Posting on the eve of my journal's creation XD

last time I checked my last entry here is two years ago commemorating my blog's decade-long...existence.Today it turned 12. Things in a nutshell:

- i hardly LJ as I hardly write/draw for fandoms anymore. Such is adulthood. still in the same job since 2007 :/
- you can find me in facebook.com/retrobutter (medith tansingco) and in tumblr/lunarlumina. I also have twitter which I sometimes check twitter.com/utentsu
- pls pm me if you add me in facebook, most likely i will remember you. I just need refreshing XD
- MCU still owns my soul and I blame it on Tom Hiddleston.
- I am disappointed at the end of the hobbit triology (the death scenes, really?!)

I went through my profile sometime ago (not that long ago, I'm aware my last update was of last year >_>) and well
THIS BLOG IS NOW A DECADE OLD

March 24, 2003 - March 24, 2013

I remember joining this during its beta stage, where I was still in the Zoids fandom (requested from one of my friends on that fandom to lend me a spare code) and for Zoids, I forgot to post that its been a decade too, last year at least. I remember I don't know what to make of this blog and I was told I can just post about anything.

And anything indeed.

(Also, I still remember my first post here, it's for my original comic 'Remain' which is....wow, been a decade too and its only until now I figured how to rewrite the genius original fiction of mine.)

tumblr makes it easier?
although the organization and alert system is still derp.

greetings livejournalians, i came back to update a comm on an event so yeah.../back to lurking

updates so far for 2012:
- i have been to STGCC and went as the GOM, now scratching that from my bucket list (to attend a con in singapore)
- so much boners for mr. thomas william hiddleston
- tom hiddleston. why.
- hetalia day 2012

which reminds me, time to summon the mods of the years long gone past since---i need an update on the group tags XD

(also im very alive in tumblr to those interested: http://lunarlumina.tumblr.com)

im curious.

Last year I made an articulate post of my year-ender. Not anymore!
Have a bullet form instead, im lazy as butts and still have jetlag.
Omg my active year ever.

January - May 2011

- Still working and inspired with That Project, interacting mainly with the hetakids and having articulate discussions (what happened). Constantly getting intimidated by the fact my creativity is not going on schedule and thus my constant midnight snacking binges made all the weight I lost for last year's January wedding inevitably moot. I GAINED MORE THAN 10 POUNDS.

- Hetalia Day discussions starting as early as March

- Creative breakdowns which leads to mini-hiatus in projects.

- Made a stupid, impromptu decision to dress up as april fool's england/arthur kirkland....he is wearing a short pink nurse outfit. This is a bad decision made on my lack of sleep due to lack of weekends, but is proven helpful selling the last batches of 2011 hetalia calendar. There is a batch of lovely kids in hetalia cosplay that recognized me and I was constantly huggled, groped and asked why my skirt is so short (thank god for stockings and thank god for nice legs).

- I was mistaken as a beautiful man in that outfit. Made me realize it was so derp that I need to drop weight. Enrolled in gym after spending the holy week holidays in subic. In-between, we formed an Austrian Succession cosplay group (yeah hetalia again), took us awhile to have  Prussia/Gilbert and discussed about finalizing plan for May.


The competition was in June 8|

June - October 2011

- Toycon being an amazing first to everyone else: amazing migraines dealing with organizers, amazing tailors from hell, amazing last minute rule change equivalent of last minute props change, the stress with how the scene in cosplay is far cry from years before that is making an oba saan like me want to finally step down and quit. It's also amazing first for our 'babies', who are yet to experience quality team work and performing live onstage.

- This calls for the rest of the fans for a performance repeat on the still-on the works hetalia day 2011. The skit didn't happen due to personal reasons. Headache from organizing is starting and this continues until shortly before hetalia day itself, I can't believe how some douchebags could even exist.

- My meltdowns are starting to show.

- Plans of joining an original fashion contest photoshoot and a video skit contest. The video skit didn't happen but the original fashion photoshoot pushed through which leads me to make a comment about derpy beards, fabulous blond hair and then Tiger & Bunny, a fandom that have been rubbing it's ass cheek on my face for sometime now. We are really just meh about it in the beginning until Barnaby in speedo happened and so is bromance.

- Suddenly near-dead tumblrs are ressurected. Suddenly cosplay plans are formed. More photoshoots happened, joined more contests, show up in costrips.

- Desperation to order online merchandise leading to resourcefulness of contacts.

- With my past experiences in photoshoots and cosplay, my diva tendencies are showing in a bad way which leads to more meltdowns.

- I'm attracting more creepers :|

November - December 2011

- Desperation to order online merchandise leads to actually trying our dibs on setting up a booth in the annual up ame event. Never would we do that again. Reached my final breaking point.

- Considered dropping cosplay plans or any form of cosplay participation for next year.

- Even considered dropping projects.

- BUT MY DREAM CAME TRUE AND HAD A SINGAPORE VACATION, MET a_songfor_xx AFTER AGES AND I GET TO SEE KINOKUNIYA AND DO FANNISH THINGS BEFORE THE YEAR ENDED.

