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Returning From the Netherworld [29 Jun 2025|06:14pm]
I’ve lived many lifetimes during the past 14 years. I truly never believed I would find my way back here, let alone start writing again. But, it is time. I’ve laid dormant for too long. Wearing masks. Holding my tongue. Living my life for others. I miss who I was. Who I was becoming. Who I was meant to be. Who I AM meant to be. I was diverted, but I have found my way back to the life path I’ve always been destined for. My truest, happiest self.

❤️
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Change of Status [26 May 2011|04:00pm]
Just thought I'd mention that I am now single as of today.

I am ok.

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Just to keep active... [31 Jan 2010|05:22pm]
[ mood | cold ]

</form>
What American accent do you have?
Created by Xavier on Memegen.net

Western. Like Midland, Western is another accent that people consider neutral. So, you might not actually be from the Western half of the country, but you definitely sound like it.

And if you're not from the West, you are probably one of the following:
(a) A Pittsburgher - the quiz can't tell the difference;
(b) Someone from Canada (probably southern Ontario) who doesn't have a Canadian accent;
(c) Someone from northern New England who doesn't have a New England accent; or
(d) Someone from Texas or the Heartland who was born after 1980.
You are definitely not from New York, New Jersey, Chicago, Detroit, the Deep South, etc.</font>

Take this quiz now - it's easy!
We're going to start with "cot" and "caught." When you say those words do they sound the same or different?





*sighs*

Been so much going on lately.

Still no job, or license or money coming in.

But no longer moving to Sweden, found it to be far more difficult than we first thought. So now Simon is getting a year long visa to Canada, where he'll work, and be closer to me, so he can save money up. I will be here, trying to work and save up money, so that I can move out, and prove I can be independant, and support myself, and also Simon when he comes over. So hopefully after a year and a half we will be ready to file the forms, and get married.

Simon will be here on March 6th, and stay for two months, leaving on May 2nd. We'll get a belated Valentine's Day together, as well as, both our birthdays, Ostara, Easter, and Beltane. Then he'll be here for all my play days, because I'm in the third installment of the Futrelle plays, Southern Hospitality. We'll also being getting to go to Scarborough Ren Fest, hopefully, because doing rennie stuff is so huge for me, and because he loves that kind of stuff too, and has never been to one.

In other news, still getting over Swine Flu. My GODS, that was fucking horrible, the worst sore throat/double ear infection I have *ever* had. I'm still trying to get over it, with constant junked up coughing everday, and this is after a month of it...I started feeling it, on Christmas night...what fun.

And then, on Friday, my cat Monster, aka Minster, died. He had been having bowel problems, and had gotten quite skinny, even though we had been feeding him special things to try and help. About a week before he died, we broke down and got him a steroid shot to help it, and it seemed to be doing it, but he was changing in another way, he was getting frail, and weak, and his meow was whiny. But he was always hungry and eating and drinking. Then on Thursday, I noticed he seemed to have trouble peeing, and my mom thought he might have a minor infection. That night I put him to bed, and he was running around the house wanting to explore. The next morning my mom woke me up asking if I had him, because she couldn't find him. Well I instantly knew what that meant. So I hurried down, and found him on the floor under a chair, he had, had a stroke, and at first I thought he was dead, but then I went to pick him up and he started meowing and bent his neck backwards, rigidly. So I took him upstairs, and my mom said to just hold him until he went. So for the next couple of hours, I held him, while I cried on the phone with Simon, who stayed on the line until he was gone. He would have minor fits now and then, or just when I'd think he was gone, he'd take a gasping breath. I said my goodbyes and told him that it was ok to go, and then finally he had one last fit, where he just made a low growl, because he couldn't move, and I held him until it was over, and then he was gone. After I wrapped him up and put him outside because it was cold. Then yesterday, I took a footprint, and cut some fur that I glued to a card, so that I could make up a memorial frame for him later. Then I took him down to the old house, and buried him under my oak tree, where I always bury the creatures that die. So it's been a tough few days, sometimes I'll be ok, and then others I'll think of him, and realize that he really is gone, and just lose it again. He's the closest I've come to feeling about a cat, that was like Mamerine. He was my favorite, the one that was 'my' cat, and I never thought I'd lose him this young, like I did Mamerine. I love all my cats, but I just find it so unfair, that I lost Mamerine, when we had cats much older than him...and it is the same with Minster, we have cats that are much older than him now. But my mom says that we are just spoiled with having animals that have lived to the ages of 19-23 years, and that, that isn't the norm. What I suspect happened was that while the steroids were helping his bowel, that they sent him into kidney failure, and that was why he was having trouble peeing. So there was really nothing we could do, because he couldn't live the way he was, and this only sped things up. My mom also thinks he may have had cancer because of an unexplained absess on his foot, that I have been taking care of.

