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[Saturday
January 21st 2006
11:46pm
]
[mood| tired]
[music|Death Cab For Cutie- "Soul Meets Body" ]


last post was me being stupid. I got in one of those angsty teenager moods where i kept listening to sad songs, well not really, w/e...i deleted it but I thought I'd do a normal post... Today was an okay day... My dad and i went hiking and then we picked up a book i had to get for english class (Travels w/ Charley), then we went to La Quinta, which was a scary experience cuz this jerk was driving really fast behind me and there was this light that I probably should have ran but instead I stopped and he was driving so crazily fast that he had to go into the left hand lane so he wouldn't hit my car (i guess he thought i was gonna run the light and he was gonna run it w/ me but i got my permit so late i don't want it fucking taken away cuz of some douchebag)... then he flipped me off so my dad flipped him off back and i joined in... it was really funny actually... then we went to the trader joe's out there and shopped... then we drove home, I went on the freeway, it was way easier than the insane stop and go traffic of before... except i stayed behind this slow-ass truck the whole time cuz i didn't wanna leave the right lane cuz I'm a slow driver (in california, driving the speed limit makes you slow) so i didn't wanna have to deal w/ ppl getting bitchy w/ me for that... then i got home and my mom was all pissed cuz she was sick and didn't get to go out, but she stopped when i told her that I would have rather stayed home and slept in, i wwas half lying... then i took some asprin (i always have a headache after hiking, i think it's cuz of the hayfever {sp} crap) and took a nap... then when i woke up my parents and i tried to watch two for the money but we just fast forwarded thru it after a half-hour or so... then when me and my dad took the movie back, we rented Unleashed which was pretty good, it had enough of a story that the violence could have been ignored and effing morgan freeman was in it and he rox... my dad noticed it was kinda like frankenstien cuz morgan freeman was blind and all... well I thik that is a good summary of my day... it was ok, mainly good actually... oh i forgot to say that i got "Plans" (death cab for cutie)... it's a good cd... well, I'm gonna go cuz i should sleep...
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[Sunday
January 15th 2006
10:24pm
]
A Bunch of Crap About Yourself
Name:melissa
Age:16
D.O.B.:7-4-89
Gender:femalw
Skin Color:white...
Weight:big
Height:5'7"
Eye Color:blue
Hair Color:brown
Piercings:ears
Tattoos:none
Lefty/Righty/Both:righty
Favorites
Animal:giraffe
Food:sushi
Fruit:dunno
Meat:chicken
Dairy:cheese
Wheat:bread
Junk Food:idk
Meal:dinner
Snack:dunno
Ice Cream Flavor:mint chip
Sundae Topping:hot fudge
Milkshake Flavor:chocolate
Food to Cook:dunno
Cereal:dunno
T.V. Show:dead like me
Cartoon Character:fry
T.V. Channel:comedy central
Season:winter
Part of Your Favorite Season:idk
Song:"inmates"the good life
Band/Singer/Group:rilo kiley
CD:dunno
Video Game:none
Computer Game:none
Time of the Day:night
Flower:orchids
Feature on Your Body:none
Feature of the Opposite Sex:hair
Actor:johnny depp
Actress:idk
Movie:shaun of the dead
Color:magenta
Weather Condition:rainy
Scent:idk
Amusment Park Ride:dunno
Type of Cheese:idk
Type of Bird:heck if i know
Type of Dog:...
Type of Cat:...
Outfit in Your Closet:dunno
Drink:water
Hobby:idk
Emotion:happy
Book:dinno
Holiday:...
Candy Bar:...
Person to Love:heh...
Person to Hate:heh...
If You Could Have Anything You Wanted...
Name:toughie riley is cool
Age:mine's fine
Weight:normal
Weight:again?
Where'd You Live?:dunno
Occupation:dunno
Love:hahah yes...
Friends:...
Home Type:nicer
Life Situation:dunno
How Do You End?:what?
Friends and Family
Who's in Your Family?:me and my parents
Names:karen and alan
Pets?:none
Names:...
Got Any Friends?:i hope
Are You Lying?:no
I Bet You Have None.:damn you caught me
How Many, if You're Not Lying?:i dont like to count
Names?:dunno
Who's Your Best Friend?:kortney
Silliest Friend?:ahhh i hate these
Weirdest?:...
Shyest?:...
Loudest?:...
Most Like You?:me...
Least Like You?:me...
Most Serious?:...
Most Daring?:...
Best Looking?:..
Worst Looking?:...
Lives the Closest?:...
