FRIENDS ONLY. COMMENT TO BE ADDED.

so none of you have any good foo fighters/dave grohl picture sites? NONE OF YOU?!

http://www.livejournal.com/users/seasonal_lies/

psst, click the link. read it. love it. hate it. comment.

again, today was alright. very mediocre, but worse than yesterday.

in gym, i sucked ass. but it was alright, i suppose, considering i put more effort into my performance this time. we lost by one point at the last possible second. derrick, of whom was on the opposing team, was elated to an incredible extent. i fear he might make fun of me when he talks to karol though, in polish of course. you know, when you speak an entirely different language, fluently, than the rest of your peers do it comes in handy a lot. and it's very obvious they know how to take advantage of this... advantage.

um, i went down to see my guidance counsler today. i was stupid enough not to mention the REAL reason why i wanted to originally see him, so he said he doesn't think i need a weekly social worker. he also provided some papers on which list the clubs and shit our school has to offer. i don't know if it'll actually do anything, though, because i'm a lazy mofo...


sometimes i feel my entries make no sense. like it's all incessant ramblings that no one but me can actually follow, considering i was deranged enough to type it all up in the first place. be honest, do you understand my entries, as a whole? i can handle the truth and i promise not to hold anything against you. thank you and have a nice day.

http://www.livejournal.com/users/crisper/26562.html
click the link, you will NOT regret it. spread the word too.


today was alright. i had a normal day and it went by pretty fast despite the fact that it was way too stuffy in the whole building.
i have looooots of homework, but all i wanna do is relaaaax. you know, i wanna blend; maybe make some icons; listen to the beatles, nirvana, u2, etc.; um, i also wanna look around on the forums i go too and watch a movie.
i doubt i'll be able to get all of that in, though. especially if i'm considering a shower later.

i think this kid named mark from my spanish class likes me. he's always looking at me, he's REALLY friendly when he's talking to me. i sorta.. like it. but i'm confused because i still like karol and jake! i feel like such a potential slut lmao.

oh, and i'm also really confused about courtney love. i hate her because of her ties to kurt, ALL OF THEM, and because she's a total junkie, but she seems like someone i could potentially idolize. i've yet to find anyone LIKE her. no other female grungee i've found is my type. it's really horrible. whyyyyyyyy must this beee?! maybe it's because her and kurt are in some ways musically similar? i don't know but... it's stillll terrible and i despise it.
there's still no chance in hell i'll actually follow through on becoming a fan of hers, by the by.

remember how i said i was gonna do a rick spam? probably not because no one commented to that last entry so chances are no one read it. oh well, i'm gonna do a rick, from the show degrassi, pic spam. so enjoy. there are also backstories and such attached to each picture, so you guys know what's going on, regardless of whether or not you care.

( it's alarming how charming i feeeeel.Collapse )

where do you think someone might hide christmas presents? i really wanna see what my mom got me, you know. feel it, smell it, taste it... i've searched the house twice already. in closets, behind and on top of bookcases, etc. i don't know where else to look!


today i visted my grandparents again. my grandpa was a bit more with it this time. he made a joke, was talking about the past, etc. it was sweet. but on the other hand, it was sad to see that he was unable to blow his own nose. i know i'm not the only one who has to put up with this, but it doesn't make it easier.
tomorrow my mom and i are going to see Finding Neverland, finally!

i'm home on a friday night. again. and to add insult to injury, LITERALLY no one else is on tonight. am incredibly lonely.

i'm tired but i'd rather not go to sleep. i wanna blend, but am too tired to. i watched some stand up comedy for about a half an hour before... demetri martin. he was pretty good, actually. i was in tears by the end, and thats a good thing.

my day was alright. my clothes were incredibly comfortable, no one made fun of me. karol and derek made me laugh in math today; derek kept trying to copy off of karol and shit, you had to be there, heh. jake, meh. no real jake news today. OH, and i think karol switched his table for lunch. he used to sit at the table next to me, and for the past 2 days he wasn't there. but he was present in school, so bah. i don't know, i was just intruiged by the sudden move.

erm, i'm way too excited for christmas. it's like... unnatural.


ooh, i learned a new word today. monotonous. muahahahaha.

those bastards. those dirty fucking bastards.

