Some feelings,emotions are best left unsaid,
Undefined, illogical yet better understood,
Backed with no reasons for their existence,
But just their existence is all matters ,,,
© Sanjay Ranout
Category: Thoughts
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What if,,,,
Thriving through too many ifs and buts,
What if, it had not been !
How has it been,,,
What if, it hadn’t felt those strikes of high tides!
What if, it hadn’t been through extreme crests and troughs!
What if, it had never touched those zeniths and depths!
What if, it hadn’t choked my breath so often!
What if, it hadn’t paced up my heartbeat so often!
What if, those extremes have never occurred!
What if, it hadn’t been so rough ride,
What if, it had never left me looking behind,
What if those scars have never impressed,
What if, that pain have never inseminated,
What if, it had been an easy ride!
Floating on easy tides,
What if, life never had felt so unfair!
What if, i have felt that anyone really cares!
I wouldn’t have felt so much callous,
What if it hadn’t been!
How it has been!!
©Sanjay Ranout
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Life’s Skepticism
It started with the spring,
Then veered backward to falls,
Shattering dreams with falling leaves,
Then it turned towards stinging winters,
Fallen leaves turning into soil,
Making their existence Fading away with the time,
Taking away along all the hope in line,
Now from nowhere,
They took birth inside those covered layers
And i can see those niping buds,
Though i already accepted those shoved trunks,
Should I be angry or sad!
When i have already started a new life
I think ,
What if i have not given up for little more,
I should have waited some more ,
In the end ,
If i look at years i have waited for,
I just missed it by a brisk,
Now, All i can do is,
Just smile for the fact,
It has got new life after dead,
Sceptical is what the nature of life,
As it travels some unpredictable miles,,
© Sanjay Ranout
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Conundrum’s fear
Some years ago,
When i used to think a lot,
Purview of my fears has limited scope,
Backed enough with energy and confidence,
Addition to it,
Was Fearless and carefree intent,
Nothing seemed out of my limits,
And imposing limits were quite irritants,
There were the times of highs and lows,
Yet fears of conundrum never made me bow,
Is it same in present too?
Or being more careful and responsible,
Blown away it quite to toes,
Sometimes i wish to test it’s status,
And pass myself thorugh some conundrum’s behest,,,,
© Sanjay Ranout
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Proud of my heart ,,no matter what
No matter what happened,
Or what is going to happen,
You were the one ,
Taking tolls of turmoil ,
one after another,
And never let me suspect my faith,
Backed even those rosy imaginations,
No matter what how much unrealistic,
How much weird they were,
How much far from reality of this world,
You kept me floating,
Through those high tides ,
When all ebbs and flows were trying hard,
To drown me ,,
No matter what how much is reality,
Of all the imagined world i could make up,
Still proud of you freak,
You pushed me to limits ,
I could never have imagined to cross,
You set me up for those blind tours,
I made out of all that freaking ideas ,
Of getting away from world,
And that made world out of me,,
No matter what are consequences,
I still have a great proud ,
To follow the freaking path,
U led me through,,
©Sanjay Ranout
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If you could,,
If you could have even tried,
Still I would have never let myself down,
If you could have even thought of,
Still I would have never regretted,
If you would have even lied,
Still that would have never tip my faith,
If you could have let me know before leaving,
Still I would have never forced you to stay,
If you couldn’t even find an excuse,
I still would have let you go ,,,
© Sanjay Ranout
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The mystical source code
What lies beneath?
Those pearls of joy,
Moments of disgrace,
Those feelings of high,
And submerging lows,
Is it what you or anyone can see?
Or is it beyond the limits of our vision!
Is it something you are aware of?
Or its something beyond your awareness,
What lies beneath everything you feel?
Is it discernible?
Or still a mystery !
© Sanjay Ranout
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Lifeless Life
Am I still Alive?
Limbs are moving fine,
Vitals too reporting normal signs,
I can feel air am breathing
I can feel my heart is beating ,
Still can’t see any signs of life,
Nothing seems really exciting ,
Every interest last for a short time,
Every insight of dreaming has faded away,
Life has lost its direction to grey,
Now even intuitions have started contradicting,
Making every verse more conflicting,
In the midst of this chaos,
I chose to remain idle across,
But questions about life are always alive,
With no actions to impart some peace,
I often encounter this question at crease,
Am I still alive,,
Or its lifelessness while still alive
© Sanjay Ranout
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Distortions………
It’s the middle of the day,
Restless mind getting fray,
Unknown quest to nowhere,
Ended with frustrated stare,,
It’s the middle of night,
Mind is still running blind,
To find object of its quest,
By putting different subjects to test,
Yet it couldn’t get any result,,,
It enters now insomniac state,
Yet thinking of one last quest,
And here it made an another attempt,
Soon it will be another dawn,
And it will decide to stop this quant,
Will tomorrow be different?
Or it will continue this stint?
And here the day ends with these questions?
©Sanjay Ranout
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Sunshine forever,,
Every day leads to night,
And every night lead us to day
With orange dusk leading to dark,
Orange dawn will reappear from dark,
No matter what how long dark maybe,
There is always gonna be sunrise,
With Light and Sunshine
What lies beneath our thoughts! 