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Now you're just somebody that I used to know [Sep. 6th, 2012|03:37 pm]
Sarah
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[music |Goyte/Kimbra-Somebody that I used to know]
[mood |sicksick]
[Current Location |home]

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I'd done
And I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
And you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Somebody
(I used to know)
Somebody
(Now you're just somebody that I used to know)
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Return to the Labyrinth Chapter 1 [Aug. 24th, 2012|08:23 pm]
Sarah
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[mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[music |none atm]
[Current Location |boyfriends house]

Feeling defeated in life Sarah drifted back to her sometimes hazy memories of the Labyrinth, the creatures that lived there and, in particular, Jareth. She was remembering how ever since then he’d made his living in her dreams, her nightmares, her fantasies and everything in between.
She was facing a divorce. Her so-called husband, Johnny, had just come by to pick up more of his things. He’d found a little house to rent across town and was finally out of her hair. She was both relieved and disappointed, which was ironic, she thought. At least she had her baby girl, Katie Bug, there with her. She could always call the Goblin King at anytime now that she knew the right words, and there was a baby in the house, but she could never risk her daughter like that. I mean, Just because she beat the Labyrinth once who was to say she could do it again. Plus she’d had lots of help then. She wondered if all her friends from the Labyrinth were still there. She remembered them telling her to call on them anytime she ever needed them.

Surely if I beat his Labyrinth once I could do it again, she thought. Or if he tries to keep Katie there I will refuse to leave…she debated in her mind endless possibilities.

Meanwhile, at the center of the Goblin City, little did Sarah know it but she was on Jareth’s mind as well. He was sitting in his highbacked chair, his legs thrown over the side of one arm staring intently into the crystal sitting on a small round table in front of him. Inside the crystal, of course, was Sarah lounging on a sofa and daydreaming about Jareth and his mysterious Labyrinth.

If only she were speaking her thoughts aloud he would have jumped at the smallest opportunity. But all he could do was sit there and watch her stew silently. He didn’t even know if she remembered him, she never spoke of him out loud and it was all he could do just to wonder. And, he thought to himself, even if she does remember me, she might hate me, maybe she even thinks I enjoy taking babies and turning them into goblins. While the goblins may be fun at times, this was certainly never what he intended for his life. Especially since it had grown old in the many years he’d been stuck there playing King in this city of goblins. If he was going to be immortal after all he’d like to at least have more freedom to pursue his own dreams. Ah, to be free from this curse, he couldn’t even imagine it had been so long. He’d thought many times about returning to Sarah in his owl form and dared to try it only once. But it was late at night and her and her husband were sleeping. He left unseen and feeling rather rejected.

“Why don’t you take action and do something about it instead of moping around staring into that damned crystal?!” Hoggle demanded as he walked into the room. They had come to much better terms with each other through casual conversations reminiscing about Sarah. Those conversations had eventually developed into a sort of offbeat and somewhat awkward friendship. Or at least a mutual understanding. Jareth had finally realized it was nice to confide in someone. But he longed for another human. He wished he could confide in Sarah. After all this time he was still struck by her. Even moreso now that she was all grown up and even more beautiful than ever.

“What am I even supposed to do here? What CAN I even do?!” Jareth snarled at Hoggle after the long silence he’d spent in thought after Hoggle had first spoken.

“You could turn into an owl and go to her, like you’ve planned a million times.” Hoggle stated pacing back and forth as he spoke, “You’ve been watching her all day. Hell! You’ve been watching her for years. Her husband’s gone now and she’s alone, aside from her child. Why not now? I miss her too! Plus, true love is the only thing that will ever set you free from this place. How will you ever find it or find out if it is really her if you don’t make some kind of active effort. I mean c’mon you’re supposed to be A KING!” Hoggle roared passionately.

“You know I’d get in trouble for leaving unless I was called to take a child…” Jareth said softly with a faraway look in his eyes.

Meanwhile Sarah finally got up, startled by the sound of a storm, checked on Katie then proceeded to take a shower feeling the words she must never again say tickling the tip of her tongue. She stood there in the shower and slapped herself in the mouth.

“Stop it Sarah!” she said to herself, “You can never say those words again.”

At that moment Jareth, who’d been sneaking a peek at her in the shower, heard her finally say something that perked him up. She finally said something that gave him a clue to what she felt towards him. He realized that she was tempted to call him to her. She was fighting it, just like him! Now he really felt conflicted but decided to play it off now that he knew she was still thinking of him after all these years too. He would let her call him. Dramatic was always his style anyway.

