Hope, that of a Warrior
Saturday, March 20, 2004
8:39PM - Switching Over
I hate to do this, but I hate having numbers in my LJ name ... I have to create a new account. 
faded_rainbow Pooh, which means doing-over a lot of stuff ... like joining communities all over again. Great.</span>
blah7:25PM - Skiing -- Again!
We went skiing again yesterday, but to a different hill, and I liked this one better than the one we went to last week. Indeed. I love skiing. :-)
School starts up again on Monday. Crap. I don't want to go back.
crankyMonday, March 15, 2004
8:05AM - Spring Break and my birthday
Spring break started on Friday, and we went skiing then! That was really fun.
Saturday was my birthday. Now I'm fifteen! :D I can't wait until I can drive. :-) One more year ...
blankThursday, March 4, 2004
Saturday, February 28, 2004
4:13PM - Solo and Ensemble
Yes, it was today. I was the first person to go (in the room, that is). I wandered around for a while, then the results were posted, and I got a "second." Good for me! Yay!
chipperWednesday, February 18, 2004
9:11PM - Skiing!
Half-day of school today, but I wasn't even there! I went skiing with a group of people from school (on a Babler bus [ehh, you probably call 'em "coach buses," since Babler is a SPECIFIC type of bus]), and it was really, really fun. Well, here's my day in a nutshell:
Wake up at four-thirty. Get out of bed at four-fourty. Get at school at five after five, onto a Babler bus that almost everybody is already on, but I sit near a couple girls in my class (although next to a sophomore boy who I don't like). Then I got my equipment (I rented) Sorry, that was rather ... boring and stupid of me to write, and even more boring for you to read. :(
The day, in general, was fun, and the group I was "with" usually waited for me, which was nice. That is, they would wait for me unless if I was too far behind on the lifts. Gosh, I hate being a slow skiier. But it was lots of fun, and I went down every hill possible. Even Double Doodle (that "double-diamond" run), which I didn't think was so hard.
Lots of fun, most of the day, yes, but there was a negative attribute. Jenna (Jenna Wheat, Mr. Wheat's daughter, a girl in my grade), well, she IS a fun and nice person, but she's been really ticked at this girl all week, and she said she was going to try and just ignore it, but now she was, because she didn't wait for her at the lift after she (Jenna) had just waited for [Cami] quite a while. And then on the NEXT time up the lift she was complaining about random strangers on the hill that were upsetting her. Anyway, she wouldn't talk to Cami, and she didn't want to do the runs they were doing, but I did, and she expected me to leave them to make her happy. That also made me feel like since she was mad at Cami (and sort of the other three, just for not waiting when she was really far behind). She probably got mad at me, too. I just didn't want HER problems to interfere with ME having fun and doing the hills I wanted to (and having a fun day), as selfish as that may sound.
cheerfulSunday, February 15, 2004
8:02PM - In a nutshull - the past week
Yes, I'm sorry for not posting in so long. So long, I realize, that I didn't even say we had a snow day last friday (we did). This past week went by quickly, but in a slow way. People in general are still idiots. At least, that is, Aaron is. Mandy noted that we fight like a brother and a sister, but I responded with a remark about how "my brother and I are worse" or something like that. But Aaron really bugs me. I can hardly stand him. But at least it's not just ME he treats that way.
Dad's in South Carolina. He left this morning to drive to G.B. to the airport at three (or was it four?) in the morning. He's down there because my grandmother, well, Grandpa, too, aren't doing so well, and Aunt Pat needs a break because her health isn't so great right now, either.
We had a 4-H meeting today, and since Mom was taking Becky down to where her ride is meeting her to take her back to school, so I had to do the cloverbud project, which was simple enough but I didn't want. But, thankfully, Linnea went back with me. Tee-hee, that was fun, especially afterward when some little boy's dad taught the rest of the little kids how to play Hangman, and Linnea and I had no idea.... Yes, it was most interesting ...
It's too bad I'm still having so many problems at school ... otherwise, things are going fairly well, I suppose. Well, maybe not, but that's another story, for another day, perhaps.
gigglySaturday, February 7, 2004
12:58PM
Tee-hee, that's interesting. Although, I just through in a random song that I like, because I don't have a favorite one.
hungryTuesday, February 3, 2004
9:09PM
"Hey Dave, who do you think is the hottest guy in our class?"