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2012 will be my bitch. I dunno how, but I will make it a...

liberating experience.

some people won't tell me im already hurting them, because it make them weak to admit so.

After long period of absences this bitch needs a little updating, maybe a little E.O.Y thing I guess..

Project wise

Pretty much constant revision that in the end, late 2011 deadline is not feasible enough (its moved next year. if there would be a next year... /endoftheworldconspiracymuchshot). Most of the blame lays to me because I'm an incredibly slow writer, my muse cannot move on schedules thus my 'distractions' I constantly lack sleep, I over think a lot of things and I disappoint people. I wish I can be those writers who can churn out 15-minutes incredibly-well worded stories to the amusement of everyone but I'm not. My grammar is bad too. I sometimes wonder why people find my crap good when I butcher languages.

Uh...

But you know what they say, better late than never.

Physical and style wise

My hair have seen a lot of changes. More like, from reverse mullet to dora to explorer to korean style and finally to strangely feminine layered look and it have grown to the length touching my shoulders, which to me is already...phenomenal. People have never seen me with hair long enough to be tied more or less cascading down and its starting to have strange waves and curls (which is odd for we never have curly/wavy hair genetics) and holy fuck its starting to resemble the locks of my favorite megane biseinen of the year.

Also I turned 30 this year, I now understand my sempais now. I have reached the age where my patience is wearing thin to anyone more than 5 years younger...

Fandom wise

...and just when I thought I would be done with hetalia there comes an unexpected another. The magical bromance of tiger and bunny.

this fandom made me:

- actually learn and have interest on wearing make-up, it started as a joke with someone that bearded older characters are better suited with her while I get the pretty tsundere ones and next thing you know we are watching the series and fanning hard.

- i start attracting the opposite sex with my bbjr cosplay. apparently this cosplay makes me look moe and feminine ajshd y >A> y

- fannish things like having sleep overs and joining contests.

- re-connect with old friends. influence old friends and younger colleagues. is this a bad thing.

- never have i blitz online merchandises through a friend. as of the end of 2011 I have a stack of source books from the series and a very expensive limited SH figuarts of BBjr.  oTL

- i get exceedingly yandere.

- i learn how to go around pixiv and save stacks of doujinshis i can never understand.

- is the sole reason why my tumblr is alive. 

I don't like it when people think they're ABOVE everyone because they don't have the issues other have. Everybody is flawed, admitting those flaws won't make you any less...human? Haha idk why I'm thinking about this. I'm listening to instrumental music 8|

Also can't wait, finally meeting up with a_songfor_xx after what seems to be almost a decade. Haha finally the stars have aligned to our favor. There would be pics! And shopping! Lots of it!

I need to start some room spring cleaning too. I need places for my things and...I would need to vacate a shelf for my T&B merchandise. goodness.

I have to post pics here sometime XD

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I ALSO TURNED 30 LAST WEEKEND.

fuck im old.

people will start finding flaws on my every move and will use my age as a reason. for those who don't know my age until now, im glad they thought im actually..uh...look younger.

my 10 year old self have imagined i would have long hair, married to a handsome fella and be rich. (even as a kid i always think of money)

my 20 year old self have imagined i would be living abroad, pregnant and married and looking middle-aged and homey with curly derpy hair. (my relatives have a habit of having their hair curled at a certain age so...)

now... although im not as accomplished as my younger selves have thought, i look younger than what i have thought before. lemao.


I think there should be a golden rule of not annoying the crap out of people in their birthday celebrations. Can people stoop any lower.

and i have the most horrendous writer's block...which is obvious because I haven't updated here for nearly a month already 8| mostly I have thought spits, which is evident with my spazz on tumblr.

(But I still have mixed feelings with the notification system.)

so far november is going on smoothly. sort of.

-fallenangelkat will be lurking due to blitzes. so i cannot troll around unless its something of sense, baaw :| also lol at her going tsun tsun / evident nii-san complex with this guy who portrayed a certain oyaji well.

- ..annd we have a booth in up ame, we tried selling shizz along with her friend and also marialuna13. It have the wtf effect for the male populace since we are selling ghei stuff and well my dignity for having them printed haha. long story.

- met crossesandguns again and krayonela at last :D

Now for my finances, that one is NOT going smoothly >_> it leaves my palm as fast as soon as I count it lol. Mostly because of bromantic merchandise OAO)u

gaddamnit fandom.

Also REALLY going out of the country this holidays. haha finally. it sucks to have noisy holidays here =u=

wow my last update is the 9th o_O also im not dead! I cant think of a very coherent update to post here, so I'm just blabbering micro-updates in my tumblr account!

but i guess im a bit coherent nao |D

So hmm whats up after the 9th...hmm, yep hetalia day 2011! It's the third year for the event! I went as mad hatter (non-canon) Arthur and sold some merch again...and I got lots of monies (which disappeared quickly due to surprise credit debt lol) and i was subbed for the 'ask-a-nation' panel since im the only male arthur there ( a lot of nyotalia this year :T) and...it's embarrassing lol oTL

collecting pics and updating more of this in my cosblog!

...i do have lots of blogs now that i realized it >>