Met up with Jenn today for dinner and we updated each other on our own lives. Usually we will talk about nonsensical stuff but today, I felt we had a more intimate talk. From talking about how we are like opposites to one another's personality (except that we are both emo person), how she and a certain person are actually similar, how my friend perceived her and etc...
While waiting for bus 174 to come, we somehow reached to the topic of her being anti-social and selectively social. She said she was born to be anti-social lol...And then I said I was born to be desperate to be accepted. And she agrees with me and said that it was obvious that I was trying too hard. I know she was referring to our poly days.
Then I recalled if it is true that I was a born desperate and I figured that I was. I don't know when I have this problem but it started from Pri 3, where I hung out with a bunch of girls and I lied to my parents that I had remedial lessons. We joined the choir and band, and we sneaked into the catholic church opposite our school. I wanted to belong in that group, so I lied to my mum so that I can hang out with them. But eventually I got caught and the friendship with the girls were gone as well.
Sec school was ok..but yes, I do admit that I tried to hang around the high-profile girls. But when I graduated from the school, I only have 2-3 friends that I still keep in touch.
It was during poly year 1 that I learnt a big lesson. I was yet again trying too hard to mix with a bunch of classmates and I ended up not just being ridiculed by them, but I was outcasted by the whole class. Jenn was in another group and yes, she disliked me at first. But this episode taught me a lesson and forced the independence in me. I became a loner, did my projects with a bunch of retained students, watched movies alone. My poly life became better after I joined NWP and met my ex-bf and a gang of seniors. That's when I felt I belonged. But it was short-lived because we eventually have to graduate from the school. As for my classmates, after I stopped trying, the class accepted me again and I continued to hang out with that same group that outcasted me. Jenn also became closer to me too.
It is in my nature to feel the need to be belonged. But somehow after that episode in life, I become a loner. I don't have a clique of friends, but a scatter of friends here and there. Even if I hang out with a group of people, I feel I don't belong and I become lonely even when I'm surrounded by a group of people. I stopped trying too hard to fit in. Now, I feel it is fine if I don't fit in, I'm a lone individual anyway.
Now, although I don't call it a clique of friends, but I do have a regular group to hang out with. A mix of my colleagues, my close friend and any other friends they bring along. We just hang out and have fun and I just blend in with them. But in this mix, there are mini cliques which I don't belong and I don't need to. Cliques are not for me.
I love my independent spirit, but independence can equate to loneliness. Then again, that is a perspective issue, which depends on how I want to see it. How do I want to see it then? Hmmmm...
While waiting for bus 174 to come, we somehow reached to the topic of her being anti-social and selectively social. She said she was born to be anti-social lol...And then I said I was born to be desperate to be accepted. And she agrees with me and said that it was obvious that I was trying too hard. I know she was referring to our poly days.
Then I recalled if it is true that I was a born desperate and I figured that I was. I don't know when I have this problem but it started from Pri 3, where I hung out with a bunch of girls and I lied to my parents that I had remedial lessons. We joined the choir and band, and we sneaked into the catholic church opposite our school. I wanted to belong in that group, so I lied to my mum so that I can hang out with them. But eventually I got caught and the friendship with the girls were gone as well.
Sec school was ok..but yes, I do admit that I tried to hang around the high-profile girls. But when I graduated from the school, I only have 2-3 friends that I still keep in touch.
It was during poly year 1 that I learnt a big lesson. I was yet again trying too hard to mix with a bunch of classmates and I ended up not just being ridiculed by them, but I was outcasted by the whole class. Jenn was in another group and yes, she disliked me at first. But this episode taught me a lesson and forced the independence in me. I became a loner, did my projects with a bunch of retained students, watched movies alone. My poly life became better after I joined NWP and met my ex-bf and a gang of seniors. That's when I felt I belonged. But it was short-lived because we eventually have to graduate from the school. As for my classmates, after I stopped trying, the class accepted me again and I continued to hang out with that same group that outcasted me. Jenn also became closer to me too.
It is in my nature to feel the need to be belonged. But somehow after that episode in life, I become a loner. I don't have a clique of friends, but a scatter of friends here and there. Even if I hang out with a group of people, I feel I don't belong and I become lonely even when I'm surrounded by a group of people. I stopped trying too hard to fit in. Now, I feel it is fine if I don't fit in, I'm a lone individual anyway.
