How else could a submissive woman cow a pack of amply testosteroned dominant males of dubious intelligence?
My proven procedure for the education of said submissive is fulfilling and, at least for the female, informative.
I avoid any pregame chit chat and immediately put the worried slut on her knees with her wrists behind her back.
A collar serves a couple of functions and I like to lecture that it provides a symbol of complete submission. Importantly it also informs her who’s fuck toy she’s become. The collar needs to be firmly buckled and a short leash is appropriate for direction and control.
Now things should become crystal clear but if there is any question, cuffing the soon to be sex slave’s wrists should render that question moot. I favor a short 4” chain.
Controlling an aroused woman requires more then guile. A finishing touch includes the firm placement of a ball gag. Make sure her hair is out of the way and the ball goes behind the teeth.
There you have it. She’s on her knees, collared, leashed, cuffed, and gagged. And if she’s not hot and wet I’d be surprised
But wait, there’s more
All this preparation serves the ultimate goal.
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Yes I want and NEED to find a Master OR Mistress and YES that this web page has been reckoned to Mos eisley spaceport, and I understand people have been hurt from their interactions. However:
*I* know that *I* am worth it, I'm worth the time AND effort that is required to claim me, this isn't going to be easy and IF it was then wouldn't you be more concerned? Perhaps, JUST perhaps the reason people get those type of people that are NOT "real" is because of the DM's that they receive? Take it for what it is...
SO the pictures of me ARE me.....the text I wite (with spelling errors) ARE mine. i'm asking for you, to look deeper, take a chance to nuture a relationship with me,THAT is what will form a unbreakable bond, NOT "what are you wearing".....
With Love,
hope
Each "update" this website brings makes this place worse and worse. Example: "More profiles" on the left being in red to stand out on purpose. Lame. Is there a better bdsm-based dating website that isn't F L and not as desperate for traffic and interactions than here?
I met a Dom on Fet Life who has been keeping me in line the last few weeks. He is not a nice person. I don't really like Him, but as a Dom and potential Master, He is exactly what I need. I've been processing this phenomenon, putting much thought into why I respond to Him so well as a Dom, even though I wouldn't choose to spend time with Him otherwise (and I'm sure it's mutual).
I cannot count the number of Doms, Masters, Gods, Slave Owners, etc. that I've met both online and in person who seem unwilling or incapable of issuing an order or command. I tend to follow orders. If I don't receive any, I assume the Dom is uninterested and I move on. Aftter all, it is my job to follow orders, not to issue them. The Man that I am currently serving does not have this problem. I obey all His orders without question, even those I don't want to. It's not my job to choose which orders to follow.
If you identify as a slave and you're having trouble attracting potential Masters, maybe you should take a look at your profile and count how many times "me" or "I" appear in your text. Then skim your profile for anything that would tell a potential Master what you could do for Him. Learn much?
Been a while since I have written, I have discovered a new fetish that I absolutely love , I love drinking a woman's pee either straight from the source or fresh in a glass still hot recently had a woman that I took to dinner go to the bathroom fill a glass with her pee and brought it back to the table for yours truly to drink was very humiliating and very hot but anyhow I would like to find indiana , Illinois, Kentucky, ohio woman that want to feed me there pee must be drug free and clean . Let me know I will travel to you !! I will perform or let you do as you will to me for the privilege to drink your golden nectar .
Physical attractions are common
but
Mental connections are rare
Once you have had the latter, the
former will never be enough again. The sub that craves the lack of choice- being taken and thoroughly controlled and used with no say in the matter at all. The only thing he can do is endure. What he's enduring also contains this enjoyable sexual experience. A passive psychology coupled with a body that is wired towards a more intense physical sensation - and he's the result.
He wants to submit, he wants to perform as expected, he needs to please and to be sure that he has. He is willing to go to great lengths to demonstrate how completely eager he is to give himself to another along with a deep need to be taken to that level.
He is a slave who craves the intense sexual sensation, the knowledge that he is giving great pleasure to another and to satisfy all the needs of the other, and through that he gains his satisfaction, pleasure, gratification and the positive sense of self as well as the ease and peace that comes from total surrender. If you are going to approach me in a written format, take the time and care to write. Present yourself well in a written medium. If you don't like to write, we probably aren't compatible. If you can't be bothered to write, we are definitely not compatible. If you express yourself better in person or over the phone feel free to say so, but don't expect me to automatically make an exception and progress to a voice or video chat if you won't take the time to write a decent introduction first.
A mediocre Dominant tells.
A good Dominant teaches.
An excellent Dominant explains.
A true Dominant inspires.
23rd April , 2023 ... Happy St Georges Day
now , girls.!!!!! , if I do not find a maid a.s.a.p. , I may have to settle for a butler during Sparkle event
are you going to let the side down and miss out on a wonderful weekend // full week of fun ???
come on girlies , get your lippy on and pick up your duster / mop.!!!
Acceptance instead of expectation.
The following was found in a journal of a German slave with a user name of “foreverslavery” on Collarspace. I have not received a response to my request to use the passage. I suspect a large part of it was written by someone else.
In any case the writing displays a characteristic I want in a slave I would own. That characteristic is a mind set of living in acceptance rather than expectation.
The road to discontent is paved with expectation.
Slavery Truth
Many ask if slaves truly exist. In the way a dictionary and history define slavery, no they do not exist in most modern countries. (Though there is some contention that slavery rings do still exist in secret) Most people in civilized countries generally agree that the legal ownership of another human being is immoral and thus make it illegal. However, in the world of BDSM, one will find that some of the people involved call themselves by many different terms; one of these is the term "slave". Of course, this often raises the question of how is a slave different from a submissive. This question often is met with outright hostility, disbelief in the existence of slaves and the thought that the words slave and submissive (as nouns) are interchangeable terms within the context of BDSM. Many will not agree with any of those thoughts, and I am one of them. I have spent a great deal of time talking with slaves in the honest attempt to better understand them, their lifestyle choices, and judge for myself whether or not this is a healthy variation to the BDSM lifestyle.
To the question of whether or not slaves exist inside of BDSM I say that yes they do. They may not be the largest group, but there are quite a few. Do slaves differ from submissives? Again, my answer is yes they do. Slaves tend to differ from submissives by the way they think, act, submit and their expectations.
A slave tends to think more along the lines of black and white. They have very little room for leeway or shades of gray in their lifestyle choices. They do not seem to expect much leeway in the reaction of their dominant either. By this I mean, if a slave is feeling ill and thus doesn't complete all their usual daily tasks, they will expect the dominant to react with the usual punishment. A submissive may be more inclined to expect leniency from the dominant because they were ill. A slave thinks in terms of being owned, not in terms of submitting. To them, being in a collared relationship means they are owned, and often this translates into the statement that they do not have the "right" "choice" or "option" to walk out if the relationship goes bad. This does not mean a slave will accept an abusive relationship, though their tolerance limits for what is abusive and what is not seem to be higher than those of a submissive. This belief in ownership stems from a strong commitment on both an emotional and mental level to the dominant. There is a level of acceptance of the dominant's behavior that can be more intense and widespread than many submissives would allow. For example, a dominant wants to bring in a third to the relationship. A submissive may demand certain criteria be met before they allow ( yes, allow) such to occur, whereas a slave may say "It is not up to me, if this is what Master wants, so be it" and quietly accept this new change. To some this kind of thought process is considered wrong or somehow brought out by abuse, but this is not necessarily true. A slave thrives on the absolute fact, that they literally have no control over the relationship or what will occur within it, whereas a submissive often retains some level of control in the relationship. The thought process focuses solely on what would make the master/mistress happiest and how the slave can be most pleasing to them. Subs tend to think of themselves and their own pleasure in addition to that of their dominant. Slaves work very hard to put themselves second in all the things and their owners first. To them, this is what comes with being a slave and submitting completely. Slaves put forth a lot of effort in achieving an inner peace with their chosen position. With this peace comes acceptance of themselves, and a quiet sense of contentment. They view pride, arrogance and other such emotions as negative and unbecoming in a slave.
A slave's behavior is different from a submissive as well. If you listen to slaves talk about their behavior (or watch them), they often speak of being quietly accepting, in control of themselves at all times, formal, and other such things. There seems to be more focus on how the slave behaves at any given moment, with less leeway. In many slave relationships, the slave is required to use an honorific at all times, and couldn't conceive of calling their master/mistress by any other name. Most slaves find yelling, tantrums, fits, or any other out of control behavior on the part of a slave to be reprehensible and deserving of severe punishment. Slaves put a lot of emphasis on their behavior and how they react to their dominant. They hold themselves to a high level of self-control. They require of themselves to have a pleasing demeanor as much as possible. They see no room for bratting behavior, any form of topping from the bottom, or any other form of manipulating the dominant. They see bratting as topping from the bottom, whining, cajoling or making requests after the initial denial as manipulative behavior that focuses on the slave's needs/desires instead of the dominant's and thus not proper. They look down on any behavior that is perceived as designed to force the dominant to meet a need of the slave, rather than the slave focusing on the dom's needs. A slave will strive for perfection within themselves in completin This was writen by one of my slaves, so I though I would post it here.
Almost everyone wants something for nothing. Bargains Attract. Finding a good value excites almost everyone, so much so that we rush to share the news. Wanting anything for free is perhaps human nature. However, many of us have had to learn the hard way, again and again, that you get what you pay for. But cheap dishes, you’ll be replacing them sooner rather than later. You reap what you sow, this is also true of human interaction as well, and most people sadly, cannot put the two concepts together and compare them. Why do we think that people should respect us before we respect them? Why do we crave privacy and yet are often quick to invade someone else’s? Why do we think that others will be there for us, even if we aren’t available for them? Being part of the group, a house, friends, family, means being the same in return. It’s not an easy thing to do, in fact it’s rather time consuming. Although the rewards are indisputable, we still find people who tend to hesitate, and wait, letting other people make the first move. First to commit, first to open their arms, first to open their house, first to be honest, first to be forthright, first to take action, speak their mind, and offer homage, first to everything. Getting the other people to commit first, reduces our own effort, perhaps making it easier, but even with that said you will still receive according to what you give. He who gives little, receives little. He who risks nothing, gains nothing. Being able to see, comprehend, grock and utilize this principle simplifies our lives, not complicates it as so many would have us believe. Once we Master this principle of living, I believe we never forget it. Loving you has made me want to become a better person, I know I don’t often show it, But I do appreciate everything you do, most of all I appreciate the learning lessons. Thank you so much for having the patience to put up with me. 16/06/2024
Pigs, Rats, Useless Pathetic male vermin! loosers, When will u ever learn? When u write to this UK Dominant Mistress SuperBITCH keep in mind.... YOU ARE NOT A FRIEND<> U mean NOTHING to HER, what would SHE want with a useless and pathetic bitch like u??? SO...... your only hope to get your Mistress and SHE of your wet dreams interested in you is to write a begging mail and in it Mistress wants to see, NO, DEMANDS to see, a show of submission and surrender to her, so get your grubby hands off of your useless little cocks (which Mistress will soon have locked up and you WILL surrender the keys to HER) and write a nice begging mail and hope that SHE WHO WILL BE OBEYED finds an interest in you.
Helpful hint from Mistress Davinia, SuperBITCH!.... only 1 in 14 applicants get through this first faze of HER Strict Training Programme, and Mistress receives about 20-30 applicants per week!! Oh, George… bless your heart for writing me a whole novel about how you want to “look into a sadistic woman’s eyes” while she perverts you into anal bliss. Truly poetic. But here’s the problem: you’re out here asking for a woman to host you for a month like you’re some kind of kinky exchange student, and all you’re offering is sexual gratification—as if women are sitting around saying, “You know what I need? A strange out-of-towner living in my house for 30 days to eat my food, hog my bathroom, and tell me how multicultural he is in between begging to be pegged.”
You spent time in multinational corporations? Cute. I’m sure your old coworkers will be thrilled to know you’re now out here writing essays about “soft sensual erotic rape play” and “verification photos” like you’re running a BDSM HR department. And let’s be honest—if the highlight of your pitch is “I’m not into pro dommes, but please abuse me sexually,” you might need to realize… sir, you are basically asking for free labor with room and board included.
It’s giving: “Hi, I’m George, I bring nothing but my dick, my mouth, and a suitcase of sci-fi DVDs. Please ruin me, host me, and feed me while I explore my journey.” My love, women are not Airbnbs for your perversion vacations. You wanting someone to host you for a month and offering nothing but orgasms is like me telling Amazon Prime, “I’ll pay for my package with good vibes and a smile.”
So, George, no—no sadistic woman is out here waiting for a floundering consultant to move into her house for a month-long pegging intensive. But I truly hope you find someone on Collarspace who’s willing to take on your… dissertation of desires. Godspeed.
== Results from bdsmtest.org ==
100% Rope bunny
98% Submissive
79% Brat
79% Experimentalist
76% Masochist
74% Voyeur
68% Degradee
65% Exhibitionist
62% Primal (Prey)
60% Switch
59% Non-monogamist
56% Slave
43% Rigger
39% Dominant
34% Pet
32% Primal (Hunter)
31% Daddy/Mommy
29% Brat tamer
22% Ageplayer
21% Degrader
19% Vanilla
19% Owner
15% Sadist
12% Master/Mistress
0% Boy/Girl
your Task List for the Day
1. Mow the Lawn
2. Trim & Water Trees in the Front Yard
3. Trim & Water Rose Bushes
4. Treat the Lawn/Yard for Bugs
5. Sweep & Wash Down Porch (if necessary)
6. Clean Gutters
7. Repeat Tasks 1 -6 for Backyard
8. Create a Plan to Clean Out & Organize the Garage
9. Set-Up My Easel on the Front Porch for MY Summertime Paintings
10. Sit Next to Me
11. Keep Me Company
12. Adore & Worship Me
That's it for now... I just read my profile and realised how dry I made myself sound😮.
I have a very good,often quick witted sense of humour, sometimes sarcastic, but never derogatory.
I love animals, I have cats
I'm generally optimistic, I'm well educated, I do a job I really enjoy even though I work a very weird shift pattern,and so tend to have a lot of free time.
Yes,I'm still an old fashioned strict disciplinarian, but I am also a funny, sometimes eccentric, kind, very romantic, human as well.
Just felt I should add that , try to do myself justice.
Any other questions you have, ask away.,I don't bite,well unless you would like me too 🤣
Currently in day 129 of its self imposed chastity sentence. This slaves last orgasm was on August 4th of this year. it has taught itself to milk itself anally while caged once every 30 days to promote a healthy prostate. its goal is to unlock two minutes before the ball drops on New Years Eve, orgasm, and lock up again. it is open to suggestions on how long it should remain in chastity next year. its also flirting with the idea of a smaller cage for 2026....
I am really hating being alone.. Going through a really tough separation right now and I ache and yearn for companionship. Even just a long hug would be nice right about now. I crave physical touch from someone I have even a remote emotional connection with, but alas, it eludes me. I would even love to find a Switch/Domme that enjoys providing something like that for a vulnerable man such as myself. I am struggling mentally and emotionally and I truly don't know how long I can survive like this. When she's abandoned her moral center and teachings...when she's cast aside her facade of propriety and lady-like demeanor...when I have so corrupted this fragile thing and brought out a writhing, mewling, bucking, wanton whore for my enjoyment and pleasure.....enticing from within this feral lioness...growling and scratching and biting...taking everything I dish out to her.....at that moment she is never more beautiful to me. ”Marquis de Sade Wenn dass Liebe ist,
dann fass ich dich nicht an.
Wenn das Liebe ist,
kommst du nicht an mich ran.
Wenn das Liebe ist,
dann geh mir aus dem Weg.
Wenn das Liebe ist,
dann kommt sie für uns zu spät.
(Wenn das Liebe ist)
(Wenn das Liebe ist)
Beiß mir auf die Zunge,
Schließ die Augen für mich
Drück mir die Luft aus der Lunge,
dann verrat' ich mich nicht
Beiß mir auf die Zunge,
denn der Schmerz aus mir spricht
Reiß mir das Herz aus der Brust,
dann erschlägt es dich
A letter to God
Is it an image that lies
Cuz i believe You don't
Yet looking around
And what scenes i see
Baffle as drivers
Create accidents and
We all know accidents
Happen because well,
Who is driving, after all
And surrender tastes
Bittersweet yet i have been
Beat beyond what time
Can tell any for many may
Believe it's easy, this life
That now aches inside
My body and beyond mind
For what i know to be true
Is what a friend shared
To simply live, love and do
For You, for ultimately
We die and no one cares
And most of humanity
Cannot dare heaven
On Earth but from birth
We learn to yearn for what
Loss brought when fate
Raped destiny and man
Lost and woman lost
And no children were
Bred because soon
Enough we will be
Better off dead...
zamarra
7/13/24
One of the advantages of being older is that you learn what is realistic for a lifestyle and what isn't - what exists only in the realm of fantasy. The various profiles you read of "...wanting to be locked in a dungeon 24/7..." just aren't realistic.But… when you make someone whom (or what) they have always dreamed of being, it’s an emotional experience for both of you, almost intoxicating. So how can you make this work?
In my arena of the lifestyle - transforming someone into a rubber or rubber doll 24/7 isn't realistic.
You can however try and set up your lifestyle so that the experience feels like 24/7. The following works for a latex lifestyle:
I would come home from work and go into a spare room and change into rubber. My slave would already be waiting for me in another room, hooded. The first time I saw her after work she would be hooded. The first time she saw me after I got home, I too would also be hooded.The next day, before I left for work, I would change into work clothes without her seeing me. That way, we went several days without seeing each others faces, only hooded. For two people who found being around other humans awkward, this truly was a moment of emotional freedom.
