I worry about you with your attempts to lose weight, and your constant hunger.  I worry about you when you alternate between “Yay!  I’m losing weight!” and “New all-time high.  This needs to stop” in the space of a few weeks.  I especially worried about you when you said that thinking about your weight makes you lose your appetite.

There are a lot of things I want to tell you, but I don’t want to be rude, or pry too much into what you’re doing, or lecture you on things you already know.  For the sake of my brain, here is what I wish I could say:

If you’re concerned about your health, your weight is not what matters.  Excercise and good nutrition are good for you whether they’re changing your weight or not.  Please feel good about yourself for the good things you’re doing (excercising regularly takes a lot of determination!) rather than feeling bad because you still haven’t lost weight.

It is normal for your weight to fluctuate from day to day by 5 pounds or so, depending on what you’ve eaten/drunk before you weigh yourself, what clothes you’re wearing, how precise your scale is, etc.  Don’t worry too much about small, short-term changes.  (I admit to having a possibly-unjustified distrust for scales that I haven’t calibrated.  Scratch that, that’s not what I actually mean.  I have no idea whether bathroom scales are usually accurate, meaning whether they’d say exactly 50 pounds if you put a 50 pound weight on them.  My concern is, I’ve used some that were not very precise at all, meaning you could put something that weighs exactly the same on the scale three times and get three different numbers.  End science terminology pedantry.)

I don’t know exactly how much this applies to you, but it is normal for me, at least, for my waist size to fluctuate a bit too, depending on how much I’ve eaten, and my hormones, and how my digestive system is doing.  Having your belt suddenly be too tight is depressing (not to mention physically uncomfortable) but again, the “suddenly” means it’s probably not caused by a fundamental change in your weight.

Maybe it’s unreasonable of me to worry this much, but I do.  I worry that you’re going to mess yourself up by going on a diet that doesn’t give you enough food.  And I worry that, even if you’re physically okay, you’re going around feeling bad about yourself because of your weight.  You are an awesome (and good-looking!) person.  Please be kind to yourself.