Lives the Farthest?:..
Any Preppy Friends?:idk...
Gothic?:...
Loners?:...
Punks?:...
Vegetarians?:yes
Any Have AIDS?:...
Any That Always Seem to be Sick?:yes
Healthy?:yes
3 Words that Describe Them Overall:cool, funny, gangstas?
How Would You Describe the Ones You Haven't Mentioned?:...
Your Dream Guy/Girl
Eye Color:dunno
Hair Color:brownish or black
Skin Color:dunno
Religion:dont care
Age (Older/Younger/Same):close to mine
Height:taller than me 6 foot ish is nice
Weight:dunno
Specific Label?:none
Personality:nice, funny, smart,etc.
Sports (S)He does:idk
Lives Nearby or Distant?:nearish
Talents:idk
Interests:idk
Anything Else?:idk
First Word That Comes to Your Mind...
Fish:bowl
Chicken:tender
Ronald:weasley
Bird:tree
Hockey:puck
Energy:tired
Love:hate
Jock:strap
Banana:hammack
Girl:boy
Rent:due
Wicked:person
Snow:white
Question:mark
Bee:keeper
Be:mine
B:letter
Tree:house
Food:coloring
Water:tap
Hate:you
Right:left
Wrong:right
School:homework
Toe:shoe
Space:my
Cow:horse
Moon:sun
Hide:seek
God:religion
Play:house
Random Questions
Do You See Your Dreams at Night?:yes
What are They About?:dont remember
Can You Even Remember Them?:no
Are They in Color or Black and White?:dunno
Do You Hear Sounds from Them?:yes
Can You Feel Them?:no
Where Do You Usually Shop?:idk
Where is Your Favorite Place to Hang wth Friends?:idk
Do You Like the "Color" Black?:yes
White?:ok
Do You Live by an Ocean?:no
If So, Do You Surf?:no
Did You Ever Crash Into a Wall?:all the time
Do/Did You Have Braces?:no
Do You Like Eating Gum?:no
Can People Make You Laugh Easily?:sometimes
Do You Ever Find Yourself Laughing at the start of Jokes and not end?:no
I Do.:...
Are You Married?:no
Engaged?:no
Do You Have a Girlfriend/Boyfriend?:i wish
Or a Secret Crush?:yes
Have You Ever Cheated on a Lover?:no
Are You Too Happy?:no
Or Really Bored?:yes
Do Dead People Creep You Out?:yes
Are You Gay/ a Lezzie?:no
I'm Not.:good for you
Do You Freak Out When You Hear You're Favorite Song on the Radio?:no
Do You Dance to it in the Car?:yes
Have You Ever Commited a Crime?:no
Do You Find Yourself Speaking Words That Ain't Real?:sometimes
I said "ain't" on purpose.:i know
Are You Happy With Your Life at the Moment?:no
Could it be Better?:yes
Why Are You Taking This Survey?:cuz i'm a bored loser
Do You Have Over 5 AIM/MSN/What Ever Else there is Screenames?:yes
If Yes, How Many?:idk maybe 8
If Not, How Many?:...
Have You Ever Blocked Someone Purposely and Tell Them it Was an "Accident"?:no
Are You a Bad Lier?:yes
Are You Spoiled?:no
Do You Clean?:no
Can You Cook?:yes
Do You Have a Pool?:yes
If Yes, Inground or Out-of-Ground?:inground
Do You Have a Hot Tub?:no
If Yes, Did You Stick That in the Ground Too?:no
How Many Peeps Do You Think Began This Survey Then Stopped Before Finishin?:alot
Can You See the Stars Where You Live?:yes
Do You Look at Them?:sometimes
Did You Ever Find Both the Little and Big Dipper?:yes
What's Your Biggest Fear?:dying alone
Do You Believe in Ghosts?:kinda
Spirits?:kinda
Why?:idk
Do You Like the Night?:yes
Do You Take Walks at Night?:sometimes
Is Your House in Front of a Busy Street?:no
Do You Live in a Really Boring Place?:yes
Do You Have Any Bad Habits?:yes
At the Moment...
What's the Time?:10:39
What's the Date?:1/16
Are You at Your Home?:yes
What Are You Wearing?:pajamas
Are You Listening to Music?:yes
If So, What Are You Listening to?:"some incriminating photographs"- the faint
Are You Watching TV?:no
If So, What Are You Watching?:...
Are You Wearing Make-up (Be Honest Boys):no
Who Are You Talking to?:no one
Are You Eating?:no
If So, What?:...
How Are You Feeling?:tired
What Room Are You In?:mine
Is There a Bug or Spider on the Wall?:no
If So, That's Me. No, Actually, It's Not, I Just Felt Like Saying That.:...
Is There a Football Game on TV Right Now?:idk
Are You Watching it?:no
Do You Have a Song Stuck in Your Head?:no
Oh.:...
If You Were....
A SuperHero, What Would Be Your Super-Name?:idk
A Dog, What Breed Would You Be?:idk
A Crayon, What Color Would You Be?:boring blue
President, Would You Lie?:...
If You Said No, You're Already Lying.:...
An Appliance, What Would You Be?:...
A Ball, What Sport Would You Be For?:basketball
A Singer, What Type of Music Would You Sing?:indie
A Fruit, What Kind Would You Be?:a crazy coconut
A Planet, What Planet Would You Be?:...