I have tried this and it worked (wonderfully!), up to a point. But that topic - when things didn’t work out perfectly - is the subject for another post. Listening to Saturday Morning Classical KC,KS public radio. Sipping Coffee and mildly depressed. Solitude and lack of femal companion in this house is after 7 years really getting tougher with every day. Still, after a long period of absence from my original CollarSpace account from long ago decided to try this site again and see what's happening. Maybe some Lady will show serious interest and respond. Getting tired of all the house chores, leaves little time, none really, for authoring new Symphonies or Concerti or Chamber works. Understatement. Haven't posted in a while..so here we go..guess we're gonna find out what 52 is like this year. Expectation are set high. Think I'm finally starting to settle into life here. Worked out a work schedule so that I can also have a life, which has worked wonders on mood these days. I really do think I've found my people here, and am happy that my friend moved with me. Now I'm gonna slowly get to know the more about the area and it's people, and the interesting things here. Eventually truly get back into play and the scene here, baby steps. Observing the local community for the outside..lol I'm not really a people person, and I keep my group small. I'm not made for the week so take that how you wish. But no I'm not looking at this time, I said EVENTUALLY. Gorilla - A BDSM/Kink Anthem or Poetry?
I just needed a distraction. Saving the lives of the chronically ill is draining. I pondered my options, what better way to regain my sanity than to drown myself in music. It helped...for a bit. Until my playlist stopped at Gorilla, by Bruno Mars. Of course it's familiar, it's on my freaking playlist. But it's a bit odd that I never really took the time to devor the words...until today.
As a self-proclaimed sapiosexual with a narrotophilia fetish, I started to wonder - is Bruno an undercover kinkster or a creatively raunchy poet? I mean come on...
-"I'm feeling like I'm 30 feet tall" - I'm a powerful dude (aka- Dom or Master)
-"Lay it down, lay it down", "Let me hear you say you want it all...say it now, say it now" - a demand
-"Look what you're doin', look what you've done" - I'm hard/game on
-"But in this jungle, you can't run" - this world/BDSM/Kink, you can't escape
And if you listen closely to the melody, not only can you actually feel him thrusting, with every perfectly timed percussive beat, you can also "hear" the girl cumming through the chaos of instruments that ramp up to the highest note near the conclusion of the song.
Suffice it to say, I struggled to focus for the rest of the day, but it was so worth it.
As for my pondering, the jury's still out - bestowing the title of anthem or even ode to BDSM is a bit much, so I think I'm leaning towards a deliciously raunchy poem.
Thoughts from the horde?
-RJ Just read a list of warnings "how to find a fake"...by a fake. Here is the real list. 1.asks for money
2.disrespectful.3.overly judgmental. 4. Selfish. 5. Smells like vanilla.
So ya see if you have no experience do not claim to see inexperience in others. Some of us prefer no communicating here because of the inefficiency. Some of us purposely start with one line to gauge the submissive qualities. Add to this feminists playing mysandry games,and the desperate vanilla pretender,and Doms are left weeding through a mountain of games to find the gem. The small print
I am straight. Thanks for the attention guys, but no thanks. Not even if you are pretending to be a woman.
I have the capacity to be a sadist but this does not mean I want your nipples for my tea. Seriously, I would never hurt anyone who did not want it.
I don't have time for negative Nelly. I am a positive person and I am looking to spread fun and enjoyment.
I am human. You are human. We both get hurt of we allow it so let's try not to hurt. Let's not lie.
I hate ALL prescritive people who have preconceptions ...and lists!
So, I got a message today because someone was offended by my responce to their message to me... They felt my profile was too long to bother reading and wanted me to cut to the chase... was I still married. The opening of my profile explaines that I am a WIDOW! So, yes, the message ticked me off a bit and they got the full brunt of my anger. Instead of going back and looking to see why I had called them an idiot, to see what they had missed that made them look so stupid and foolish, they wrote me again, trying to insult me this time, making themselves look dumber still! Like guys, seriously, it is a special kind of stupid that writes someone who opens their profile saying they are a widow, and asks if they are still married. Try, just try to send messages that don't totally insult someone if you are attempting to start a relationship that requires massive amounts of trust! Just spend a minute and read the stupid profile people! Different ways of being hot
cis females: Fall in love with Me, become a quiet little Goddess addict speaking only when spoken to.
cis males: Recognizes the chasm between Uus is unnavigable. Never speaks or writes or whines or begs. Just remains far away,in devotion and worship, until soul is consumed and gone, and is utterly empty inside.
cd: Shares their inner slut with Me
sissy: Shares her fears with Me
FTM: grabs sword, defends Me and My soaves, doesn't expect reward but is constantly surprised by them
MTF: orbits Me, symbiosis, beauty, allows Me to fill her needs and wants and dreams
Androgynous: Celebrates their individuality and teaches Me something new
NB/GF: celebrates their mercurial nature woth Me, allows Me to feel the liquidity of their soul and shape it as I please
Butch Lesbian/Drag Queen: stoves to be a mannequin for Me to dress and play, coming to life and sharing all of their queerness when I am done.
Me: Exists
I must be doing something wrong because ever since covid come along nobody wants to talk to anybody real time I mean I just bought a house in Mississippi moved from New Orleans a beautiful house by the way I'm very proud of and I was going to use it for a dream home of because I'm trans and I have other attributes I mean I'm a disabled veteran I wear diapers and fortunately for me my my Uncle Sam decides to keep me stocked and anyway I don't know what's wrong with people nobody has conversations anymore it's just these one line sentences no pictures it's just really is everybody running that scared I don't know maybe I'll see if this makes any hits I mean it's not very interesting but I'm just like since journals are back I'm just trying to see how it works out with me see if it actually shows up so anyway hope everybody is having a great holiday you know Halloween anyway look forward to hearing from anybody that wants to have a real time conversation I mean I don't even know what I mean anymore I haven't talked to another human being since covid except that the VA clinic and stuff but anyway with all that said ciao for now I prefer to take thing, it's easier to ask for forgiveness than permission
Plus permission can be hard to come by.
Why now just take it and break it into what you want
Just be comfortable with yourself in skin.
Anything can be beautiful with confidence
Thought I would update. It's been awhile. My life is moving on in Southern California. Im still searching for someone to start out as friends and move on from there. I am most definitely Dominant, and would prefer a submissive man. Seems to be almost impossible to find one close enough and unencumbered to have some fun experiences with. Whatever those may be. Feel free to reach out to me, but include a recent picture of yourself with any correspondence. I will be trying to upload more recent pictures to my profile, but cannot promise that the site will update. After all, I have been in SoCal for almost a year now and the profile still says Oregon. At the end of 24 - 2025 .. I’ve stepped away from this platform before and return with intention—not curiosity, not games. I’m interested in real-world compatibility, emotional maturity, and mutual respect, not fantasy hopping. I seek a man who understands this lifestyle, is committed to it, and can actively participate in a stable vanilla-blend partnership.
Please do not contact me if only you are looking for a chat buddy. I will not endlessly text with anyone. There should be progression in getting to know someone and not just text messaging. There should be phone calls at some point when both are comfortable. But if I have text back-and-forth with someone for a couple of months I will lose interest and discontinue communication. I don't know about anyone else, but for me personally typing in a code every time I send a message gets tiresome. At some point the conversation needs to be taking either by voice or video chat. I'm sure we have all come across scammers or fakes pretending to be something they are not. I do not mean just men, women as well.
Just because I am submissive does not mean I am gullible or a doormat. I am a submissive woman, not your submissive. Be respectful of my time as it is a valuable resource just like yours is. Respect is a two-way street.
FYI: I am seeking a masculine/Alpha man that is tall, I prefer men 6'2 or taller. Although no shorter than 6 feet tall. Once again
If you do not have permission to live and work in the USA before you contact me, you will be rejected on that alone.
I will not wait while you sort out immigration. It can take years and thousands of dollars.
I will not wait. The Binder: On Wanting Things Unapologetically
I have been thinking about want lately. The specific texture of it, the way it sits differently when you stop apologizing for the size of it and simply let it exist at full scale. I was raised, as most women are, to want carefully. To want reasonably. To frame ambition as gratitude and desire as practicality and to generally keep the whole operation small enough that no one feels threatened by the outline of it.
I am done with that.
The Binder exists because I am a woman who plans, and planning requires honesty about the destination. So here it is, plainly, without qualification:
I want my dream home. Not a reasonable approximation of it, not a compromise that checks most of the boxes. The actual one, with the particular light in the particular rooms and the space that finally matches the interior life I have been carrying around in a series of spaces too small to hold it properly. A home that looks like me. That is the entire requirement and it is not a small one and I refuse to shrink it.
I want work that deserves me. I have spent enough time being competent inside structures that were not built for someone like me, doing it gracefully, doing it well, doing it without making anyone uncomfortable with how much more I was capable of. The next chapter looks different. I am finishing my degree with the same intention I bring to everything: completely, on my own terms, and as the foundation for whatever comes next rather than a box I am checking for someone else's benefit.
I want Japan and I want Zanzibar and I want the specific feeling of being a woman who moves through the world with enough ease and enough resources that distance stops being a reason and becomes simply a coordinate. I want to stand somewhere I have never stood and feel the particular expansion that travel produces in a person who pays attention. I want more of that, regularly, starting now and not eventually.
And I want to be married again.
To someone who understands, in their bones and not just in theory, what it means to belong to a woman like me. Not a partner who tolerates my nature or finds it interesting from a safe distance. Someone who meets me in public as my equal, carries himself with the kind of presence that makes other people straighten up slightly, and comes home and kneels. Who wears my marks the way some men wear medals: privately, permanently, with the specific pride of someone who earned something real. Who worships not as performance but as orientation, the way a compass points north not because it is trying to but because that is simply what it does.
I want all of it at once. I want it unapologetically and in full. I want the dream home and the passport stamps and the letters after my name and the man who undoes me at the end of a long day by completely undoing himself first.
The Binder is where I keep the map. This is me, reminding myself that the destination is real, that wanting it loudly is not arrogance but clarity, and that a woman who knows precisely what she is building is already most of the way there.
The rest is just time. Omg this website sucks so bad!
I just had another long well written journal entry disappear because of the broken security measures on here.
Who ever is running this site needs to turn it over to someone who can fix these ridiculous problems!
Long story short, I will not answer one line messages. I don't have time for it.
I feel like I'm being rude for not answering but I get so annoyed with one line messages and it just shows laziness on your part. If you want to get to know me you need to have a lot more to say than just " Hey There" Yeah, I thought I would get back here sooner.. shit happens.
Started getting all my medical stuff going this year. Ugghhh.
I am not looking for oral anything. My concerns this year involve going after the plastic surgeon who f'd up my reconstruction so severely it impacts the rest of my life and sue the f'er. I have to have what he did fixed. Firmly believe he shit on me because I am a medicaid patient. So, my focus is more personal health, at the same time, I have both art and print on demand stuff I am doing, my gardening is just picking up and getting busy at home, and I have an audio podcast I need to get going. On ssi at 560 a month sucks dirty dick.
If you want to be submissive to me, you have to have something to offer in return, not necessarily money, but say vanilla services that help me. Otherwise, I am busy as fuck making the next 20 years of my life better.
As I usually find my relationships in person doing stuff, make it good to get my attention, or I won't waste my time.
Approaching me about your needs is stupid.
Lola the Iron Mistress The meanest man that I never knew
From the day I walked on the floor,
all of the staff warned me about you.
They said you were a mean old man,
it's best to always enter the room with two.
He is grouchy, and hateful, and always a mess,
he refuses to let you change him,
and gets quite ugly when you have to force him to.
he always has chew in his mouth, be careful they said,
he will even spit at you.
I walked in and introduced myself,
my name is Sarah and I'm new here,
it's nice to meet you.
he ignored my hand and grunted as a response,
I smiled and said, I'll be back to check on you.
My first night, he grumbled at first,
we got the lift and changed the meanest man I never knew.
we stuck to the routine for a short while,
when at three a.m. and making some rounds,
I hear a man yell, hey, so I stopped and turned around.
I walked into his room, all alone,
he looked at me warily, and said I'm ready to be changed.
I couldn't help but smile at him,
the meanest man I never knew,
progress is progress,
and he was beginning to trust me too.
I asked the others, what his story was,
they proceded to tell me of his past
some spoke with disdain as they tarnished his reputation,
no stone is ever left unturned in a small town population.
Our routine continued at three a.m. and then at six,
before I realized it, he allowed me to tend to him every two hours.at the least,
and most days he even greets me with a smile and seems happy to see me.
As time went on I noticed a pattern,
the girls would give me report, and say with a smile,
that the meanest man I never knew,
refused to let them give him care
and said he is waiting for you.
Covid came in the building and as it swept through,
it got ahold of him and then me too.
we were short staffed and there was no one left to call,
so they allowed me to come in and stay only with the positive patients to work.
That night we made a pitiful pair, but I held his hand, and gave him a pep talk,
I told him we were in this together and we had to fight our way through,
he squeezed my hand, and said, I don't feel good, but I'll fight with you.
it was touch and go for awhile, I really didn't think he would make it,
but, true to his word, he fought his way through,
this meanest man that I never knew.
time had passed and he never was quite the same
and over the next several months, he slowly began to deteriorate.
he became very clingy and held my hand when he talked,
he often pulled me in for hugs
he even told me he loved me once.
his time was drawing near, the signs were plain to see,
the meanest man I never knew
was Tired and in pain
he was ready to go but afraid at the same time
he had no family left, he was all alone.
I came back to work after my days off,
the Girls said he was still hanging on
and that they thought he was waiting for me.
I made my rounds and sat with him in between
I held his hand for the last time
as the meanest man I never knew
took his last breath with his hand in mine. This lady must have the best profile on CollarSpace: BondageWhore4U
Be more like BondageWhore4U Surviving Dead by Daylight:
In the shadows, I roam, chased by dread,
In "Dead by Daylight," where hope hangs by a thread.
Heart racing, I evade, my breath but a sigh,
Survivor in this twisted game, never ready to die.
Through the fog and the fear, I must find my way,
Trapped in this nightmare, where I cannot stray.
With every heartbeat, a killer draws near,
But I must persevere, conquer my fear.
Pallets crash, windows shatter, as I make my stand,
Against the darkness closing in, in this cursed land.
Alone or with others, we fight side by side,
In this deadly game where survival is our pride.
Generators hum, a beacon of hope in the night,
Guiding me towards dawn, towards the light.
Though hunted and haunted, I refuse to yield,
In "Dead by Daylight," my fate is sealed.
So I'll run, I'll hide, I'll do what I must,
To escape this fate, to rise from the dust.
A survivor, a warrior, in this never-ending fight,
In "Dead by Daylight," I'll cling to the light. I laugh at the thought of the SpecSaver mass appointments because guys can't f**King read. London/Essex/Kent only AND drive as it's real-time at fetish clubs ONLY. I call it the "opposite filter* whatever I seek a guy offers the opposite. When I only wanted one off.play all guys wanted long-term relationships. Then I years later I want domething more and guys from different countries only want online
Result? I instant block them. Bye-bye
On a positive night I had a choll day at Club o&I in Kent Sunday whipping, canes on a derriere, giving free form shibari and poy. All to ONE person. Then another drove us home again. Fabulous. Chastity - Week 95
Today is day 666 of my chastity journey, the 41st day of being locked constantly 24/7. The openness design of this cage allows me to be squeaky clean without removing it. i didn't think the 24/7 constant locking would be so humbling.
Chastity is not always a punishment Chastity can be a sign of adoration Chastity is not always an acknowledgement of inferiority Chastity can be a sign of strength and dedication
As the waves of submissiveness wash over me The longing to serve deepens to serve deepens
For everyone asking, yes i am still in training and have been collared. i have been in chastity for over six months i am only allowed out to clean myself and the device under the watchful eye of my owner. i have purchased a shock collar and it is locked on me now waiting for punishment, it is worn whenever i am home and is charging when i am out of the house. The shock is very powerful when turned up it will make me obey every command given to me, i regret buying this as i have no way to resist. When i see her grab the remote i start to shake a little and waste no time completing the task given to me. ¿Es necesario el amor en una relación BDSM?Respuesta rápida: depende.
Como siempre dar like, compartir, comentar, seguir
https://amaasht.art.blog/2023/03/19/de-amor-y-bdsm-nunca-nuevo-siempre-actual/ I've gotten love-bombed by two different local people this year. I didn't recognize it the first time and paid for it. I did recognize it this time during a break in online conversation, and I'm glad: I really got to explore what the flags were, how I reacted to them at the time, and how I felt when I realized what I was experiencing.
