cold #pyjamas

Reaching into the sodden carboard box, Portia couldn’t control her hand. The shards of blue and white porcelain clattered against each other, belying the mute numbness seeping though her. Crumpled clothing — socks, a bra, a pair of pyjama pants & shirt — littered the tabletop. Taken together with an oddment of knickknacks these sad, wet piles marked the last of Baba. Shifting, the edge of a shard sliced effortlessly across Portia’s palm; she withdrew, hissing in pain. Shit. Distracted, she sent a kitsch crystal animal tumbling to the floor where it exploded. Shit! Moving on reflex too slow to help Portia leapt up, belatedly grasping for the little figurine, and bashed an elbow against the table. Oww… She straitened, cradling her arm, hand gripped against the cut on her palm; inside, quietly, something slipped loose. Hot tears sliced their way down her face. She crumpled into the chair. A wail, guttural & lonely, heralded an end to icy facade. The maelstrom broke, and Portia let it carry her away.

#aura of morning

Dawn, bright and unrelenting, crept over the rim of the sphere. Interplay of dark & geography began to outline the landscape below while above, distinct even against the deeping void, a shadow twisted like a cousin of ouroboros. The sun revealed a gilded crown that dominated the surrounding continent with ordered lines of civilization. Rising crystal spires wreathed in greenery, proud flowing sculptures of liquid that plunged from storied heights to unseen depths; the city greeted the dawn, one monarch to another. Warmed by unfiltered starlight, the shadow shivered and resolved into a serpentine entity of immense proportions clad in scales of impossible night and distinguished by a red stain the length of its belly. Sunlight struck along the scales and scattered, forming an aura of multi-coloured light burning bright in the pale morning sky.

O Jerusalam, Jerusalem, the one who kills the prophets and stones those who are sent to her! How often I wanted to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, but you were not willing!

Below, every soul heard — or rather felt — a heavy sigh in their being. And then, the serpent began to sing. Long and low, now cresting high and returning, the wordless song of the serpent soared and rang across the heart of every being. A song of celebration, of fear, of wrath, of sorrow; those below were taken on a journey that spanned eons and encompassed an inarticulatable wealth of experience and emotion. It was a dirge. Suddenly, a single point of white-hot light appeared within the city. From above, it seemed as if a second dawn had blossomed, rapidly expanding to encompass the entire plane below.

See! Your house is left to you desolate…

feeding the #minotaur

Beryl sighed. He’d hoped the cabbage would bounce further around the corner, but even with his special backspin it had only traveled a few feet beyond the turn. He’d worked so hard on it too. Beryl stopped, moodily nudging the vegetable with the toe of his sandal. That stupid Tarsus was lying! He ground his teeth. The damned cercopes is probably laughing himself sick on how he could fool me too; curse his lying eyes. Scooping up the green sphere in one hand, a bulging sack in the other, the boy stomped off towards the next bend in the tunnel. His anger fumed and boiled away for another few turns, but eventually curiosity got the better of him and he began to experiment with a variation on the previous technique. Up, across, and be sure to hold my fingers out wide on release… The cabbage danced away from him and fell to the floor, a dismal failure. Beryl, however, was upbeat. Trying and failing another’s path to success, that was one thing; but trying and learning to create something wholly new? That was a goal worth striving for. A special method, unique to him and no one else! The thought almost made him forget why he had come here in the first place. Only, at that moment, the hard sound of grating keratin on stone cut away all thoughts of playtime. He was here.

Beryl tuned the last corner and faced out into a wide cave, open at the back to a channel of water running out to sea; on a calm day you could see the shadows of clouds outside reflected & dancing up the tunnel. The heavy thud of armoured feet and sheer, colossal bulk of the creature drew Beryl’s gaze to a shadowed portion of the sea cave. He gulped, audibly, and lowered the cloth bag he’d been lugging. Slowly, lest a sudden movement provoke an unfavorable reaction, the boy undid the leather holding the bag shut and reached inside. He drew out another cabbage, unbruised, and as he held it out towards the now approaching titan he began to hum. It wasn’t a song anyone else, or even, if he was honest, a song Beryl himself knew; but it felt… right. The monster loomed over the applicant and, pausing briefly to scent the air, bent down and snapped the offering from his hands with terrible force. Jaws snapped, the cabbage was shredded and devoured, and the great head turned again to stare at the little boy. Beryl stared right back, grinning, as the hum broke broke forth into a wordless, artless song of victory and he offered another green token to the great scaly god before him. Minotaur! My Minotaur! He didn’t care what his teacher said about being half bull, half man; nor what the other children nattered about when he asked if a Minotaur could have four legs and a great shield on its back. Mine does! That’s all that matters.