What kind of question is that to ask a guy? But it's funny how that since everybody knows what his first reply would be, they added "besides you." It's absolutely insane, but it was rather humorous, I suppose.
amusedMonday, February 2, 2004
9:57PM
I think I'm doomed to a life of loneliness, and with absolutely no friends at all. That's my fate, isn't it?
depressedSunday, February 1, 2004
9:50PM
Oh, yes, I forgot to mention yesterday that my GPA is a 3.88. I was so excited when I saw that! Aaron asked me what I got, and so I told him, and was like "I hate you. You suck." But that's just because he's JEALOUS! :-D Tee-hee, I feel so smart, though.
Although . . . I'm rather worried about my Enlish speech. I can only use an outline, on one side of three note cards on it, too. *trembles* I am so not prepared for it. Or ready. Maybe I just won't give it. No, I do not think I will. I will tell Ms. Spetz tommorrow, "I'm not giving my speech on Wednesday," since I've been joking about it since we got the assignment. Oh well.
Saturday, January 31, 2004
5:07PM
a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 5’4”, I think, but it might be an inch or two shorter.
HAIR COLOR: Light brown (my natural color; I’ve never dyed it, but I want to get it highlighted someday)
SKIN COLOR: White-ish, I guess; it’s been much too cold lately up here.
EYE COLOR: Brown
PIERCINGS: Both ears pierced once, and when I’m eighteen (Mom and Dad say I have to wait until then) I want them pierced a second time.
TATTOOS: Never have, never will
r i g h t - n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: Light blue, stripey-ish jeans
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: Nothing
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: Nothing
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: Very cold. Too cold, if you ask me.
HOW ARE YOU? Dizzy.
d o - y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: Sometimes.
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: Several
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: I try to.
LIKE TO DRIVE?: I can’t, because I don’t get to even have driver’s ed until next school year.
f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: American Idol, Everwood, sometimes 7th Heaven
CONDITIONER: It varies, so I’m not sure
MAGAZINE: Guideposts for Teens
SODA: Depends on my mood. Possibly Cherry Pepsi.
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Something without alcohol
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: None, I don’t drink
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: I do homework, and that’s it, because I don’t have a life.
RAPPER: None, really, unless if you count Toby Mac, which you could, I guess.
h a v e - y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: Not that I know of. *commits random illegal act*
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: Nope.
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: Nope
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: No, and I don’t plan to.
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: No, but I’ve heard other people’s fun stories of their prank calling.
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: Not that I know of!
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: Only when they use it FOR me.
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: When I’m sick!
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: No, but I’ve been close to it.
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: The school musical, actually.
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: I would let a friend cry on my shoulder if they needed one to cry one, but nobody ever has, unless if you count when Sam (a girl, mind you) gave me a hug when Curt died.
l o v e
BOYFRIEND: No, unfortunately.
GIRLFRIEND: NO.
SEXUALITY: Strait
CURRENT CRUSH: ***** ****** (You shan’t know the name!)
CHILDREN: None, but I will when I get married.
BEEN IN LOVE?: No, not really.
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: No, because I don’t have anybody to get over.
BEEN HURT?: Depends on what way.
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: A long, long list.
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR 3 DAYS: No
r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: No, but I babysit now, as of last week!
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: Avril Lavigne – “Let Go”
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: This question doesn’t make much sense. I don’t know. Perhaps Bittersweet?
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: Hugs. Music. Other things. When people smile and/or talk to me.
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: I don’t know. Happy, encouraging people.
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: Hopefully Evanescence’s CD, called “Fallen,” I think, but I don’t know for sure
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: Rachel. Nobody else, currently.
w h e n / w h a t - w a s - t h e - l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: Yesterday
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: A year or two ago.
YOU GOT E-MAIL: From a real person or junk mail or subscription? Junk mail? Probably a couple minutes ago.
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: Does watching “Star Wars: Attack of the Clones” on TV count?
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: Return of the King
y o u r - t h o u g h t s - o n
ABORTION: EVIL. Never, NEVER an “okay” time for it.
TEENAGE SMOKING: Very, very bad. EVERYONE who smokes should stop, because they’re throwing precious time in their lives away.
4:38PM
Oh, yes, I forgot; I want to re-do my journal. I added a header/banner thing, but I want something different . . . *Sniff* I don't even remember how to change the background image! My GOODNESS, I'm a completely hopeless case! *Sob* Any help *coughcoughhelpmechangethewholethingcoug
dizzy3:42PM
This week was . . . weird, in an odd sense. We had a snow day on Tuesday, which was very nice and and very much appreciated. I expected to have to give my speech in English yesterday, but it won't be until Wednesday now, because something happens on Tuesday (Picking classes for next year, maybe? I don't remember, to be honest.), so, yes, I'm very happy now. And I'm encouraged; no matter how much my speech sucks, someone else's speech (take Jon's, for instance) will — or has — more. But I'm second to last, so that's nice, I suppose, because I got my wish of being one of the last to go.