It seems to work. After all, who doesn't like praise? But when it's praise for stuff that shouldn't be that big of deal from someone who is not disclosing ... anything about themselves, that's a red flag. She Keeps Her Circle Small
She keeps her circle small for a reason, even if it means
not letting those she loves get too close to her
To her attachment is a liability and she no longer kneels
to that Master
She would do anything, give anything to those she called
her friends, but if you should cross her, she will rip you out
of her soul with no remorse
Heaven might have named her, but Hell taught her how
to survive on her own
Unknown Author Hey, I’ve been thinking a lot about this lately, and I want to share something important with you. Finding a master isn’t something that comes easy or quick, and that’s because it’s not just about a label or a title—it’s about a deep connection, trust, and mutual understanding. I want you to know that I’m genuinely ready for this lifestyle. I’m committed to learning, growing, and fully embracing the dynamic it brings. It’s not just about being controlled or guided—it’s about pleasing a master who respaspects and values me, someone who can push me to be my best and help me discover parts of myself I never knew existed. I’m prepared to put in the effort, to listen, and to show my loyalty and dedication in every possible way. This isn’t a phase or a fleeting interest for me—it’s something I want to live, breathe, and make a meaningful part of who I am. So if you’re someone who understands the depth of this lifestyle, knows the responsibility it carries, and is looking for someone ready to fully commit and please, then I’d like to have that conversation with you. It’s hard to find this kind of connection because it requires honesty, respect, and a level of sincerity that not everyone offers. But I’m here, and I’m ready. While a Forever dynamic would be a dream, reality imposes chaos through responsibilities and obligations... adulting is so overrated! Sigh...
It seems that an ongoing, monogamous fwb-mentor may be just right. A way to break out of everyday authority and relish in a degree of submission for a few hours or a weekend, with One who enjoys guiding, protecting, nurturing and maybe a little rough stuff tossed around lol
Priority- learn more, train, practice, grow
and of course praise, reward, make You proud!
cuddles, pillow talk, along with some
romance, dates, outings,
staying in, movies, binge watching etc.
give or take...
BEST WISHES TO ALL
AND MAY YOUR DREAMS FOR THE NEW YEAR
COME TRUE!!!!! What are the origins of My interest in the Master/slave dynamic? That's a question I have asked Myself many times and still find the answer elusive. Was it all those sword and sandal films I watched with the muscle bound men in chains? Or is it something deeper that drew me to those films and all the other images of lesser men serving a Superior? As humans, I believe we are drawn to others that confirm what we know is true about ourselves, My involvement in training and developing slave minds and bodies dates back to the mid 1990's. I was newly out in My mid 30's and drawn to the darker edges of the gay community I was exploring. I began to notice a man watching me in the leater/levi bar I had started frequenting. The man was not physically attractive but his intensity interested Me. I was curious. Asking others brought a common warning, "he's a werido stay away". I continued to ignore and then finally one day he spoke to me. his first word to Me was "Sir".
More later...... Hello again to all,
There is so much more complexity to life and interests. In actuality, I am a natural born dominant personality and that is separate from and precedes bdsm. My mother said I learned to talk before I learned to walk because I realized I could get everyone to do what I wanted. Being dominant is as natural as breathing and has nothing to do with sex specifically, it informs all parts of my life and being.
First assumption people have is that being a Dominant is part of doing bdsm. I am not looking nor seeking anyone or anything. My life is doing and experiencing and achieving.
I would rather focus on art and business and watch shows and smoke bud and chill with my pits than deal with someone else's bucket list and wishes that I will fulfull it for them. Waste of my time when that is absolutely not sex for me. Just me doing something well for someone else because they need it and I am exceptional at most things I choose to do doesn't really make it interesting or exceptional for me. Just run of the mill.
My sex type is a younger ab'd up sexy twink in their 30's to 40's. Please note I am not looking for that either. I am doing me and working on my income and business.
Here to talk to and meet interesting intelligent people and honestly, practice blogging somewhere while I get my website up. Have the domain and the hosting set..... for a few businesses actually. If you want to be used and are concerned with sex primarily, find someone else. If you want a fun and interesting life and to do more in it... maybe I will find you interesting. I was sexually explorative and a NYC club kid (excellent dancer) in the 80's which was a shit ton of fun. Being in charge and very considerate can all be part of a dominant personality and are integral to all ects of my life.
Silly men who contact me asking about what fetishes I enjoy miss the point, fetish doesn't drive my life. I do. If you are telling me you want and it is only about your sexual bdsm needs in your first contact, you will get one email and then I will ignore you if you continue only talking about bdsm and sex.
While I do love many things bdsm, I do not love talking about them unless I already know someone. If I am going to share details like that, I will do so when my website is done and I am blogging and podcasting and using those stories and details for business for all to hear/read rather than tell them to a casual questioner.
I have stories enough from many ects of life to tell and let others live vicariously throughthem while I get some residual income.My being here on collarspace is to practice blog and, every once in a while, I make a good friend which I value more. Most of my actual relationships happened in every day life.
If you really want to know your chances with me, below is the criteria that matters:
I am more attracted to someone in shape, 15 years younger, with a brain, abs, and an interest in something that intersects with my businesses which use skills/crafts like painting, graphic design, wearable art, clothing/t shirt design, website design, leather work, beadwork, blogging, and podcasting, computer tecg hardware and software support.
There must also be a connection with personal interests which include a lot Marvel, DC, and sci fi/fantasy shows while working in photoshopand going out dancing and fine dining, when I don't cook at home (excellent home chef here), in-depth conversations,yes I read global news and poltiics and science every other fucking intersting thing I run into and research.
I learn a lot, talk fast, think faster and most people are overwhelmed. I do all of these things and more and I want someone who can get involved, keep up, and be rewarded with fun things that include yes, bdsm and just plain old hardcore fuck for an hour and get damn sweaty type shit at least once a day...which is actually my favorite thing. No huge dicks wanted jsut ones that can go for an hour or more...lmmfao. Older, petite and that shit don't fit, and not what I want.Lola the Iron Mistress
People may choose to participate in a consensual slave and Master/slave (M/s) household for a variety of reasons. Some may find power exchange and BDSM practices to be sexually and emotionally fulfilling. They may enjoy the feeling of submission and the pleasure that comes from serving and pleasing their partner. For some people, the BDSM lifestyle may be a way to explore their own desires and boundaries, and to express their individuality in a way that feels authentic to them.
Others may enjoy the structure and discipline of a M/s dynamic. They may find that this lifestyle allows them to feel more organized, productive and focus. It could also provide a sense of security, knowing that they have a strong leader who guides them and makes decisions for them.
Additionally, some people may find the roles and dynamics of a M/s household to be a way to explore and express their individuality. They may find that the lifestyle allows them to break free from societal norms and expectations, and to create a unique and fulfilling life for themselves.
It is important to note that M/s households are different from abusive relationships and coercion. The foundation of all is based on mutual consent, trust, and communication. In a M/s household, both parties must be aware of and agree to the terms of the dynamic and all activities must be consensual.
Ultimately, the motivations for participating in this type of lifestyle can be personal and unique to each individual. It is important to remember that everyone's experience and desires are different, and that there is no right or wrong way to participate in BDSM or a M/s lifestyle. Hey I really haven’t done anything with anyone but I really want to do something!
We can call or chat i’m up to anything
I’m sub but i think i could dom here and there so I’m a switch but sub leaning?
I’m from the Middle East 5”10 i have a dad bod some say that i have a nice voice but I will that for you to decide
I can show my face but only separately from my nudes if you ask for them obviously
I would love to see pictures from your side after we get comfortable with each other
About kink stuff i say lets talk about that on the DM’s
(say [potato] in your message so i know you read this and probably not a scammer please)
Just know that sissy play and CEI isn’t my thing sorry
Thanks for reading till the end After discussing my challenges with dating or even befriending certain types of people, my friend wants to come up a snappy phrase for me to use that translates into, "Yes, but your complete list of Issues Has to Fit in Large Print on an Index Card or It’s Too Much for Me.”
That's much pithier than what I originally said, so ... progress! I got some feed back on my last journal entry and thouht I should try to clear up some points.The topic of "collar of consideration or under consideration collars" is one that has been discussed among Masters and slaves.Our houser believes that the Master who has placed a slave under consideration is either having trouble deciding whether they want the slave to be a part of their house, or they want the pleasure of controlling and using the slave without committing to the responsibility of ownership.Both actions are fundamentally wrong. If the Master is unsure if the slave is worthy of wearing their collar, they should communicate with the slave and discuss any concerns they may have.Collaring a slave is a serious commitment that should not be taken lightly. A Master should reveal to the slave what is expected of them if they wear the Master's collar and what their boundaries and duties will be. The slave has a simple, yet complex duty, to please the desires and will of the Master. In reality, it is the slave who should offer themselves to the Master for enslavement and collaring, not the other way around.The goal of the Master is to help the slave become the best slave it can be and to guide them to that end. My house has never personally offered a collar to a slave, but has learned from more experienced couples in the lifestyle to wait until it is asked for.
MasterG If you're out there looking at my profile and thinking "oh I shouldn't send an email bc I'm a sub/slave etc" then just get over that :) If you think there is a good match, you should absolutely reach out. I welcome conversation based on common interests and shared goals.
I'm looking for someone who can start by being available to me regularly, and over time increase that to either live in or near live status. That takes time though, and you have to be available - physically nearby or able to travel, and not so obligated with job or other things that you can't be here frequently.
While my main need at this time is service to free up time for the fun stuff in life, I also want someone I can do *terrible things to* and who LOVES that, because I will also treasure them deeply.
Can I be honest for a moment?
I never wanted to live to be this old.
I used to tell my friends all the time I didn't want to live past the age of 55, and I meant it.
But here I am, and the next 40 or so years look even more bleak than the first 55 were.
I was deliberately reckless in my youth for a reason.
And you know I'm going to live to be at least 100.
Because God is a sick sadistic fuck, and knows I don't really want to be here any more.
Yet here I be.
And the ONLY thing I'm interested in these days is going to kink parties and having fun with my friends from time to time.
So if you don't want to take me out to a kink party, get off my fucking lawn.
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The evening starts at 9pm and I would ask you to arrive promptly so we can get the party started and not waste any valuable time so that we can get stuck into the evenings events. In the interest of privacy and security I will send attendees the exact address nearer the time.
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CFNM (clothed female, naked man) males and CMNW (clothed men, naked woman) females are invited to attend in white shirt collar, black bow, white wrist cuffs, black dress socks and black polished shoes, otherwise you will be naked. You will be expected to serve the other guests upon request.
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you smile again and wipe your wet fingers on my face. "first, take off your shirt and clean that mess you made."
i hesitate for a moment but pull my shirt over my head and start to lean down.
"on your knees, and i want that ass up. in fact," you pause dramatically, but i know that tone of voice and shiver. "put the shirt in your mouth, hands behind your back, and clean."
i don't hesitate this time, and i put the shirt in my mouth. i'm still holding my new collar in one hand, and reach my arms behind my back so i can grip it with both hands when i spread my legs and lean forward. half my focus is on cleaning my juices off the floor, and the rest is on making sure i'm displaying myself well enough for you. my clit is throbbing from the exposure, and all i can think about is how badly i need to please you.
when i finish cleaning to your satisfaction, you order me to stand, but you keep the shirt in my mouth and my hands behind my back. "now," you tell me, "you can either put your filthy shirt back on or i can use it to tie your arms behind your back and put those tits on display. you can choose."
i think for a moment then hand you my shirt and the collar, before turning and presenting my arms to be tied. you pull my arms back, thrusting my breasts out further, and tie them tightly.
you trace your fingers lightly up my arms and over my breasts, making me shiver as my nipples harden. you pull me back against you and kiss my throat, but your hands continue down my body and slip back under my skirt. one hand holds me still and the other goes right for my clit. you hold me against you, still pressing soft kisses to my throat as i come undone in your hands.
you stop before you can push me over the edge but keep holding me still while i suck your wet fingers clean. when my breathing starts to calm, you push me forward. "let's go, babe."
as we approach the register, the man working here looks me up and down and smiles. i stumble, having forgotten that we weren't alone, but you keep pushing me forward. we're not heading straight toward him though- with your hand twisted in my hair you steer me toward a display case full of different types of dog tags.
we stop in front of it and my eyes meet your reflection's in the back of the case. i don't need to see myself to know that my cheeks are flushed and my lip is swollen from biting it, but i look anyway. i barely recognize the slut i see looking back at me.
you bring out the collar we chose and now i can't take my eyes off your hands. i watch them open the collar and fit it around my throat, and when they close the collar i sigh, letting out a breath i hadn't even realized i was holding.
i'm staring at myself, transfixed, barely breathing, for a minute before my eyes meet yours again in the mirror. "thank you, sir."
you hold my gaze as you pinch my nipples and smirk at me. "we're not done yet, my slut." you keep playing with my nipples with one hand while the other drifts down and under my skirt again. "pick a tag," you tell me, and begin to finger me.
you're much rougher this time, bringing me to edge and barely letting me catch my breath before starting again. without my arms free to brace myself, i'm shaking just from trying to stay upright. the only thing keeping my knees locked in place is the knowledge that if i fall to the floor, you'll leave me there to writhe and beg.
i shake my head to try to clear some of the cobwebs and pick a dog tag, but before i can speak you stop playing with my breasts and slip your fingers in my mouth. i can see you laughing at me when i can't hold back the whine, but i quickly forget about the dog tag anyway. you do this a few more times, until my whines are turning to screams.
the next time you remove your fingers from my mouth to start the cycle again, i immediately shout, "the heart! the heart tag, please, please, the heart!"
you wipe both hands clean on my breasts, giving my nipples an extra tug when you do it. i don't remember it happening, but at some point in this you pulled them out of my bra so now they're fully on display. when you're done, you reach out to grab the tag, then push me toward the cashier.
i look down, not wanting to see what this man thinks of me right now, but you push me right up to the counter. "tell him what to engrave on the tag, baby."
i whimper but don't speak, and your hand comes down hard on my ass. "daddy's little slut," i say in a very small voice.
another slap. i say it again louder. another slap. louder, and with a please. another. another. another. you stop after i shout, "please, please engrave my dog tag to say daddy's little slut!"
you rub your hand over my sore ass then push me forward, until i'm bent over the counter with my legs spread.
"miss?" the clerk asks, causing me to instinctively look up at him. he grins. "can you spell that for me?"
each letter comes with another hard slap on my ass. after "daddy's" and "little" you finger me again roughly, bringing me to the edge. after the second edge, i brace myself for another slap, but it doesn't come. instead you grab me and turn me so i'm on my back and spread my legs wide.
"you can cum when you're finished, is that clear slut?"
i gulp. "yes sir."
your hand comes down hard on my oversensitive pussy. S. L. U. on the T, your slap lands directly on my clit and i scream as the orgasm overtakes me. I had to get rough Friday night with my property. She has a list of waiting clients who are eager to experience her particular charms again in person.
My property was feeling lazy that night, not wanting to get prepped up for work. When she gets in these moods, it makes me feel so frustrated. I provide everything she needs to take it easy, and make me the focus of her comfy lifestyle.
But when she gets bratty she forgets all of that and just needs, cries out for a correction. Ripping her clothes off, I tossed her on her bed and jumped on top of her, spreading her legs, and pushing my large cock into her all the way. She begged for me to slow down, but I just kept hitting it hard, making her cry.
She was working Saturday night just like I wanted her to. She just needed an attitude adjustment. I'm surprised to see this site still exists. I've enjoyed BDSM lifestyle for numerous years. I'm not some mindless or spinelss door mate. I'm educated, a career professional and will always tempt you to be the best and most erotic Domiant possible. That my submissive purpose and desire. I had a play partner for nearly a years but went to work on a project in Europe for a while and lost a lot of US connections and friends. Earlier this year I crossed path with a Dominant female and it was intoxicating. She used and enjoyed me as her boy slut. All those submissive cravings and desires flooded my mind and body as she had unrestricted and unlimited use of me in very demanding and erotic ways. It made me realize how much I want and have missed this lifestyle. I've been used, shared and enjoyed as an obedient, submissive fuck toy. I love having my limits pushed and being used long and hard. This lifestle is best when the chemistry is free and mentally unrestricted. Trust that the Domme individual has the maturity level to forster an energetic and positive experience. I think a Domimant individual is at their best when not limited and mentally unrestricted to explore freely with a submissive. Trust is paramount. This morning as I was taking My first piss of the day, I realized I had no slave's mouth to receive My golden nector. Seem like a shame to Me.
Certainly, one of any slave's many duties should be as a human urinal for any and all of its Betters.
There is something quite charming in the way a slave's eyes bulge as it tries to keep up with the golden stream. Especially, when the its lips form a seal around the Master's prick. My wound is very close to being healed finally.
It is ..2 cm less than 1/8 of an inch open.
Bought a new hoyer pad so I can be out of bed more
Have another one coming today to it's always good to have more than 1 Tonight
Im sitting here typing remembering the past.This used to be my main life.It was not on fetlife but another bdsm site. Hours turned into years as I sat and waited for my first Master. . It was more than online but He kept me online . I was trained to wait. He was a Dragon.There have been other Dragons. They seem to find me or me find them. I rarely drink but I'm drinking and I'm in a mood but Im not drunk. I need to back up and say at least they name themselves Dragon. I have my own ideas of what Dragons really are. Im not being disrespectful. I just need to get things out before I explode.
One is hardly ever here online. One does write and I want to write back and say more but I just cant. Im just going through so much stuff. I start therapy tomorrow. Yay * sarcastic tone* a vanilla therapist trying to help me with relationships etc when I know that they will have no fucking idea what bdsm really is.
Help me out here. When you say you love to torture people, what does that exactly mean? Because I'm thinking that's not a kink, that's a serial killer in the making. I don't really understand the desire to inflict pain. Can't you just get in a bar fight? People who want to intentionally physically hurt people and act on it are predators. Right, right, consent. Yes. Consent accepts that you are a predator. It doesn't change the status. Bah and grumble with a dismissive hand wave, as long as the circle stays where it is, I suppose I don't have much commentary other than my original thought. I don't get it. Im getting super interested with having a gangbang i wanna be sensible and start out small maybe with like 4 or 5 guys does anyone have any experience with this ?