( don't click here if you haven't seen tonight's episode of Lost, but plan to.Collapse )


other than that, my day was fairly uneventful. i felt fat. felt very anxious all day. umm.. felt ugly. jake didn't talk to me, karol touched me. but you know, it was a touch inspired by a pushing-out-of-the-way thing. long story.

how exciting.




OH, OH! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOM!

nowhere near as good as bellas.. but it gave me something to do.



i fear i've lost my mojo *sobs*

alright, today was better. karol didn't talk to me, jake did. twas nothing, though. just a question about whether or not we had an assembly today.
they called karol's name out loud at lunch cuz his mother was there to pick him up. it was the funniest thing. 'KAROL K******* PLEASE COME TO THE FRONT OF THE LUNCHROOM.' everyone started ooh-ing like he was in trouble, but i saw a lady with a pocketbook in her hand and a jacket on. so i assumed it was his mom. she's very short. oh, and our math teacher put mine and karol's papers next to each other on the bulliten board, i was amused by it. teehee.

ummmm, so far my computer's behaving itself today. *hopes it'll stay like this all night*

who here's excited for Lost?! come on, raise those hands! tomorrow is so close, yet so far awaaayyy.

yeah, bad day. sam stopped talking to me for some reason. she didn't even look at me all day. stupid chancee and patricia.. taking up all her time...
my hair felt dirty all day, even though i took a shower last night. it was really annoying.
um.. then just before 7th period, i ran into this kid justin that i sit next to in science class, and he was like ''ew, it's the girl that's always stoned!''
then, to make things worse, about 5 minutes into science [later on], i went down pretty hard. like, i pushed my stool back and reached down to get my calculator from my backpack, which was located on the floor, and i just went.. BOOM. okay, no, not boom, but you get the idea. everyone started laughing, even jake, though jake was the only one to ask if i was alright. and justin asked me how many drugs i took this morning. stupid idiot.
and it's all becuz i'm a introverted mofo. if i could change that about myself, i'd do it in a second.

but i suppose lunch could just about even it all out. sam [different sam than the other i usually talk about] and tina randomly sang the whole of School's Out by Alice Cooper and Hungry Like A Wolf by Duran Duran. then, somehow, the idea of a band came up. that alone would've been enough to cheer me up.. but here's the thing, they were serious about it. that makes things even BETTER. we'd agreed that i'd be the guitar player and back-up vocals, sam'd be the lead vocals, and tina'd be the drums and back-up vocals. dude, it's like.. dude. they were serious. it just totally blows my mind. sam actually knows how to play the electric guitar, and i'm supposed to get one for my birthday, so this might actually work out. call me crazy, but i really hope it does.

hmph, lookit that, i'm in a better mood. now, if the stupid forum i go to could just start working again...

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i can't help it! the forum i would usually post it at isn't working for me now, and i needed to put it SOMEWHERE to see how it looks against a normal white background.. bahh. comment if you want, otherwise feel free to ignore this.

i spent literally 3 hours last night, staying up till 'bout 5.30AM, trying to burn a cd. i had sucess, fortunately. i finally got to listen to My Sharona live, as performed by Nirvana, as well as a recording of Krist singing All You Need Is Love whilst Kurt tuned his guitar. priceless! in addition i downloaded some other songs, you know, ummm.. Smells Like Nirvana by Weird Al, 2 other Nirvana songs [Blandest and Marijuana], etc.

yep! that's pretty much it. yesterday was pretty boring, aside from this and my watching a tv program on Velvet Revolver. hah! i live a pathetic life.



