it's now or never, it's do or die

It only took about five years, but I finally realized that my medicine supresses my appetite as a side effect. How that I know this, I should really rectify it. But I probably wont. I'm too poor and lazy, and eating isn't that enjoyable for me because I usually feel sick after.

I do not even know why I am posting this, but okay.

essentially i have been spending my time dicking around doing nothing, this is nothing new. drawing a few dogs and genderbends, you know, that typical stuff that really defines a fanartist, hahaha. i have been looking for a job and failing pretty awfully, which is, uh, awful. it would be nice to have some money, mostly so i can pay rent and maybe buy some tasty snacks; these are two of the only important things in life, after all.

lately a lot of my friends and family and acquaintances have been doing some pretty dumb stuff, and it would be nice if they stopped! being fucking stupid, i mean. mostly it is the latter two. ps. if you are reading this, i can guarantee that i am not talking about you, unless you are all snooping in here like my brother did once, that was pretty weird.

also! last night, our upstairs neighbours were having a fiesta. i say this because they were singing very loudly to spanish music. at 3am in the morning. and wouldn't open their door when i was pounding on it to tell them to shut up. it was quite the adventure, and if they had have kept playing grease, i probably wouldn't have minded all that much.

that is all, you may disperse.

>crying because i will never have the sort of relationships i see in my animus

brb being emotionally retarded.

So I've decided that my next costume is going to be Neferpitou.



I bought the eyelashes at Walmart today for a test run, to see if I could make my eyes suitably bit. I am pretty sure the answer is yes. I'm going to get circle lenses and lower eyelashes too, but I think this is a good start.

That said, what colour contacts should I go for? It is between gold, blue/grey and pink right now. No matter what I pick, it has to be bright and striking. (And if it helps, I'm doing blonde hair, because that one colour page where she has brown hair can suck it, you can't undo 5 years of fanon that easily.)

Blah blah other stuff. Talking about life brings me down.

So the last time I posted about my niece was when she was born. I am going to break that baby-silence now, but don't worry, this isn't going to become some sort of Kelly's Adventures Living Her Life Around A Toddler's Whims blog, though now that I write that out, that sounds a little bit amusing. Cynical, but amusing.

I will say, though, that my iPod has gone missing. Both me and my sister have come to the conclusion that Jada must have thrown it out after I let her play with it. It was only a first gen iPod shuffle, an ancient piece of machinery that I got for free anyhow, but I am now getting the sneaking suspicion that the same fate has befallen my flattening iron, and suddenly it's not quite as funny.

(These things are balanced out by the funny things she does, like coming up to me in my pyjama pants and commenting out of nowhere, "nice pants".)

Oh no this was a baby post after all.

But I guess it was that or depressing posts about wanting to choke on a pancake subconsciously. Maybe I could have made a Hunter x Hunter post? Does anyone here besides Kristie even like that series?

Because if you don't, we can no longer be friends.

I've been thinking about this for a long time. Putting it off, really. I don't know how many people are even still here, but I think I'm going to try to start using LJ again. My internet usage has become a sad pattern of checking webcomics and playing Neopets, and believe me, this is not nearly as glamorous as it sounds. I need to talk to people. If I'm not going to interact with people in real life, I need to make up for that on the internet.

But before I start again, I need to clear off my flist to make it less intimidating. I mean. It's been two years, who says the people I used to talk to will take me back? So,

FRIENDS CUT

Actually it is only sort of a friends cut. I just needed to get your attention. Basically, please comment here if you're still interested in being friends. I have been ignoring people pretty hardcore, so we might have to start over, but hey. I'll have anyone who will have me.

[EDIT:] Forgot to mention though I guess it's implied, in a day or so I'll be deleting the people who didn't respond here. If you find this post after I've already done that, it's fine! Comment whenever and I'll add you back.

I haven't been using this much. That is not anything new, but I think this time, I'm not going to have another activity spurt like I have in the past. I still read my flist, when I have nothing else to do, but I really haven't been paying attention the way I should.

At this point, I'm only ever really using this journal to post angsty messages that are so vague that I can barely figure out what they were about a week later. So hey, here is a free invitation to defriend me. No hard feelings, etc. There just isn't much for me to do here anymore. I might set all my old entries to private and 'leave', we'll see.

BLAH BLAH BLAH BORING POST IS BORING

Today I found somebody's lunch on the bus. I took it to work and ate it. It was delicious.


I almost wish I was kidding.