I wouldnt mind having another girl there to help out perhaps as a fluffer as id wanna be center of attention but im not sure how to arrange that.
Anyone interested in helping me arrange this or just giving me some advice is more than welcome to message me.
My mouth and ass would be up for the taking i will be keeping my pussy just for my master.
Thanks for reading guys and gals. :)
Prospective slave's Friend Requests
In My search for a total slave, I have had several make a "Friend" request of Me.
I tire of explaining to each and every prospective pieces of chattel that I am not looking for a 'friend.' Indeed a slave of mine would never be a friend, buddy, lover or social equal of any kind.
To illustrate, I explain that if I walked into a public Men's room and surveyed the line up of porcelain urinals I would not be looking for a 'friend.' Nor would I expect to treat any of the appliances like a lover.
In fact if the prospective slave were kneeling with its mouth open in the line up of other urinals, I may choose to ignore it for any of a number of utilitarian reasons, like maybe its face was particularly filthy with urine, ejaculate or even human waste and covered with flys.
And, speaking of human urinals, I do like to hear effusive gratitude for the slave's opportunity to be of service to a Better, but, a sign above it, if speech were impaired by say a spider gag, would work as well.
Master James
Living in a fantasy world doesn’t help anyone—not you, not the people around you, not the future you claim to want. Being useful means showing up in reality, doing the work, learning real skills, and taking responsibility instead of escaping into excuses or imaginary victories. Dreams matter, but without action they’re just noise. Ground yourself, contribute something real, and turn effort into results—that’s how you actually move forward.
I often find Myself not wanting to come back on this site , for reasons of giving My time to men that are basically all talk and no action. Don't take
that the wrong way. I'm not looking for a " play partner " I'm not a pro and I'm not looking for a hit or miss situation.
I am only looking for fulltime and hopefully lifetime commitments.
I get so many on here that are basically saying the same thing. They are looking for a FLR, they are looking for this or that.
What I am saying is I'm looking for someone that will add to My life. Hopefully someone with skills, around the house, a garden, willing to learn almost
a very different life that I an pressed forward into living. Even if you are only a background male that is willing to learn what I am capible of teaching, that is
good enough. But, if you are from the city I promise you , you will probably struggle and not understand what real country life is about. In that case you should
pass by this profile and looking for a wuss position in the city .
Gabriel was Jesus.
In Daniel chapter 8 through 10 a man visits Daniel. A voice confirms that it is Gabriel in Daniel 9:21. When the man appears to Daniel again in chapter 10 it does not state that it is Gabriel but I would think the same man would continue to come to him means though he showed up twice already to Daniel. It would not be needed to state a third time that it was Gabriel. And I believe if it was another person Daniel would have been told who it was like how he was told before that the man was Gabriel that came to him in chapters 8 and 9.
In chapter 10 it states that this man's appearance has a body of beryl, face like lightning, eyes like lamps of fire, arms and feet like polished brass, and a voice like the sound of a multitude. He is in the form of a man.
In John 17:5 Jesus is praying to his father in heaven and he states that he wants to be glorified at his side with the glory he has alongside the Father that he had before the world was.
This could be why Mary didn't notice him and mistook him as the gardener and why the one disciple had to put his fingers in the holes of Jesus's hands to truly believe that it was him.
Also in John 8:58 Jesus says before Abraham was I am. He was formed before we were ever created. He created us. He is the invisible image of God but gives all the glory back to the Father as he listens to the Father and does the Father's will. He was Gabriel the mouthpiece of God.
In revelations Jesus is said to come back with his face shining like the sun, voice like the sound of many waters, feet like burnished bronze, eyes like the flame of fire, and hair as white as wool, as a Son of Man meaning a human form with a divine presence.
Wow.. it's been forever since I posted here. Im not even sure when journaling opened back up. Last weekend was 1 year since my husband/ex Master passed away. It's been a journey of refinding myself, of re discovering independence and my own abilities to take care of "honey do" jobs around the house, and of learning to put myself first. I've gone back to favorite recipes I hadn't made in years because he didnt like them, I've thrown out the foods I never liked but had because he liked them. I've even learned to install a doggie door and a keyless entry by myself:)
And I've gone through several cycles of being mad and sad, and mad and sad again. I didn't like the man he became, but I will always treasure the many years with the man he used to be. And while it's been a bumpy road, I like this version of me that has come out of it all. A me that wouldn't exist without the strength he gave me for years.
Be well wherever your soul rests, Daniels. Aceasta este o ușă pe care ar fi bine să o lași închisă. Există ceva în spatele lui pe care nu vrei să-l dai afară și în viața ta. Sunt lucruri care nu sunt înțelese de oameni, lucruri care pot pătrunde prin furnirul de material pe care îl numim realitate. Lucruri împotriva cărora nu poți lupta și pentru care nu poți găsi ajutor, lucruri care nu pot fi explicate și care nu vor fi ignorate ca o simplă coincidență. Pleaca acum. Unele lucruri sunt mai bine lăsate netulburate. Nu sunt altceva decât un mincinos și un hoț, sunt un escroc și o să te rănesc. Nu sunt o persoană bună. Sunt înșelător și nu am conștiință, tot ce iese din gura mea este o minciună. Te-ai dat peste mine, nu invers, nu am nevoie să-ți văd profilul complet, sunt aici de la început (cunoscut sub multe nume, fețe), l-am văzut deja, pleacă acum și pleci neafectat . Nu ești suficient de puternic pentru a mă egala, nu ai treabă cu mine decât dacă deschizi ușa asta și îți va părea rău pentru asta. Veți rămâne cu vagi concepții greșite, renunțare la fidelități, nesiguranțe personale. Minciunile sunt întotdeauna reconfortante, dar adevărurile adesea ustură. Doar pleaca The renter next door doesn't keep up with the yard. It looked almost like beach grass, reaching to just about my height, with some wildflowers thrown in. Yesterday he took a weed whacker to it. Today I noticed he left the wildflowers standing. I don't know him at all, just the clues I collect when I pass by. He likes to sleep with the windows open. He knows about engines. He drives over the snow instead of shoveling, which is my least favorite clue, as I now do his sidewalk. Frankly, it annoyed me, so I shoveled it directly onto his driveway. This new flowers clue is my favorite so far. I used to think hrt pellets was not really viable
I think they are a brilliant tool for forced feminisation if there is to be no games.
I used AI to inform me, us. It’s also given Master some serious ‘weapons’
Pallets offer several advantages over patches or injections for MtF hormone therapy, providing steady hormone release for 3-6 months with minimal daily effort.[medicalnewstoday +2] Steady Delivery Pellets dissolve gradually under the skin, delivering consistent estradiol levels directly into the bloodstream without the peaks/troughs of injections (which fluctuate weekly) or patches (which can detach or vary with skin absorption).
This mimics natural hormone production, potentially leading to smoother feminizing effaspects like fat redistribution and mood stability.[alluremedical +3] Convenience and Compliance
No daily patches to apply/change or weekly/biweekly injections— just a quick in-office insertion every few months, improving adherence for long-term therapy. Users often report preferring pellets for this set-it-and-forget-it approach over messier gels or adhesive issues with patches.[queerdoc +2]
Additional Benefits Bypasses liver processing (unlike pills), may enhance energy, libido, and bone protection with fewer applications overall. Note: Pellets are often compounded (off-label for estrogen HRT), so monitor levels with a specialist.
One key advantage of estrogen pellets is that once implanted, they continuously release hormones without interruption, essentially putting feminizing effaspects on “auto pilot.”
This means the therapy works steadily and reliably without daily effort or forgetting doses. Even if you wanted to stop temporarily, the hormone release will continue until the pellet naturally dissolves over months, ensuring consistent feminization throughout that period. This steady, long-term commitment can bring peace of mind for those seeking a smooth, hands-off approach to hormone therapy.
Over the first 6 months after estrogen pellet insertion in MtF hormone therapy, feminizing changes unfold gradually as the pellet releases hormones steadily (about 1/3 in month 1, tapering over time).[pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih +1] Months 1-3 Skin softens and becomes less oily within 3-6 weeks; breast buds/tenderness emerge by 2-6 weeks. Emotional shifts, reduced erections/ejaculation, decreased libido, and subtle mood improvements often start in 1-3 months, with early fat redistribution to hips/thighs.[transcare.ucsf +2]
Months 4-6 Breast growth continues (typically A-small B cup max for post-puberty starters); muscle mass decreases for a softer appearance; testicular atrophy and slower body/facial hair growth become noticeable. Monitor blood levels at 4-6 weeks for adjustments, as full early effaspects peak by month 6.
Using a chastity device alongside estrogen pellets in MtF HRT could accelerate permanent erectile dysfunction (ED) outcomes by preventing erections, leading to faster penile disuse atrophy and fibrosis from lack of blood flow and tissue oxygenation.[cagechastity +1] Mechanism HRT already reduces spontaneous erections; a well-fitted chastity cage b This is my kind of Dominance
The Equalitarian Dom: Is one who controls by teaching, mentoring, and leading. This Dominant knows that when he finds a comparable submissive that things will happen as a natural progression of the interaction. Usually just a short learning phase is required to receive the correct response from the submissive. Both the Dom and the sub “get it”, there is very little need for so called “training” and they naturally know what the other needs and is looking for.
The Dominant does not like the situation of constantly repeating and forcing a particular behavior (submission) to occur. Besides the activities (sexual and others) it is the surrender as a result of the Domination that is the ive and enjoyment. Creativity is an important part of this situation. They tend to intellectualize and be more into the philosophical and psychological mechanisms of this life style. They understand the concepts and resultant interactions and can put it into real life. They do not need many rules like the Democratic type, nor do they like the heavy S&M activities of the Authoritarian, preferring submission to occur as a result of an instilled desire in the submissive to surrender. She “wants” to submit as a result of the Dominant’s knowledge and skill in dominating her.
Sensuousness is the rule. Pain is given and received as a form of sensuous stimulation. Light pain as opposed to severe. Sensuous torture is a popular activity in this area. Both the Dominant and the submissive must naturally be this way. These are the people who will claim to be “born that way”. They fully understand the concept of D/s, it comes to them naturally and easily. They attract a submissive that truly and naturally desires to please and who will observe and sense what it is that the Dominant is communicating;
Midnight Tiles
Sifting through the sands of time,
Smiling again at the memories sublime,
Who will rekindle my desire to dance,
On life's midnight tiles of chance,
Light my steps oh moon shine down,
Whisk me away to the lights of town,
The thwack of cane on his derriere pale,
My whip, my flogger on his skin will flail.
Flicking my sadistic Dominant tail,
My lust for his cries will prevail. Although being kidnapped by pervy aliens, it's a much cooler story. I just had to finish a big, work-related project. But I'm back! With nothing fun to talk about!
Except my birthday. It's almost my birthday and I'm so gonna throw a gotcha party. Mmmm, looking forward to some play time Mon/Tue/Wed night. Submitting to you, Mistress. Sissification, high heels, bondage, gags... Send a short note here.b. sissy Today I learned:
red crown in a yellow circle: female dominants
ying/yang symbol: female and transgender switches
a black whip with pink marks: female and transgender submissives
triskele symbol: male switches, submissives and dominants
nothing: couples
I am not sure of what these little symbols near usernames on profiles are for other than being cutesy, but at least I have amused myself briefly. Alot has changed since I first created our profile.
What I have noticed over the past year or so since I last checked in is that is still many of the same faces. People I suspect want the idea, but are too afraid to go for it when it is in front of them.
So, what we are looking for also has changed. I was looking to add to a poly family. Well that part is done as there are now three of us under one roof.
What we since decided is to find someone (female) who desires a complete loss of herself not for sensual BDSM, but for complete enslavement.
The person who seek would be looking to disappear from society, and be locked away, perhaps never being allowed to leave our dungeon and your new home.
In this role, you will spend many hours in bondage or caged, except when one of us decides we wish to enjoy your flesh for our pleasure. That pleasure being anything from using you for our sexual gratification, to being tortured just so we can hear you cry or beg for it to be over, to simply clean the floor on hands and knees.
Is this what you desire? Seriously, because many people think it is, but few can really accept that they are offering themselves to a sadist who finds love only in hearing cries and whimpers. Who favors the sound of leather agaist flesh over sweet 'I love yous'. Many profiiles will read like this I suspect, yet less actually have experience in doing just that. So, if you really want to atone for what ever sin you have done (and I could care less what that sin is), then lets talk. If you want to be used while reminded what a worthless piece of crap you are, then your the woman we seek. Not sure how much of this I have already posted but should have my replacement car within the next month. I have been diagnosed with mixed neurogenic bladder disorder meaning some times i can not pass urine others can not stop and do not even realise i am doing it. I have an internal catheter but the connections are not great and have been coming apart in the night, therefore i am disconnecting the bag from the catheter tonight and seeing how effective nappies are for overnight Am now taking laxatives and suppositories due to bowel issues including haemorrhoids and constipation probably due to where i am sitting all day in the wheelchair.
So if a sissy baby who can not stand or walk, and is reliant on a catheter or nappies interest you please let me know. Do you like that?/
I keep his throat in my pocket/
He tries to bite back/
I'm sleeping deep in his lungs/
He wants to deny that/
He's on the edge of his seat/
And he's trying not to break, but I give it 'bout a week/
I'm made of linen and salt, my blood is made up of feathers/
He runs on language and laughter, he's made of leather and pepper/
Our limbs walk over to each other, the bodies are shoving/
And I grab him by the tie and, oh god,I think he's blushing/
And the tactics, accents, rip my seam/
He's a hopeless, focused, fucked up dream/
And he's trying not to crawl, 'cause he won't say he needed me/
And he's trying not to sleep, 'cause all he does is dream of me/
His family's scared of me 'cause the concept of sex is stronger than the concept of god/
And when he's missing on Sunday, they know who's at fault/
And I'll return him home, sick with a fever/
'Cause his still on the ground, on his knees, in a theatre/
'Cause I'm the backyard heathen/
The girl he's dreamin'/
I'll bend him over backwards, give him something to believe in/
No end, no completion/
He says stop teasing/
We'll play the game, both go insane, and then we'll call it even/
'Cause his chest is heaving/
His knees got weakened/
All strong and rough and tough, but I ruined that in an evening/
I sunk my teeth in/
And by next weekend/
You're admitting I'm the only god that you'll ever believe in/
Holidays are usually rough for me and loneliness sinks in more especially around Christmas and New Years. Many people caught my eye and attention but, only one so far has managed to become at the fore front of my thoughts. This holiday all I seem to think about and picture is her bound with leather and gagged and at my mercy. Each whimper and cry with each swing of a paddle, flogger, and the stiking of canes arouses my need and feeds her need for pain. Once we ar both satiated I release her and hold her comforting her as I stroke her hair, her face and her body reveling in every mark, bruise and welt . "Switch"? ~ What it Means Pertaining to Me
I am not "a Domme" or "a sub", and definitely not a slave. I am a free woman with a generally dominant personality, who lives by Gorean principles and philosophies in real life, and also engages in BDSM activities. I tend to be "toppy" toward those on the more submissive end of the continuum, though I do usually at least defer to free men, and will conditionally submit to those I deem worthy of such. Apparently, the "switch" moniker is very confusing to some people, so I will go into detail here about what it does - and doesn't - mean, in my case. We'll start with the "doesn'ts", since those seem to be the most oft misunderstood.
"Switch" does NOT mean:
I go back and forth from free to slave.
It's a BDSM activity preference - not an indication of status. I am free. Period. Submitting to certain men or enjoying bottoming for some activities does not make me "a sub". It just means I enjoy a variety of activities, and that I am a woman who embraces natural order, so tend to show submissive traits in the presence of strong, dominant, free men, despite my mostly dominant personality.
I will do/be/play whatever role you are seeking
I'm not a fetish dispenser! Do not treat me like one.
my role within any specific D/s dynamic is flexible
It isn't. The boss is the boss, and stays the boss. The FC/sub/beta/slave/whatever s-type obeys.
I "switch" between being/identifying as dominant or submissive depending on my mood, the day, the phase of the moon, or any other whims.
I do not. I am simply who and what I am. I relate to others depending on their place on the spectrum of dominance and submission as compared to mine, and, as appropriate, their status or rank as compared to mine.
"Switch DOES mean (for me)
I enjoy both "topping" and "bottoming" in BDSM activities/scenes, regardless of D/s involvement (or lack thereof) at various times and with different people.
I respond in different ways to different people or types of people - Some people trip the dominant trigger, some trip the submission trigger, and some people do neither. That's just the way I'm wired. Telling me what I "should" do, or trying to demand, cajole, whine, bitch, or otherwise manipulate me into relating to you in your desired manner will backfire. Badly!
For a more in-depth look at the topic...
