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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH

what do you do when you know someone really likes you but you just don't really feel that way? He tried to kiss me at least three times but I avoided, which could be thought annoying but I just don't know. I mean, he's a good friend and a nice guy and very smart, but I just don't feel that way around him. Something about the way he acts doesn't feel comfortable with me. I feel like going for him would be settling with someone I don't think I'd be happy with.
I say he's reserved, but maybe I'm more reserved around him, neither of which are good things, I think. It seems we have the same sense of humour, but I don't laugh very much. Not really fullheartedly, at least.
Graugh I have no idea. But my parents like him (no discredit to him, they had very interesting conversations) and probably think there's a mutual interest because who knows what parents talk about, but gosh jeebus holy sherry I feel like I'm on my guard all the time.
That's probably my fault, but I still don't like the feeling. Augh augh augh. Augh.

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Words cannot express my love for:

-ABBA
-Harry Potter books on tape

they are my escapism, and they cheer me up immensely

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I'm procrastinating math. God, I wish I could just GET this is lot better than I do. Beeeh. This Friday I'm going home to see TASHER and I'm excciiiiited. But at this very moment I feel kind of at loose ends.
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Load your playlist full of your favorite songs. Put it on shuffle and press play. Fill in the first question and hit next for the next question. Do until it's completed.

1. Opening Credits: Marvin Gaye "How Sweet it is to be Loved by You" (I could totally picture me trying to hail a cab to get to work while this song is playing in the opening credits...)
2. Waking Up: Spice Girls "Wannabe" (no better song.)
3. Falling In Love: ABBA "Does Your Mother know that you're out" (hmmm... a little peppy for my taste in falling in love but...)
4. Fight Scene: The Beatles "Something" (for a dramatic, slow-motion fight scene no doubt)
5. Breaking Up: Haddaway "What is Love?" (oooh man perfect. I go out to a bar and get wasted while this song is playing and then stumble around. A+)
6. Looking Back on Your Life: Pink Martini "Dancez-Vous"
7. Getting Back Together: The Lion King "Hakuna Matata" (HAHahaha)
8. Secret Love: The Beatles "Happiness is a Warm Gun"
9. Life's Okay: The Beatles "Martha My Dear" (very true!)
10. Mental Breakdown: Hairspray "Ladies Choice" (not a mental breakdown at all...)
11. Partying: The Beatles "Everybody's Got Something to Hide Except me and my Monkey"
12. Driving: The Beatles "Sexy Sadie" (so many Bealtes)
13. Flashbacks: Ray Charles "Hard Times" (not good!)
14. Long Night Alone: Shirley Temple "Good Ship Lollipop" (wtf? Maybe if I'm sleeping during that long night alone)
15. Final Battle: The Beatles "Don't Pass Me By" (not at all.)
16. Death Scene: Ray Charles "Maryann" (weird)
17. Ending Credits: Bjork "Earth Intruders" (hmm)

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the lj spotlight community "musicshuffle" sounds like a cool idea, so I'ma do it.
But first, it's weird getting ready to move in. I only have some tiny room in Morgan and Therese's apartment because I don't have an actual room yet. We went Ikea shopping to get most of the things I need, but it's still strange to me thinking I'm not going to be seeing so many people I'm used to seeing. It makes me a little sad. Although I will be seeing some people I know, which is awesome! I'm worried about food, and I feel like it will be weird having to eat out all the time and not just sitting down happily to dinner with my parents... I guess we all have to leave some time.
Orientation week starts on Sunday, and that's when I officially go to Guelph. I'm a little sad I can't call TO home anymore, and I'm thinking of all the friends who are still in TO and are living on campus but they're still in the city, still able to see everyone else who's still in the city. I hope my university experience will distract me from these kinds of thoughts... I don't want to be sad all the time. I just need it to start, I need to be settled and then I think I will be okay.

