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I have sat down many times this past couple of weeks with pen poised over blank pages in my journal. My head full of so many things that are crying to be heard, yet they will not tumble out onto the page.

My heart has broken, with every mother’s cry, my tears have risen at the slightest cause. So, I put down my pen, and pick up my brushes and I paint.

I paint into the eyes of another whose own story of their kind have also known the burden of humans who seek glory in their power of weapons.

My bones have become heavy, my heart heavier still, and a tiredness sweeps over me like a wave that saps the energy from me that I have found myself just wanting to sleep, and shut down the replay of the internal chatter and visions that screams to be let out.

I have tried shutting out the world, and lost. Because the world is within me, and I am within the world, we are one.

At times I can detach, step back, but then I have to look in as the observer, and what I observe is the reality portrayed through a key hole of a window through the lens of those whose view is wanting us to feel as I have been feeling, helpless, and bereft.

But we are not helpless, we are strong, but we have to be prepared for change. I have said many times being empathic is not an easy journey. It can wear you down, drain you, and drag you into the depths of despair if you allow it to grab hold of you. You have to be strong and realise not all moods are your own. And you have to understand how our energy is being affected in our addictive behaviours we may not think we are subjected to. But we are all of us being played in this game of life.

So I will keep painting a while longer as I leave you with these words I wrote some time ago

Knowing!

Here is the thing about internal knowing

It’s difficult to explain in words that are glowing

For many people step away, thinking you quite queer

When they do not understand, and live in fear.

Our internal dialogue will banter to and fro

Revealing the truth, is something you just know

No words can describe the feelings deep inside

When you get this knowing, which inside resides

We can search out all the knowledge written down in books

But a few of us find our answers, until inside ourselves we look

Once we’ve found the key, that opens up our hearts

That’s when our Knowing, and knowledge begins to start

Trusting in our instincts each have long forgot

Brings that instant knowing, as we focus on the plot

You then begin to see the world through a different set of eyes

As you realise this world is made up of many lies

The deeper that you focus, you uncover many layers

As you peel away your skins, ignoring all the stares

You begin to understand there’s more than man-made laws

And as the Knowing grows, so you open up more doors

The labyrinth of life, well hidden in the maze

Stands right before you, hidden from your gaze

Make-believe becomes real, while reality is but a dream

While everything you touch has holographic seams

The pathway to knowing, is letting go of what you know

Because when you open your heart, love begins to flow

Love is the key, it may turn you inside out

Universal laws, you will see no one can flout

You then begin to see, we reap what we have sown

When you access ‘The Knowing’ your heart begins to grow

Knowing what I do, I often feel quite sad

That most have lost their knowing, and no, I’m not quite Mad!

See you all sometime soon. And I hope you will be patient as I may take time to moderate comments. Thank you.

What I have been painting will be shared next time around..

Much Love and Blessings.

Surrender and Acceptance of Self.

Sadness is something we all go through, and we all learn from it and are deepened by its presence in our lives. While our own individual experiences of sadness carry with them unique lessons, the implications of what we learn are universal. For the World too is going through its own unique lessons as we grow through the experience.

The last thing most of us want to hear or think about when we are dealing with profound feelings of sadness is that deep learning can be found in this place.
The other thing we often would rather not hear is that the only way out of it is through it.

Sometimes being empathic means we do not always realise if the feelings of melancholy are ours or we are feeling the energies we link into.

I was feeling low of spirit way before my Dear Aunt passed away. I had already prepared a post in my drafts about Nature making us feel better, which I will post at a later date.. I had taken a walk on the Saturday taking snap shots for the post.. And went out again on Sunday to recharge my batteries again as I had felt much refreshed by walking in Nature ..

Yet not 5 minutes out of the car, I tripped and fell heavily meeting the concrete path from the car park with a crack so loud on my chin I thought I had broken my Jaw. Luckily I only badly bruised my chin(Bruises: The little bumps in life. Self-punishment.) and sprained my wrists.. ( Sprains: Anger and resistance. Not wanting to move in a certain direction in life). Which left my muscles feeling very stiff over the last few days, (Stiffness: Rigid, stiff thinking.) Life is showing me the ‘Signs’

Self analysis is also a painful business, and over the last few days I guess I have been reflecting upon the direction of my life. I embraced early retirement with so much gusto, and threw myself into the allotment, decorating, and knitting projects.. and yet I have still to find what fills that empty space..

I guess I am resisting being in my comfort zone of being ME…

Sitting with our sadness takes the courage to believe that we can bear the pain and the faith that we will come out the other side. Sadness teachers us the ability to surrender and the acceptance of change go hand in hand.

I just need to change my thoughts and follow the above quote I guess I am still in the process of adjusting and the lessons are coming in thick and fast.

Thank you for reading Love and Blessings

Sue

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