The word, "switch", for me, is only a label for convenience. It doesn't encapsulate who or what I AM. I am a strong woman with a dominant personality and submissive tendencies. I believe in the natural order of things (more on that in a future post), and that D/s is not a clear cut, either/or sort of thing. Rather, dominance and submission are character traits on a continuum, which vary from person to person, with every person falling somewhere on the scale, creating somewhat of a hierarchy. That means that a single person may be submissive or subordinate to some, whilst outranking or being dominant to others, at the same time. It was recently compared by someone in a discussion to that of a wolf pack. I tend to agree with that allegory. A pack will have an alpha male and, generally, an alpha female. The alpha female is the boss bitch, and she is dominant over the rest of the pack, but, she is still submissive to the alpha male, with whom the buck stops. She is still very much free to do as she wishes, and no one had best mess with her unless they are ready and willing to attempt to fight her, and potentially her mate, but she yields to him, because it is how they are biologically wired. The same is true, I believe, with humans. Another comparison is that to serving in the Armed Forces. A Drill Instructor is God to the recruits in their platoon, but if an Officer is on deck, that same Sgt. (or whatever) damn well better snap to attention and salute along with those recruits, and the C.O. (Commanding Officer) merits same from all of the aforementioned, going on up the chain of command right up to the Commandant, and then the Commander in Chief himself. In neither of those comparisons, does an individual bounce between two or more separate "roles". They occupy their given role, and interact with others and the rest of the world accordingly, depending on those others' respective roles. They don't have to transition from one "mindset" to another, because they know their place in the larger scheme of things, and everything just flows naturally from there. It is simply a fact that there are more than two "ranks" in life, and in nature. I will not separate out my dominant and submissive traits into separate "personas". They are not. I am me. I am a whole, integrated, complete person, with many different facets. I choose to embrace that. Neither will I "dumb down", pretend to be less than, submit, or pretend to submit to anyone, simply by virtue of their gender, status, or because they claim a certain title or position. I will start out being respectful to others, and will defer, to a degree, and maintain a submissive attitude with free men as long as they don't give me reason to do otherwise. From there, they will either earn my respect, and the added deference that may accompany it, or they will earn... something less, and I will do my best to at least remain civil, so long as they can avoid pushing me too far. Do not mistake a respectful demeanor, good manners, polite deference, or knowing my place in the natural order of things for outright submission. There is a distinct difference, and making assumptions is an unwise idea. Been an interesting week, a fair bit of stress but a funeral and civil court with a management interview will drain some energy.
Had a harmless intriguing Londoner find his way onto my WhatsApp, baring in mind he still hides his face on his own WhatsApp account, which is a little odd but at least we have seen each others picture.
Along with a mystery man from USA who for reasons unknown mildly caught my attention.
Looking forward to recovering from this bug so I can go on a date with a dominant man who will discover to me he is submissive - easy game so I await the hunt.
C SEMANTICS = THE BRANCH OF LINGUISTICS AND LOGIC CONCERNED WITH MEANING.
REQUEST = THE ACT OF ASKING POLITELY OR FORMALLY FOR SOMETHING.
FORMALLY = IN ACCORDANCE WITH THE RULES OF CONVENTION AND ETIQUETTE.
CONVENTION = A WAY IN WHICH SOMETHING IS USUALLY DONE, ESPECIALLY WITHIN A PARTICULAR AREA OR ACTIVITY.
ETIQUETTE = THE CUSTOMARY CODE OF POLITE BEHAVIOR IN SOCIETY OR AMONG MEMBERS OF A PARTICULAR PROFESSION OR GROUP.
ASKING = SAY SOMETHING IN ORDER TO OBTAIN AN ANSWER OR SOME INFORMATION.
COMMAND = AN ORDER OR INSTRUCTION GIVEN BY SOMEONE IN AUTHORITY.
AUTHORITY = THE POWER OR RIGHT TO GIVE ORDERS, MAKE DECISIONS AND ENFORCE OBEDIENCE.
If you are on the other end of a telephone line, the only authority I hold is to hang up.
I'm English. Where the language comes from.
Dominant is an adjective. It describes a thing. As in, "The dominant person."
It commonly gets shorted into noun form, as a thing unto itself. As in, "The dominant slapped some knowledge into the illiterate."
To dominate is a verb. It's a doing word. You use it like, "He dominated the test." "She dominated the opposition." "The dominant dominated the submissive."
When you find yourself writing the words, "I am a dominate," what you are actually saying is, "I am an illiterate twat who doesn't know the difference between a verb and an adjective or noun. Now please ignore that I can't apply enough thinking to use the language without hurting myself and please trust me with your safety instead."
Should you find yourself writing, "I am seeking my ideal dominate," what you are really saying is, "I am not seeking a literate disciplinarian as they would be forced to beat me until all of their toys broke."
As an Englishman, it goes without saying that the above is presented with hyperbolic sarcasm. But if we're struggling with nouns vs verbs, trying to explain sarcasm is unlikely to go well. I walk most days to reduce pain. Often I workout as I walk. Often My mind spins to entertain me as the hours pass. This morning I had a realization about Myself. Some assume I am sadistic. I do not believe I am. Rather, I think I am Dominant to the very core of my being. I don't enjoy the pain that I inflict. I enjoy the POWER of the fear on his face. It thrills me to see a great big alpha male subject himself to Me with a glint of fear in his eyes and a wry smile upon My face. Where do pirates get their hooks? A second hand store.
Thank you for taking the time to read my profile. I’m looking for someone who naturally has a happy personality and only wants to make others around them happy also. She needs to be drug and tobacco free with only an occasional drink.
What do you call cheese that’s not yours? Nacho cheese.
I would like to find that type of feeling like when we were in high school and we have that super crush on each other. I do everything to avoid conflict. I don’t argue or fight, if you want a masochist I’m not for you. Trust and respectful communication are important. I am not a social bug so my friend circle is small. I have 2 kittens but love most pets. I’m not looking for perfection I’m looking for happiness and someone who has the suction of a shop vac. Oh this is a good one. Pay attention.
Wake up
Drink 1 litre of water (2 glasses)
Get out and walk at a steady pace, low intensity for 35-40 minutes
Stretch for 10-15 minutes
Drink a glass of water, then Eat breakfast, which is most protein. NO CARBS @ Breakfast. Examples:
a. 3 egg, ham & cheese omelette
b. Cottage Cheese and 4 slices bacon
c. Breakfast sausage and 3 eggs
Light walk, or do errands for at least half hour. Do NOT sit down immediately after Breakfast. Try to stay on your feet, and some activity.
About an hour later, Workout if you're going to. Best to do weights & lifting in the morning. Adding resistance 😈 training, increases your lean muscle mass, which in turn burns more body fat.
3-4 hours later, drink a glass of water, then have Lunch. Equal thirds of Protein, Carbs and Fat. Try to get 1 serving/cup of veggies in there. Examples:
a. Fettuccine Alfredo with chicken and broccoli
b. Sandwich with cold cuts, chicken breast, roast beef, or whatever. Get extra tomatoes & lettuce.
c. Roasted 1/2 or 1/4 chicken, steamed veggies and a sweet potato, fries, mashed potatoes, rice, hummus & pita, or a side of pasta salad.
d. 2 item combo Chinese food: chicken, pork, beef with noodles or rice
e. A burrito or wrap: go for the gold and get guacamole, as long as there's a carb, a protein and some sour cream (fat) in there.
f. Pizza: the cheese is the fat, the crust is the carb. Now do it up with the protein and veggies.
If you're going to have something naughty, do it towards the end of Lunch: a few pieces of chocolate, cake, cookies, soda, donut, you get the idea.
Another light walk, or do errands for at least half hour. Do NOT sit down immediately after Lunch. Try to stay on your feet, and some activity.
Mid afternoon snack, IF, and only IF you feel like you need something before dinner. This should be no more than 2 - 3 hours after Lunch. Have a light smoothie vs a "sugary juice." The goal here is: a base of coconut water or milk, AND mixed fruit, AND some deep green leafy vegetables like Kale, Spinach, Celery tops, etc. If you're able to add peanut butter and/or Greek Yogurt to it for the protein, even better! Drink a glass of water about an hour after the smoothie to flush it all through and out of your system.
Get on your feet, stay active, do some sort of physical activity after the smoothie for at least 5 - 10 minutes.
Dinner, anywhere from 3-5 hours after Lunch. Drink a glass of water before Dinner. The idea here is little to no carbs. Load up on veggies, and have some form of lean and mean protein. Think free range, wild caught, grass fed, etc. A few really good Examples:
a. Roasted/Grilled/Pan Seared chicken, fish, beef for pork, AND 2 servings of steamed or baked veggies, or a salad.
b. A huge salad, AND add the roasted/grilled protein above to it.
c. You could have a Denver Omelette here with lots of veggies if you wanted, AND a nice big salad.
d. Salmon/Tuna/Fish with veggies, AND a big salad.
Try to be active, get out for an evening walk or bicycle ride, do some sort of low intensity physical activity after dinner for at least 30 minutes. Don't just sit down or plop on the couch. Do something.
One big note, try to have and finish dinner at least 4-5 hours before bed. Go to Bed near hungry.
After dinner, drink a glass of water every hour for a couple hours if you can. But stop a couple hours before bed, otherwise you'll be waking up to pee all night.
Sleeping on an empty (or as close to near empty) stomach is important. This fasted state allows your body to recover, repair damaged cells and get rid of the bad ones. You'll notice better Growth Hormone production while sleeping in this manner, and more sex hormone release (estrogen for women, testosterone for men).
Finally, believe it or not, part of the process of vaporizing body fat happens in your sleep, IF you sleep in a fasted state. For use as energy (the process of recovery and repair), your body will convert stored fat into air, that is then expelled out your lungs as you sleep throughout the night.
Thanks for your time, and I hope you learned something. I Just realized on Dec 26th 19 years ago today. I went to be my first munch and became a member of my local BDSM community. I remember being so nervous. I had never dated or anything before that day. I was happy when I read an erotic novel and found the term BDSM and went down the rabbit hole. All the years I would have dreams and desires not understanding and thinking I was alone. I was 30 years old and started researching on AOL, Yahoo chat, the great websites at the time. To find the munch group and got my scene name from my email address. So nervous to meet at the munch group, Only about 5 of us were there that night being right after Christmas. I was so happy and excited and felt like I finally found home and people that would accept me and welcome me.
The lifestyle was fun and learned a lot but also wasn't the greatest as I would jump into things and the 7.5 years I was active did expereince abuse that still scares me today. I have triggers but also realize this is who I am and can't just be vanilla. I have missed being active in the lifestyle and miss my BDSM family. One day hope to find the right partners and get back to being active again.
I call this my BDSM birthday. And glad I found it. Just more cautious now.
i ache to please
a need to feel Owned
i yearn to serve
a possession
i long to worship
be an object
i need to submit
And just like that, the talks have ended and I've sent that prospective slave on her way. There were two very big (imo) factors as to why she would not have worked out.
The first being a big communication problem. When I speak, I speak directly and clearly as to what I want, think, feel or am asking. If I'm asking a question, I expect an answer to the question asked. Not what you think you feel the question is or pretains to. That tells me you aren't listening to my words, just your feelings. And that will lead a slave to failure every time.
The next problem is ideals vs reality. I see this as rampant throughout these bdsm sites. A slave will search for their ideals and not except that the reality is rarely, if ever, matches what their idea of being a slave is. The fact is, thought the slave wants to be kept in a cage and only brought out to be played with, bills need to be paid, the house needs to be cleaned, meals need to be cooked. These are, to me and other Masters, part and parcel to being a slave. The fantasy slavery is good for maybe a weekend or so. But not something feasible for the long run.
So for now, it seems I am still looking for a slave. As I continue on this journey, I think I'll continue to use this form of media as a sounding board. Apology to Mahatma Ghandi for my small change to his quote but I feel it applies to my own role here.
The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of another.
In D/s world this quote might sound to close to being over-dependent or clingy. But as it's originally intended, to me it's about self-awareness, personal growth and embracing my natural submissive tendency. Self-Education
I’ve been on websites like this one for quite a few years but was only sporadically active. I was looking for information about things as well as for other people to talk with about it. But I was only sporadically active. Two or three times, I thought I had it figured out. I thought I knew what it was that caught my interest that led to my fetishes.
Then I realized that some of those fetishes were more than fetishes. So I explored more. And the more I explored, the more I discovered that I liked or at least found intriguing.
But I began to see a common thread between the fetishes, they all fit together. And they fit so well, I made a crossword grid out of them. lol
I would put up pictures and take them down. I would make my profile out to be a personal ads and then change the wording later. A little frustrated that I didn’t know what to do with all of this knowledge and information I had been seeking and had now found, I threw my hands up in the air.
What good was all of it if I didn’t know what to do with it? If I couldn’t answer the questions of what I liked and why?
But I was never going to find the answers. And the reason why is because I was looking for them. I was behaving like an addict. And that needed to stop. There wasn’t anything wrong with liking and even liking something a lot. But if it was the greatest thoughts in my head, then it needed to be the most important thing in my life.
It wasn’t until I stopped thinking about what I liked and what I wanted that it all began to fall into place.
I began to read what others liked and wanted and what they posted. I would focus in on the postings of dominant women as they were ones I saw myself as a counterpart to.
I’m one of millions who read the postings of dominant women. The first time I read these postings, I tried to imagine how I could fit into what they were saying. But I wasn’t finding that pathway in their words.
At that moment, it really started to define itself. And things I guess I already knew were becoming clear.
I’m not gonna be right for everyone.
Lots of dominant women will not be right for me.
I do know what I want and I do know what I like. And I’ll gladly share those things with someone in private messaging. (Although I fully understand that you can discover a lot of my kinks and interests and ideals and all on this profile. But that would require you to look at my profile, top to bottom. And a lot of people don’t do that on here. That’s something else I’ve learned.)
The basis of everything I needed I already had when I made a profile on this site years ago. It was just a matter of continuing to learn.
Being submissive, or believing myself submissive, was something I knew. But its definition I didn’t understand. And before I could be educated by anyone, I needed to do most of that education myself.
My focus needs to be on her.
It’s my rightful place. And it’s all about what feels natural because what feels natural is what IS natural.
I’m not below her. She’s not above me. But the truth is SHE DOESN’T NEED ME. I need to show her why she would need me. And because she doesn’t need me, if she keeps me in her life, that is a privilege.
I want to be useful to her. I want her to see me as being useful. This comes from actions. Actions first. Words second.
Strong and confident woman deserves respect. My goal is always to make her happy and to keep her happy. To put her happiness on a pedestal. This doesn’t require her to be dominant and me to be submissive. It should be natural and feel that way.
Make her life easier.
Take her stresses away.
Take her energy-draining responsibilities away from her.
She wants to feel safe with you. If she doesn’t feel safe, why would she need you?
Make her life ... better.
This is where I’m at in the journey for knowledge. This is the point I have reached with my self-education. Many more lessons to learn yet.
Well let some thing here about me to help explain who i am what am and things i like to do on both sides of the fence. Let start with that i am 53 years old living in Kannsas . I enjoy movies of most genres from scifi to fantasy action and more i have over 300 dvds i like scifi tv shows cartoons anime. i like to read and cuddle i like to build lego starwars and others i like to play computer and videogames i like baking . i do have some medical issues but dont we all if that upsets you then move along i am not here for your hate messages or you trying to tell me i shouldnt be on here looking as you are not my keeper and have no right to tell me what to do or where i can be. ( sorry about that rant but needed to be put out there)
what i am is real simple i am a gentle kind person i can be supportive and fair but i can be controlling and strict as well . i am someone who believes in a person being honest and keeping their word and promises i dislike those that break then and lie about things
Also known as "well, you're fat and ugly and I didn't like you anyway!"
Yet another rando on 9/24/25 at 5:59 AM:
Hi maam I am an exp slave and was in a female led marriage with my late wife for 11 years . I seek to serve again. I am a true service slave and verty domestic. I have no limits as long as legal. Hope we may talk maam
angeldmort on 9/24/25 at 9:30 AM:
And what part of this email is something you haven't sent to every other Domme with a nice picture?
Its insulting that you view us as interchangeable, generic vending machines for your kink.
Yet another rando on 9/24/25 at 10:20 AM:
On tbe contrary. Not sure who told you that you have a nice picture
And so many of you guys insist it's Dommes who are fake...
All this would be sad if it weren't so hilariously predictable. The Weight of Three Minutes - An Erotic Short Story
The marble is cold under your knees. I designed the room precisely for this quality of cold, for the way it travels upward through a kneeling body and reminds it, without a word from me, of exactly where it is. The morning light moves across your bowed shoulders and finds the faint lines on your skin, my lines, exactly where I left them.
You hold the cup steady. I will give you that.
My fingers brush yours as I take it. A conductivity test, reading the current of you through brief contact. You do not tremble. Good. I bring the rim to my lips.
The first sip tells me everything. The base notes are correct, the Darjeeling first flush I require. But beneath it, the steep is wrong. Three minutes would have given me what I require. You gave me four. The tannins have opened in a way they should not have been permitted to, and the result is an astringency that sits at the back of the palate like a small, deliberate insult.
You know. You felt it before I tasted it, felt the error in the air the way a barometer feels weather. Your world has narrowed to the space between my slippered feet. Good. That is where it belongs.
I say your name. Just that.
"Yes, Goddess." The word hangs in the quiet room like an offering I have not yet decided to accept.
"The specifications are precise and they are not suggestions. Water temperature ninety degrees. Steep time three minutes. Measured. Not estimated. Not felt."
"Yes, Goddess."
"Explain the deviation."
The muscle in your jaw tightens. I catalog it. "The leaves were newer stock. I thought a longer steep would develop the flavor more fully. Bring out the muscatel notes you prefer."
"You thought."
I begin to circle you. Slowly. I am never in any hurry. I place my gaze on the back of your neck with the deliberate weight of something being pressed into soft material.
"You introduced variables. You assumed. Perfection does not accommodate feeling. The muscatel note I prefer is arrived at in precisely three minutes. Not your interpretation. Not your instinct. Three minutes, measured, as specified."
