When I was a kid, I used to imagine a world where all the countries worked together. I got an internship at the UN because I believed in this ideal. Now everything feels so far away from that.

Again, the news serves as a backdrop to my life. The Nepal protests, the prime ministers from different countries resigning, and of course all the craziness going on in America. In front of all this, my aunt has cancer, and I'm confronted with the possibility that I might lose her.  

Why did our world get worse? We have all these things that should improve our lives, but our collective happiest days (as a millennial) were right before the dominance of social media. The term "enshitification" comes to mind. Everything sort of just got worse. 

A lot of times, everything feels like a big giant wave that just pushes me along. I have no control over the people who govern our lives, nor do I have control over societal needs and pressures. Those forces brought us here, where we're more divided and lonelier, and more tribalistic. 

Getting older kinda sucks.