i am a very screwed up imperfect person.
those of you who've been reading this journal for the past few years, not to mention the other social networks would know and understand that.
but if you cant put up with my shit... please leave.
if you think i am some low-class scrapple-eating slacker who should died of dysentery while fording the river... please leave.
if you only think i was good enough back in the day in the mallrat/phillygoth/podcasting/fandom days but you keep me at arms length because i dont fit in with your oh so perfect life... fuck off and leave then
if you only are still friends with me because you dont want to be 'rude' and cause drama by de-friending me...spare me your fucking pity and leave....
i guess its cool that i put up with your shit, but you cant handle mine? tell your story walking, and take the gas pipe for all i care now.
i'm tired of chasing so-called friends, lovers, family, and others for love and validation...my co-dependent people pleasing days are over. i'm quite done.
all i ever wanted was to love and be loved. to care and be cared for. ive made mistakes, and i will probably continue to make them...but even to my very detriment i never gave up on any of my friends until i absolutely had to.
am i that unworthy? really? well okay...but the door to my life isnt a revolving one anymore... if you want out, you are free to go, but coming back wont be so easy. you expect me to trust someone willing to write me off so fast...? nope.. so yeah.
Do Not Pass Go, do not collect 200 give-a-fucks, just get lost...cause chances are your bullshit wasnt worth my time either.
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