Brain mush

Last night Sparkly somehow pulled a muscle in eir back while asleep, so when I woke up from a really weird dream at 5 AM, ey asked me to rub eir back.

tl;dr: Slept weird, brain mush.

I did get some work done today, though. And I Responded to a Message on Tumblr and sent an email to my parents. Tomorrow probably groceries.

It’s amazing just how effective music is at keeping me going. I got a lot of proofreading/formatting done today that way.

Today we went to the zoo

and caught many pokemon and also saw many cool animals. We went to the Amazon river exhibit which we hadn’t seen before, and

(1) Arapaimas are amazing

(2) They had birds in completely open areas, with nothing separating them from the people-areas, and the birds would come right up to you and stare at you and nibble your fingers if you let them, and then the zookeepers would scold you for letting the bird nibble your fingers. I can’t help but feel like this is an inefficient way to do things.

My apartment is so clean,

it’s so clean and also I got lots of work done today, and also I cooked a new thing!

I cleaned the gross grimy light switches and I cleaned the kitchen counters and the stovetop and the sink, and Sparkly emptied the dishwasher, rinsed plates, and loaded it again. Also I took about the trash and recycling, and swept/vacuumed the bathroom, entryway and kitchen (Sparkly vacuumed all the carpeted/rug’d areas a few days ago.)

So! Clean!

Tomorrow I’m going to take pictures of the Clean and probably post them on Facebook or something IDK.

Re: the split attraction model

and my coming-out experiences in general.

So one of the main criticisms of the split attraction model that I’ve seen, is that it fits into & enables pressure on lesbians to remain “available to men” in some way. Like, that women who are questioning their sexuality may find it less scary (or may be actively pressured by people around them) to ID as something like “lesbian but biromantic” or “bisexual but only romantically attracted to women”, to sort of keep a toehold in Normal Heterosexuality.

In this post I explained that I kind of felt the opposite.

Today’s topic is, why did I not feel that way?

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Sparkly and I went out to dinner

to celebrate em taking the bar exam. It was delicious (and we had a really good conversation about the books ey’s been reading) but then we had to run to the bus stop in a thunderstorm, and it was COLD. Why is it allowed to be cold in July here. Why couldn’t it have been cold at some other time besides when I was waiting for a bus outside soaking wet.

I’m warm and dry now, but I just want to curl up in a ball and go to sleep, because Cold and Tired.

Things about my typing style

which I’m thinking about because I think a lot of people have very distinct “voices” even in writing.

I’ve been thinking a lot about trolling and anonymous messages lately, so this post is sort of groundwork for my theory that you can’t actually send an anonymous message to someone who already knows you, even if it’s technically anonymous in the sense of not being attributed to your username.

  • Uses lots of dashes and makes them by using two “minus sign”/”n dash” characters instead of one (–)
  • Sometimes uses ampersand in place of “and” but mostly doesn’t use text-speak/chat-speak abbreviations:
    • Puts the apostrophes in “can’t” “won’t” etc.
    • Doesn’t use “u”/”ur” for “you”/”your”
    • Sometimes uses “ppl” for “people”, “bc” for “because”
    • Doesn’t use emojis in the sense of single-character icon things like 😎 (because you have to go way out of your way to use those on a computer)
    • Uses a limited set of things like “:)” and “:D”
  • Uses “w/” for “with” which is an oooold abbreviation and not internet-speak
  • Uses “etc.” a lot
  • Starts a lot of sentences with conjunctions (but, and, so) and other fillers like “tbh”
  • Sometimes writes in all lowercase
  • Sometimes uses line breaks in place of/in addition to punctuation to break up sentences

On Tumblr I also have a habit of starting messages with “About (topic of post you reblogged recently)…” to make it clear what I’m referring to.

And I’m sure there are a million less concrete things, that I don’t even notice myself.

Grammar and sentence structure things that I’m not really sure how to describe.

Regional/dialect things that aren’t distinctive to you specifically, but still distinguish you from other people who aren’t from your area.

Distinctive spellings, distinctive word choices. The only one I can think of for myself is the word “judgement”, which is a valid alternative spelling, I’ve looked it up, but the standard spelling doesn’t have the first E.

If you can think of others, please comment!

Thank you

to whoever made this post show up in my site statistics page, and thereby reminded me of it,

because that “feeling like people are constantly watching and judging me” thing actually happens a lot less now? It’s way outnumbered by “Fuck it, you are awesome and also nobody cares what your clothes look like.”

And I didn’t really notice this happening?

I’m surprised

(and I guess cautiously optimistic?) how much discussion of disability there’s been at the DNC. Not just re: healthcare, which I sort of expected, but also re: inclusion of children with disabilities in schools, which I feel like is a relatively obscure issue for people who aren’t personally affected by it.

It was also cool to see Anastasia Somoza call out Trump’s claim to be the people’s voice. I’m glad I’m not the only one who noticed that part of his speech.