When the dust settles, it can be very unsettling and leave you with very unsettling questions why would your closest friend think it's okay to ask for sexual favours why would your childhood friend think it's wise to alienate you from her life, what kind of a most monstrous toxic person you must have been … Continue reading Unsettling
Category: Writing
the art of shutting up
9 days into the new year and I have learnt more than the entire past year or years put together. Forgive me because I am not exaggerating when I say how refraining myself to give a reaction, however justified it might be has worked out in my favour. Let me tell you the emotions of … Continue reading the art of shutting up
The Zest of January
It's 2019. I am 24 years old and I have been clinically depressed for as long as I can remember or let's say much of my early 20s. Feels strange to say early 20s. Not as strange as acknowledging the approaching mid 20s. It's okay, it's all okay. How deeply inflicted with meaning are these … Continue reading The Zest of January
the fall of october
is this how it's supposed to be is this how it is for all is it a facade we play or facades play us how deep am I in the pit do I keep going further or creep out I have to creep out sometime sometime soon sometime now metamorphose and now . … Continue reading the fall of october
Paranoia
I am not even going to start with how long it's been since I updated the blog or wrote something moderately decent. I have accepted my estrogen filled laid back self and little validation from y'all will be appreciated. Enter 2018, big dreams and goals? Not. Fetish-ing over baby steps, finishing 24 hours and the … Continue reading Paranoia
The 3 AM post, again
At times, a certain chord resonates with the deep seated memory in the folds of your cerebellum. The old thought protected by your gyri and sulci, layered and sheltered, feels like a new born memory. And you think and overthink and deliberate over that dormant memory. You think you were over it. You thought you … Continue reading The 3 AM post, again
I want to get a tattoo
Amongst all the dull, important and unimportant things in my life at the moment, I choose to ponder over what kind of tattoo I should get. It is decided. On 25th July 2016 , while I turn twenty f' two, I shall be inscribing myself. I have been wanting to get one since I was … Continue reading I want to get a tattoo
Maybe
Offlately , the word 'maybe' has proved of no good to me. Maybe is the underhand hope saying the clouds will fill the glass. Maybe is the state tending towards nothingness but makes you want to cling to the possibility of it's occurence. Maybe is your brain saying you are screwed but mind knowing you … Continue reading Maybe
COMMITMENT
What does Commitment mean to you? To me, the word has several levels. When a child is playing with his lego toys, either he could get bored and give up that high tower he was building or he could flag it up and finish. Either he will or he won't. When we start any activity, … Continue reading COMMITMENT
BINGE
Old habits die hard. Running late on the B, C letters. But here I arrive. B for Binge. I relate to Binging as per the Newtons First Law of motion. An object in the state of rest or motion will continue to be in that state until some external force is applied on it. The … Continue reading BINGE
the mundane 