Sarah began to doll herself up, and she kept pushing out of her head that little voice that was admitting why. She knew then that she would call him to her. She brushed her hair, put on her sexiest push-up bra and matching panties then pulled on a low cut cowl neck sleeveless black
minidress and a pair of tall black boots boosting her by about three inches. She wasn’t so big on wearing much makeup so she just flicked on a bit of black eyeliner and some mascara to go along with it. She put on a few choice items of jewelry as well and then walked into Katies room feeling huge waves of emotion rushing over her.

She picked up her babygirl, kissing and cuddling her and said,

“Katie darling, I’m so sorry I have to do this. But if I could keep your uncle Toby safe surely I can keep you safe too. After all, it’s a piece of cake!” she said, laughing at her reference. Then holding Katie close to her she stood in the middle of the room and said loudly,

“I wish, I wish….”

The underground of the Labyrinth came to life with goblins listening for her to use the “right words” and aggravated at how she was merely teasing them at the moment just like she had 15 years ago.

Sarah grasped Katie in her arms hugging the warm baby’s body against her own, then she got down on the floor huddling her body around Katie’s and then looked towards the floor with tears in her eyes as she whispered desperately,

“I wish the goblins would come and take you away…right now.” And just like 15 years ago the thunder clapped and all the lights in her house went out as strange noises began to fill the air.
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Cigarettes and those Regrets [Aug. 11th, 2012|05:01 pm]
Sarah
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[Current Location |home in bed]
[music |Blue October-Chameleon Boy]
[mood |depresseddepressed]

Well, it's been awhile since I blogged, thought I'd wait til I saved up a decent amount of stuff to talk about to make a decent entry. Well, it's been over a week now since I've had a cigarette. And I haven't cheated once. Not so much as one little puff off of a cigarette. I've completely dropped them. Saving me some money and aggravation...Let's see if I can keep it up. Here's the sucky part though, I've been suffering from insomnia and depression, I stayed up til like 7 am this morning because I couldn't sleep and I spent like a good hour or two just bawling like an idiot unable to control my emotions. I've missed some work lately because I've just felt blah and completely off and like I'm not even freaking with it at all, and just like unable to function. I hate when the depression kicks in to the point of dehabilitation. My mom made me call my doctor, but he can't get me in for like almost another month. So I guess I'll just keep taking more of my panic meds and just try to see if I can snap myself out of it. IDK. Mom says she also thinks that Josh (my boyfriend) being gone on vacation for about 2 weeks now is part of it and that once he is back she seems to think I'll snap out of it. I don't know what's going on, but as comfortable as I am slipping right back into depression. I like being happy :/ I want it back.


But onto some other topics, life is not all about me, it took me long enough to realize that. I've got some interesting tidbits for everyone to check out. This is a really cool little game: Cut the Rope! I had quite a bit of fun tooling around, and boy does the lil guy make ya feel bad if you don't get that candy to him.


on another note I found some hilarious harry potter comic things located here and they are DEFINITELY worth checking out, I about lawled right off my bed at these.


I also found a pretty cool artsy little unique comic, not too long, worth giving a look here @ Sarah and the Seed


If you do/did like Pokemon, these Pokemon redesigns will give you the willies. Go look them over here


When you start thinking about the good things God has done, it gets your mind off the negative and on the positive. I try to have a good attitude as much as I can because I know that is the most Christ-Like way to be, Jesus didn't stand around complaining about all the bad things he was dealing with, he tried to be thankful for the blessings before him and find a way to help anyone and everyone elses. Want to improve your attitude? Here are some pointers. Check em out.




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New songs I found
the xx-islands
totally awesome, makes me think of Josh. I love it. great for my smitten playlist.
the xx-stars
also amazing, so lyrically talented. amazing vocals too. great vibe. just totally loving it.
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Things you can do to improve your life [Aug. 5th, 2012|12:16 pm]
Sarah
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[mood |peacefulpeaceful]
[music |The Fray-Heartless]
[Current Location |Home]