Now, although I don't call it a clique of friends, but I do have a regular group to hang out with. A mix of my colleagues, my close friend and any other friends they bring along. We just hang out and have fun and I just blend in with them. But in this mix, there are mini cliques which I don't belong and I don't need to. Cliques are not for me.
I love my independent spirit, but independence can equate to loneliness. Then again, that is a perspective issue, which depends on how I want to see it. How do I want to see it then? Hmmmm...
- Current Mood:
thoughtful - Current Music:Coffee Prince OST
Haven't been blogging for days now..quite tired after coming home at 10-11pm during weekdays.
And I developed a cough since last week..gotten worse this week so I was feeling too lethargic today and decides to leave office early to rest. So much for rest...it's 11pm and I'm still online lol...
Going for 10km run this Sunday! Can't wait to see how I fare for this run. I've been running occasionally during weekends but I do not know how far I have run around my neighbourhood. Well, from my house to the canal beside JE swimming complex and then back...I'm not sure how far that is..but it is definitely not 10km haha...I hope I can complete 10km though, it would be a good achievement to end 2009~
I am mentally and physically tired these days. Haven't have a proper rest cos it's either work or I'll be out somewhere to spend my time away. Mentally, it's either work or lots of nonsensical stuff that just helps to make my brain cells active that's all. Well, I managed to convince the girls to leave me out for their Halloween party this weekend (also because I have the run on Sunday thus I have a perfect excuse) so I can get some rest.
I have a friend who describes me as 'rational', 'happy go lucky' and 'lonely'. For a person who just knew me not long ago, that was quite a good observation. I'm not sure about the happy go lucky part but well, my friend hasn't seen me emo yet hahah..
And I know I have to go back to the temple...I'm starting to hate and hate is the worst thing I'm allowing myself to suffer.
And I developed a cough since last week..gotten worse this week so I was feeling too lethargic today and decides to leave office early to rest. So much for rest...it's 11pm and I'm still online lol...
Going for 10km run this Sunday! Can't wait to see how I fare for this run. I've been running occasionally during weekends but I do not know how far I have run around my neighbourhood. Well, from my house to the canal beside JE swimming complex and then back...I'm not sure how far that is..but it is definitely not 10km haha...I hope I can complete 10km though, it would be a good achievement to end 2009~
I am mentally and physically tired these days. Haven't have a proper rest cos it's either work or I'll be out somewhere to spend my time away. Mentally, it's either work or lots of nonsensical stuff that just helps to make my brain cells active that's all. Well, I managed to convince the girls to leave me out for their Halloween party this weekend (also because I have the run on Sunday thus I have a perfect excuse) so I can get some rest.
I have a friend who describes me as 'rational', 'happy go lucky' and 'lonely'. For a person who just knew me not long ago, that was quite a good observation. I'm not sure about the happy go lucky part but well, my friend hasn't seen me emo yet hahah..
And I know I have to go back to the temple...I'm starting to hate and hate is the worst thing I'm allowing myself to suffer.
I finally caught the movie yesterday. And I must say, it is a great film and I believe everyone should watch it. From the start, the narrator said that this is not a love story. And it isn't. The whole point of the story is not about the love between Tom and Summer, but the lessons both learnt after being together and breaking up.
Tom is the helpless romantic who believes in that one true love. Summer however never believes in love and is somewhat a commitment phobic. Tom believes Summer is the One, Summer on the other hand wanted something casual with Tom. They had many happy times together. And just suddenly, Summer decided to end the r/ship. Tom of course, couldn't handle it. He believes he has lost that one true love.
I'm not going to tell the full story here 'cos I'm just going to spoil it for those who haven't caught it yet. The movie leaves quite an impact to me. It gets painful to watch near the end and I got emotional. There were two lines that Summer said to Tom at the end, and those 2 lines were pretty painful and real.
Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew.
Tom: Knew what?
Summer: What I was never sure of with you.
Summer: You weren't wrong, Tom. You were just wrong about me.
This movie is realistic, raw and real. It shows you the side of love that you don't get to see in romantic comedies and love of the century kind of movies.
But different people had different impressions of the movie. For those who were a receiver of a breakup, they feel and understand the pain that Tom had to go through. For those who has a commitment phobic partner, they fear the pain that they may end up having. For those who are the commitment phobic, they may learn that it is about finding the right person. And for those who never have a r/ship before, they simply take it like a lesson, but they can't feel the impact of the movie.