I've been doing a lot of thinking, pondering, and trying to figure things, but I'm not really getting anywhere, except I've realized that part of why I have purely awful days is because I don't make a complete effort to make it a good day. But that doesn't explain why I am having such an extremely hard time getting to know people and why I don't have any friends or anybody to talk to.
The male species is stupid. Aaron is an idiot. He's one of the few boys who talks to me, but sometimes I wish he didn't. I mean, honestly, why does he have to come into Spanish (I sit next to him in Spanish) and as he sits he down, he gives this "scared" type of facial expression and backs away a ways. He's stupid, I tell you. I wasn't having a good day, then, anyway, and that didn't make it any better.
Claire was supposed to call me, too, but since she hasn't, so it doesn't look like I'm babysitting tonight, even though she TOLD me they'd probably need one for tonight. Even if she DOESN'T get home until after 5:00. She said she'd call sometime in the afternoon, but she hasn't. And my head hurts really bad, so I don't feel like it, although I should. Dang, but this isn't fair. Even though I have no life and never do anything, what if I was actually GOING to do something? Too bad for me, is that it?
sleepySaturday, January 24, 2004
9:19AM
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8:43AM
Next semester's schedule is as follows:
1st period: Study skills/Phy. Ed. (every other day)
2nd period: Survey of Social Studies
3rd period: Algebra 1
4th period: Design
5th period: Spanish 1
6th period: English 9
7th period: Environmental Science
8th period: Chorus
sleepyFriday, January 23, 2004
11:06PM
So tonight was my first night babysitting and being payed for it. And at someone else's house. From 5:30 to somewhere between 10:00 and 10:30 (closer to 10:00, I think), and I got thirty-three dollars. And I might be babysitting again for them next Saturday. Yippee! Money for me!
I feel really ticked off. I don't know what at I'm ticked off at, but I'm ticked off.
Tuesday, January 20, 2004
7:54PM
Exam schedule:
Wednesday: 1st hour: Health/Phy. Ed.; 3rd hour: Algebra; 5th hour: Spanish; 7th hour: English
Thursday: 2nd hour: Government; 4th hour: Environmental Science; 6th hour: Study hall; 8th hour: Chorus
I'm really, scared for my English exam. El examen en la clase de espanol will be muy facil. Most certainly. And tommorrow (Wednesday) will most certainly be the harder day. And it's open campus, too! Which means I can leave for lunch and study hall, so I'm leaving after science on thursday and won't have to come back until I'm-not-sure-when, but they're "double-periods!" I'm scared, none-the-less. *rips hair out*
stressedMonday, January 19, 2004
5:32PM
Chad (our dog) got hit by a car last night. Mom had been taking care of him (as usual), but before she put him back in the kennel and fed him, he ran away (not surprisingly; it happens quite regularly). Not long afterwards, we got a phone call from someone who has a dog that Chad “visits” when he gets loose; Chad was pretty much in front of their driveway, lying on the road. He was alive at that point, but he wouldn’t be for long, as we all knew. I stayed home with Nathan because he didn’t want to go with to the vet’s, knowing that he would most likely have to be put down, and Hannah went with Mom and Dad. Nathan went to his room, and I’m sure he was crying.
My whole life now, it seems, is filled with pain. Curt’s death in October. Aunt Pat’s recent awful health condition with pneumonia. Chad being run over (although it affected Hannah and Nathan much more than me, it seems like, even though I’m very sad about it myself). And, most effective on my own life, is my own bad habit, which I have purposely not told of to anyone (especially not people online); trichetelemania, or however it’s spelled. But it’s not just the big things, but also the little things, because they just keep adding up, building up, combining, growing to be such a problem that each day I find myself hoping “Please let this be a good day. Let somebody see me for who I am, not the girl they see outside.” I’m a mess, I know. I have some problems, I know. But I do my best to be a good person. I try to get along with everyone worth knowing (I’m not just saying the “stereotypical, movie-type ‘cool.’”), and I do my best to be a good student. But are people that ignorant, and that rude, that they let a girl sit there and wish she could curl up and cry? But they have no idea what I go through everyday. How difficult it is to see them standing around talking, joking, laughing and having a good time. It’s so extremely difficult, and I hate feeling like an outsider with no friends.
And that brings me to this; I’m a bad judge of character. Just HOW long did it take me to realize Barb wasn’t a good person, and that she’s not the type of person I want to be friends with? A month, maybe two.
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