The Francophile is Going to France

The French flag is for me today
A lighthouse of hope,
A monster made of my anxieties,
A treasure map of adventure.

Maybe a miracle will occur.
Maybe my plane will go down
In a fiery crash –
Maybe I’ll even fall in love
(Oh la la, mon amour!)

Francophile: noun, a person
Who has a strong admiration,
Fondness, or appreciation
For France, its people, culture,
Language or history. Think
Of all the stories of saints
I’ll be stepping into as I
Walk (or ride the bus) on this pilgrimage!

Think of all the roses!
Think of all the pastries!
Think of the beautiful skies
Under which the French flag flies.
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Future!!

Off-prompt for day 25. It’s a very specific prompt which probably calls for a long poem, which is not my forte. Perhaps I will try later, but for now, a poem about how I am feeling. I am going to France in 2 days and feeling anxious (shocker).

Future-tripping:
Anxiety makes me worry
Future-tripping
I'm flirting with insanity,
Even when I'm feeling happy
It's difficult to present be,
Future-tripping

Dying / Light

I wrote this villanelle already this morning because I am going on a day trip today. Off-prompt for NaPoWriMo today, but a response to previous prompts: it is a villanelle, in response to another poem, in this case Dylan Thomas’s “Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night.”

In death there is no dying of the light,
It only goes off to another place,
It leaves the rest of us to stay and fight.

Though we think light is dead when out of sight,
It leaves this Earth to go and see God's face,
In death there is no dying of the light.

It rises from a soul that's blessed, contrite:
The light returns to God's loving embrace;
It leaves the rest of us to stay and fight.

The light within oneself retains its might,
Although it goes on at a different pace,
In death there is no dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,*
When death comes it can sometimes hope efface:
It leaves the rest of us to stay and fight.

After the dying does receive last rites,
With other loved ones, fingers interlace --
Behooves the rest of us to stay and fight:
In death there is no dying of the light.

*I stole this line from Dylan Thomas’s poem.

Sleeping Kitty

Another villanelle, this one finished just now and linked to the NaPoWriMo page. This gets a little ridiculous, and I took poetic liberties with some facts.

The sleeping kitty dreams of killing birds,
A nice respite – he is an indoor cat –
I wish that he could put his dreams in words.

The birds’ sweet chirps are every morning heard,
The kitty sees them feathery and fat,
The sleeping kitty dreams of killing birds.

Yet only Fancy Feast is to him offered,
He cannot go outside, no matter what --
I wish that he could put his dreams in words.

How sweetly lies my cat with brown-white fur!
He would look even sweeter with a hat.
The sleeping kitty dreams of killing birds.

He makes a sound – a meow has occurred!
I wonder what is the meaning of that.
I wish that he could put his dreams in words.

Now in his sleep the little kitty’s stirred –
He looks adorable on his blue mat.
I wish that he could put his dreams in words:
Does this cute kitty dream of killing birds?

Justice and Mercy

Today’s prompt for NaPoWriMo is to write a villanelle. This is one that I wrote way back at the end of February to mid-March, so I can’t link it up, but I figured I might as well share it here. Inspired by a line in my prayer book.

The Lord is just; He will defend the poor
And helpless when they humbly to Him cry:
Let us as well His mercy now implore.

Without You I am naught, just dust at core,
And only You my thirst can satisfy,
The Lord is just; He will defend the poor.

Without You there’s no peace, but only war,
Do not let innocent men for this die;
Let us as well His mercy now implore.

When I’m afraid, my heart to You does soar,
Your answ’ring peace does quell my questions why –
The Lord is just; He will defend the poor.

You fill my soul, I love You more and more,
I love You even when life makes me sigh,
Let us as well His mercy now implore.

Let Judah’s lion with divine strength roar,
May this theophany not pass me by!
The Lord is just; He will defend the poor,
Let us as well His mercy now implore.

Shut Up

The prompt: “Write your own poem in which the speaker is in dialogue with him or herself.” My thoughts immediately went to the eating disorder voice.

It’s quiet now, but it used to be loud:

That voice inside that says, “This has
Too many calories, too many fat grams.”

It doesn’t matter what “this” is,
Nothing is ever good enough, so I stuff
A cookie in my mouth and tell it to shut up.

The only exception to this is fettuccine alfredo. I’m still a little afraid of fettuccine alfredo. And why do restaurants have to put the calorie counts on their food?? It makes eating disorder recovery harder.

Mustache

A silly little senryu as a second offering for the prompt on nicknames.

Oscar's nickname is 
Happy Little Mustache Man --
It is on crooked
In this picture you can see Oscar’s crooked mustache well.

Nicknames

On-prompt for NaPoWriMo day 21. By the way, we also talked in women’s group this morning about names that God has given us.

Jenna, Jello, Jen-Jen, Jenna-Jenna, Jennifer –

A litany of names which refer to me,
Each one comes with a special memory.

It seems I am the type of person
Others find infinitely nickname-able,
Each name a friend in the making.

Learning to Drive

Today is the last day to respond to last week’s Writer’s Workshop, so I am writing about when I learned to drive and using the word “expire” while I’m at it.

To make a long story short, I’m still learning to drive. I took driver’s ed at the normal age, but getting my license was not a priority. I got my permit for the first time at probably 19, but I let it expire. And I got it again and let it expire. Repeat like 10 times.

Part of my problem is that I have cerebral palsy, but my friend also has mild cerebral palsy, and she can drive. No doctor has told me that I cannot drive. However, I am having sooo much trouble! Last time I tried to drive, I hit a fire hydrant and nearly totalled my mom’s car!

Since then, my parents have said that I need to pay for my own car insurance, but I have no money because I have no job, so driving is on the back burner once again. Next goal is to get and keep a full-time job.

I’m limited in the jobs I can get, though, since I can’t drive. It’s a big problem I’ve been stuck in for a while.

Oscar

Off-prompt for day 20 of NaPoWriMo, but at least this has an animal in it, and it is one sentence.

Quietly,
My cat comes to me,
Seeking attention – one, two,
Three, four pats from me, then he promptly
Walks away
This is Oscar, king of my room