Pics of MinsterCollapse )

Don't really know of anything else to report as of yet. I really need to get in here and post some pics from when I went to England, and then when Simon came over and proposed.

I love you guys
Sarah


ETA: Added more pics of Minster
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I need the moneyz *sigh* [09 Dec 2009|01:02pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

Ok, so the Artfire account has done nothing so far. I don't know if maybe just not enough people know about it yet, or what, but seriously I hardly even get people looking at my stuff, let alone buying it.

Sooo, I thought I would come here and see if any of you guys are interested in stuff, because after all, I would actually prefer that friends bought my things, than strangers. Now, why and I trying to sell things like bracelets and dreamcatchers? Well because living in a small town, without a car of your own, doesn't yield much in the way of jobs. I am on here everyday though looking through all the ads, and I swear unless you are in the medical profession, or can expertly sell cars...there is nothing. I'm hoping that something will come along after the holidays, but for now, things are dried up and dead.

I'm really starting to worry, and freak out a little bit because Simon and I, are still planning to move to Sweden next spring/summer, and so far I have *nothing* saved up...not that I haven't been trying of course, but really, I'm getting scared. *sighs*

So that you guys can just skip on by, if you want...I know that everyone is having money troubles right now, I'll put everything under the cut, with pictures and prices and such. :)

CraftationsCollapse )

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*comes crawling back* [03 Nov 2009|12:31pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

Hey guys, I am officially back to posting. I've been lurking around for months now, reading and periodically commenting in your journals.

I have MONTHS worth of updating to do, and a shit load of pics too...but I have no idea when I'll get to those. But I need to make an effort, I used to write novels practically, but now I seem to lose motivation when I have *so* much to talk about.

England was great...except for the part where I was detained in the security office for being a possible risk...because my return ticket just wasn't enough to prove I was going to go back home. *is permenantly traumatized* *will post more later*

Simon along with his family and mine, surprized me, by coming in a week early, so he could propose!

We are moving to Sweden next spring/early summer, because of immigration issues...so we can live together and save up money for the move back to the US and finally getting married.

I've started selling my arts and crafts, to try and make some money, while I continue to search for a job. Countless hours have been spent, searching and filling out applications, only to never hear anything back....well except for when I heard that I wasn't qualified to work at fucking Wendy's...*sighs*.

I've set up an Artfire account :Craftations . There isn't much for now, I'm still working on stuff, and I will have all kinds of things, not just the bracelets.

I've also created another journal, for posting my art in, some will be stuff I've made before in the past years, and that have been gifts, and then others will be stuff for sale. I'll start out posting the things here as well, until it's been long enough that I'll only post the art at craftations . So friend it if you like. :)

I'm really sorry I've been such a horrible poster. I miss all of you, and I hope you still want to hang around my boring old journal.

I love you guys

Sarah

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A SPECIAL DAY!! [18 Mar 2009|10:56am]
[ mood | happy ]

Hello everyone,

I'm here to announce that today is....

SIMON'S BIRTHDAY!!

So, everyone head over to his journal and send him some birthday wishes! song_bird1983

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABYDOLL!!

*SHNOG*

XOXOXO

I love you so so so so sooooooooo much
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IT'S HAPPENING!!! [04 Mar 2009|04:41pm]
[ mood | OMFG ]

I'M GOING TO ENGLAND!!

MAY 8TH-JUNE 8TH!