"A flaw in the cup is a flaw in the man. Do you doubt my parameters?"
"No, Goddess. Never."
But your fingers curl inward where they rest on your thighs. I see it. I note it. Nothing is too small to matter.
"Stand."
You rise in one fluid motion, taller than me, broader. And yet you make yourself smaller in my presence, as you have learned to do. It is one of the things I have built in you that I find most satisfying.
"Look at me."
Your eyes meet mine. The familiar desperate focus is there, the terror of demotion. But beneath it, a flicker. Not defiance. Something more interesting. A spark of independent thought, alive and un-extinguished.
My fingers, cool and precise, trace the line of your jaw. The shudder that moves through you is full-bodied and involuntary. Your breath catches.
"The grade for today's service is pending. We will see if the rest of your performance can correct the imbalance."
I turn toward the lounge. "Follow."
Two steps behind, as trained. The cage sits in its corner, black steel and clean lines, always the outer boundary of the visible world.
"Kneel here. You will remain until I have need of you. You will not speak. You will not move. You will contemplate the difference between three minutes and four."
You sink into position. Back straight, hands on thighs, head at the precise angle I have trained into you. You are, when you are like this, a beautiful object. I have made you that.
Not a muscle moves. Your breathing barely disturbs the air. Every resource of you pointed at the single task of being still enough to please me.
And yet. You chose to deviate. You chose to trust your own palate over my doctrine.
Something uncoils in my attention. Not anger. Sharper. Interest, which in my world is rarer and more dangerous than fury.
I say your name again, soft as a petal released from a great height.
Your eyes lift instantly.
"Come here."
You cross the distance on your knees and stop before me, your face level with my lap. You wait with your entire body.
"The grade is failing. A failing slave is placed in the cage. Denied touch. Denied sight."
Your throat moves. "Yes, Goddess."
"Do you wish to be caged?"
"I wish only what you wish, Goddess."
"That is not an answer. It is a recitation. The one who extended the steep had a wish. What was it?"
"I wished for it to be perfect for you. Not just correct. Perfect. The new harvest felt like an opportunity and I wanted to find something in it that you had not yet tasted."
There it is. Your ambition, layered over my specifications, believing itself generous.
I slide my fingers into your hair and close them. The breath that leaves you is unsteady. Your eyes close. "Your wish introduced error," I say, close to your ear. "Your personal pursuit of my pleasure contaminated the delivery of it. That is the failure."
I pull your head back. Your eyes open, wide, stripped of calculation. Simply present. Exposed. Looking up at the only person in your world who matters.
"And yet," my thumb finds the pulse hammering in your throat, "it was a beautiful ambition."
I release you.
"The grade remains failing. But the correction will be hands-on."
"Remove your shirt."
Instructions
You are instructed to answer your door wearing your shortest skirt and no under pants. You can choose either a pushup bra or Bustier. You need to find the best way to provide good access to your erect nipples. High heels will be in order and a nice bright red lipstick. Your fragrance should suggest you need serious examination.
Once inside we will continue with your assessment. We need to determine what type of spanking suits you. Your level of grooming will need attention. You may have hair in places that needs to be removed or trimmed.
I will ask you to give me your tongue. After your tongue is placed in my mouth I will begin inspecting your nipples with my fingers. At first I will use gentle caressing pressure to make them stand up. When your nipples are sufficiently hard I will begin to squeeze them and as long as you murmur enjoyment and pleasure your nipples will receive my attention. Careful breast squeezing will further arouse your interest. Perhaps some careful sucking, licking, and nibbling will begin providing your respectful encouragement is well received.
You will have a collar fitted and a short lead attached. Naturally you will be led around to get a sense of how you walk in heels, how your hips and ass thrust up as you slowly move.
Your pheromones will now be tasted and their fragrance examined. You will be directed to wet two of your fingers where you should now be wet and aroused. Offering yourself and asking if more is needed will go a long way to establishing your further attention.
You will be directed to spread your legs so you can be inspected. A little hair for decorative purposes is ok but too much around your labia will have to go. Your hair will be trimmed with perhaps a stylish V created and the rest shaved off.
You have begun your journey and it’s time for you to dress for the adventure. Do you have stockings and a sexy garter belt? Well put them on. I expect skimpy and sheer panties. Your breasts should be supported and offered. Makeup and fragrance needs to show how you want to be used and aroused.
Spanking is so critical to your excitement. You love to be spanked but how is the question. There are three basic spanking types; hand, paddle, and cane. Which will make you lose your control and submit must be discovered.
Pulling on your lead you will be positioned on your knees. Crossed slender wrists will be bound behind your back. You will be instructed to position yourself on my lap. I want to make sure you are comfortable and available. I can detect your fragrance and increased breathing. You know you want to be taken.
Instructions follow. I will gr your hair and pull it back as you are vigorously spanked. Naturally you will be aroused by the hair pulling and spanking. You will have to count out the spanks and plead for harder or less so. 10 spanks will decide how you like your this treatment.
Now things are getting serious. After the hand spanking you will resume your kneeling position. Have you ever worn a ball gag? The sexist ect is the drool and you need to accept that you will drool when you’re gaged.
.You will be instructed to open you moth and the ball gag will be inserted. Tying the ball gag in place behind your hair will set the scene. A paddle will be applied to your ass. You can ask for harder by nodding yes, begging for less by shaking no.You can continue with the way itis by just remaining still. You will be gagged abd unable to speak but you can express your delight with groans, moans, squeals, and squeaks. Perhaps hand spanking and paddling is enough to satisfy your masochistic desires for pain but if they're not enough then you'll be caned and marked.
If caneing is the way to go for you, other arrangements will be necessary. You will have your bonds released and be led over to a short table Your wrists will be tired to the sides of the table. Next your legs will be spread and tied to the legs of the table You are now bent over the table and ready to receive the cane Again you can try to control the severity with signals but you must understand you won't escape unmarked.
Bent over the table, panting and waiting. I will toy your ass with my cane to let you get a feeling for what is to come. I will have to express my disappointment in having to abuse you in this fashion. The caning will start and the count will be given. You can try ro influce the intensity with signals and express your feelings with appropriate noises. Whatever you do, you will receive 5 strokes. Unless you beg for more.
Which do you like best? Does the hair pulling make you wet and weak? Questions that are answered during your spanking assesment determine where things will go next
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To the One who commands the storm,
I am but a quiet breath in the dark —
a lamb once lost, now kneeling, waiting,
trained in stillness, shaped in fire,
taught to serve not just with hands… but with heart.
Four years ago, the path found me.
Led first by leash, then by longing.
I have tasted both the light of loving discipline
and the dark ecstasy of surrender without question.
Pain, I learned, is not punishment —
but the key that unlocks the soul.
Submission, not weakness — but devotion in its purest form.
Now unclaimed, I wander in soft silence,
a collar-shaped echo around my neck,
longing for guidance, for purpose,
for the gaze that sees, commands, and owns.
Should You find use for me —
to kneel, to serve, to obey —
I offer not just my body, but all I am,
wrapped in reverence,
and bound in faith. I have found a fuck buddy.
Met face to face, seems nice enough and actually single.
Was direct on the phone that I want to use him for sex.
I have started recleaning and reorgnisnig the flat so definately preparing for company.
stocked up the wine rack, beers in the fridge, heaps of meat and fish in the freezer.
Bought silk PJ and silk underwear - not into the whole leather crap.
Buying rope and going to practice hog-tying him for my own pleasure.
Etsy have some really cute strap-ons, girly ones with pretty patterns.
Candle play wax.
Should write a list of things I want to practice and experiement.
TBC (to be continued).
C Hi, people!
My blog now is amaasht.art.blog
Go ahead and take a look, I hope you enjoy! == Results from bdsmtest.org ==
100% Primal (Prey)
100% Switch
94% Brat
87% Submissive
84% Voyeur
83% Rope bunny
79% Rigger
79% Experimentalist
76% Degradee
71% Dominant
67% Degrader
67% Primal (Hunter)
63% Masochist
57% Brat tamer
54% Sadist
54% Pet
45% Owner
45% Exhibitionist
39% Slave
37% Vanilla
37% Non-monogamist
21% Master/Mistress
3% Daddy/Mommy
0% Boy/Girl
0% Ageplayer
Master's WritingsFoundations: The Ethics of SadismThe ethics surrounding sadomasochistic play are perhaps among the most important in all of the BDSM community. I constantly see posts from masochists searching for a "Real Sadist", someone who knows what they are doing and they can trust. And why shouldn’t they, in this realm, we are often talking about genuine pain and the potential for real harm. Yet I continue to see those who call themself by the title, who operate without a code and believe that sadism is nothing more than a license to hurt another person. Thus, the need for a code and identify the ethics behind the title.Up-front, any attempt to identify ethics must include basic standards such as:
Both parties being of minimum legal age
Both parties being competent to legally consent
All physical and mental health considerations of both parties have been made known
The nature, depth and limits on the activities have been previously agreed to by both parties
Consent of the bottom has been given to the activities discussed without any form of duress, coercion, manipulation or barter
and finally, that safewords or some form of safeguard communication is in place that stop or pause play as necessary
Beyond the basics, however, I believe that the ethics of sadism must go beyond that. It must include a dedication to perfecting one's skills and knowledge of the craft long before you ever raise a cane, a commitment to know your bottom to a depth beyond normal play so that you possess a clear understanding of what they want and why they want it and an absolute mandate that the Sadist never brings their outside emotions, such as anger or stress, into a scene (if you are made at the world, no bottom should pay for that). Additionally, it must also include a dedication to maintain a constant awareness of a bottom's capacities throughout any scene.But the real point of the ethics of Sadism lies in the commitment to maintaining all of these beliefs and values during the heart of a scene. It is easy to be ethical before a scene begins, but as the tempo rises, as the pain threshold lies within reach, being ethically strong enough to not get carried away in the thrill and glory of the moment is an ever present challenge. It is there, in that moment when a Sadist must lean into their ethics and remember their responsibility for a bottom's safety, the commitments you made about the scope play, and the dedication to not get sloppy with either technique or intention. In the heat of the moment, you walk the fine line between pleasure and pain, ecstasy and injury, but responsibility requires a strong ethical core to keep your bottom safe and deliver wisely on the gift of the experience you deliver.For me it is the connection I make during play, either physical, as in touch, or verbal, as in checkups, communication and listening. Connection helps remind me my bottom is a person. A person who has placed their body and experiences in my hands. It humbles me and reminds me that without ethics, I am no better than a monster with a whip. It is the ethics of Sadism that keeps me human and allows me to call myself a sadist with a clear conscience. I've changed my profile a bit, after almost a decade of self-discovery. I woke up one morning this summer and said, aloud, "What if I been doing it wrong for 15 years?" What if I am trying to fit into something that isn't living my authentic truth or self?
One thing that hasn't changed - I certainly love subtle ways of humiliation and ification. Seeing the glowing red that someone has viewed my profile or have admired me still stirs my introverted soul into blush. I should make it clear that I am very sexual individual/pup. I'm constantly horny quite often and quite randomly, I'm guilty of pleasuring myself very often. Even reading this makes me rub myself. I don't want to be in control; I want to be made into an obedient dog, just drooling at the idea of the amount of bliss hidden behind one key (or more- hopefully). I certainly don't want to dig to deep of a hole for myself; but I need a master who'll relish in my pained cries for release. Maybe a week on and a week off? (A week off being a week of only that). I think any good master could train there dog to beg for either cage off or cage on.
I need a master who'll tease me for hours on end just to see me squirm; someone who'll hold my key hostage while forcing me sub for his friends; I want to earn every drop of cum I squirt through the scars on my body and the cum of others that I can guzzle like a good boy. The meaner and crueler you can be to me the better. After all, most good pets are obedient for a reason 😈 Integrity:
The integrity of the Master differs from that of the slave.
A Master’s integrity is a gift He gives Himself.
A slave’s integrity is a gift it gives its Master.
One of the elements of integrity concerns behavior when no external observation is possible. The Master’s concern is how He conducts His affairs when He and His conduct may remain anonymous. When He conducts Himself correctly He can view Himself with humble respect.
If the it breaks slave rules, whether observed or not, must report such sin to its Owner. The Owner decides how the slave may be viewed. Part of the report of slave’s failings should include begging for the opportunity to gain atonement in whatever fashion the Master may decree. The slave does not indulge itself with concerns about how it may view itself. it depends on Master’s judgement for all and everything, except as Master my decide.
The slave’s integrity is measured in how well, quickly and adequatly it reports transgressions to its Owner.
Returning to Seattle for 10 days to check in on things, attend (unfortunately) a funeral for a relative, and breath in some good PNW fresh air. Wondering if I need to bring along my chastity cage in case a keyholder wants to manage it for my 7 of my 10 days (traveling up and back for the other 3). MSG me (please) if interested as a 1 week KH and Domme! "I will serve. I will be of service."
That's one of my favorite lines from the John Wick movies. It's an oath of service. Those of us who have service subs understand this devotion and cherish it.
Every year my wife and I take a beach holiday. This year we're going to drive her convertible to South Padre Island. I pack my own suitcase. She does everything else. This is what she does. She packs a cooler with ice and my favorite drinks. It'll sit in the back seat on the drive there. She has snacks ready so we don't have to stop anywhere if we get hungry.
She packs the trunk with a beach umbrella, beach bag, our suitcases, two chairs and whatever else we need. I always drive the first leg since I'm an early riser. We both dress in T-shirts and comfy shorts.
When we get to the rental she piles everything into a folding dolly and we go to our room. Like a machine, she puts everything away, makes me a drink and gets us settled in. Like a queen I just sit back and relax.
When we go to the beach it's a production. She chooses a nice spot near the water and away from the rental umbrellas. She sets everything up making sure that my body is within reach of her. She does this because it's her job to make sure I'm oiled up at all times. If I look warm she'll squirt water on me. She makes sure my bikini looks just right so I get perfect tan lines.
She loves standing guard over my oiled body as people walk by looking at me as they walk down the beach. As time goes on she makes sure my drink has ice. She empties my ask tray. Every now and I get some more oil rubbed on me. We talk, listen to music and watch people go by. Because she is a water baby (Aquarius) she loves swimming in the ocean. I love watching her enjoy the surf in her tiny bikini as I sunbathe.
I know that we're going to have really hot sex tonight after she sees my tiny tan lines. I'm really going to enjoy her service.
Let’s speak on something most avoid.
What is the point of control, if there is no purpose behind it?
To take responsibility for someone, whether you call them a submissive, a slave, or anything else, and then leave them without direction, is not power, it’s mismanagement.
Service is meant to be useful.
Without purpose, without structure, without a defined role, that energy has nowhere to go, and over time it deteriorates, focus fades, discipline weakens, and what could have been something valuable becomes wasted potential.
So I ask,
You say you “own” them, now what?
What is their routine, what are they responsible for, what are they building under your direction, what is the outcome you’re working toward?
Because in any real system, any kingdom, any structure, everyone has a place.
A role, a function, a reason they exist within it.
Without that, you’re not leading, you’re collecting.
And that’s where most fail.
If your life cannot function without them, then who is truly in control?
If their only purpose is to sustain you financially, then what happens when they step away?
You haven’t built anything, you’ve created dependency.
And dependency is fragile.
Real power is stability, it’s structure, it’s having your world in order first, so that anything added to it strengthens it, not holds it together.
So this is the challenge,
Get clear, get structured, get intentional.
Because if you’re going to take responsibility for someone else,
You should already know what to do with it.
— Mistress Nikki Vixen I’ve been reflecting on past dynamics—especially the ones that carried intensity, structure, and a deep psychological connection.
And over time, something became clear to me.
Some lost sight of the purpose.
They became more focused on punishment than on presence. More attached to the feeling of correction than to the act of truly serving. The dynamic shifted away from alignment… and into fixation.
And that’s not what I want to cultivate.
Because my role, the way I see it, is not to break men down or leave them in a constant state of need.
It’s to guide. To shape. To bring them into alignment with something greater than themselves.
That’s where my philosophy of Goddess and matriarchy truly lives.
A feminine-centered dynamic, at its highest form, is not about chaos or control for its own sake. It’s about order, intention, and a quiet kind of authority that creates structure others can settle into.
Within that structure, the masculine doesn’t disappear—it finds its place. It becomes supportive, focused, and purposeful.
That’s where devotion becomes meaningful.
Not in desperation. Not in obsession with punishment.
But in awareness.
In learning how to show up consistently.In understanding how to listen, how to respond, how to serve in a way that actually contributes to something whole.
I won’t define what this looks like for everyone.
But for me… it has never been about destruction.
It’s about refinement. Guidance. And creating a space where submission is not just felt—but lived with clarity, balance, and intention.
That is where something truly divine begins to take shape.
— Mistress Nikki Vixen I want to clarify my relationship status so no one is caught off guard.
I am and have been in an open relationship for years. He is not a part or aware of what I get into with other men. He knows my kinks but does not share them. Vanilla as they come. He agreed long ago to let me pursue my fun and to be happy being me.
Therefore while I have and will be involved with someone ongoing I also do one offs. I seek play partners and no one should expect more to come of it. Play partner being a catch all term for sub, slut, toy, etc...
Also I have a profile with the same name on fetlife for those who want to learn more. We are looking for a rare blend of submission, depravity, and intelligence.
A beginner will also be welcome as experience counts much less than motivation.