-Stop watching television.
-Stop eating fast food.
-Stop eating pizza and fried foods.
-Stop driving places that you could easily walk to.
-Read at least 1 book a month.
-Take classes in what interests you or your vocation.
-Work enough to support yourself, and if needed get a new job or second job to make enough to support yourself. Never stick with a job that doesn't pay enough to support yourself no matter how much you work.
-Pay off your debts and don't go in debt. You can pay off your debts if you avoid needless expenses, such as cable, overpriced clothes, impractical decorations, unhealthy snacks, jewelry, et cetera.
-Don't buy a car on finance, and don't buy an expensive car if a cheaper one that works is available.
-Wake up early, and get all your work done as quickly as possible. That includes household chores, as well as your employment.
-Drink alcohol less or quit.
-Do drugs less or quit.
-Don't smoke cigarettes.
-Don't eat foods with high fructose corn syrup.
- Don't drink soda.
- Don't eat sugary foods at all.
- Don't drink more than 1 glass of juice per day.
- Stand up straight and have good posture.
- Look people in the eyes when you talk to them.
-Smile.
-Be polite.
-Keep your promises.
-Wear a watch, if you can afford it.
-Eat breakfast.
-If you eat cereal at any time, choose your cereal based on healthiness not tastiness.
-Exercise at least 3 days per week.
-Walk often.
-Always write with correct spelling and grammar.
-Never speak worse about a person behind their back than you do to their face. (Feel free to say nicer things about a person behind their back than to their face.)
-Don't gossip and don't have a big mouth.
-Never judge other people harsher than you judge yourself.
-Make New Years resolutions, but make one every day instead of every year.
-Volunteer.
- Forgive, but never forget.
-Don't have skeletons in your closet.
- Keep as few secrets as reasonably possible.
- Despite the rule before this one, keep your friends' secrets.
-Politely tell people that you will not betray your friends' trust, when you are asked about their secrets and such.
-Volunteering (i.e. activism) is more important than voting. If you can do both, good for you. If you only have time for one, volunteer instead of voting. It makes more of a difference.
-Privately question your own values.
-Avoid questioning other people's values, especially in public.
-Listen more than you talk.
-Use a journal to count how many calories you consume per day.
-Use a journal to count how many calories you burn per day.
-If you want to lose weight, burn slightly more than you consume. If you want to gain weight, consume slightly more than you burn. If you are happy with your weight, try to burn the same amount as you consume.
-Weigh yourself daily at the same time(s).
-Write your daily weight down in a journal.
-Never allow the police to search you, your car, or your belongings if you do not have something to hide.
-Never tell other people that you think they or something they are doing is immoral or sinful.
-Keep your moral values and religion to yourself. Use them to direct your own actions.
-Ask people how they are often and listen to their answer.
-Laugh at other people's jokes, but not your own.
-Shower at least once per day.
-Wash your hands, even if you aren't an employee.
-Take care of the elderly, which includes spending time with them and talking to them.
-Avoid going places where you need to be waited on.
-Wait on yourself wherever possible.
-Make your friends look good.
-Avoid lying.
-Don't pretend to be better than you are. Don't pretend to be more successful, popular, et cetera.
-Treat other people as if they are better than they are. Treat them as if they are more successful, popular, et cetera.
-Don't brag about your talents. Instead, surprise people with them when they just happen to be called upon.
-Sit up straight.
-Keep your house clean.
-If you have either of them, keep your car and office clean.
-Stretch daily. (I do Yoga most mornings.)
-Dance.
-Take dancing lessons if you could use improvement.
-Ask other people (e.g. your friends, your co-workers, your boss, etc.) what their favorite book is, and read it.
-Ask their favorite song or band, and listen to it.
-Ask their favorite movie, and watch it.
Extras:
-Don't be camera shy.
-When your alarm goes off in the morning (if you use one), don't press snooze.
-Make a budget and follow it.
Suggestions from visitors:
-Say "I love you" often to the people you feel this way about.
-Always turning off lights when leaving a room, unless of course there are others are in the room. For that matter, conserving any unnecessary electricity usage is key to the future of humanity.


from: Here
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lol Bronies vs Hasbro... [Aug. 4th, 2012|03:55 am]
Sarah
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[Current Location |Home]
[mood |sleepysleepy]
[music |Samuel L Jackson-Go the Fuck to Sleep]

This Article here about a bunch of Bronies vs Hasbro getting into it over some legally debatable running Friendship is Magic episodes via a website and Hasbro's takedown of same website, greatly amused me. Mostly because the letter they left on the website...is freaking funny, out of line, but funny nonetheless.

Also it is way the hell past the time for me to go the fuck to sleep and I suggest anyone else that may be awake and reading this probably ought to go the fuck to sleep themselves.

Night all...Much Love
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Finally Free [Aug. 3rd, 2012|01:47 am]
Sarah
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[Current Location |Home]
[music |Three Days Grace-Life Starts Now]

I almost sorta don't miss you at all
I'm almost happy you never call
I thought I'd miss you all the time
but I forget that you were mine
I wish you well I hope you're good
I guess you never understood
The things you did broke me apart
I'm glad you gave me back my heart
I feel like I am finally free
from all the mess you made of me
And when you said the pastures green
I finally see now what you mean
The grass is greener over here
and things have never been so clear
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Day 1 [Aug. 2nd, 2012|10:45 pm]
Sarah
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[music |Linkin Park-Lying from you]
[mood |cheerfulcheerful]