( put your iTunes on shuffle and explain the first 10 songsCollapse )

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Happy birthday Nigel!
I like the hairspray choreographer guy. Funny stuff.
( spooshCollapse )

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So I didn't have a mass commentary post on the last SYTYCD because I was graduating high school... which is weird, but also pretty cool. However, really sad because I forgot my yearbook at home and thus no one signed it and I only have maybe 4 people's signatures from the 500 kids at UFA. I'm pretty disappointed, but hopefully I'll see friends and parchance have my yearbook and then they can sign it.
First week of work (meaning Sundance) is over. I feel kind of awkward because I don't really know how to assist ballet classes, I just stand of the front of the room with my mouth shut and maybe walk around once and a while. I'll have to talk to Georgie to ask her if she has any expectations of what I should do, and then I could do that.
This weekend was pretty fun. Bubble tea and shopping, then sleeping over at Tasher's was the highlight, then for the rest of Saturday I pretty much only worked on my regency dress. It's almost done now, I just need to: sew the flowers; cut out the second sleeve and sew both sleeves on; cut, pleat and sew the neck ruffle; tack the ribbon onto the waist and finish the back. Okay, so I'm not THAT close to being done. But I'm excited for when it will be, and then the only problem is my hair. (PS this is what I hope the dress will look like! ee)
I'm still hoping to make myself a bodysuit, out of the green or gray jersey that I have. That would be fun. I've got the design in mind and everything. Exciting.
Next weekend is Wonderland, the weekend after that Ty's cottage, weekend after that Gwen's cottage. This summer has by far been the least boring one yet. So many things were happening BEFORE Sundance started, and so many things are happening during Sundance, I have no time to be bored. Hopefully I'll still have time to complete my list. I'll post it here, although it's also on facebook.
( things to do in the summer. Friends required.Collapse )

HARRY POTTER is coming out soon. I'm really excited. Book 5 is the one I remember the least, but I'm still really excited. w00t!

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I am FINALLY DONE SCHOOL! Now I'm trying to register my courses but I can't choose my elective, it's so hard. Studio art? but I feel like University Art would be pretentious and difficult. Maybe. Or a humanity.
Pride Prom was pretty fun, Ty won prom queen, and there were these two people who were dancing the whole time and they were actually the most amazing dancers ever. I wish they were my best friends.

( Dance dance, dancey danceCollapse )

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I should be studying, but I'm watching SYTYCD. Uuuuh... yeah I'm a little worried but here's my MASSIVE COMMENTARY POST!

( none of this will make sense unless you have a crazy memory or re-watch So You Think You Can Dance while reading this!Collapse )

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ahh, apart from updating, I finally got to watch Ugly Betty again. All my Thursdays have been full so I've missed all the drama-rama that's happening. And oh god there's so much drama, it's liek the producers FEEL THE NEED to introduce at least 3 new plot lines every show. But that's okay.
I have a lot of homework, probably way more than I think. I need to write an essay, study for geometry, do this chem lab write-up, and justify my two literary theory choices for my book (which I finished reading yay! I need a new book more. I've forgotten how fun reading is). And on Tuesday the announcements announced we only have 29 days left of school. That means 26 on Friday. Like, woah. That is crazy. EXAMS ARE COMING
But wow, it's the last year. 26 days until no more UFA. That's kind of sad, I really did like highschool. And I dunno, I feel like University won't be as fun. It's hard, you have to make new friends, and I still haven't chosen where to go. I want to go to Guelph, because I feel like I'd like the program more, but I love the U of T campus. U of T just seems really competitive and I don't really like that feeling. My dad keeps hinting obviously that he wants me to go to U of T, and then he's like "oh, but don't let other people tell you where to go". Augh.

I hope the weather clears up and becomes normal. That keeps me very happy. Now I need to get some ice cream.

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There are five days until Christmas.
There is one day of actual school left.
There is a paragraph and a half left of my post-structuralist essay. It feels more like geometry proofs at the moment though.
There are 10 mins until I will be desperate to get to bed.
There are two days until Georgie leaves.
There are two more school classes I have to attend.
There are one thousand things I want to do.
There is one body of mine that is completely sick.
There are five CDs in the CD player.
There are 7 tracks left on this CD.
There are four random people's birthdays tomorrow.
There are all of you that I love and miss already

