Arrrrgh..!!!
I'm sick of thinking about that Hell Hole. Sick of it. I don't want to work there ever.
When I quit there, I intended for that to be it. It's been some kind of emotional Hell ever since Marlon left, which is something I can't go through. I'm not the type of person who can deal with being screamed at, or even just waiting for someone to criticise me. I just can't deal with it. Ok, it was never perfect when Marlon *was* working there - I can think of several occasions when he hurt me. And it was so much worse when he hurt me because I really cared what he said and did. But without him, it's so much worse. There is no protection from the managers at all.
The worst of it is, for whatever reason they have decided to keep putting me on the rotas. And I can't even think how I'll get out of this, because whenever there's a hint of someone quitting, they pretend to be nice. They are so two-faced it's unbelievable - and this just makes it so much harder to say no because, quite frankly, I have no spine. And yes, I am scared of them. I can't be in that sort of environment, it slowly chips away at my self esteem.
In other news, I'm sick to death of the so-called "friends" I have. There's this girl who is so blimmin' clingy, and if I'm honest, I can't stand her. But every single time she wants to go out (and if everyone else is busy) she texts to ask if I'll go. Apparently there was some Halloween thing on last night at her college, and my first thought was "Oh no..what excuse can I think up?" But then I realised - for the first time ever, I had a 100% valid and true REASON for not going out. I had a dentist appointment at 9:00 this morning, and so could not possibly go anywhere if there was to be any hope of me getting up. I texted her that and she didn't reply. So guess who's not getting a reply from me next time they want something!
Finally, the dentist. First time ever he said all my teeth were ok, with the exception of That Front One. But I only need one appointment. He was in a scarily good mood, considering it was Friday morning and he'd been looking at teeth all week. Anyways, he joked that it made a change for me to only need one appointment - in his words, last time I was there, he thought I'd "never stop coming back"! He's cool though..except for the fact that he's a dentist.
That's it for now. I'm glad I had somewhere to vent - all my anger has now been released!
When I quit there, I intended for that to be it. It's been some kind of emotional Hell ever since Marlon left, which is something I can't go through. I'm not the type of person who can deal with being screamed at, or even just waiting for someone to criticise me. I just can't deal with it. Ok, it was never perfect when Marlon *was* working there - I can think of several occasions when he hurt me. And it was so much worse when he hurt me because I really cared what he said and did. But without him, it's so much worse. There is no protection from the managers at all.
The worst of it is, for whatever reason they have decided to keep putting me on the rotas. And I can't even think how I'll get out of this, because whenever there's a hint of someone quitting, they pretend to be nice. They are so two-faced it's unbelievable - and this just makes it so much harder to say no because, quite frankly, I have no spine. And yes, I am scared of them. I can't be in that sort of environment, it slowly chips away at my self esteem.
In other news, I'm sick to death of the so-called "friends" I have. There's this girl who is so blimmin' clingy, and if I'm honest, I can't stand her. But every single time she wants to go out (and if everyone else is busy) she texts to ask if I'll go. Apparently there was some Halloween thing on last night at her college, and my first thought was "Oh no..what excuse can I think up?" But then I realised - for the first time ever, I had a 100% valid and true REASON for not going out. I had a dentist appointment at 9:00 this morning, and so could not possibly go anywhere if there was to be any hope of me getting up. I texted her that and she didn't reply. So guess who's not getting a reply from me next time they want something!
Finally, the dentist. First time ever he said all my teeth were ok, with the exception of That Front One. But I only need one appointment. He was in a scarily good mood, considering it was Friday morning and he'd been looking at teeth all week. Anyways, he joked that it made a change for me to only need one appointment - in his words, last time I was there, he thought I'd "never stop coming back"! He's cool though..except for the fact that he's a dentist.
That's it for now. I'm glad I had somewhere to vent - all my anger has now been released!