A Cartoon Character, Who'd You Be?:leela
Ice Cream, What Flavor Would You Be?:mint chip
A Question, What Would You Ask?:...
A Flower, What Kind Would You Be?:orchid
A Puppet, What Would You Look Like?:ugly
A Song, What Would You're Lyrics Say?:that i feel alone
A Book, What Would the Title Be?:My Life: Boring as hell
A Bird, How High Would You Fly?:...
An Evil Villian, What Would Your Evil-rific Name Be?:...
A Clover, How Many Leaves Would You Have?:3
A Sandwich, What Would Be On You?:mustard
A Witch, Would You Be A Good Witch, or a Bad Witch?:good
A Sparkler, How Long Would You Last?:idk
A Snake, How Long Would You Be?:...
A God(ess), What Would You Control?:time
This or That
Pepsi or Coke:coke
Ice Cream Cake or Piece of Cake Ice Cream?:i scream
Apple or Orange?:apple
Blue's Clues or Dora the Explorer:blue's clues
Rugrats or All Grown Up?:rugrats
Black or White?:black
Cheese or Pepperoni?:cheese
Love or Hate?:love
Yes or No?:yes
7 or 13?:7
Summer or Winter?:winter
Yeah, I'm now getting really bored making this...
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[Sunday
January 15th 2006
10:02pm
]
Have You Evers, This Or That, Do Yous, Three Things You... (104)
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What time are you starting this?:9:51 pm
Have you ever had a lucid dream?:no
Are you insomniac?:no
Have you ever danced in the rain?:yes
Sat in the middle of the street?:no
Have you ever cheated on a test?:yes
Have you ever ran with scissors and actually hurt yourself or someone else?:no
Ever kiss someone just to see their reaction?:i wish i had the guts to do that
ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?:in my opinion, yes
Have you ever been in real take-your-breath-away love?:no
Have you ever thought of your life in the past centuries?:yes
Been in a car accident?:kinda
Have you ever blacked out?:no
Held back a grade in school?:no
Three things that scare you
1:dying alone
2:losing everything i love
3:dolls
Three things you hate
1:non-talented famous ppl
2:whorey ppl (male or female)
3:pervs
Three things you want to do before you die
1:go to europe
2:fall in love and get married
3:tell someone what i really think of them
Three things you would never admit saying or doing
1:who i like(d)
2:idk
3:idk
Three things I want to do
1:go to Europe
2:become a perfessional photographer
3:get stoned at least once
Three things I can't do
1:dance
2:a cartwheel
3:tell ppl what i truely think of them
Three things I love
1:pirates
2:dead like me
3:wonderfalls
Three people that make me laugh
1:my mom
2:my dad
3:almost all of my friends
Three people I'd like to know better
1:i dont like naming names...
2:...
3:...
--
Do you know HTML?:it's ok
How do you feel about your parents?:they're cool
Do you have any security program installed onto your computer?:i think so
What sort of music do you listen to?:i don't like to limit myself to one genre
What song are you listening to?:"Aveda"- Hot Hot Heat
What is:?
Are you a morning or night person, or both?:night
Do you like to read?:yes
AIM, MSN, ICQ, None, Other?:aim
Worst habit?:cussing
What's the most vicious thing you ever done?:idk
Ever thought of doing?:idk
Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?:yes and i hate it
Are you desperate to fit in?:not really
Are you an intellectual?:idk
An atheist?:no
Depressed?:not really
Do you have selective mutism?:no
If no, do you even know what that is?:no
Whats your IQ? (Test at iqtest.com):maybe later...
Are you homophobic?:no
Racist?:no
Sexist?:no
This or That
Originality or Acceptance?:originality
Popularity or Isolation?:neither
Understood or Individual?:understood
Black or Grey?:black
Winter or Summer?:winter
Ketchup or Mustard?:mustard
Love or Lust?:love
Science or Math?:math
Rock or Rap?:rock
Makeup or None at all?:makeup
Messy or Organized?:i wish i was organized
Girls or Boys?:idk...
Sunrise or Sunset?:sunset
Fire or Ice?:ice
You or Them?:them
Water or Soda?:water
Coke or Pepsi?:coke
Mountain Dew or Sierra Mist?:idk
Werewolves or Vampires?:werewolves
--
Do you watch Invader Zim?:no
History Channel?:no
Read any comics?:no
Are they anime?:no
Do you wonder a lot?:yes
Do you curse a lot?:oh yeah
Do you have a religion?:not really
What is it?:...
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¢¾ a n y t h i n g u w a n n a k n o w ¢¾