Who am I then? I was Tom. The things that he gone through was what I've gone through for these few months. Perhaps it was still raw in my mind that's why I got emotional at the end. There were times recently where I questioned the meaning of love and having relationships. I started to think that love perhaps is all but an illusion and the reason why people got together was just for companionship. And how do you know if the person is the right one for you. I have many jaded questions that were unanswered because this is no right or wrong answer. It is a matter of our own beliefs.
But like Tom, the breakup was like a lesson in life. That's why they said it wasn't a bad thing after all if I actually bring back something from it. And like the ending of the movie, Tom started the 1st day with Autumn, a new girl. So what does that tell you? Life goes on and there is always a new beginning after each's end. Although I am in no hurry, I am waiting for that day to come. And I hope I will be right this time.
"It's weird how this person can exist in this life but not in your world. It is as if our lives are like a bubble and we interact with people who come into our bubble. But outside the bubble, there are many many other people with their own bubbles of life. And they live their lives not knowing your existence.
Then both bubbles merge, and both become known to one another. They shared their lives with one another and the bubble gets bigger. And when one leaves you, they walked out of your bubble, but that doesn't mean your bubble gets smaller. It remains the same, only that the person no longer stays with you. And that's memory to you." - 03/06/09 entry
Then both bubbles merge, and both become known to one another. They shared their lives with one another and the bubble gets bigger. And when one leaves you, they walked out of your bubble, but that doesn't mean your bubble gets smaller. It remains the same, only that the person no longer stays with you. And that's memory to you." - 03/06/09 entry
"你最近不说话
怎么了 为什么
是不是有什么事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁"
- 最近,李聖傑
"你最近还好吗?"
有好多话想说,
有好多问题想问.
但我拉不起勇气.
说好要一直做你的朋友,
但在你难过的时候,
我无法在你的身边.
这种感觉,真的很难受.
沦落到要在这里写出关心话,真的很废.
也不知道你还有再读我的部落..
这都不重要.
"眼底星空 流星跌落手中
我静静握着抬头向上天祈求
愿你先找到温柔
有人包扎伤口也挡住寂寞
谢谢你陪我陪爱 听雨追风"
- 眼底星空,李聖傑
我真的希望你能快乐.
我真的希望你能往前看，期待一个跟好的未来。
我真的希望你能用我给你的祝福，找到一个爱你的人。
我真的希望你能再次的笑出来。
我真的希望你能真正的快乐。。。
怎么了 为什么
是不是有什么事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁"
- 最近,李聖傑
"你最近还好吗?"
有好多话想说,
有好多问题想问.
但我拉不起勇气.
说好要一直做你的朋友,
但在你难过的时候,
我无法在你的身边.
这种感觉,真的很难受.
沦落到要在这里写出关心话,真的很废.
也不知道你还有再读我的部落..
这都不重要.
"眼底星空 流星跌落手中
我静静握着抬头向上天祈求
愿你先找到温柔
有人包扎伤口也挡住寂寞
谢谢你陪我陪爱 听雨追风"
- 眼底星空,李聖傑
我真的希望你能快乐.
我真的希望你能往前看，期待一个跟好的未来。
我真的希望你能用我给你的祝福，找到一个爱你的人。
我真的希望你能再次的笑出来。
我真的希望你能真正的快乐。。。
- Current Music:五月天 - 你不是真正的快樂
If our brain is like a white wall, then the memories we had are like paint.
We painted our memories onto the white wall, sometimes splashing it to create different effects. You can't wipe away, you can only cover it with a thick layer of white paint. White washing we call it. But what you painted before will still be there. Sometimes the paint will peel, but only bits of it will drop off.
It's like memories in our brain. You can't wipe it away, you just keep storing, replacing, forgetting, storing again. Each time you stare at the wall, you get different interpretations to it. Likewise, each time we think back, you get different feelings to the memories you had.
And people who come and go in your life are like footprints on the wall. They leave their footprints on the wall, and when you look at the footprints, you think about the person who left it there. Even if you do a white wash on the wall, the footprint will always be there, just covered by a layer of white paint.
3 months passed, yet I can still remember everything. But I no longer feel the acute pain or the urge to cry. Time is like a paint brush, coating white paint over the stained wall. Slowly, more coats of white paint will be painted over the footprints. The footprints will be covered, but the memories will forever be there.