I haven't smoked at all today. I am determined to quit smoking and be a positive inspiration for my mom. I'm using the patch. My mom even is trying to make it fun, got a calendar for each of us and stickers (evn got me my obsessions, MLP and Carebear) so we get to put a sticker on each day on the calendar that we are smoke free and don't cheat :) I've been recieving lots of positive inspiration and prayers from people online and at work today as well, even doing okay around a friend that smokes haven't even asked to bum one. I'm pretty proud of myself today and I want to be proud of myself tomorrow too. I KNOW this is worth it, it's just a matter of getting through the hard part.
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Feeling Productive [Jul. 31st, 2012|02:47 am]
Sarah
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[music |City Harmonic-Manifesto]
[Current Location |Home]

I got my check cashed, went to work, worked a full shift. Came home and then a good friend came by for a visit. I worked out for awhile, really broke a sweat. Read on my Bible and my new Chicken Soup for the Christian Soul book (which is really good by the way) and made a prayer list and managed to pray about all the things that I felt I needed to pray for. Stayed off the internet mostly other than now and to play some music on Spotify for the workout and some rainymood.com for the reading. In a great mood, feeling renewed and ready for bed. Got another good friend coming over tomorrow, have the day off and some more things to accomplish. Goodnight and God Bless!
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Thoughts about my ex-boyfriend [Jul. 29th, 2012|11:09 pm]
Sarah
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[Current Location |Home]
[music |Hurt-How we end up alone]

why are you running away from your heart

I can still feel your hand pressed against mine

But now you are gone and I'm still here

You've moved on and so have I

But why is there still all this....lingering

Sometimes I feel so...haunted

by what was, what wasn't, and what never will be

I loved you so much and never

never thought it would come to an end

But I was rendered useless in your eyes

Your hand pressed against someone else

Infidelity the path you chose to take

It felt like I'd been shot and was bleeding out

All my dreams floating away

I see now that it's not true

I have a man now that wants to make me smile at every opportunity

A man that will not forsake me

A man that loves me for who I am

and doesn't ask more of me than what is capable to give

I still miss you though

even though I try not to talk about it

it hurts when I talk about it

And there are still nights/mornings when I wake up crying

The pillow wet with tears, waking myself up crying out

Remembering you and me, me and you

And I remember all the things I loved about us

All the good times we shared

And sometimes I want to hate you

because I'm so hurt that the only way I know how to deal

is to just become bitter and jaded

But I know that's not the best answer

So I keep plodding along moving on

I love the man I'm with and I think we can go far

But the cuts you left me with are still so fresh

I still feel so wounded

And you married that bitch

got her pregnant while you were with me

Three years...did none of it matter

and you lied to my face when questioned

couldn't even show me enough love and respect

to be honest with me when asked

Like a slap in the face

or a knife in the back

depends on how you want to loook at it

But I hope for your sake, and your childrens sake

that you can get your life together

get off the drugs, get a steady job

stay faithful to just one person in your damn life for once

lying will get you nowhere

it's like digging your own grave

and I have so much to say about all of this

But I can talk all day and still say nothing

what is there to say

sometimes people are bad

sometimes people lie

people get hurt everyday

I've been another casualty in this everyday war that we call life

I've been left with a few battlescars

and someone who wants to heal all my wounds

I will pray for you honey

and remember the goodtimes even if it makes me tear up

and try to move on and be happy

knowing that God had a different plan for us

Suck it up, breathe it in, walk away
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I love being a girl [Jul. 17th, 2012|11:54 pm]
Sarah
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[Current Location |Josh house]

not that I know any different but I feel like I could never live without the color purple, my little ponies, makeup, lipgloss, perfume, glitter, jewelry, pink things, cute sandals, a lovely pair of capris, the feeling I get when I go tanning or get a new piercing or have something cool done to my hair.

I love being girly and giggling and oohing and ahhing over clothes and makeup and jewelry. of going awwww when I see a cute picture of a baby animal. Of it being perfectly acceptable for me to cry over something as silly as a sappy part of a movie and no one gives me too much shit about it.

I love that I played with pretty things as a child, with girly and bright colors and hair to brush, and flowers and stars and hearts and glitter. That I smell good almost all the time. That it's perfectly acceptable and normal for me to tote a bunch of crap around in a bag all the time and have an easy way to keep things with me that I use on a regular basis. I don't get made fun of TOO bad for being terrified of spiders and other bugs.

I am glad I was not a tomboy though no disrespect to any of you tomboy gals out there. Just wasn't me. And I love who I am and I love my personality just as everyone should their own.

Self confidence is the sexiest thing you can strut around in. And it will never go unnoticed. Be you. You can never screw it up, you can never do it wrong, and being yourself is always in style. Rock it and never look back. Don't be afraid to be everything you always dreamed of being.
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