Simon and I, had given up hope that it was going to happen with the way money is and such, but then my ticket...that he and I both check everyday, went from $807 to $583 in like a day, and I'm sure it is only a deal for today or something. So I mentioned it to my dad, not thinking anything would come of it....BUT I'M GOING! It's official! *squeals*

Omg when I surprised Simon with it, he was completely sweet and adorable. We were on skype with the cam, and I told him I heard back from my dad, and it was SO hard to try and keep a mopey face, and act like I was upset, and I said I was going to forward the email to him, and I had actually made a fake FW: RE: email with my flight details and confirmation. And when he opened it, we were both so happy, and shaking, and I was crying, and he still can't believe it, and then he ran to go tell his parents, who are excited as well.

So now I have to get my passport taken care of.

And yes, I should have been back here ages ago, to post about my FAILED drivers test like what?....a month ago?....and then Valentine's Day...and post pics and such. So I'll try and get that post done soon.

I love everything right now!

Sarah

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I still need two... [09 Feb 2009|01:00pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

I posted this Jan. 23rd, and I only have 3 people to make things for. I want the full five, so I am posting it again, incase any of you missed it before.


The first five people to respond to this post will get something made by me! My choice. For you.

This offer does have some restrictions and limitations:

- What I create will be just for you.
- I make no guarantees that you will like what I make!
- You will receive your item before the end of the year (or sooner).
- You will have no clue what the item is going to be. It could be a story or poetry. It could be a piece of handmade jewelry or an art doll*. I may draw, paint, collage or knit something. I might bake you something and mail it to you. Who knows? Not you, that's for sure!
- I reserve the right to do something extremely strange.

The catch? Oh, the catch is that you have to repost this meme and make and send out five surprises of your own.

Ready, set, make! :)



The three that are already getting something are...

song_bird1983
new_evolution
jekylls_bast

Now come on, you know you want to. :D
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Imbolc and stuffs... [07 Feb 2009|05:14pm]
[ mood | horny ]

Hello everyone, I'm back with pictures of my Imbolc altar. I was quite crafty this Sabbat, so I had some nice things to set on it, all of them in the miniture form, because my space is so limited. Though I did switch out my other altar space for a larger one this time, so it wasn't so cramped. I went with the white theme, with a bit of green and yellow. I made a dolly, from raffia, a priapic wand from a oak twig and acorn, a Brigid's Cross from raffia, a Brigid's Crown from a mini grapevine wreath, fake flowers and evergreen, and ribbon, with white birthday candles, and then a Brigid's Bed, from a small basket, ribbons, more flowers, and a piece of checkered cloth.

Milk and Cookies...Collapse )

Sorry I haven't been around much, things have been busy, and crazy, and just...blargh. I had a nasty ass cold for well over a week, the icky head/synus/chest kind, with all kinds of snot and coughing and sneezing, and general very unpleasantness.

Then I've started up rehearsals for another play, it's the first in the series of three about the Futrelle family. We did "Christmas Belles" out of order in December, and now we are going back and doing, "Dearly Beloved" I get to play the same character as before, G.J Dubberly, but then I have a twin sister, T.J, who is very different, and getting married, and while G.J..is a major tool..or at least I think she is, T.J gets to be goth, and a bit 'trashy'. So that should be fun. Though I am so exhausted with being sick, and just finishing the last play and doing stuff to get the new house done, that it is hard for me to be excited about it. Especially when Simon won't get to be here for it in April. We are both utterly crushed about it, but I felt that I needed to do it.

Simon and I are still doing wonderfully...except for the part where he still isn't fucking over here yet. *sighs* We just can't hardly stand it. We're both checking flights everyday, I'm hoping to go over in May and June for a month, and then he wants to come here another so we can have a summer together, in probably the end of June through July. Still not really any progress on the immigration, it is mostly due to needing the money for the first form, which is just fucking outrageous...in 2005 the filing fee was $95...now it is $445....*shakes head in disbelief*

I've been working on getting my license, we got behind before when he came over, but now I NEED IT..FUCKING NEEEEED IT!! I can't stand it anymore, I've had major meltdowns recently about it, so my parents are having me drive around all this week, and then taking me on Wednesday for the test. Then that would allow me to drive to and from rehearsal that night, instead of driving there with my mom, and then getting another ride home....I'm sick of feeling like a ride moocher...Ron (director and friend) says that he doesn't mind, and he is the one that offers them, but still.

