Wow...

It's getting very difficult to sort out what I'm paranoid about and what the truth actually is. Today I realized I have an intense paranoia about my health, which I'm sure I know how to combat. Here I thought I was done, but the only thing I worry about these days is my health. If I allow full trust in World Shaper, I should be fine. 
How can I rationalize more wreckless behavior with my body? Shall I convince myself that the urge for people to stop smoking and such is right up there with dieting and unnecessary excercise. Is that just apart of some social revolution in a society that I don't necessarily identify with? I say that, because the society I DO identify with dictates that tobacco is alright, if you respect it. That means, I can't be chain smoking for the hell of it, I'll have to USE the tobacco rather than ABUSE it. See...I can rationalize almost anything.
Besides, it's sacred to my people and if I follow their way, it is sacred to me. At that point, it isn't about me smoking out of habit but rather about smoking as a rite, which is what it will have to become. I must maintain self control and remember the sanctity of Life and Death. 

Now...how am I going to manage this one?