陈奕迅《十年》
如果那两个字没有颤抖
我不会发现我难受
怎么说出口也不过是分手
如果对于明天没有要求
牵牵手就像旅游
成千上万个门口总有一个人要先走
怀抱既然不能逗留
何不在离开的时候
一边享受一边泪流
十年之前
我不认识你你不属于我
我们还是一样陪在一个陌生人左右
走过渐渐熟悉的街头
十年之后
我们是朋友还可以问候
只是那种温柔再也找不到拥抱的理由
情人最后难免沦为朋友
直到和你做了多年朋友
才明白我的眼泪
不是为你而流也为别人而流
We painted our memories onto the white wall, sometimes splashing it to create different effects. You can't wipe away, you can only cover it with a thick layer of white paint. White washing we call it. But what you painted before will still be there. Sometimes the paint will peel, but only bits of it will drop off.
It's like memories in our brain. You can't wipe it away, you just keep storing, replacing, forgetting, storing again. Each time you stare at the wall, you get different interpretations to it. Likewise, each time we think back, you get different feelings to the memories you had.
And people who come and go in your life are like footprints on the wall. They leave their footprints on the wall, and when you look at the footprints, you think about the person who left it there. Even if you do a white wash on the wall, the footprint will always be there, just covered by a layer of white paint.
3 months passed, yet I can still remember everything. But I no longer feel the acute pain or the urge to cry. Time is like a paint brush, coating white paint over the stained wall. Slowly, more coats of white paint will be painted over the footprints. The footprints will be covered, but the memories will forever be there.
陈奕迅《十年》
如果那两个字没有颤抖
我不会发现我难受
怎么说出口也不过是分手
如果对于明天没有要求
牵牵手就像旅游
成千上万个门口总有一个人要先走
怀抱既然不能逗留
何不在离开的时候
一边享受一边泪流
十年之前
我不认识你你不属于我
我们还是一样陪在一个陌生人左右
走过渐渐熟悉的街头
十年之后
我们是朋友还可以问候
只是那种温柔再也找不到拥抱的理由
情人最后难免沦为朋友
直到和你做了多年朋友
才明白我的眼泪
不是为你而流也为别人而流
- Current Music:陈奕迅《十年》
I sat down and was thinking of what to write...but it seems there are too many things in my mind to focus on a certain something to write.
This week has been good. But now Oct is ending and I still have alot of work that is due end Oct to chiong. And I still owe my boss some stuff that is overdue since a month back..shucks..
Not that I procastinated. But when you have no idea what to do, you need ALOT of time to just sit down and figure out how to do it. And that is something I lack. Everyday I sat down on the seat and immediately attend to important and urgent issues, then the BAU stuff, then emails, then some other stuff and that's it, end of day. But I also figured out that I am a very restless person. I need a little break once in a while. Like reading newspaper, going to the mama shop to get soya bean milk etc...Is it my nature to be restless or I just don't have the mood to work? hmm..
I went to Leonard's surprise yacht party on Friday. The yacht is located at One degree 15 and damn nice can! Shannah planned the whole birthday thing and she was supposed to keep it all under wraps to surprise him. Such a sweet girlfriend she is. Anyway, we managed to really surprise him and he was quite happy. They rented a house yacht, one that cannot be ride out to sea. But there are like 2 master bedrooms and 2 single rooms inside the yacht. No one stays of course, who wants to disturb their romantic night in the yacht~ haha
We played board games. Yes, I always imagine a yacht party is something happening. But we played board games. hahah~ It was fun nevertheless.
I thought about the luxury that these people enjoyed. I am never on the other side, belonging more of lower middle income family. I lived in BL, studied in neighbourhood schools and lived rather simply. I don't shop at Mango and River Island because the clothes are too expensive for me. So I don't belong to the other side. Do I wish I am? Of course, to be able to buy anything you want, to be able to satisfy your hedonistic needs, who wouldn't? But if I have to marry someone rich who I don't love, I rather stay humble. I believe in achieving the things I want with my own means. I believe in getting my first diamond. Yes, I work hard, not work smart. But that's who I am.
Anyway, watched Surrogates on Saturday. A bored friend asked me out to catch a movie and so I did. It was quite an interesting show. A robot as a substitute of you. You control the surrogate at home, and that robot represents you in the outside world. You can beautify your surrogate which you can't on your real face. You can't walk but with a surrogate, 'you' can walk again. But a robot is just a substitute. It acts out just like you, but underneath it is just steel. And that's the gist of the movie.