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FAAAAST TRACK
well, not yet, but next week, and I have to inform all my teachers about it. And then we get five hours to learn an entire dance to perform it! But that's okay it's a really cool idea and I think it'll be awesome. Troo-PERs!
So today I woke up late, as in I had 15 minutes to get to school, but for some reason instead f reading the clock as 8:18 I read it as 7:18 and thus thought I had tons and tons of time to get ready and I would not be late for my calculus test first thing in the morning. Guess who can't read a digital clock! At least I had a spare in A so I could write it then, although I was SO stupid so when I graphed the function I didn't pay attention to the y intercept... AUGH *smacks head* it's such a simple mistake. Sucks ass. Hopefully I'll only get one mark off for each question. Bah.
Now I'm in the library on my other spare, then after this is lunch then english then law. Then I can go home and try to figure out how my dress will be sewn together! My mom thinks it'll work to sew the facing to the facing then the facing to both the back and the front and somehow turn it inside out properly.... I have no idea. We shall see, but if it turns out it's going to be so pretty! Yay!

PS bored? depressed? frustrated? search "funny cats" on YouTube hahaha it cracks me up every time.

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ooh yay! I am excited for hallowe'en, even though all the hallowe'eny things I could do have already been done. I:
-went to my school dance in costume
-went to a hallowe'en party (in costume, very fun.)
-carved my scary panther pumpkin!
wahoo! It's all very fun. Unfortunately on the actual DAY I'm going to be salsa dancing with my sexy salsa latin non-latin lover Tycoda, so I cannot hand out candies to the little chillens, which is something I do so enjoy. *sigh* ah well. At least my costume is cool. And now that that has been sewn, I need to start on my (hopeful) reception outfit! If it totally looks poo I can't wear it to the reception but I really hope it comes out nicely. If it does it will be so pretty.
Haaaappy Hallowe'en! *spooky voice*
PS want to see what I hope my reception outfit will look like? Check the picture of Marilyn above (on my layout) If only.

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Wow, my brain just went dead for a second there, I thought it was Saturday. And in a way it is... but it's also not. And it's exactly 8pm as I'm writing this.
I'm also braindead because my brain, in actual fact, has exploded from the amazingness of Veronica Mars on DVD. Exploded. Fact.
I want to run around screaming excitedly but I can't because relatives are here, like when I watched the finale of SYTYCD. Both times I wanted to run around crazily. This time to get to Gwen's house for answers she doesn't have but I want her to because she's the Vmars experte. VMARS!
Thanksgiving is good stuff. No school or dance tomorrow, delicious pie with whipped cream for lunch, more delicious pie with whipped cream for dinner and lots of other sweet, sweet food available for my accepting palate. I say "here here!" to colonizers who made cornucopias full of fruit and invited the natives to get smallpox [I note, none of this is true. Except for maybe the cornucopias part]. Hurrah! I give thanks to everyone! In the form of pie. The best form there is.

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ragaragaraga this is my battle cry!!

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Avast me hearties! Tomorrow be 'talk like a pirate day', so git yer best eyepatch on and show sum pirate pride arrrh. Tomorrow be the day the teacher cannae tell ye yar grammar be horrible, because ye be a pirate! Yo ho!

I'm so bad at talking like a pirate, but I'm totally going to do it tomorrow anyways. Score.
So I should be doing some discrete homework. But for anyone interested I just talked to le J-man, and he says he passed through Toronto but didn't actually stop, that's why he didn't contact me... >_>. Aw, whatever. Now he's in Nova Scotia for university, french immersion! I could not do that, but that's pretty cool.
Yay. It's rainy. I mean... YARRRH thar be rain in me breeches arr!

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I'm pretty proud of myself - I've got a pretty new layout! Check it out y'alls. And now it's mysteriously past twelve so I need to go to bed soon. To wake up in time to get to the company meeting augh so early (I kid I kid!)
Homework to do:
-english essay
-chem questions
-math questions
-other math sheets

boo. I probably should have done that instead of fiddling with my layout... whatever it's pretty now :D

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boys are pretty.

I just had to say that. Got back from seeing "The Convenant", which was a little confusing but entertaining nonetheless espcially due to some ridiculously funny lines, rock-music fight scenes and tiny speedos. That and all the boys (except the evil one!) were very pretty. I'll be their wee-atch anyday. Except Caleb, because he was too Mary-Sue meets Ashton Kutcher for me. Well, maybe even Caleb. Hahaha I say if you plan to see it watch it on DVD, if only for les bois. Indeed.