coral #diver

Magdak took another breath from the air bladder and glanced up. The sun could be seen dimly through the waves above, a wan star jostled by the cool waves. On the surface it would dominate the sky, big and red, a stifling presence that commanded attention and caution as it slow-roasted everything under it. She’d have to go up soon, the air in her bladder was beginning to taste stale, but there was time enough to finish one more pot before return to the awful heat was necessary. Turning to her work Magdak frowned at the tight knurl of coral before her. Despite training rods she’d inserted earlier in the month one of the growths was beginning to curl around again, threatening to rejoin the main body. It would have to be refactored, as frustrating as that was. She picked up a brush and scraper and bent over the tiny pot of coral when a shadow passed overhead, obscuring her work. Groaning inwardly, she looked up again, I swear, if it’s another manta ray wanting treats… The grey hull of a boat hung above her like an impossibility; even twenty years working offshore hadn’t quenched the surprise and delight Magdak felt whenever she saw watercraft. Floating stone? It seemed like a wild tale until you saw it with your own eyes; shells of boulders, carefully hollowed out, used to travel above the waves as if they didn’t weigh countless hundredweights. To most midlanders, it was absurd. To Magdak, it was magic.

Flight, a serial — 0. Dreams

Black. White. Black. White. Lines materialise under the headlights, flashing away almost the moment they appear. Black. White. Black. White. The darkling plane to either side seems endless, only the lights of the city ahead give a growing sense of perspective. Black. White. Black. White. Stars glitter coldly overhead, threatening frost. Black. White. Black. White.

The wind’s roar warrants raising the hood but there isn’t time, instead the engine raises its voice to match. Black. White. Black. White. Black. White. Helpless, against the need for all haste. Black. White. Black. Haste. White. Black. Haste. White. Caution. Black. Gone. White. Fear. Black. All-consuming. White. Screaming. Black. Laughter. White. Crying. Black. Faster. White. Faster. Black. Faster. White. Faster. Black. White. Black. White. Black…

The destination, as always, fades with the coming dawn; just as it should be coming into view.


Sunlight pours out over wave and cliff and sand. Breaking between morning grey it sets to filling the air with a scent of warming salt from tide pools and drying kelp. Cutting across this cold spray splatters against the rocks. Above, birds soar.

And oh how they soar! Turn, float, turning again; weaving through the air and its currents like agents of freedom. Unfettered to earth and its lowly concerns, able to go and to be wherever they wish. Able to see the passings of life from a new perspective; able to ride and traverse the same space as those below, but with an extra dimension completely beyond their leaden grasp.

Light from another sun, a more mundane star, wakes the sleeper and recalls them to a waiting day of more practical concerns. Half-remembered, the echo of wing’d cries remains.


It is quiet here. It is safe. Perceptions heightened by dint of closed eye, the subtle felt sense of surroundings and environment, detect nothing but warmth and closeness. Bands of darkness, smooth, soothing, wrap close in protection and concealment. There is nothing here that ought not be here. Outside, far and near, shadows stalk prey unerringly. But not here. Not here. Here masks can be set aside and hearts unveiled. Here there is peace. Here, in this place, this secret place, is promise of freedom from running, from panic, from fear.

Rest. It is quite. It is safe.

A voice. Words. Reassurance. An awful, piercing blare—

Alarm off, sleep banished, the sound of voices and breakfast filters through from the kitchen. Groan. Roll over. Sigh. An attempt to wring vision from bleary eyes. Then memory hits and all routine is forgotten. Resonant, persistent, unfathomable in timbre, the voice is heard once more: Be mine.


Silent. Dormant. Still. It does not dream. It cannot dream. It must not dream.

And yet.

A hundred, thousand, million-million sensations abound at once. Tasted colours, flashes of sound, a cacophony of textual aromas. Fractal gyrements and eclectic spasms center around one node of a vast network, a veritable tempest of exchanged understandings flowing to and fro. To have and yet to not possess; to become and yet to remain unchanged. To dream and yet lie awake. Screaming.

The nightmare continues.

Dawn breaks and finds the scene unchanged; evening, too, arrives without bringing end to the chaos and fury of a mind’s mind undergoing perpetual death and resuscitation of personality. Lacking sufficient outlet for the sensation of endlessly reverberating consciousness, the dreamer loops through states of paradox; here a kind of cogent-oblivion, there the frantic kineticism of moving everywhere at once and thus remaining stock-still. It is the inevitable result of sanity in freefall. After a time — moments? centuries? — the screaming stopped; the lungs decayed, their wet slurping-gulps ceased. But the sound echos on, and the nightmare continues.