name♥:melissa
age♥:16
sign♥:cancer
birthday♥:7-4-89
hometown♥:palm springs
describe your persona in 1 word♥:me
ethnicity♥:irish, scottish, british, pretty much everything that is white...
sexual preference♥:men...
L O V E ♥ & S T U F F
have a boyfriend♥:i wish
single♥:yes
have you ever been in love♥:no
believe in premarital sex♥:yes
are you a virgin♥:yes
have you ever made out♥:...
♥h a v e u e v e r s♥
been in the ghetto♥:idk
embarrassed yourself in public♥:all the time
been hit on by the same sex♥:no
been attracted to the same sex♥:no
smoke♥:no
drank alcohol♥:yes
experimented with drugs♥:no
skinny dipped♥:no
had the opposite sex (relatives NOT included) in your room♥:yes
been fondled♥:no
loved someone that did love you back♥:no
been pregnant or gotten someone pregnant♥:no
done the pussy pop♥:perv...
danced well *honestly*♥:i can't dance
been called a tease♥:no
betrayed a friend♥:yes
♥A r e u♥
selfish♥:sometimes
a bitch/bastard♥:sometimes
a slut/man whore♥:no
genuine♥:sometimes
a drug addict♥:no
a smart person♥:no
unclean♥:no
religious♥:no
tender♥:wtf...
a liar♥:sometimes
♥s i m p l e a n d c l e a n♥
what do you ♥:...
what do you hate♥:lots of things
what pisses you off♥:lots of things
what wins your ♥:dont wanna name
♥ preference of the opposite sex♥
hair color♥:brownish and blackish
eye color♥:all are fine
body type♥:don't care
good or bad♥:good i hope
long hair or short hair♥:mid ear length is good
height♥:taller than me is lovely... 6 foot ish is amazing
style♥:w/e he wants to be
personality or looks♥:personality
abs or ass♥:stupid...
love or lust♥:love
sex appeal♥:you're weird
marriage♥:sure
kids♥:sure
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The Good, The Bad, and the Ugly! - A Survey of Your Life
* So Basically... *
Name?:melissa
Age?:16
Sex?:femail
Birth Date?:7-4-89
Hair Color?:brown
Eye Color?:blue
Height?:5'7"
Weight?:hahah no
Body Type?:fatass
Piercings?:my ears
Tattoos?:none
What are you wearing right now?:pajamas
Hair style at the moment?:down like always
* Favorites *
Soda?:none
Food?:sushi
Drink?:water or iced tea
Alcoholic Drink?:no prefrence
Time of day?:night
Season?:winter
Day of the week?:sat.
Song at the moment?:"inmates" the good life
Band/Artist?:rilo kiley
Book?:kite runner was good
Subject in school?:apes
Place in the USA?:idk
Place outside the USA?:idk
Color?:magenta
Style of clothes?:my own
Store?:dunno
Mall?:dunno
City?:dunno
Website?:idk
Magazine?:seventeen
Kind of pet?:dogs are cool
* Worst *
Place to be?:dunno
Class in school?:hahahaha... i know
Time of dayr?:early morning
Season?:summer
Kind of pet?:dunno
Drink?:dunno
Food?:dunno
Mall?:dunno
Store?:idk
Style of clothes?:whorey clothes for both sexes
Celebrity?:ohhh tie- Hilary duff, Lindsey Lohand and the worst= Paris Hilton
Color?:dunno
Book?:dunno
Type of music?:music where they just scream and you can't understand one fucking word
Website?:idk
Magazine?:idk
* Daily Life *
When do you get up?:on a school day-6:37... varies on other days
What is your first thought?:i'm tired
What do you do first?:get outta bed
What's your usual outfit?:jeans, a t-shirt and a sweater
What's the first class of the day?:apes
When does school end?:2:45
Do you see your friends?:yes
What do you do when you get home?:sit down
What time do you go to bed?:10pm-12am
* Do you...*:i do...
Brush your teeth daily?:yes
Brush your hair daily?:yes
Shower daily?:yes
Sing?:yes
Dance?:no
Party?:no
Get drunk?:no
Have sex?:no
Read books?:yes
Listening to music a lot?:yes
Read magazines?:yes
Go online a lot?:yes
Stay on AIM all day even with an away message?:not all day
Have a religion?:no
Have an IPod?:yes and i hate it
Want an IPod?:i want a new one
Have a Girlfriend/Boyfriend?:no i wish
Play an instrument?:no
Get sick a lot?:no
Watch TV?:yes
Like MTV?:sometimes
Like VH1?:yeah
Like the History Channel?:no
Have Digital Cable?:yes
Have more than 500 channels on your TV?:yes
Listen to the radio?:sometimes
Still use your CD player?:no
Stalk people?:no
Have more than 200 buddies on your Buddy List?:no
Have dial-up internet?:no
Have AOL?:no
Know HTML?:kinda
Have a GPA higher than 3.9?:yes
Get H's in honors classes?:wtf is h?
* Music *
Do you listen to Rap?:no
R & B?:no
Blues and/or Jazz?:no
Classical?:sometimes
Pop?:sometimes
Country?:no