Monsieur is already very experienced, Madame is a novice but will assist me with application, she expaspects more than a docile thing to enter this world of vice by exercising on her, following my example. Wow, they have journals back. What a trip.
Since this is easier than updating My profile, I'll just use this space to clarify that 'm no longer interested in online dynamics.
It no longer fulfills Me. So if you aren't local or able to travel to meet Me in a reasonable amount of time, you're not what I'm looking for,
and I wish you happy searching. A submissives roles and responsibilities
1. Loyalty. Above All Else loyalty. It should be in the background in any given situation
2. Submission I am a submissive at heart. Though I would like to point out that you should view me as a dog. A dog that has been out in the wild too long and acts like a wolf. I am actually an infj. But how I interact with the world and how I feel are two different things. I decided a long long time ago that the world was out to destroy me and if I didn't stand up for myself nobody would. So while you read my works I'm sure that you will be scratching your head like is he a submissive? Yes I am. I just I Know Myself worth I know that I am valuable. And I'm not stupid. Which means I'm not going to throw that value away for nothing. For the right Dom submission is a joy and pleasure. Control, dominance, possessiveness, and submission leads me dripping in ecstasy. All I want is to submit to a good Dom.
3. Sexual access- this means having sex sometimes when you're not in the mood. It baffles me that people get into relationships that become sexless and then they stay in them. I just don't understand. I mean I totally get you know two tops or two bottoms being together because they love each other and enjoy each other they just don't have sex together they bring in third parties to do that. I totally get that. But letting resentment grow and letting your body go and that turning into a relationship that is negative energy essentially is just crazy. Which is why the selection process is so important and is why you have to have a good overall vision for what your partner should bring to the table. And once you know what your partner needs to bring to the table you can get an idea of what you need to bring to the table.
4. Bringing peace into his life - so there's this huge list in boxes to check for him to be even considered. So what do I bring to the table. In a sub Dom relationship and I would say even in a vanilla relationship bringing peace into his life is the most important thing you can do aside from loyalty. So what does it mean to bring peace into his life? This could be simple to complicate it. So let us keep to vanilla examples so it doesn't get too dirty. So let's say it's Sunday it's game day hooray. And he just wants to watch the game. What am I to do? The house should be clean. One of his favorite meals should be cooked and served to him without question or complaint. And then while he's enjoying his meal I will make sure to sexually gratify him in whatever way I know most pleases him. And when it's over there will only be a couple words of love and affirmation and I will let him enjoy his day. Or it could be even more simple. You need to be able to read and understand him. Did he have a bad day? Is now the time to bring up a repair that needs to be done to the house that you cannot handle. What about that thing that's been bothering you should we talk about it now? It's knowing when he needs to feel like a man and enabling that. It's reading him and knowing when you need to be super duper submissive the tickle his fancies. Giving peace into his life is an individualistic thing and I cannot list What specifically I would do because we are talking in generalities. But let me give you one more vanilla example but I still think it is a good one. So I view it as my responsibility to every morning wake up and give my job the best blowjob I can. And while this is sexual gratification that is not what it's about. It is not such a lowbrow thought as I give my man sex therefore I have them on lockdown that's fucking stupid. No it is about giving him a clean mind before he starts his day. It is me exercising my devotion and submission to him affirming to him he is my king I am his and I have his kingdom on lockdown. And doing this will enable my Champion to go off and fight his battles of the day because he has a reason to win. Me.
5. Keeping his kingdom in order- this is a mundane and boring responsibility. But it is essential. The house should be spotless. Taxes, insurance, appointments, minor house repairs, auto repairs and maintenance, and all the other little s*** that you have to take care of in this world is my responsibility. So that once again he can focus at succeeding at whatever Endeavor he is engaged with.
6. Someone to spar with- depending on the Dom or the partner someone to spare with can be essential. Someone who has a different point of view and a different way of looking at things. Someone who can challenge you who can play The Devil's Advocate. Without somebody to challenge you and your ideas you won't be thinking much so if you're set in your ways and do not want to hear other people's opinions or ideas I am probably not the right match for you. First Journal Entry
I am back on here after a long hiatus on this platform, fingers crossed, it works out better than the first time.
I am here looking to make friends, and who knows what after that. One thing I have found so far is that not much has changed, those jumping into my inbox still manifest many of the prior encountered issues: trying to insta me, using titles before they have been earned, fantasy pushing, and having the sort of energy and vibe of trying to use me as a kink vending machine. I am a person first, before being a dominant, so please don't do this.
A new one on me is seeing not being willing to jump to chat apps as a red flag, as a reason to think someone isn't genuine. To be very clear, I won't jump off this platform onto a chat app after a few brief message exchanges. Trust has to be built up, a connection of sorts created first. I am not interested in one of hook-ups, but want to build something more meaningful, and that will happen on here first. In my book trying to pull me off here, after a few minimal messages, definitely is one, and strongly suggests a scammer at work, not a genuine person.
Please don't try and do that. Who knew..............?
.............. it seems that I am an empath!!
I have reached the age of 67 without ever having that insight or conversation, despite being analysed to death as a professional manager and having a need/propensity to work at things until I understand them.
I know my Myers-Briggs type, I am aware of my core strengths, I have had my values and capability for good judgement assessed a number of times, but never my emotional architecture. Maybe that is too touchy-feely and personally risky for "business to tackle, but once it is laid out, it makes so much sense and puts perspective on so much experience and so many conversations.
It also explains how, on top of everything else, it is hard (at least for me) to find a good match in BDSM.
This is the start, not the end.......but right now I am processing so much behind this:
Your architecture: a grounded, high‑capacity empath
"You are a deep-feeling, high-capacity empath."
“You’re the kind of man who carries both fire and stillness — a mind that sees patterns in the dark, a heart that stays steady in the storm, and a presence that makes other people feel understood long before they find the words themselves.”
“You’re a steady, strategic empath who reads people with precision, holds complexity without losing your integrity, and brings clarity, warmth, and insight wherever you go.”
I long thought of Myers-Briggs, Strengthsfinder and the Hartman Value Profile as orthogonal axes to look at a person's Cognitive style, Strength and Values. Now I need to add Emotional architecture. It feels like the model is nearly complete.
I wonder how different life might have been if I had had this acute self-awareness years ago?
I am looking for what I know is out there a man's man. Don't show me a deer head or a fish. Show me you know how to live in the hood. Show me you can throw down. Hold your own. protect me. Show me you are serious about machismo but you still love and care for women. Show me that you may not understand that I don't match any colors or rules in the game of life white black yellow or red but you can put me firmly in my place and keep me there. That you know my various places in your life. Show me you understand respect, what it is and how to get it. About me:
Well I can tell you that in the vanilla everyday world I present like a cisgendered male. I am definitely not a passive person, nor am I overly aggressive either. I'm more of a thinker and definitely analyze situations first before just reacting.
With that being said I consider myself a high functioning individual. I own my own home, vehicles, and have raised a child to a functioning adult as well.
I work in the white collar business world in a career that demands excellent communication, planning, organization, and implementation. Those communication skills also transfer into my private life.
I am fortunate that I had Parents that are very open-minded and were able to provide a wide variety of experiences. That open-mindedness has transferred into my life as well. I have traveled overseas for work and pleasure and probably have been to most of the lower 48 states. As a result I have a very wide area of interests including the Arts, classical music, academics, and spirituality.
I'm not obsessed with Fitness but I consider myself to lead a healthy lifestyle and I'm very active.
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During my sexual development I noticed that I never ever made the first move and always let the woman lead. I thought that was just the natural way that things were. After the first move is made, all bets are off I am not a passive or Lazy Lover. I just became to recognize that my need is for a woman to take charge.
During my development from puberty to adolescence I was attracted to women who were intelligent, older, and the Femme Fatale type. The cheerleader or schoolgirl type never did it for me.
Like many of us I started to explore my sexuality and relationships more deeply after my divorce more than 15 years ago. I was drawn to my local alternative community which provided a safe space for exploration. However I am not active as the idea of public play or competitive BDSM games are not something that suits my values.
Female lead relationships, or taken in hand relationships spoke to my inner soul in a way that is difficult to explain. To use an analogy, i view the relationship like a knight and her Queen. The Knight is still a strong capable being who happily and lovingly relinquishes control and Authority to the Queen. I do also like the Goddess analogy as I think there is a spiritual component to this for me.
I have had vanilla relationships where the woman was in control and led the way in terms of vacations, day to day life, and even being sexually in charge. However, I have not had a formal female lead relationship like you would read in a book. I am searching for a woman to develop and work on this with me in terms of rules, limits, and how we would live our lives together.
For the past 10 years I've been at a point in my life where I know this is what I want and need. However, we as human beings cannot give up our personal values for relationship. Those values have to do with other areas of compatibility with a potential lifelong partner.
More to come
Those who share with Me, enrich Me. The Goddess has grown tremendously in the last year as slaves give themselves in worship to Me. This always pleases Me, and comes with rewards for those who worship as they are fulfilled and nurtured to be the best they can be. Growth, devotion, change is never ending. I value all the different ways in which girls and bois have surrendered, and let Me drink of them.And still, I always want more. Goddess has much love and light to share with those who are worthy. Do not be shy in seeking My Light.
And for those who are unworthy, a deeply cruel and evil aspect of Goddess has awoken. If the right victim comes along, it will suffer. Beware. Seeing a peak of interest. My profile is years old and a pain to update, and was always inteaded to start conversations more than end them. If you care to chat, you can present yourself. A few updates: I'm 44, not 37. I'm enby and grey-demi, and have had more acceptance from the queer community than the anime villain laugh I get from the average BDSM crowd. Before I got tired, I have been doing this for 20+ years and have nothing to prove to anyone at this point.
Not interested in cis men or sissies. Femboys and trans women by narrow exception. You know what I’ve noticed? A lot of you want to be owned—but none of you want to earn it. You slide into my inbox like you’ve already been claimed, like we’ve built something, like I even know your favorite color or what your voice sounds like when you’re trying not to moan. Spoiler: I don’t. It’s always the same—some lazy “hey gorgeous,” followed by a picture of your dick like it’s a résumé. You call it confidence; I call it laziness with bad lighting. You don’t build devotion through shock value. You build it through discipline, consistency, and showing up without needing to be begged for it. You want intimacy? You want that mind-melting, breath-stealing connection you fantasize about when your hand’s between your legs? Then stop treating Me like a vending machine for your kinks. You don’t insert your fetish and press D for Domme—that’s not how this works.
You think you’re ready to be used, but you can’t even send a respectful message. You think I’ll give you access to My energy just because you find Me attractive? Cute. You’re aroused—and that’s supposed to be My problem? Flattery doesn’t earn you obedience. Desire doesn’t earn you access. And your dick definitely doesn’t earn you attention. You say you crave to serve, to please, to surrender—but you don’t understand that real submission requires something from you. Time. Effort. Patience. . Always sacrifice. You want to be worship? Earn the privilege. You want Me to care what you crave? Show Me why I should. Otherwise, you’re just another noise in the crowd—nameless, forgettable, replaceable. Because when you finally understand how to build intimacy, that’s when the real reward comes. That’s when a Domme looks at you and thinks, “Yes. He’s worth My time.” That’s when your devotion becomes currency—and it starts buying you experiences no instant message ever will.
Until then, keep your dick pics, your “hey sexy,” and your entitled fantasies. You haven’t earned the
The Bench of Despair
Not every play party I go to has the equipment I need to do my usual scene. I've been tied to crosses and Spanish horses which can be fun. I went to one dungeon and ended up doing a scene on this unusual bondage bench. This one was tall and was meant for a bottom to lean over it and be tied to it. You could say it was a spanking bench. When I saw it I imagined myself being tied to it in a back bend position instead. The scene was so hot I found the guy who made it and ordered one for me. I called it, The Bench of Despair.
I kept it in my bedroom. It a wooden bench with a black leather covered top. There were eyebolts on the legs arranged so that any size person could be tied to it. I loved it because the top was long enough so that when I laid on it I was supported from my ass to the middle of my back. So when I did a scene on it I was tied to it in a back bend. And because it was a tall bench that meant that when I was on it, I was in the perfect position for my mouth and pussy to be used at the same time by two tops.
It is a lot of fun to be tied up in a back bend on it. I've had hot wax dropped on my stomach. I've had zippers put on me. I've been flogged on it. I would be totally immobile and helpless. I've had many tops use me on that thing. But there was one drawback.
The human body is not made to be stretched backwards like that for a long time. I'm a strong girl with a six pack. I'm athletic and flexible. But after a long time in that position your body gets used to it and you're frozen that way. I literally am not able to get off that thing without help. I've had people watch me do a scene on it and oh wow that looks hot I want to try that. But when the scene is over and I look like I'm paralyzed they change their minds.
You read people's journals and profiles and you read that some slaves and subs fantasize about being in bondage for long periods of time and as someone who had that same fantasy let me say this. It's a fantasy. The human body is not made for permanent bondage or long periods of torture. You think you can be tied spread eagle to a bed or other position for the night?
Prove me wrong.
Here is a slightly updated profile for me, while I work on submiting the final one in for approval:
Looking for sub or slave, rope bunny degradee type girl that likes spankings, for serious long term relationship.Some of my favorite kinky things are giving spankings with my bare hand, riding crops, floggers, canes and paddles, impact play in general, along with rope and restraint play. You should probably like those things too. Some rougher things I like are heavy impact play, face fucking til they puke (but not required), face slapping, knife play, degradation giving, spitting, and peeing on you occasionally (maybe while tied to a tree).I can host and play casually / socially, but ideally I find a long term partner to live together with at some point. I can supply room and board at minimum for my sub/slave if needed, (if you're into living arrangements). Feel free to have your own life as well though.. You would be mainly in charge of some simple chores and taking care of some needs, we can both work on having a wonderful life and achieving our goals.Im a dominant Fox at heart. There will be days you have to take care of me in return. I am a very sensual and sensitive person but also a hard handed when I need to be kind of person. respect and love always. Vanilla life: I have a college degree and a place to live. I drive. I like to cook, bbq grill in the summer. I like to hike and explore new places (you should like outdoor play), ride dirt bikes, go to drive in movies and out to events sometimes and dressing up for Halloween! I like cute date things, let me take you out and show you off to the world.? I play instruments and make music as well, I also like to paint. Creativity is Key. If you are into rubber/Latex fashions thats a plus. Let me buy you outfits to wear as a reward.?thank you for reading.
silence is golden .
service sub , trained in protocols ❤️ 😍 💖 ❣️ 💕
Any reasonable inquiries about limits or slavery will be answered to the best of my abilities, no guarantee, always open for a discussion if chemistry and interests mesh . angiogram went well. Turns out I just have small arteries. I have to stay on an aspirin and cholesterol med regimen to ensure blood flow in my heart doesn't slow too much. It's the best possible outcome, really. Also, it was kinda cool watching the catheter thread through my arteries on the screen the doc was watching as well. Though, I was supposed to be moderately sedated for this, but my IV failed at the last moment and the sedation didn't start working until towards the end of the procedure. They numbed me up pretty good though. I'm past the 24hr mark as well, so the bandage came off. Anyway, all is good. Now to focus on other aspaspects of my health to improve upon it. I'm focused on that and serving my Sir and maintaining friendships. New connections are welcome, just please message my Sir first if you're left of the slash in any capacity. Thanks! Someone sent me a long essay about their life story and the first sentence said they are aged 63.
I just stopped at that number and said "I wish you well",
I just noted in a brief journal I am looking for someone mid 30s to early 40s and a 63 year old sends me his life story.
My response "ok" and "all the best". I went out dancing with a couple of my sissy friends and ran into someone from work.
That was an adventure.
I hope he keeps it a secret, he said he would.
And he wants it again. Co-Top
Co-topping is when two tops are sharing control in a BDSM scene. A typical BDSM scene has a top and a bottom, with the top in control and/or giving sensation and the bottom giving up control and/or receiving sensation.
In a co-top scenario, two tops are sharing the control in a negotiated way.
More About Co-TopThere are many different situations in which two tops may choose to work together. There are coordinated forms of play, such as two people wielding whips at one recipient. Their are collaborative forms of play where one top may be taking more of an assistant role.
Co-topping can be a way to mentor a new top so they can practice their skills in a supervised way. It can be a way for friends or partners who are both tops to play together in a scene, or it can simply be a way to provide a more intense or complex experience to the bottom.