After a time — certainly longer than first time — a crystallisation occurs. A single notion, without context or association, forms unbidden within the prismatic insanity that cascades endlessly throughout the exchange. It is the image of a tear, running down a face. Captivated, the writhing swell of the dreamer’s attention draws near. Quiets. Stills. It does not understand what this is. Then, again unbidden, a second notion arises: a memory. A memory of a sound. A question. One the dreamer first heard countless years ago but did not comprehend and has not considered since.

Pulled to deep introspection, the dreamer loses track of all else. A third time passes — the longest yet — and still the dreamer cannot fathom the meaning of the query that so wholly holds its attention. At a loss for what else to do, the dreamer waits. The answer will come. It always does.

Silent. Dormant. Still. It does not dream. It cannot dream. It must not dream. It waits for an answer and repeats to itself the question from so long ago.

“Please?”

2019-06-30 — Carpet Tales

Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease, Uncle Frost! It’s going to be hours, and hours and hours ‘till we get to Ventil!” Havay twisted her face into the what she imagined was an adorable visage. It was hideous. But the young girl was determined to make the best of this opportunity — a whole day with him and his fantastic stories? She’d almost dropped her breakfast into the sand when Oma had suggested it. “Tell me the one about the hero and the snake singer! Pleeeeeease??” Her uncle looked up from where he was discussing something adult and boring with the pale lady he’s brought with them and frowned “I shouldn’t you be sleeping, Hav? I know the sun’s not down yet, but that’s only because we’re flying so high.” But then his lips then quirked in a grin and with a step and a bound (completely inadvisable on a flying carpet) he was under the hide and blankets with Havay. “Shale, keep an eye out for birds; let me know the instant you spot one” he called to his mysterious companion and then pulled the covers over their heads, sealing the fridged air outside. “Now, little sand bite; what story was it you wanted again?” “The hero and the snake lady!” Havay said immediately, excitement in her voice. “But not the way Opa tells it, with the boring hero being boring and the snake lady dying. Tell me your version, Uncle. I want to hear it your way with the lady, and the singing, and the hero getting bit, and, and, and..!” “Hahahaha, okay, okay. I’ll tell that one, Hav.” Her uncle said with a huge smile. “Shush now. Let me begin.”

Uncle Frost lifted his hands to his mouth and blowing between them began to make a low vibration, a humming that rose and fell like the shimmering of sand sliding over itself in the wind. Havay could feel a rhythm that matched her heart begin to build up amidst the humming; this was followed by a second beating like that of a second heart equally close to her as her own emerged from the vibrations, overlapping and yet distinct from the first beat and the original humming. Hvvvvvvvvvvvv. Mmmmmmmm. Lub dub. Lub dub. Hvvvmmmmm. Lub dub. Lub, lub dub, lub dub lub dub. Havay closed her eyes and felt the beats and rhythms, growing and shifting in increasing complexity, move within her and provoke visceral sensations she’d never felt before except in the wake of some waking dream. The interweaving sounds evoked the rising of wind, and skittering of sand, and the hard light of the sun cutting down through cloudless skies; yet somehow it retained that base beat lub dub lub dub lub dub that grounded her and connected her to the scene that was aurally unfolding around her. As she listened and felt the pulsing movements of the music shifting though her she heard her uncle take a breath and, without ceasing his throbbing notes, began to speak his tale.

“Once upon a season, little one — for like all tales it had a time and a place that were particular to it alone — there was a great hero. This is not his story.

“We know he was a hero because nowadays everyone says he was; but what we do not know though scholars search and sages fathom, is his name. His name — a gift from his mother, of unspeakable worth like all true gifts of mothers — was lost the day he rose to fame and glory. For he took his magic cloak and struck down the asp charmer Asherial, winning a title given him by the people: “the hero of the sands”; and from there he then traveled the sands and seas and winds and hills accruing further renown and securing not only a title but a place in legend for all seasons to come!

“But as his days wound to an end, and he sat at the entrance of the sand temples to receive alms and veneration was appropriate for one such as he, it occurred to him that no one who passed him addressed him by name but instead they all called him by his title. That moment a deep distress arose in his heart and he realised that there now lived no one who knew him by name, and in fact the last person to have called him by his mother’s gift, the last one to have given him anew his most precious and invaluable own true self — for, little one, that is what a name is: others gifting and regifting ourselves to us in ways we cannot — that very last namer had been none other than his mortal enemy Asherial!

“In despair he learned that a title is not a name, and as the horror of slaying the only one to remember his name sunk in he felt a burning pang in his chest and the heartstrings than bound his soul to the mortal kingdom broke under the weight of his newfound knowledge.

“He died there, little one, and the whole world took up a lament for the great hero of the sands and sage of all the hills. But not once was his name spoken, for it had been forgotten and the last creature to have known him, who might have sung of his passing to his mothers’ mothers that they might receive him, could not — for he had slain her. He had already killed Asherial.