Emo/Scremo?:sometimes
Heavy Metal?:no
Christian?:no
Techno?:hahaha
Reggae?:no
Broadway Musical songs?:no
Oldies?:sometimes
* In A Boyfriend/Girlfriend *
Hair color?:no big deal
Eye color?:no big deal
Tattoos?:none
Piercings?:maybe one or two
Favorite Music?:w/e he wants
Style of clothing?:w/e he wants
Body Type?:dont care
Personality or Looks?:personality
Would you go out with someone just for their money?:no
Do you go on "Pity Dates"?:no
Does size matter?:idk
Do they have to be popular?:no
Does the guy ask the girl or the other way around?:heck if i know
Where do you go on the first date?:dunno
Kiss on the first date?:sure
Sex on the first date?:no
* Right Now *
Do you think you look good right now?:no
Are you eating something?:no
Are you drinking something?:no
Are you IMing anyone?:no
Are you talking on the phone with someone?:no
Are you talking face to face with someone?:no
Is anyone at your house who doesn't live there?:no
What song are you listening to?:"Californication" -Red hot chilli peppers
What are you watching on TV?:nottin
What other websites do you have open?:livejournal
Why are you taking this survey?:boredom
Where are you going to post it?:livejournal
What are you going to do after this?:sleeping
* What do you Believe? *
Do you believe in ghosts?:sorta
The afterlife?:yea
Aliens?:kinda
God?:sorta
The devil?:no
Heaven?:idk
Hell?:no
Scientology?:hahaha no
Hinduism?:idk
Buddhism?:idk
Christianity?:idk
Taoism?:idk
Judism?:idk
Jesus?:idk
Nothing?:idk
Reincarnation?:sorta
Yourself?:no
* Randoms *
Have you been on an airplane before?:no
Where were you going?:...
Have you been to another country?:mexico
Have you ever went to another country with your friends?:no
Have you ever partied in another country?:no
Have you ever went on a roadtrip with your friends?:no
Ever stayed online more than 10 hours straight?:no
Pretended to like someone just to get popular?:no
Talked about someone behind their back?:yes and i feel horrible
Had someone talk about you behind your back?:all the time
Been in a fight online?:yes
Been in a fight face to face?:yes
Gotten yourself involved in a fight that wasn't about you?:idk
Been called a bitch?:yes
Been called a slut/whore?:hahaha all the time
Been to Australia?:no
Do you like snakes?:they're ok
Ever cried to get your own way?:yes
Ever broken a bone?:no
Ever had to stay in the hospital for more than a week?:no
Ever had serious surgery?:no
Ever looked a porn online?:no
Ever went to one of those "adult" stores?:no
Ever bought clothes at Walmart?:no
Ever gotten clothes from the Salvation Army?:no
Ever paid more than 100 dollars for a pair of jeans?:no
Ever been on stage for any reason?:yes
Ever been in a play?:yes
Ever been in a choir?:yes
Ever been in a band?:no
Do you play, or used to play, an instrument?:no
Gotten a Brazilian Bikini Wax?:no
Waxed your eyebrows?:no
Waxed your legs?:no
Cut yourself shaving?:yes
Have you ever died?:no
Was this survey an good at all?:it was ok
What time is it right now?:10:23pm
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[Friday
December 30th 2005
02:58pm
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[Monday
December 19th 2005
12:11am
]
Three Things
Three things that scare me:
1:dying alone
2:dolls
3:losing everything
Three people who make me laugh:
1:my dad
2:my mom
3:most of my friends (i know more than 3)
Three Things I love:
1:sushi
2:pirates
3:pictures of Europe
Three Things I hate:
1:whorey ppl
2:non-talented famous ppl
3:bugs
Three things I don't understand:
1:men
2:women (even tho i am one)
3:the entire human race
Three things on my desk:
1:pencil
2:computer
3:bunch of blank cds
Three things I'm doing right now:
1:filling this out
2:listening to music
3:and being cold
Three things I want to do before I die:
1:travel across europe
2:fall in love and get married and all that
3:get paid for photography
Three things I can do:
1:sleep
2:eat
3:die
Three ways to describe my personality:
1:annoying
2:loud
3:obnoxious
Three things I can't do:
1:dance
2:sing
3:live
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[Sunday
December 18th 2005
11:18pm
]
couldn't find icons, but i found quotes (Shaun of the dead)Collapse )
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[Sunday
December 18th 2005
10:37pm
]
hmmm... i want to say somehting, but what?

