
Credit: Caroline Hernandez via Unsplash.
I miss you mom, sometimes it’s frightful,
Because you’re where you are living near,
But, so far; I’m here trying to get by,
Aiming to see you again to share,
Time with you, but the minutes slow.
Gradually that door keeps closing, and I wait,
No matter what I do, my soul’s cracked.
Life’s both comedy and tragedy,
I can’t keep trying and failing always;
I’m stuck here, at least we had thirty-four years.
*****
We ambled in Vegas, fun wax figure pics.
We shopped for outfits, shoes, shared dinners.
I was four, first of our ‘women’s days out.’
And we looked around, ate lunch, and we talked,
Family money was tight with three-kids.
You kissed skinned-knees, held small hands during,
Stitches, goose-eggs, needles, growing-pains.
You were a lunch-room supervisor and,
Sometimes you brought us ‘Happy Meals’ to munch.
You did all the cooking, packing, organizing;
At home, for vacations, packing family meals.
We’d loved beach days, or days in the park,
And, you let us play on playground sets,
They now say, are too dangerous.
All three-of-us lived on merry-go-rounds,
Wood equipment, metal or roller slides.
*****
You disciplined when you needed to,
Set your children straight — in corners we faced.
Or, we cried in our room, than thought and —
We apologized, the day went on with hugs.
Your love is and was infinite, we —
Three kids developed well because of you.
You and I flew to Victoria,
Down mainstreet, old-movies watched lying,
In our beds at the Empress Hotel with —
Art, museums, artisan shops.
We conferred shared moments plenty while,
Explaining, planning, problem solving,
Issues and experiences in life.
Then, other times both of us were silent,
And that was enough to watch movies;
We could sit reading or take a walk.
*****
You returned to work when I was fourteen,
A business woman in Development,
Then, working your way up in accounting.
Now, the manager, now at the top.
Still, we attended MakeIt and Quilt shows,
Though at times I was sick, and exhausted.
We went anyways, you patient with me,
You were also human, were upset —
When we didn’t listen, or you were plane tired.
And each Saturday since we were young,
We visited Baba, ensured she had,
Company and groceries too.
You held us, your family together.
******
You did so much; I miss you like crazy,
I’m an adult, but kids of any age,
Need their moms (and dads) to level with too.
Let them know, everything will be well.
To love them, to also be loved in return;
Oh, how I miss you both, mom and dad,
And, your hugs heal anything but,
Conundrums where I’m alone — save God.
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