couples_therapy Session 3 (Prompt 10)
So, Toshiko. It's been a while.
Yes, I know. I'm sorry about that. I've been very busy at work.
Nothing too serious, I hope?
Aren't we supposed to be talking about my relationship issues? Do you really think that's relevant?
You tell me if it's relevant, Toshiko. You're the one it effects.
Well, ok, maybe it's a little relevant.
Does it involve Owen Harper?
Toshiko?
What happened?
I don't want to talk about it.
Do you feel there is a distance between yourself and Owen?
Oh, you could say that! You could certainly say that.
Would you care to elaborate?
No. A lot of things have happened over the last few days. Everything has changed.
I don't know what to do.
We had an argument. And, although we did sort things out after wards, for the most part, and although he was understandably stressed at the time, I can't stop thinking about what he said.
What did he say?
Can you repeat that? I couldn't hear you?
He talked about how I watched him screw all those women and how I'm only interested in him now because he's 'safe'. Now that he's as screwed up as I am.
And how did that make you feel?
How do you think it made me feel? What if he's right? I mean, I do know that I'm 'screwed up'. I work for Torchwood, we're all screwed up. It's part of the job description. But I always had this ridiculous idea that, one day, he'd notice me - the real me - and everything would fall into place.
Maybe I read too many fairy tales when I was small. They're only one step away from romance novels, aren't they? I stupidly assumed that he'd have to realise I was female eventually, and not entirely unpleasant.
We always got on well. Before Gwen joined the team, anyway. We'd go out for drinks after work. We even kissed, that Christmas Eve. It didn't bother me that he forget the very next day, because I knew it could only be a matter of time. It didn't bother me that he picked up woman after woman, and told us all about it the next day. It was only a matter of time.
A matter of time ...
Oh, this is ridiculous. How are you supposed to help me with a relationship that doesn't exist and never will?
Toshiko? Toshiko? Where are you going?
Toshiko?
Yes, I know. I'm sorry about that. I've been very busy at work.
Nothing too serious, I hope?
Aren't we supposed to be talking about my relationship issues? Do you really think that's relevant?
You tell me if it's relevant, Toshiko. You're the one it effects.
Well, ok, maybe it's a little relevant.
Does it involve Owen Harper?
Toshiko?
What happened?
I don't want to talk about it.
Do you feel there is a distance between yourself and Owen?
Oh, you could say that! You could certainly say that.
Would you care to elaborate?
No. A lot of things have happened over the last few days. Everything has changed.
I don't know what to do.
We had an argument. And, although we did sort things out after wards, for the most part, and although he was understandably stressed at the time, I can't stop thinking about what he said.
What did he say?
Can you repeat that? I couldn't hear you?
He talked about how I watched him screw all those women and how I'm only interested in him now because he's 'safe'. Now that he's as screwed up as I am.
And how did that make you feel?
How do you think it made me feel? What if he's right? I mean, I do know that I'm 'screwed up'. I work for Torchwood, we're all screwed up. It's part of the job description. But I always had this ridiculous idea that, one day, he'd notice me - the real me - and everything would fall into place.
Maybe I read too many fairy tales when I was small. They're only one step away from romance novels, aren't they? I stupidly assumed that he'd have to realise I was female eventually, and not entirely unpleasant.
We always got on well. Before Gwen joined the team, anyway. We'd go out for drinks after work. We even kissed, that Christmas Eve. It didn't bother me that he forget the very next day, because I knew it could only be a matter of time. It didn't bother me that he picked up woman after woman, and told us all about it the next day. It was only a matter of time.
A matter of time ...
Oh, this is ridiculous. How are you supposed to help me with a relationship that doesn't exist and never will?
Toshiko? Toshiko? Where are you going?
Toshiko?