I'm quite bored and tired, but yet i sit on this computer and type my life away... I am a sad sad individual... today was okay... I got some clothes that will be some christmas/hanukkah presents ( i celebrate both {dad=jew; mom=christian}) plus shaun of the dead on dvd, a purse,a scarf, and such ... which is cool...

hmmm i wanna make icons... random i know but true... maybe some shaun of the dead ones or maybe see if anyone on the web has some...

time for an icon quest!!!!
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[Saturday
December 17th 2005
07:08pm
]
[mood| blank]
[music| "The Execution of All Things"-Rilo Kiley ]


Disregard all the crap from yesterday... I was all moody and what not, I get like that randomly. I'm just really mad at myself. I have to start acting more normal instead of like a big spaz all the time. I'm a manipulative bitch and I need to stop being that. I need to stop joking about people even if I don't mean to be mean. I need to lose weight, because i'm fat. I need to get a life, cuz i do not have one. I have way too much emotional baggage for anyone to take; although I try and i hide it, it's always there and i get really mad at peope randomly becasue of it. I need to start talking to people about how I feel rather than pretending I'm happy all the fucking time, because it's really fake and extremely obvious. I need to make all these my new year's resolutions, but i know i'm not gonna follow through on any of them, like always. I'm very sad in that respect, I never get anything done. I could of been working on my homework (yes, I have christmas break homework), but i just didn't, like always. I'm in a rut in so many ways. Why can't I just do something about my life, instead of mope (is that how you spell it? I've never written that word down before) around all the time. I believe that was a rather cheap ephiphany (once again never written this word down): I need to do something about my life, no more like me. And another thing, why do I always like shallow jerks? huh? why? I always do.

I was gone for a couple minutes, because i talked with my dad. I'm not in as much of a contemplative mood anymore... I'm gonna go.
“Hey, How Could You Love Me This Way?”

[Friday
December 16th 2005
11:04pm
]
random rants... don't readCollapse )
“Hey, How Could You Love Me This Way?”