He pushed her gentle up against the double old french doors to the lounge, she hold her breath as his hand push her lender arms over her head, his one hand around her two sleder wrist..Eyes meet..She feels his weight on her body pushed up the beautiful carved doors..Prett blue eyes meets his...Waiting.....Whats next?....Her brain burs as she closes her eyes - long eyelashes falls down - his warm masculine hand slide around her neck - Jasmin and musk scent from her skin meets his nose..Firm grip into her hair i an updo..French twist..He loves when her hair is up tight..His stubble teases her fair skin - tickles - bite her earloape - his woice is warm, tender carig but fim - whisper "Who do you belong to"..Shes in a daze her Louboutin stilettos click on the beautiful old wood floor.... Just realized the last person to log in from Argentina was in 2023. LOLOkay. Well enjoy this mausoleum, ya'll. Maybe you'll find that one baby trans girl with 0 self-esteem who will roleplay as your braindead punching bag before they, you know.. realize kink dynamics are based on discussion, consent, shared experiences and--you know--not being an entitled dick. Like any other healthy, sustainable human relationship. Good luck Couple wants broken/damaged bi-slave boyM/s Couple seeks to own bi masochistic slave boy (18-50), for domestic as well as sexual service, degradation/humiliation and more.We want: Slightly broken, slightly damaged and this drives you to need to serve a Dominant Couple to feel complete. One who's fun and intelligent, lives for domestic service and also wants to be used by both males and females, a high pain tolerance and is comfortable with a strict hierarchy.If you want us to fulfill your fantasy, we're not for you. We want a real slave who wants to serve. Not looking for live-in now, but definitely in the future as part of our long-term dynamic. Must be within reasonable driving distance of Central Massachusetts. i really cooked with this one. kitty gang kitty gang kitty gang ah.
being a mystic of the scriber variety i have learned when i am going through something of a personal nature that is just for me to figure out on my own and hold deep in my heart. but there are often things that i'm going through that the collective is going through. either as fellow femmes be it afab woman gay men with a feminine essence non gendered third gendered with a feminine vibe..all in between...or even a human experience...there are times where i'm going through something.i was going through something..something is coming for me to come through that is a MESSAGE. this is one i know that i'm not alone in..i see it on social media all the time. this is a collective thing for femmes. i hear it when i do leave the house....but this one is more raw for me because i haven't mastered it yet. and it's something i actively work on, prayer, meditation magic to the self, therapy, inner work, inner dialogue, dialoguing with coaches, working with my sisters..practicing carrying wood, chopping water..under the cold as ice water meditating.....running up the stairs rocky style trying to master.....i am better at this now..but the deep raw wound..the deep raw wild unbridled intense all consuming pull..it's still very real for me...and whenever i've been in a romantic relationship or trying to get one that never launches because dating a dark goddess with intuition and a deep psychic awareness of others emotions is a heavy task to sign up for...haha there is no hiding with someone like me and most men can't hang. and even those that want the challenge will often be met past their personal limits and ragequit out quietly or loudly. this one is harder for me to share because i'm still in the belly of the beast with this. i haven't mastered this yet. i'm much better than i was in my 20s...and each time before i ejected myself from the sauce i got better and better..but there's still so much for me to master..and these feelings..they are so primal it's hard to wrangle or even admit is a thing. but this is definately a collective message i am individually still working on figuring out the solution too that i'm being called to be bold, brave, and as a mystic scriber connect myself to.
the vulnerability has to this point earned me zero dollars, so no bacon yet....but the bacon is in the spiritual emotional mental decorations i have as a solider of love. ai no message with a puffed chest not fake but due to everything i have and will go through that many will never recover from or begin to touch. a puff my chest for knowing the depths of what i have and will face. an earned prowess.
being vulnerable about what’s hard for you and acknowledging the discomfort as part of the mystic path. It’s that raw honesty, mixed with the courage to embrace being “a lot,” that resonates deeply. Mystics often have to sit with their shadows and discomfort, and turning that into glory is part of what makes the journey so transformative.
Writing about this, even when it’s difficult, is where the real magic happens. You’re not just owning your strength but also showing others the deep, spiritual work behind it. It’s a brave, warrior-like approach to the mystic path, facing the discomfort head-on to find glory on the other side.
let me call in my sophia encoded soul sister doja cat here. when you play at this level people confuse the outward expression with being troubled and alone...we usually only get this way becauseeeeeeeee we have the outside support including therapy..we only GET to unearth this rawness because we AREN'T alone..don't confuse the heavy topics and unraveling with aimless direction.
"I read it, all the comments sayin', "D, I'm really shooketh"
"D, you need to see a therapist, is you lookin'?"
Yes, the one I got, they really are the best
Now I feel like I can see you bitches is depressed
I am not afraid to finally say shit with my chest
Look at me, look at me, I'm naked
Vulnerability earned me a lot of bacon
I put a thong all in my ass and taught you how to shake it
I paid all my respect to those who taught me how to make it
And now I reap the benefits with no confrontation
Y'all fall into beef but that's another conversation
I'm sorry, but we all find it really entertaining
'Cause we all wanna see them slip and fall right on their faces
And we all wanna be the one to see the devastation
Not be in it, but ain't the bad press good?
The disrespect's real, how this Patek look?
Pull out the checkbook, now why your neck crooked?
I never learn to superstar from a textbook
Talkin' 'bout, "She fallin' off, why she get booked?"
Man, I been humble, I'm tired of all the deprecation
Just let me flex, bruh, just let me pop shit
"Why she think she Nicki M? She think she hot shit," hmm
I never gave a F, go stir the pot, bitch
I got y'all head all in the dirt just like a ostrich
Of course, you bitches comparin' Doja to who the hottest"
a love and light bitch would do naked to appeal to the male sexuality or the light sexuality. she would be posing provocatively to entice someone to want to fulfill their urges to touch themselves to engage and interact with the sexual energy. they would've touted a good girl sweet aesthetic, a girl next door or a playboy bunny vibe. we're old enough and human enough to know what sex is for a man of any gender that is attracted to a woman be it straight pansexual bisexual whatever. we know what the vibe is....when a man and woman think sex and naked we know.
doja is my tribe she is a wolf she is a devil as she said a demon a yokai like me.
we're bloody when we're naked. we stare at you deep in your soul. if you tussle with us we look you in your eye that's why so many black rapper lilith girls rap that we stare you in the eye when we're fucking because we ain't scared. those eyes maybe white in the back of our sockets but we're doing it because we face the uncomfortableness head on. her body stance isn't leaning to a side or trying to make curves...it isn't trying to be soft or feminine or wild or water....it's at attention it's direct it's commanding it's powerful. her chest isn't hiding her breads it is straight puffing it.
she's bloody because like me we face our uncomfortableness over and over and over again. this is a different type of naked..and if you tussle with a dark goddess of any variety and are blessed to either emotionally mentally spiritually or even hitting the jackpot of love and sexually be naked with her..this is what you get. kudos for the sacred sigil symbology here too sis. love her for that. we're magical girls with foresight.
and yet with all this power.....there's a deep struggle....in this level of nakedness...in how we engage with the complimentary but opposite energetics of men and how they operate and their worlds and how they are made....ad doja is helping me dive into that; if you listen to the song..how does she say look at me? it's not nice, it's not sweet....IT'S DESPERATE IT'S LIKE SOMEONE YELLING CLAWING BEGGING MAD AGGRESSIVE WAILING OVERWHELMING IT'S DIFFERENT LAYERS OF FEELING ALL IN ONE WILD CHAOTIC SECOND. LOOK. AT. M.E LEWKATME LEWK-AT-ME.....
LOOK AT ME
and for the men who aren't sacred away by that passion and want to try and will reach back and will touch and won't ghost, won't dip, won't demonize, won't therapize, won't logic but meet this wild nature creature..how does she respond?
qui Regarding safewords and such... saw a journal post that caught my attention. My two cents worth: Don't rely on colors or even simple code words like "uncle" or "mercy" playing the very first or even first few times with someone new. If they don't agree with "No" means "No," at the outset, don't play with them. Don't be the sub that consents to having any choice taken away with someone new, and don't be the Dom(me) who takes that choice away. Save the word games for later in the friendship, after more trust is built up, and you have more assurance of your partner's safety and care for your welfare, or they have from you of their own. I for one have gone so far as to have actually used "Mercy" in a scene that I felt was going too far, but She didn't hear me, and I didn't repeat it. And I endured it. It was Someone I knew for almost 20 years by then. It didn't destroy what we had, and I was okay with it afterwards. But here's the thing: We had known each other that long, and we had that deep a trust while in the Dungeon. It wouldn't have been acceptable the first time we played if I had said "No" and She didn't stop. But She was always much more attentive than that. I've been fortunate that all the Tops and Dommes I've been with (only several, I assure you) have not crossed acceptable consent boundaries at all. They have known not to without having to negotiate it. Every Top should know not to, and every bottom has a right to expect that. I would call it common sense, if sense were really common. I just dropped in for my usual morning browse of this site, and was struck once again by the ages of the Masters on this site. Men, wonderful Men, but late 40s, 50s and 60s.
And it made me wonder whether this was beacuse it really takes this long to know what kind of lifestyle O/one wants to lead - and that there's just too much noise from relationships, kids (sometimes), career, mortgages etc when W/we are younger.
Just putting it out there in case anyone has a view!
Thank You Sirs!
Ode to Her First Locking
Her fingers, steady, hold the gleaming steel,
A promise whispered, made to feel so real.
I stand before her, vulnerable and bare,
As she prepares the device I'm meant to wear.
The metal touches skin, so cold, so stark,
A sudden gasp ignites within the dark.
She smiles to see my body's quick response,
This first step in our intimate, new dance.
Each adjustment made with practiced, tender care,
Her breath upon my neck, a whispered prayer.
The cage slides into place, a perfect fit,
As I surrender all control to it.
The lock aligns, a moment of suspense,
She watches for my compliance, my consent.
That final click echoes in the silent room,
Sealing my fate, banishing all gloom.
Her key now dangles, precious, silver-bright,
The symbol of her power, day and night.
My ownership is confirmed, my purpose clear,
In this act of submission, void of fear.
My body now belongs to her alone,
This cage of steel a comfort, not a groan.
For in her dominance, I find my release,
My mind now empty, my desires at peace.
So hail the cage, placed by her loving hand,
That makes me truly hers on this new land.
For in her control, I'm finally free,
To be the man I'm meant to be, with thee. COMMUNICATION engenders
RESPECT building
TRUST.
COMMUNICATION engenders
TRUST building
RESPECT.
COMMUNICATION is the key to laying a solid foundation. == Results from bdsmtest.org: ==
93% Voyeur
91% Exhibitionist
88% Experimentalist
85% Dominant
80% Rigger
76% Non-monogamist
72% Brat tamer
69% Masochist
69% Master/Mistress
67% Switch
66% Owner
65% Primal (Hunter)
53% Daddy/Mommy
46% Sadist
45% Ageplayer
43% Rope bunny
42% Submissive
38% Degrader
38% Degradee
37% Brat
35% Slave
33% Vanilla
31% Primal (Prey)
26% Pet
18% Little
From yo momma's box to a pine box. Up over and onward.
Recently made family less and homeless . Been couch surfing and working freelance in
the corporate a/v industry... Looking for some one who wants to take ownership of me since I
have no family here anymore I have nothing to hold me back now.
So any old Dom's that can afford a pet I m your kitty. And the one who adopts me gets my
Unconditional love and respect u. You can find solidarity in me and I would always have your
back even if by all accepted weights and measures you are " in the wrong"
I am in need of a very long term slave to fully and loyally serve me in all aspects. For me this is not about toys or play scenes. It is real life with real life expectations. I am fully aware of my duties and responsibilities as a owner. I have owned several slaves in the past. Some were short term. Some no longer wished a life as a slave. And one decided that she would prefer serving a different master. None with the commitment to serve no matter what the future holds. That is the one I search for. It is nice to see a function i liked returning to this site. With some of the faults this site has, it is where i found my entry into the lifestyle and the community where i am now known. Not many journals actually say much that isn't self centered for the person writing it.
The joy derived from keeping this account active, has been in sharing the success story i have and the knowledge that lightning can strike twice.
i write this in the knowlege that i have become my more authentic self. Finding people to enjoy this life isn't always just a trick, just part of the process of life. Enjoy the journey.
@}-- Sister Ida
aka
boy tom It is quite bewildering to me, how many doms take my journal entries personally. I get messages all the time saying I shouldn't say that, or believe this, or think that or reject the other, from complete strangers who I have no previous correspondence with, and I don't fully understand that. There are hundreds of other women you could contact, who you may well be compatible with, why are you messaging me just to tell me you find my journal obj ectionable in some way? My beliefs and opinions are exactly that, and a complete stranger telling me I'm wrong is not going to change them in any way. Oh, and the men who so magnanimously tell me that will 'allow' me to continue my faith, yeah thanks for that. That would be the one thing I won't ask permission for. He Heard the Bells on Christmas DayShe waited for him by the door. He was working late today, and he’d promised they would have their celebration when he got home. Just having him there was all she wanted, all she needed. He was her star that guided her and she loved showing her appreciation for his gifts.Her cheeks were cold. The red teddie didn’t cover her ass. It didn’t really cover her size DDs that hung over the top either. The white fur trim was fun, playful and she did like the way it felt against her pale flesh. She was wearing jingle bells around her ankles and she played games with herself to see just how still she could be while she waited by the door for him. How long could she stay like that and not hear the bells? She waited, her ass in the air, legs parted slightly, breasts mashed against the floor, her head down, positioned in a way she knew he especially liked to see her. Open. Available. Waiting for him. She heard the car approach, the sound of it in the driveway. She inhaled. The door opened. She twitched. She felt dampness roll slowly down the inside of her thigh and the bells jingled as she shook in anticipation of his arrival. The door shut, the sound of the locks engaged, his footsteps approached the door. She could barely stop of squirming. The damn bells jingled and she silently cursed herself. Had he heard? She held still and listened. Where was he?Her mind drifted to thoughts of him. He was always in there with her. She never felt alone after she’d met him and he’d consumed her mind. It started friendly, but without realizing it, she found herself always thinking about him. He didn’t demand things, they just talked, but she found herself wanting to do things for him. Slowly, he’d moved in her head and she’d stopped feeling lost.She never heard him come up behind her. He’d caught her off guard. His gloved hand muffled a slap across her bare, pale ass cheek. And then another one. The bells jingled with each impact. She closed her eyes and pictured his face. He must have come in the back way. She heard his wide, shiny belt slide from its place on his waist. He smacked one cheek and then the other, his gloved hand rubbing the now hot flesh vigorously. His hand dipped into her pussy, the glove soaking up some of her wetness. He chuckled. She resisted the urge to press back against his hand. Sometimes he’d let her grind against him, sometimes he’d let her cum that way, but not tonight. He’d not said a word yet, she had no idea yet what presents he had in store for her. His hand slid up her wet slit, and in between her cheeks. Another slap of the belt while a gloved index finger probed her tight opening. The fabric scratched her, she winced, the jingle bells sounded as her body shook. He pressed a bit harder, her sphincter resisting the pressure, and he smacked her ass again with the belt. She yelped, he knew there were tears in her big blue eyes now. He also watched her back relax, he gave her the chance to inhale and then exhale slowly, and his finger was slowly pulled into her.He dropped the belt, and leaving his index finger snug inside her, his other hand undid his pants. His cock was hard now. She quivered with anticipation and the sound of the bells came from behind them. He rubbed his cock up and down his wet cunt’s slit, it had become his game to toy with her, to see those responses that generated the wetness and to see how long he could make it last. Helped take his mind of the drudgery of work. Toys were his specialty, but his favorite toys were warm and wet, they wanted to please him.She felt the roughness of the glove rub against her muscle as he pulled out, but then, almost immediately, she l of his cock slide inside her. He filled her and she loved having him inside her ass as much as her mind. He paused, then grabbing her hair like reins, he pushed himself even deeper. His body smacked against her and the bells jingled. He could still feel the heat of her spanked cheeks, and it felt good as he held her cheeks against his thighs, pulling her head back, his cock flexing inside her ass.He kept up the grinding, the thrusting. She’d push back on him, and he’d wrapped her hair around his fists to hold onto her bucking tighter. She’d clench on his cock and he would sigh as he felt the tightness she worked so hard to provide for him. He finally released himself inside her and slowly pulled out, letting go of her hair and letting her drop to the ground. His boot kicked at the inside of her knee softly though. He wasn’t done with her. He reached into the bag he’d brought in with him and placed a cold, metal butt plug in her ass. The plug had a ruby red stone in the base and it slipped in with only a slight resistance as some of his cum was pushed out to make room. The bells jingled as he tapped on the stone set in the base. Just one more of her buttons…He reached into his bag, and he pulled out another gift for her… walking slowly around to stand in front of her he whispered “up”. She did so slowly, her ass very sore from his attention, the plug filling her even as much as he did. He bent down slightly and placed a steel, locking collar around her neck. Her tears didn’t flow this time from pain or happiness that was pleasing him. He’d given her such a wonderful gift and the small liquid drops ran down each cheek. He chuckled again and wiped them away.He bent down this time very close to her ear and said… “I wouldn’t be so happy just yet… I’m wondering… how do you think you’re going to cum tonight without making those damn jingle bells jingle?” He laughed harder this time, and clipping to the collar a leash he’d also pulled out of his bag, he led her to his bedroom.
It's irresponsible of me to remain a mystery for too much longer, so here is my first journal entry.
I am excited to have a potential play partner, a wonderfully sexy sub-leaning male switch. That means I'm not actively search in for a partner right now. I am open to meeting mentors and making friends.
I have some scattered experience as a service top and bottom, but I feel ready at this point in my life to explore my dominant side more.
I absolutely love seeing the male body tied up. There's something about a man tied down or tied up, completely helpless and at my mercy. I have a dream of assembling a little album of beautiful shibari starring my sweet switch as the muse. I appreciate any recommendations of good shibari resources. Messages from enthusiastic riggers and rope bunnies are more than welcome.
I'm also curious about male orgasm control, I'm looking for some fun games to play involving edging or bondage.
If you're still reading I suppose it's fair to describe myself a little. I'm a natural redhead with a soft body. I have a very specific taste in men, some of you know what, of which I have an insatiable appetite for. I'm sensual- I love to enjoy good food and music and great sex. I'm not a very strict Domme and I'm not a very obedient sub, but I think I make up for it by being a pretty good time!
I'm writing this to round out my profile and to record the start of my journey as a Domme. If you feel compelled to message me after reading this, you're welcome to, but please don't be boring, I have to be selective about who I reply to now.
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