I always think of myself as plain if not average. Somehow I learn to accept my looks slowly, maybe because I gain a little confidence in myself. But humans are ugly in character. We love the beautiful, despise the ugly. When someone criticises the ugly, do they ever thought of how the person feel? Thus the ugly envies, wishing to be a more beautiful person. That's where makeup, plastic surgery, beauty and slimming services come along. But everyone still loves a natural beauty. Flawless smooth skin, small nose, sexy lips, luscious hair, superb body.
Life is unfair, said a friend of mine. But that is like blaming the environment for what happened to you. That friend asked me so what does life means to me. I said I am still finding out, but somehow I think life is about learning how to accept life as it is. I want myself to accept life as I grow older each year. Living is hard, we always have many difficulties that will pull us down. But if I can accept them as they come, and accept life even though things are unfair sometimes, I believe I will feel the contentment in life.
I'm going to watch 500 days of summer soon. Seen the trailer and read the reviews. I believe everyone should watch it. The actress who played the female lead said "Everyone has the heartbreak that shapes them in a way that they could never go back to the innocence that they had before. It's beautiful and poignant and bittersweet to explore. It is a universally appealing theme because if you haven't been through this, you probably will at some point. The fear of losing love is the dark side. But the wonderful side is the feeling that you get when you fall in love."
Am I a hopeless romantic like Tom or a cynic like Summer? I am still finding out.
This week has been good. But now Oct is ending and I still have alot of work that is due end Oct to chiong. And I still owe my boss some stuff that is overdue since a month back..shucks..
Not that I procastinated. But when you have no idea what to do, you need ALOT of time to just sit down and figure out how to do it. And that is something I lack. Everyday I sat down on the seat and immediately attend to important and urgent issues, then the BAU stuff, then emails, then some other stuff and that's it, end of day. But I also figured out that I am a very restless person. I need a little break once in a while. Like reading newspaper, going to the mama shop to get soya bean milk etc...Is it my nature to be restless or I just don't have the mood to work? hmm..
I went to Leonard's surprise yacht party on Friday. The yacht is located at One degree 15 and damn nice can! Shannah planned the whole birthday thing and she was supposed to keep it all under wraps to surprise him. Such a sweet girlfriend she is. Anyway, we managed to really surprise him and he was quite happy. They rented a house yacht, one that cannot be ride out to sea. But there are like 2 master bedrooms and 2 single rooms inside the yacht. No one stays of course, who wants to disturb their romantic night in the yacht~ haha
We played board games. Yes, I always imagine a yacht party is something happening. But we played board games. hahah~ It was fun nevertheless.
I thought about the luxury that these people enjoyed. I am never on the other side, belonging more of lower middle income family. I lived in BL, studied in neighbourhood schools and lived rather simply. I don't shop at Mango and River Island because the clothes are too expensive for me. So I don't belong to the other side. Do I wish I am? Of course, to be able to buy anything you want, to be able to satisfy your hedonistic needs, who wouldn't? But if I have to marry someone rich who I don't love, I rather stay humble. I believe in achieving the things I want with my own means. I believe in getting my first diamond. Yes, I work hard, not work smart. But that's who I am.
Anyway, watched Surrogates on Saturday. A bored friend asked me out to catch a movie and so I did. It was quite an interesting show. A robot as a substitute of you. You control the surrogate at home, and that robot represents you in the outside world. You can beautify your surrogate which you can't on your real face. You can't walk but with a surrogate, 'you' can walk again. But a robot is just a substitute. It acts out just like you, but underneath it is just steel. And that's the gist of the movie.
I always think of myself as plain if not average. Somehow I learn to accept my looks slowly, maybe because I gain a little confidence in myself. But humans are ugly in character. We love the beautiful, despise the ugly. When someone criticises the ugly, do they ever thought of how the person feel? Thus the ugly envies, wishing to be a more beautiful person. That's where makeup, plastic surgery, beauty and slimming services come along. But everyone still loves a natural beauty. Flawless smooth skin, small nose, sexy lips, luscious hair, superb body.