[Friday
December 16th 2005
10:13pm
]
[mood| nostalgic]
[music| Yellowcard-"Empty Apartment" ]

Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down as I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes you forget where the heart is

Answer no to these questions
Let her go, learn a lesson
It's not me, you're not listening now
Can't you see something's missing?
You forget where the heart is

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay

Waking up from this nightmare
How's your life, what's it like there?
Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And how broken my heart is

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay

It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say its okay
It's okay
It's okay



I randomly wanted to listen to Yellowcard which is so ninthe grade... I especially love empty apartment, I sang it for my solo in choir in 9th grade... the lyrics are above... I'm still moody but slightly less than before...
“Hey, How Could You Love Me This Way?”

[Friday
December 16th 2005
09:13pm
]
[mood| moody]
[mood| cold]
[mood| blah]
[mood| bitchy]
[mood| nauseated]
[mood| rejected]
[mood| thirsty]
[mood| sad]
[mood| sick]
[mood| distressed]
[mood| jealous]
[mood| lonely]
[mood| envious]
[mood| gloomy]
[mood| guilty]
[mood| intimidated]
[mood| crappy]
[mood| crushed]
[mood| depressed]
[mood| contemplative]
[music| Snow Patrol ]



I'm a little moody at the moment and i feel like shit... i really dont fully know why but i think i have a fucking idea and i hate it... i'm such a fucking idiotic lunatic. everyone hates me including myself... and i completely understand why ppl would cuz i'm insane... i act totally wierd in front of ppl, not like me. This was bothering me cuz there was this quote in English that pretty much said, A man shows one face to the multitude and one to himself, but it's hard to know which one is true. And i'm totally like that... I act like an ass in front of ppl and i'm quiet and sad when i'm alone... I'm a fucking two-faced bitch and everyone knows it and i hate them for that... I just have been feeling like shit ever since kortney found out who i liked... and now i think i like him again... but in this fuckked up like... and i know he doesn't like me, he's made that quite obvious, and i hate him for that. I hated every guy i ever liked because he didn't like me back. I have to realize that no guy will ever like me, especially those i like... why am i such a dumbass bitch? I need to shut the fuck up cuz i'm getting crazier and crazier by the minute...
i might explain my moods later
“Hey, How Could You Love Me This Way?”

[Sunday
October 2nd 2005
11:05pm
]
[mood| cheerful]
[music|Frou Frou- "Flicks" ]

'ello (in british accent)!!!!
got lots of new songs and finally started my shame essay!!!
Think I'm gonna go to bed cuz It's 11ish and tomorrow is school *cries*
I just felt like updating cuz my last one was RETARDED...
I was all mad, cuz some elitest jerks said some mean things...
But now I'm okay, lately I've been feeling good, which is awesome...
Althoug, my iPod has been an evil evil bitch!!! It used to work for an hour and die, now it only plays a song and dies, after being fully charged... I need a new battery. Me and my dad are going to go to Radio Shack to get it fixed soon...
Me and Kortney started making bracelets and we are going to begin to sell them, hopefully we can make a profit, cuz we spent about $66 on beads and neading supplies on Sat.
Okay, I'm gonna go!!!!
G'day Mate (in an Australian accent)
“Hey, How Could You Love Me This Way?”

[Wednesday
September 14th 2005
07:57pm
]
[mood| depressed]
[music| Rilo Kiley-"The Execution of All Things" ]

Well, I finally got onto sorting_elite... and out of 75 votes only two were for Hufflepuf and the rest were Squib, so I gave up and deleted it, cuz I couldn't take some of the mean things ppl were saying... I was called wishy-washy and the one that hurt me the most was some mean hearted person who called me delusional for thinking I might be smart... just because I'm not using large words in my app I'm suddenly an idiot and FUCK!!! This is the internet, is my grammer supposed to be perfect!! And don't fucking judge me based upon spelling or grammer! God I'm such a loser, when I read some of the meaner ones I started crying, not like balling, but they really hurt... I was called shallow a couple of times, well not me but something I said... It just really hurt! Some of those people could be so mean, that just ruined my week... It hurts to know that people hate you for your personality... Well, I have to go, my dad's home... And Rilo Kiley brought my mood up a little...
“Hey, How Could You Love Me This Way?”

