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Why Practice Empathy When You Can Do Spiritual Bypassing
“Let me tell you about the time someone with greater faith than you went through the same situation and handled it so much better than you did.” If I opened my heart to you and told you about my struggles and this was your response, I would thank you very kindly for sharing your wisdom… Continue reading
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In the Margins of the Enlightened Narrative
The loudest part was being unheard. What was my pain to you but just another pulpit to preach from? No matter what hurt, you had a ready name for it, a cookie cutter verse from your book, a drawer for me to disappear in. How quick you were, always, to casually gesture towards a paradigm… Continue reading
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You are Right to Fear Me
your children watch me daily and God forbid they learn a different way to be kind to choose themselves to honor other people ‘s autonomyand right to self-determination to find their own liberation in the fray of mistakes and lessons and grace, the soft nature of things space to figure it out what a scary… Continue reading
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The Person Living My Best Life is a Cutout of My Face from 2005 Collaged to the Body of Selena Gomez
In all my daydreams, I’m under 30 I could be giving a tearful speech accepting the Fields Medal or the Palme d’Or, adorned in emeralds and georgette silk, or I could be eating pistachios in the Turkish Riviera while sharing a table with Pedro Pascal, sand between my pedicures but I don’t have crow’s feet… Continue reading
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I Make False Promises to My Body
Just one day at a time, I tell myselfotherwise I wouldn’t survivethere’s no way I’d make it through a yearof this little sleep, of junk for meals,of doctor visits put off for another week,another monthif I focused on the big picture,it would jump at mehow unsustainable this is,living like thisbut what choice do I have,… Continue reading
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A Friendship Breakup
We don’t talk anymore, although we used to. I have a right to feel hurt but also every intention to forgive. After you blocked me on everything, I spoke to a psychologist about you. She said, sometimes, when a person finds someone who genuinely loves them, sees the good and beautiful in them, and creates… Continue reading
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Woman. Mother. Writer. Cog in the machine. Pawn. Rage personified. Dirty Mirror.
I can’t afford my dreamsand I hate iteverything I hate about my life is caused by capitalism and the patriarchyno, I will not be taking any questionstake your sea lioning ass up out of hereand go sit with the other ass-kissers of the system but yes, I have divorced toxicityI’ve spent three hundred hours in… Continue reading
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I’m telling you what you could have done to save me but you’re still not listening
A hundred miles inlandaway from the waves you watched me drown in,you assume that I survivedwithout hearing the survival storyyou assumeI’m still breathing daysawakening to momentsturning pages like moonsbecause I am hereyou focus on the flesh you seeobedient to the patternyou do not see the hole where my spirit used to bedevouring me all the… Continue reading
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File under: Dark Night of the Soul
Some nights I am granteda mind and body too tired for lying awaketoo tired for conjuring hypotheticalstoo tired for second guessing past life decisionstoo tired for doom scrolling and getting jealous of my college friends’ fancy shoes and travel pictures and I sleep and I am free but other nights I stare at the footboard… Continue reading
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This House Can Fit Only So Many Elephants
You and I are perfect for each other: I make all my biggest decisions based on spite and you are too proud to show a crack how different we are how different this is from what we thought it was We had a fight last night about something important, something nonnegotiable enough to break others… Continue reading
Rampant & Golden 