OH! i also watched The Professional last night. maaan, i love gary. even when his characters are slightly creepy! i cried at the end.

know how i sometimes have news on karol one day, and a few days later i have news on jake and so on? like, they never acknowledge me on the same day. never ever.


until now. *squees!*

it's small stuff, but it's apparently enough to get me all excited anyway.

first, during math i screwed up an interger question [negative 5 + negative 2] and i said negative 3 as my answer. karol then told me the correct answer was negative 7 so i could quickly bounce back. i felt so special. it's the first time he's spoken to me in roughly 3 weeks. yay!

then, in the way beginning of science, jakob asked me for a pen cuz his ran out. i gave one to him, of course. then he asked me if today was when we were having that pizza party for math lab after school [which i can't go to, btw. damn it!], i said yes. he looked like he wanted to say something else but class started so he had no avail. oh well.
not too long after that, when he and karol were working together on a lab thing right across from where i was working, jake said the pen i lent him had run out as well. i then offered up the pen i'd been using as back up. luckily i had another one in my backpack so i didn't feel stupid for giving away my 'last pen'.
then following that, jake talked to me various times. it was really about nothing and the conversations only lasted for about 2 minutes at a time.


oh, and today i set a personal record. i blushed THREE times and got all shaky for the first one. it surprised me considering i haven't blushed for well over 6 months, no exagerration. i imagine you guys'll be able to figure out what the causes were.

OMG.

lost. charlie. claire. ethan. too much to handle.


i already knew about what was going to happen to charlie and claire but, my god, it's really hard to swallow when it comes at you like that. the baby!


*cries*

//MOVIES//

1. Once Upon A Time In Mexico
2. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
3. Lord Of The Rings and the Two Towers
4. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
5. Rudy
6. The Crow
7. Sid And Nancy
8. Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory
9. Charlie's Angels 2 Full Throttle
10. Meet Joe Black

//MUSIC//

1. Lucy In The Sky With Diamonds by the Beatles
2. Underneath by Hanson
3. Love In An Elevator by Aerosmith
4. Even Flow by Pearl Jam
5. Another Brick In The Wall by Pink Floyd
6. She Hates Me by Puddle Of Mudd
7. Always by Saliva
8. Anarchy In The U.K. by the Sex Pistols
9. Slither by Velvet Revolver
10. Pennyroyal Tea by Nirvana


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today was horrible, actually. very boring. but i didn't go to school so i guess that made it alright.

oh, and i'm lookin forward to Lost tonight! charlieee!!

stolen from bella_rules and kellybrandybuck


Take your top 10 favorite movies and songs and pick your favorite quote/lyric from each one. Then have everyone on your friends list guess which movie/song it is in a comment!


//MOVIES//
[not all are necessarily my favorite movies]

1. "Are you a Mexi-CAN or a Mexi-CAN'T?"
2. "A cat? Is that what they told you? It looks more like a pig with hair if you ask me."
3. "Looks like meat's back on the menu, boys."
4. "Constantly talking isn't necessarily communicating."
5. "That semester at junior college sure didn't make you any smarter."
6. "Abashed the Devil stood and felt how awful goodness is."
7. "I'll never look like Barbie. Barbie doesn't have bruises."
8. "Everything inside is eatable, I mean edible, I mean you can eat everything."
9. "I'd recognize that arse anywhere, you piece of shit."
10. "Don't blow smoke up my ass, it will ruin my autopsy."

//MUSIC//
[same goes for this]

1. "Picture yourself in a boat on a river, with tangerine trees and marmalade skies"
2. "I know what to say but don't know where to begin, the fear of losing you beneath my skin"
3. "I'm bettin' on the dice I'm tossin', I'm gonna have a fantasy"
4. "Kneelin', looking through the paper though he doesn't know to read"
5. "We don't need no thought control, no dark sarcasm in the classroom "
6. "She was queen for about an hour, after that shit got sour"
7. "I love you , I hate you, I can't live around you, I breathe you, I taste you, I can't live without you"
8. "Don't know what I want, but I know how to get it"
9. "Yeah, here comes the water, it comes to wash away the sins of you and I"
10. "Give me a Leonard Cohen afterworld, so I can sigh eternally"

A: First, recommend to me...
1. a movie:
2. a book:
3. a musical artist, song, or album:
4. an artist (contemporary, manga, us comic, historical, whatever).

B: Ask me three questions, no more, no less. Ask me anything you want.

C: Go to your journal and c&p this, allowing your friends to ask you anything.

taken from sarah and kelly. i'm too lazy to try to link them at this hour...