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In The End, It Doesn't Even Matter

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[Feb. 25th, 2005|05:48 pm]

In The End, It Doesn't Even Matter

[	Current Music	\|	Welcome To My Life - Simple Plan	]
[	Current Mood	\|	hah! me & jordyn dyed our hair	]

hmm, today was a normal day!! hmm, lets see, in PE i got hit in the face by a volleyball... it was painful, my eye wouldnt stop watering, but i wasnt crying cuz im a brave person :) then like when i was running to get the volleyball andrea accidently hit me with her nails and left a scratch on my hand, it hurt... lol... well then in science when we were watching a video i started freaking out cuz i realized that i left my glasses in the locker room... and some one could of took them cuz they were out in da open... so i like ran to mr hamblet and asked him and hes like yeah go, lol... but the only reason that i realized that my glasses were gone was when i was trying to look at someone... lol, yeah... hmm, right now i am over at my bestest friend jordyns house, we dyed our hair, it was fun!! my hair turned out redish color, its cool and jordyns is like a little lighter than her regular hair color... it looks awesome well im gonna go.. me & jordyn are iMING people - spikedred

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[Feb. 12th, 2005|05:34 pm]

In The End, It Doesn't Even Matter

[	Current Music	\|	none!!!!	]
[	Current Mood	\|	YAY!!!!!	]

me and jordyn are gonna create a band!! yay i am soo excited!!!

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[Feb. 12th, 2005|03:57 pm]

In The End, It Doesn't Even Matter

[	Current Music	\|	I dont Want To Be - Gavin DeGraw	]
[	Current Mood	\|	okay	]

I love This Song

Gavin DeGraw
I Dont Want To Be

I don’t need to be anything other than a prison guard’s son
I don’t need to be anything other than a specialist’s son
I don’t have to be anyone other than the birth of two souls in one
Part of where I’m going is knowing where I’m coming from

(Chorus)
I don’t want to be anything other than what I’ve been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I’m tired of looking ‘round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I’m supposed to be
I don’t want to be anything other than me

I’m surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I’m surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I’m surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice?
I can’t be the only one who’s learned

(Chorus)
I don’t want to be anything other than what I’ve been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I’m tired of looking ‘round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I’m supposed to be
I don’t want to be anything other than me

Can I have everyone’s attention please
If you're not like this and that
You’re gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain, the crust of creation
My whole situation made from clay to stone
And now I’m telling everybody

(Chorus)
I don’t want to be anything other than what I’ve been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I’m tired of looking ‘round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I’m supposed to be
I don’t want to be anything other than me
I don’t want to be
I don’t want to be
I don’t want to be
I don’t want to be

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[Feb. 12th, 2005|03:46 pm]

In The End, It Doesn't Even Matter

[	Current Music	\|	On The Way Down (Acoustic Version) - Ryan Carbrera	]
[	Current Mood	\|	thankful	]

well now, we arent that mad at each other, which im glad about... its been a long time since weve had a fight!! but i hate fights.... but i dont know yet if everything is A-Okay she still talks to me somewhat so im guess everything is okay!!! well im glad ttyl

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[Feb. 12th, 2005|02:01 pm]

In The End, It Doesn't Even Matter

[	Current Music	\|	none at the moment	]
[	Current Mood	\|	so so so mad!!!!!	]

okay right now, kasey is acting like a real loser.... okay last nite she went to nicoles and emily w. was there, talkin about me.... and thats what bugs me... emily knows that i despise her, and she doesnt know why, and kasey all of the sudden is all like why do you hate emily... and shes all takin emilys side and im like OMG, cuz im her best friend and she goes and tries to get the facts.... i have my reasons not to like emily w. ... and if shes gonna force me to tell her that hecks no i will not tell her anything.... i know like a lot of people that dont like her... i try not to be mean to people i dont like, but kasey is just makin me even madder..... then its just soo frustrating cuz people dont need to be forcing me to tell them anything i can tell them when i wanna..... and this is my decision i know that only a few people know how much i dont like her but i do not wanna turn this into a fight.. cuz thats the last thing i ever wanna do...so right now im trying to solve how to fix this all, but just cuz im tryin to fix everything doesnt mean i will like emily w. so im gonna go now if you have any opinions go ahead and post a comment i would appreciate help. thanx - spiked red

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long story..... about random stuff

[Feb. 11th, 2005|07:14 pm]

In The End, It Doesn't Even Matter

[	Current Mood	\|	boo ya!!!!	]
[	Current Music	\|	Crazy - Simple Plan	]