Life is unfair, said a friend of mine. But that is like blaming the environment for what happened to you. That friend asked me so what does life means to me. I said I am still finding out, but somehow I think life is about learning how to accept life as it is. I want myself to accept life as I grow older each year. Living is hard, we always have many difficulties that will pull us down. But if I can accept them as they come, and accept life even though things are unfair sometimes, I believe I will feel the contentment in life.
I'm going to watch 500 days of summer soon. Seen the trailer and read the reviews. I believe everyone should watch it. The actress who played the female lead said "Everyone has the heartbreak that shapes them in a way that they could never go back to the innocence that they had before. It's beautiful and poignant and bittersweet to explore. It is a universally appealing theme because if you haven't been through this, you probably will at some point. The fear of losing love is the dark side. But the wonderful side is the feeling that you get when you fall in love."
Am I a hopeless romantic like Tom or a cynic like Summer? I am still finding out.
- Current Mood: thoughtful
- Current Music:最近- Lee Sheng Jie
Yes, the old man (not my father) is turning even older tomorrow. I gave him 2 presents before and last year I totally forgot about it, which is good haha..
Who is this old man? None other than my ex-crush lol... Actually why the hell do I do a tribute to him? I also don't know why...just thought about this silly thing on the MRT.
Because he is the person who expands my music database and broadens my knowledge in life, so I thought why not a music tribute with our trusty youtube~
Well, since knowing him, he has sent me shitloads of music and all very different genres. J-rock, bossa nova, oldies and quirky music are what he introduced me to. So here's my tribute to him~ I thank him for all the songs sent and allowing me to know a wider genre of music in life~ :)
Bebel Gilberto - Samba e Amor
Bebel Gilberto is also the same person who sang 'So Nice', the song in the old DBS Cashline ad :P I really like this song~!
Ibrahim Ferrer - Silencio
Steve Wonder - Lately
Jamiroquai - Talulah
Jamiroquai - Seven days in Sunny June
Although he don't know about this blog, I still like to wish him a good birthday and all the best to his future. ^_^
Who is this old man? None other than my ex-crush lol... Actually why the hell do I do a tribute to him? I also don't know why...just thought about this silly thing on the MRT.
Because he is the person who expands my music database and broadens my knowledge in life, so I thought why not a music tribute with our trusty youtube~
Well, since knowing him, he has sent me shitloads of music and all very different genres. J-rock, bossa nova, oldies and quirky music are what he introduced me to. So here's my tribute to him~ I thank him for all the songs sent and allowing me to know a wider genre of music in life~ :)
Bebel Gilberto - Samba e Amor
Bebel Gilberto is also the same person who sang 'So Nice', the song in the old DBS Cashline ad :P I really like this song~!
Ibrahim Ferrer - Silencio
Steve Wonder - Lately
Jamiroquai - Talulah
Jamiroquai - Seven days in Sunny June
Although he don't know about this blog, I still like to wish him a good birthday and all the best to his future. ^_^
- Current Music:Seven days in Sunny June - Jamiroquai
- Current Mood:
cheerful
I am so dead...
My account left with 100 bucks for the rest of the month...how to survive liddat!!!! T_T
After paying for my korea trip, I'm really left with nothing...
What's worse is that I could have use that money to go for Tozan in Dec again and still have some money left.. *head desk* Me and my impulsiveness again...sigh...
Think I should eat bread for lunch everyday from now on..
My account left with 100 bucks for the rest of the month...how to survive liddat!!!! T_T
After paying for my korea trip, I'm really left with nothing...
What's worse is that I could have use that money to go for Tozan in Dec again and still have some money left.. *head desk* Me and my impulsiveness again...sigh...
Think I should eat bread for lunch everyday from now on..
- Current Mood:
blah
Am I just being paranoid or there is something else that I sensed?
Why do I sense something is amiss?
It's upsetting not knowing, it's upsetting not able to know what's going on.
If I keep thinking, I will really go nuts. Am I going to sleep well tonight?
Why do I have such a fucking curious mind!?!
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Why do I feel like I'm losing a friend?
Or maybe I am just paranoid.
Why do I sense something is amiss?
It's upsetting not knowing, it's upsetting not able to know what's going on.
If I keep thinking, I will really go nuts. Am I going to sleep well tonight?
Why do I have such a fucking curious mind!?!
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.
.
.
.
Why do I feel like I'm losing a friend?
Or maybe I am just paranoid.
- Current Music:Shelter by Jaechun
- Current Mood:
frustrated
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