[Friday
September 9th 2005
11:22pm
]
[mood| hyper]
[music| Brand New-"Sic Transit Gloria...Glory Fades" ]

I totally forgot to say what my classes were this year...
here they are
period class
1 AP Environmental Science
2 AP US History
3 AP English 3
4 Spanish 3
5 Pre-Calculus Honors
6 AP Psychology



It's horrible!!!! I get too much homework!!! APES is cool kinda tiring cuz it's 1st period and only the realy annoying kids talk (most of the time)... AP US has way too much homework... AP English 3 isn't bad, so far... We got to get into groups that the miss hawkins picked. I was lucky that I got in a group with Madelon, Marlen, and Maggie... We all have M names and Madelon was joking about how we should all get rings and put them together and Marleen brought some of those cheap plastic kid rings that are awesome... We all got one, and they change colors in the sun which is awesome... Spanish is iffy... Marleen switched out and Pam is gonna switch out... Thankfully Nicole is still there!!! She was thiking about leaving which would suck... Pre calculus aint bad,but it's kinda boring... Psychology is awesome, though we get lots of homework... It's really interesting. Okay I'm gonna go!!! Bye!!
“Hey, How Could You Love Me This Way?”

[Friday
September 9th 2005
11:20pm
]
I made two awesome signs for lumos_sorting...
both from the new GOF posters...
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I love this picture it's so good!!!!! *giggles*
the textures are from blimey_icons

[mood| accomplished]
[music| Azure Ray-"The Drinks We Drank Last Night" ]
“Hey, How Could You Love Me This Way?”

[Tuesday
September 6th 2005
11:29pm
]
[mood| groggy]

forgot to add that I got new Ron moodthemes!!! YAY!!!
“Hey, How Could You Love Me This Way?”

[Tuesday
September 6th 2005
11:27pm
]
[mood| tired]


Guess what? I suffer from what adult swim calls television insomnia! I'm tired as shit but I'm watching tv and am on the comp! I'm a BIG idiot! Dammit! Well, I should get off soon... I'm just making it show that I'm alive!
“Hey, How Could You Love Me This Way?”

[Sunday
September 4th 2005
02:37pm
]

The things Harry and his friends will say at your funeral... (Harry Potter)
Name:
Age:
D.O.B:
Pick one:
Pick a number:
Harry... said he loved
Hermione... said that you were graceful
Ron... said that you were cute
Hargrid... said that he liked you
Malfoy... said that your head was larger than your brain and that all the empty space must have been great for storage
Lupin... said that he liked the bone you gave him
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“Hey, How Could You Love Me This Way?”

[Saturday
September 3rd 2005
06:55pm
]
[mood| amused]
[music| foo fighters- "Everlong" ]

This made me laugh and creeped me outCollapse )
“Hey, How Could You Love Me This Way?”

[Sunday
August 28th 2005
12:16am
]
[mood| amused]


I randomly found this...

Go to your itunes and put it all on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud, and after each one press play. Use the song title as the answer to the question.

01. What do you think of me, iTunes windows media player? Let's Not Shit Ourselves- Bright Eyes (ummm... I heart you too...
02. Will I have a happy life? My Favprite Accident-Motion City Soundtrack (awww...Depression
03. What do my friends really think of me? We Exist- Rufio ( is my itunes saying i don't care about my friends)
04. Do people secretly lust after me? Ladies and Gentlemen- Hot Hot Heat (ummm... okay)
05. What does [insert significant other] think of me? Head Club-Taking Back Sunday ( i don't have a significant other...)
06. How can I make myself happy? Shiver-Motion City Soundtrack (wtf?)
07. What should I do with my life? Such Great Heights-Rilo Kiley (concert) (hehe)
08. Why must life be so full of pain? Sunrise, Sunset- Bright Eyes (depressing)
09. How can I maximize my pleasure during sex? Soldier In A Box- Hot Hot Heat (weird)
10. Will I ever have children? Ester-Elefant ( I guess I should name my kid Ester?)
11. Will I die happy? Pirate-Rufio (ummm... Is Johnny Depp gonna kill me?)
12. Can you give me some advice? Morning Calls- Dashboard Confessional (I'm not up until the afternoon)</b>
13. Do you know where your children are? Chalk Line-Strike Anywhere (that's sad)
15. What do you think happiness is? Throw Away Your Television-Red Hot Chilli Peppers (i do watch Tv too much...)
16. What's my favourite fetish? The Quiet Things That No One Every Knows-Brand New (*giggle*)
“Hey, How Could You Love Me This Way?”

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