well right now im just changin around my livejournal!! i saw my mom today, it was cool!!! its been like almost a month now, at least she keeps in touch... lol, well today was a good day!!! lemme think 1&2 period were sorta boring, and then in 3rd period was fitness room, and that was fun!!! and in 4th period i drew mr hamblet a masterpiece by me, it was a bunch a scribbles, and watched bill nye.. then 5th period, man i really didnt wanna be in there for some reason, i didnt feel like i belong, i guess i dont really belong to alot... im just one of those people that are like well whatever if they dont like me great if they like YAY, if they hate me thats nice, i just go with the flow cuz its my life ya only live once, thats why half the time im not afraid to do somethin.... now that brings back good AWESOME memories, cuz i spent the nite at kaseys one day and we went to wildcat lake and on our way back i saw this path that lead to a cabin on someones property and the people that own it were there for once soo like what i did was i ran through the path when they werent lookin and then as soon as they turned around i was running out to leave by using the other path and they saw me and yelled so i hid behind their truck and they were lookin for me and like rite before they looked at the other side of the truck (where i was) i ran out down to the path and met back up with kasey and told her about my fun journey, so i just think that everyone should do what they can, cuz eventually, you'll be told old or more paranoid or afraid, i dunno why i used the paranoid i just like that word... and i just do whatever i wanna do, cuz if i didnt then i would be following to many rules, like whenever i sit on the science tables instead of my chair in science (which is like everyday) mr hamblet has to tell me to get off everytime... its fun/funny cuz i have actually gotten to the point that he has been like if you dont get down by the time i get to three you haveta go see mr schmidt so of course i got down.. but yeah.... 6th period was okay, emily w. bothered the crap CRAP outta me cuz she sat on my desk and im like..... okay, and she tried flirting with neil which i thought was sorta funny.... lol i just hope neil doesnt like her cuz that would just be freaky cuz emily is freaky... then i got home and relaxed, like the laid-back person i am... and yeah, im not tired for once, which is like rare!! well i am gonna go - liz

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[Feb. 11th, 2005|03:16 pm]

In The End, It Doesn't Even Matter

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Smile! says:
you know, i just think you should know for sure before giving up hope
Smile! says:
don't get too worked up and get you hopes up or anything, just try and be sur
SpiKeDReD says:
but im just afraid too tell him!!!!!!!!
Smile! says:
what'd you put on the second rose to him?
SpiKeDReD says:
------------------------ (im not gonna type it on livejournal)
Smile! says:
well, go up to him tuesday and ask him if he thinks you're and ----------- (cant type that in either) or something
SpiKeDReD says:
lol...??
Smile! says:
lol
SpiKeDReD says:
but that would be......weird
Smile! says:
i know
SpiKeDReD says:
i dunno ..should i tell him on monday?

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[Feb. 11th, 2005|03:03 pm]

In The End, It Doesn't Even Matter

[	Current Music	\|	Twenty Three - Yellowcard	]
[	Current Mood	\|	i feel i dunno	]

soo much for plan, trying to avoid the guy i like, its impossible for me... i can NEVER stay mad at anyone, and whenever anyone is mad at me i like literally find a way to get them to forgive me.. im just like that, he probably just wants to be friends with me, im okay with that, but it would just make me feel weird... and yeah, i hate that feeling... i dont know if i should tell him cuz i dont think he'd care... but i could be makin a mistake, and plus i am a wimp when it comes to tellin guys that i like them.... soo i usually just keep it a secret. well i g2g, spikedred... ohh and plus i think that person already knows i like him soo i truly dont see the point in tellin him.... and maybe i should like guys in my grade, i just dunno?!??!?!?!?!

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[Feb. 11th, 2005|05:15 am]

In The End, It Doesn't Even Matter

[	Current Music	\|	Forgotten - Linkin Park	]
[	Current Mood	\|	uncomfortable	]

hmm, not much too say, but i am just glad its friday... i kinda dont wanna go to school, but i haveta. i finished all my homework last night, and then i went to sleep cuz i was sooo tired for some reason.. but whatever.i just cant wait to get this day over with, so i can have a good weekend... my muscles are still sore!!!! i hate it too... it bugs me.. today we have the fitness room again for PE and i am glad cuz i like the fitness room it is fun.. but the only thing that sucks is my arms, cuz i feel like they are about to fall off... well yesterday, my friend, jordyn, got sick so i got to walk her down to the attendance office.. i hate going to the library!!! because i dont like the librarians, they are soo annoying, cuz i remember like i think a few weeks ago, i was getting something from my backpack [it was on the table] and mrs. clouser was all like dont go to sleep!!!!! and i was like, im not im getting a book outta my backpack..... she is so annoying!!!! but anyways, i hope today doesnt turn out crappy, it better not... lol yesterday in the morning was funny, cuz me and nicole were waiting for jeff, and when he walked inside we were all like heres this picture of amber, lol it was funny cuz he had a huge smile on his face.. cuz he likes amber... same with amber, she likes him, but yeah it was just funny.. well i would write more funny stories but i g2g ttyl [spikedRed]

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[Feb. 10th, 2005|03:37 pm]

In The End, It Doesn't Even Matter

[	Current Mood	\|	sad	]
[	Current Music	\|	In The End - Linkin Park	]

im sorta sad, sorta happy, and sorta relieved, cuz i finally found out the truth or at least i hope i did, and now im just gonna move on, i am not sure though if im gonna be able to look at him in the eyes ever again though.... im gonna try and avoid him tomorrow... but thats gonna be hard cuz i sit next to him... well i am sad cuz of that, im sorta happy, cuz then i know the truth and i can move on with my freakin life, thanx goodnessm and sorta relieved cuz now i know, and i dont haveta keep wonderin.... so yeah, i feel sad the most though but hey theres probably better guys out there besides him...

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