I think that is all for now...I'll try to make it in here more than I have. I'm really making an effort to not become distracted from LJ anymore. :)

Love you guys,

Sarah

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Simon Says Watch This Video.....*giggles* He really says Hi. [23 Jan 2009|04:30pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

I asked him to make a video saying hello to you guys and talking a little bit about himself, and you get to hear him play something overly British. I hope you guys have fun watching this.



To see some of his normal videos, and songs you can go to his youtube account. Silverliner1983

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Taken from new_evolution [23 Jan 2009|11:53am]
[ mood | determined ]

The first five people to respond to this post will get something made by me! My choice. For you.

This offer does have some restrictions and limitations:

- What I create will be just for you.
- I make no guarantees that you will like what I make!
- You will receive your item before the end of the year (or sooner).
- You will have no clue what the item is going to be. It could be a story or poetry. It could be a piece of handmade jewelry or an art doll*. I may draw, paint, collage or knit something. I might bake you something and mail it to you. Who knows? Not you, that's for sure!
- I reserve the right to do something extremely strange.

The catch? Oh, the catch is that you have to repost this meme and make and send out five surprises of your own.

Ready, set, make! :)

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Sarah/Simon Picspam 6 [22 Jan 2009|10:07pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Wow...there really were more pictures than I thought.

So here's some more.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v391/SarahDocBrandyBaer/Sarah%20and%20Simon/Simonspics1008.jpg
Much random sillyness...Collapse )

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Sarah/Simon Picspam 5 [22 Jan 2009|09:01pm]
[ mood | naughty ]

Just to make up for all the pic posts, this next one is full of 'almost' naked pictures! *giggles* You can't really see anything, but bare shoulders and chests....but still, enjoy. :P

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v391/SarahDocBrandyBaer/Sarah%20and%20Simon/Simonsbatch1a064.jpg
Sorry...no boobs.Collapse )

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Sarah/Simon Picspam 4 [22 Jan 2009|08:41pm]
[ mood | giggly ]

Seriously...I'm still here bothering you?

Yes.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v391/SarahDocBrandyBaer/Sarah%20and%20Simon/sarahandsimonbatch1048.jpg
Lots of jetlag..awww.Collapse )

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Sarah/Simon Picspam 3 [22 Jan 2009|07:52pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

Yes, I'm here again....aren't you glad?

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v391/SarahDocBrandyBaer/Sarah%20and%20Simon/Simonsbatch1a021.jpg
We know you want us...Collapse )

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Sarah/Simon Picspam 2 [22 Jan 2009|07:17pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Here is the next part. :)

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v391/SarahDocBrandyBaer/Sarah%20and%20Simon/sarahandsimonbatch1009.jpg
He just hates loves this picture of himself so it gets to be first...:P *giggles*
Just spazes in the woodsCollapse )

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Sarah/Simon Picspam 1 [22 Jan 2009|06:56pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

I've finally gotten around to uploading some pics of me and Simon from when he was here, and since there are quite a few of them, I'm going to break them up into a few posts, for those with dial-up and such. :)

I don't have the very first pictures of us together on my computer, along with some others, because they are on my mom's camera chip, and there are over 800 fucking pictures on it, and no way that I can just pick and choose which ones I want, so I need to upload them to the computer when I have over an hour to do so. So those will be in a later post, and none of these are really going to be in order of when we took them, because mostly I can't remember which ones were taken at what time, with some exceptions.

Anyways, I hope you enjoy having a look at us, and the antics we got up to.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v391/SarahDocBrandyBaer/Sarah%20and%20Simon/sarahandsimonbatch1037.jpg
Have a better look at us sexy bitches!Collapse )

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A Year? [22 Jan 2009|10:46am]
[ mood | sympathetic ]

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v391/SarahDocBrandyBaer/heath_ledger_01.jpg

I'm really not sure how it could be a year. In some ways it seems like he's been gone forever, and in others, it just happened...I could be sitting here in my livingroom watching the news saying he had been found...sobbing.
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The Significant Other Meme, taken from superfluous_emi [19 Jan 2009|11:36am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

*is so excited she can actually do a meme like this now* :PCollapse )

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Snagged from sailorhathor [17 Jan 2009|11:24am]
[ mood | groggy ]

I could survive for 47 seconds chained to a bunk bed with a velociraptor

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