Post called on account of movie

I saw SWTFA tonight! Some very quick thoughts.

I really really understand why people ship Poe and Finn.

I sorta understand why people ship Rey and Finn, he definitely has the shinies for her but she didn’t seem to me to have the same kind of feelings about him.

Just on a “chemistry” level I really just don’t see why people ship Rey and Kylo Ren. Like, people told me that the scene where he interrogates her was either sexy or creepy, and to me it was neither? Like, the “I can take whatever I want” line, or whatever it was, taken by itself does sound creepy and sexual, I was totally on board with that until I actually heard Adam Driver say it. He really convinced me that Kylo Ren has zero thoughts in his head besides Darth Vader’s legacy and zero interest in Rey besides the information she knows.

A note to me, to write more later about Rey and independence and defining your own right way of doing things.

I don’t know what I’ve been doing wrong lately, but there must be something, bcaus my brain is reallymush right now.

News of the day. One of my favorite authors is posting a new big fic and… it’s really dark? And I’m now questioning exactly what makes me view some stories about sad people as Fundamentally Dark And Scary and others as heatwarming, because it’s apparently not any of the obvious things.

I forget why I was thinking about this

I must have ran across a post somewhere on Tumblr that asked something about “having meltdowns in public”.

Anyway, I thought to myself, Have I ever had a public meltdown? and What counts as public?

Because if public means “in a situation where people (other than maybe your close friends or family) saw it happen,” then the answer is basically never. Not since I was a small small child, of an age where having “tantrums” in public is unremarkable behavior.

But.

Does “in my car in a parking lot” count as public?

Does “in a public bathroom but it was empty and then I composed myself and washed my face” count?

because there have been a few of those, yeah.

Hands

I do the “raptor hands” thing pretty often, but– I think— it’s an acquired habit? I do it when my hands are dirty, to remind myself not to touch things. I think I started doing it in chemistry labs while wearing gloves. I have a couple of other “I’m wearing gloves and my gloves are dirty”-specific poses, too. One of the professors I TA’d for used to joke about me standing at attention in the lab.

The weird things I do with my hands unconsciously are mostly more pressure-y, like clasping my hands tight, or crossing my arms, or pinching my fingers together.

I shouldn’t be surprised

Turns out it still Really Bugs Me when people call Breq a female character. Yes, it would probably make misogynists mad if Ancillary Justice was made into a movie, but no, the main cast is not all women. They are all genderless.

Extra fun bonus: on re-reading, because Tumblr’s suggested post feature is really annoying, the post that prompted this actually didn’t say that the whole main cast is women. So they’re probably basing it not on (more understandable IMO) translation confusion because everyone is called “she”, but on the fact that that one character from a culture that does have gender, still calls Breq she, and people conclude things about Breq’s body from this. We don’t know anything about the plumbing of any of the other Radchaai characters. So. Yeah.