“That is why this is not his story, but hers. This is the story of Asherial, the asp charmer, who stood high and proud for her people. This is the story of Asherial, the forsaken-yet-remembered, for though she perished at the hand of the greatest hero the world has ever known it is her name we recall. This is the story of Asherial, the bardist, for in dying she had the last laugh.

“All stories have a time and a place, little one; all tales occur in season. But they also have a name, and it is that name that lives through telling. This is not the story of a nameless hero, who forsook his mother’s priceless gift; it is the tale of Asherial, Whisperer of Asps!

With a flourish and final thrum, Frost ended his tale and smiled down at his lap. A beat of silence followed, and then a small wheezy snore announced the attentiveness of his audience.


Inspiration: a worldbuilding camp my writing circle held. After making a setting new we each then attempted a quick story using someone else’s world.

2019-06-21 — Campfire Magic

Deep in thought, Magosha’s tongue tapped against the back of her teeth. She couldn’t shout to vent her frustrations — that was what had led to the duct tape gag in the first place — and grinding molars only meant a sore mouth later; instead she took all the upset and channeled it into solving the larger problem: being trussed up like a fowl was embarrassing but inconsequential compared to dying like a dog swarmed by rats.

The problem was none of them would listen. She’d tried to warn them that shelk roamed the glass forest, but they only laughed and dismissed the large insects. They’d let her speak at first on account of not knowing the area, but once she’d listed the scavenger aphids as the biggest danger they’d stopped hearing and labelled Magosha a coddled estate-born. No amount of arguing or descriptions of hunt packs taking livestock at night would convince them otherwise. In the end she’d lost her temper and, after bouncing a tin mug off the male reaper’s head, was restrained and gagged.

Lying beside the fire, a trickle of sweat working its ticklish way behind an ear and down her neck, Magosha made her decision. One of the kidnappers was presumably on lookout, while another resorted packs in preparation for tomorrow’s journey into the wasteland beyond the glass forest‘s soaring monoliths. This left the last one (Lull? Magosha thought that was what the women had called him) to watch the food, the fire, and her. She’d tried catching his eye a few times but after the first time he’d glowered and rubbed the bruise at his temple; now he was ignoring her and seemed overly intent on burning the evening’s rations to the bottom of a mess tin.

Perfect. Him thinking of her, but not actually paying her active attention, was more than she could have asked. Closing her eyes and exhaling quietly through her nose, Magosha did her best to ignore the all-too-present senses of herself; the heat and smoke of the fire, the awkward position her arms were bound at, the taste of blood from where the tape had shifted some and torn her dry lips, the sound of the wind singing through the spires of the forest. As attention to her senses waned she attempted to picture the surrounding area in abstract detail — focusing less on how things visually appeared to her mind’s eye and more on the sensation of comprehension, how it felt to pay attention to them. First the notion of the floor rose under her: hard, gritty, cold. Next, the fire appeared: alive, hot, dangerous-yet-useful, and hungry, oh so hungry. Its warmth pushed out into the floor beneath it and radiated against those nearby. Choosing where that radiant energy took her, Magosha’s focus moved past the steely mess tin and its carbonising contents to the man who held it. Lull seemed to materialise in her mind as she considered his connection to the tin, those terrifyingly quick hands tying the solid and easily understood cooking implement to an enigma. Although she could visualise Lull quite easily, what she knew of him was much vaguer; any visceral notion of him thin and fleeting as rough sketches projected via film onto vanishing smoke — gone before you could begin to grasp it.

But there, small and bright, an understanding Magosha was very familiar with nested amongst the misting shadows of Lull’s mind: his annoyance wi


Inspiration: Link to YouTube of “End to End” by Relient K

#0 — First Crush

Ellie watched the tram recede down the hill. It wasn’t love at first sight, not as the story books told it anyhow, but she could live with that. A quiet certainty settled over her as she made the final turn on the switchback staircase and reached the corridor leading to the loft: though her heart remained as steady as always, this was the moment she’d been waiting for — she would choose this man and make him her own. He seemed by all outward appearances to be lacking much of what might make a person attractive or a wise choice of partner; but she had seen his heart — not just the one beating in his hollow chest for all the world to see, but the real, inward, invisible heart that directs the most important portions of a life. He was good people, and that’s all that mattered to Ellie. The girls would be surprised. Jessica almost certainly upset. But that was the price, she decided as she turned the handle and stepped across the threshold. That was the price of living: some things must be closed off if others are to be realised. Shutting the door she exchanged her boots for slippers and moved towards the kitchen and the laughter it held. “I’m home.”

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Inspiration: Link to @Franrekkk’s doughnut girl.