That's absolutely awful Aster. Such an extreme level of control over food 😔 It is no wonder cooking, eating, and shopping still feel difficult after being subjected to all of that. Your body and mind learned to associate all those things with negative consequences.
I also still struggle with the cooking part sometimes. I lost all joy in something I once enjoyed. But I'm working to form more positive associations, like putting on an interesting audiobook or good music while I cook, or cooking while sipping on a nice glass of wine. It makes it feel a bit more like my own space again. One step at a time!
Thanks. I try sometimes to make those positive associations too, when I have the energy. One day at a time, as you say. I really appreciate your writing here, thank you 🙏
That's absolutely awful Aster. Such an extreme level of control over food 😔 It is no wonder cooking, eating, and shopping still feel difficult after being subjected to all of that. Your body and mind learned to associate all those things with negative consequences.
I also still struggle with the cooking part sometimes. I lost all joy in something I once enjoyed. But I'm working to form more positive associations, like putting on an interesting audiobook or good music while I cook, or cooking while sipping on a nice glass of wine. It makes it feel a bit more like my own space again. One step at a time!
Thanks. I try sometimes to make those positive associations too, when I have the energy. One day at a time, as you say. I really appreciate your writing here, thank you 🙏